How could I have let this happen? Iām sitting here 2 and half hours before my shift starts. No place to go. My car is not working anymore.
I put myself here. I had no choice though, Iām always forced between a rock and a hard place. Then I have to fend myself to figure it out. I canāt take it. I havenāt gotten proper sleep in god knows how long. I am so exhausted.
Now Iām sitting in my broken down car, no AC, none of my friends answering, my mom lives half an hour away and thereās noooo way I can drive this car up there.
I have an apartment but nooo move in date because the landlord is having issues with a tenant.
I mean I canāt even believe this but the crazy part is I knew it was all a large possibility based off astrology, I still went for it. Why? Because I donāt fucking know. I really donāt.
I canāt even begin to explain how lost I feel. Iām beginning to withdraw, I told my boyfriend he wonāt be hearing from me anymore. Heās helpful⦠but my life is in shambles and I need an actual person in my life. Not a long distance fling where we just travel and have fun when we get together. I am actively suffering. What do I look like traveling and having fun when I donāt have a lot to piss in?
SPEAKING OF WHICH, I peed in a cup today, and trying to do it discretely in my car so nobody can see, and it spilled on me and my seat. š this is miserable. Okay?
Absolutely, with out a doubt, miserable.










