16/10/25
Itās 10:30 pm, Iām listening to Euclid by Sleep Token, and Iām laying I grannyās bed.
So, granny is in hospital. She has fluid building up in her lungs which is making it hard to breath, also she has Covid⦠she got it from the hospital⦠lol. I feel for her man, she went in last Thursday and was kept there all weekend without a doctor even seeing her. She had no idea what the plan was or what the actin plan was or anything. Oh and they didnāt have any proper space for her so she was put in a makeshift spot in the frailty ward. It was kinda heartbreaking going to see her because basically all the patients around her were elderly people with severe dementia. Hearing them call out for people who werenāt coming, and constantly asking for help only to not know or realise what they needed help for once it arrived was devastating. I think about those people and I hope they find peace soon. Granny is in her own room at the hospital now thankfully so she will at least be more relaxed.
The reason Iām in grannyās bed at her home is because someone needs to be here for jazzy, the cat. I stayed last night too, she woke me up 20 mins after I fell asleep cause she was puking, then an hour later she woke me up climbing on my head, then a few hours later she woke me up purring by my head, then an hour before I was due up for work she woke me up being sick again. Was wonderful. Tonight there seems to be no sign of puke but Iām keeping my fingers crossed.
Ameliaās granny is also in the hospital. I donāt know what for yet but she was in recently for a minor heart attack so Iām PRAYING itās not that again. Sheās an amazing woman, I really need to learn Norwegian so I can talk to her man. I really enjoy her company even with the language barrier though, sheās so cheery and cute. She genuinely lights up the room!
Amelia said sheās struggling a lot today. Itās that time of year where it starts to come back, the seasonal depression. Everyone gets a bit down in the winter, sure, but try living with actual depression whilst living in a place where the sun disappears for months at a time, itās not so good. Itās so difficult trying to be there for someone when all you can do is text, or snap, or call. I canāt do any of the meaningful things Iād love to do. All I want to do is drive round after work and surprise her, but I canāt. Sheās strong though, sheās made it through before and sheāll keep making it through. I believe in her and Iām proud of her :) also, sheās coming to the uk in 11 days, I can not fuckin WAIT. Iāve picked up loads of overtime but keeping them as banked days rather than being paid for them so I can have a makeshift holiday week and go back to Norway with her! BUZZING













