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[mynsllife]

Only one word....it's eye watering...if that's even a word. I am a foodie who is not capable of eating large quantity of food. But when I eat I sort of explore in my taste. I will always be grateful for all the food i had the opportunity to taste. But being independent gave it's own perks . Yes I am boon to have a mother who buys anything I want. But it remained only in hometown and there not many options. Then I can to bnglr. I had this vision board and Pinterest boards for food. I got the opportunity to try as much different tastes i can that I wanted to try. It was great in bnglr. Then I can to hyd. Didn't had the opportunity to explore much but still I had two favourites. Tacos from California burritos and cheesecake from bakingo. Yesterday I had them and it was perfect. They became my comfort food here in Hyderabad. Best cheesecake I have ever tried.

[mynsllife]

It's 1.30 past midnight.....I completed the book....n i should say .....wowww....I thought the subtle art of not giving a fuck....nope....almost 350 pages....finished done n done......the twists .....I couldn't have guessed it if not the spoilers....it made me wonder if that's a good thing cuz it sort of changed my pov completely.... knowing what might happen felt off for the first time....I guess I will be joining those who say no spoilers i guess.....but beleive me when I say the silent patient will always be one of my reads.....it started amazing ...n ended amazing toooo.....but I would love to know what has gotten kathy n gabriel to cheat on the first place....gabrield seemed as an idol from Alicia pov...I thought it was due to her psychotic episodes of seeing someone but the thing is he cheated long before that.....I guess never judge a book by it's cover.....well kathy seems off from the beginning...I never liked her character....I thought she would cheat eventually....no wonder....

Coming to the main ones....I really feel sry for Alicia....it's not her fault her mom died....her mom sort of killed her physically n her father sort of killed her mentally.... can't imagine how her childhood have went...n in the midst of all of this she trusted n loved gabriel....but he betrayed her....I would love to know y Alicia was so affected of her father's death in detail maybe....it's little off....n theo...godddd this man had me....never expected this level of insanity from him.....I am not sure if I feel sry or pitty.....I know he didn't killed him...n he came to help her ...but he overdosed her n that made me feel bad about him....n the fuxking thing I hated in this whole damn book is that how he couldn't deal with his shit n chose to continue with kathy for whatever fucked up reasons....I wish he could love himself a little more....that's when I loved Alicia shooting her husband though it's not very great choice.... I wish she would rather choose herself tooo....

Well more to right but I am too sleepy....n this book deserves my thoughts before they fade so I just thought them to write down....

[mynsllife]

If only I could describe this in words. My forever favourite.

[mynsllife]

This was subtle as fuck. I completed it so fastly. I was at a very low face and this one was good as fuck. Good one for knowing when and what to give a fuck about. It reminded me not everything is deserving of your mental piece.

[mynsllife]

Ummm....I did it .. completed the book. New update i became a book girlie. I completed this book finally. It was good overall . 8/10 tops. I am not so info royal genre. But this one was good tho. Good story line and all. One time read. Well I ordered some more books so 🤭🤭🤭🤭

[mynsllife]

I officially am a corporate girlie now....I can't believe I made it. The dream of being independent, earning money, helping family, buying things I want, living a life full of freedom. And guess what I am living my dream.

Exactly a year back, today I found out I got selected for internship at Honeywell. At that time I thought it was a full time. Well a girl can dream. I was so happy my hard work paid off. Cut back 3 months after I joined the company. For whatever it's worth, I had the best time of my life in that 6 months. College to corporate was not easy, but it went better because of my harshi , for whom I will be always grateful for. Learnt a lot from the life there. Bnglr showed me a new life that I could never imagine. I will forever be grateful for that experience. I had the best and worst moments too. But these will be some of the main lessons I learnt there..

*stop Waiting for others ..do it...do it now...do it alone ...do it happy

* u disrespect ur body a lot... stop it...or it will be ur body's turn

*ur talks doesn't end well....everytime ...so try to speak less...n think more

*not everyone is ur frnd...not everyone is ur well-wishers....not everyone is kind

*check the food ...ur body will automatically heal

*People change...people come..people go...just learn the lesson they tell and move on

These will be some not all.

But then something most unexpected happened. I didn't got converted. I shattered. I cried. I broke. I came out of the city. A month went by will all the soreness. But one thing I got reminded then was family is the only constant. I will forever be grateful for them n the life they provided me. I came out the shit hole and did something unexpected. I went on a trip. I will forever be grateful that I choose to go to that trip than be sulking on the bed. I did the interview there and a lot happened which will be in my mind forever. But still thankful.

Then exactly next day to Vinayaka chavithi I got the confirmation that I got the job. A lot went by and I know I deserve everything. Happiness in everyway possible. Then another miracle ...it's hyd. I manifested the shit out to get the job in hyd or pune. Well destiny planned hyd.

Here I am done with the first week of job. A lot more to go. But I know how much I lost to get here. So I will make sure it's worth it. Forever grateful 🙏

[mynsllife]

One moment changed my life a lot. Let's be blunt n open. I am not gettinng converted. Like in gang of 75 ...I was one of the 5 who didn't get in. But let's not discuss that shit..I still have hope .. atleast that's what I believe

I am so done with this crying era. But as a reminder I had grown a lot. Like the past 6 months were the best. I entered n enjoyed my beginning of adultiing. It was breathtaking and I would like to continue that. Did things that my nerdy side would have never expected and I don't regret anything. The good n bad. And then life happened. God thought of letting me into chaos of crumbles...cries n sorrows. I guess he was pretty pissed. One thing I really regret is trusting him too much more than I ever should. I was not an atheist but I limited my prayers beliefs everything. But due to certain friendships I got into this too deep. I shouldn't have. Now I blame everything on him n I just lost belief. I still trust him somewhere. Cuz that little girl in me did a lot of prayers to live the life she want n she believes he won't disappoint.

But then again life goes on. I sort of hate my office frnds. But slowly realized they were never meant to last. Cut off people I don't care about. Want to start new. Once I get the confirmation there's gonna be a whole reset. The best thing about life is we can reset whenever n however we choose. I love that I am pretty strong capable n not giving up. So here I am giving life another chance. Social media is really big part of my life n I wanna use it for good. Did some changes to all my accounts..still doing. Want to change some lifestyle too. Thought of waiting but just doing soft launch of good habits to my life. Ordered few books..still few things in my list. But one thing I learnt from past few days is

Life happens

Shitt happens

Everything n everyone is temporary

U r permanent..ur mindset is permanent

Love the peace...love the chaos

Being alone.. being mysterious is good

Not everyone should know everything

Be as mysterious as possible

Not all are ur friends

Be careful...be prepared..be happy...be proud..be good to urself

Best parents in the whole world

Still so many...but let's just stop here for now....everyday is new...n World doesn't give a fuck... people doesn't care...so take it slow...be as selfish as possible...that's how we can survive...I am gonna be getting out soon from this dump of failure...just let me get the confirmation...n everything will come to it's place...I got whole new perspectives and can't wait to live it..hope god stops now atleast...

[mynsllife]

I have been working in honeywell as an intern from past 5 months. Finally the time came where I will get to know if i will get fte or not. I was staying positive as long as I could. I musteres all the confidence and courage left in me. But I don't think anythign is left in me anymore. The biggeste mistake i did was talking to my co interns and listening to all the negatives. It completely ruined my confidence and trust. I slowly started loosing peace but still was trying my best to move forward. But we all get to a point after using all the power in us. I am tired. The confusion of getting converted or not hits really hard and it's too overwhelming. I tried my best and I have people around that motivates and boost my confidence, but still there are still people who give us reality check. I am trying not to overthink and let whateve happen. But it's all hitting me. Coming to office early, Going out of my comfort zone and connecting with people, Working on tasks which are not even in my zone, Getting introduced to new technologies and tools, Stressing over all the silly work things ect. There are positives too. Meeting new frnds, ne connections, rekindling old friendships, hangouts, shoppings, foods, outings, fightings, and infinite amount of love for each other. I really need this job. Th joining bonus will be helped for my grandpa's operation. The salary will be helpful for my student load, my father's loan, my brothers fee, and many more. We as a family are facing the worst at the moment and this new job opppurtunity can really help us to see light. The best part is my parents suport me no matter what. But this independent life which I worked so hard from baby to teen can't go in vain. I know there are other oppurtunitied outside, but I also know the reality. I really pray god I get this FTE. I will clear all my mokkus. I already did few though. Hope god choose this as my destiny.

[mynsllife]

i am using digital wellbeing for screen time. Finch for my well being. Started learning german again with duo. Trying to eat healthy and have protion control. Trying to avoid junk. Getting 7 to 8 hrs sleep. Trying to walk as much i can. hrdrating with lots of water. Trying to save and invest for future. Re-exploring all my hobbies like art, reading, learning a language , talk and socialize. trying my level best to start fresh. even if i fail a day, it will all new for the next day. give me any more suggestion i need

[mynsllife]

Goodbye 2024

I am better than what I am last year with lots of stuff which I learnt through happiness and hardships...it was an incredible year...I got a lot ...I lost some too...but it was amazing overall... there's a lot more I need to learn ... and I am glad I learnt few this year...it was filled with memories for a lifetime...

Planning this 2025 to be amazing and well spent...I will be 21 ..I will be independent...I will be a lot mature ( I guess ) ...and a lot to happen...I am excited but also scared...but I trust myself..and I trust the og a lot more ...so

Thank you 2024 for everything... 🎀

[mynsllife]

Exactly a year ago ..I prayed on Christmas that I hope to get a job by 2024 christmas...and here I am filled with gratitude and happiness with an opportunity of internship and hopefully a full time offer ...I also got in good company...I am getting satisfied with the package... Everything worked out... mostly the way I wanted ...

I am not sure whom to talk...I believe this is destiny..but I need to thank for this destiny...Thanks to everyone who helped me through this...hope to be much happier for the next christmas...until then merry christmas 🎄🎁..

This is the vibe I am for the whole December...🎀

[mynsllife]

Done with this twisted love...my next favourite couple 😉...I loved it ...I am a good book reader..but not as much as I thought I was...it took me nearly 1 and 1/2 years to complete two books...well I am glad I am atleast completing..but it was not consistent....Ava and Alex are hell bent one of the best book couple...I would recommend this and I would rate it 8/10...Goodbye twisted love...I will come back if I mishu 🎀

[mynsllife]

I want to remember this day... December 1 2024

I started exercising from 2 days. It's not heavy but I want to start somewhere...I will slowly try to increase exercise and reduce junk...I am overweight..I can feel it...I didn't even realised but I am increasing weight...I would like to try my level best and try to balance my weight...

I also would like to do self care...I don't want to just reduce weight I want take care of my skin too...I want to heal all

I need to feel confident...that's my main focus... I need to feel fit and healthy...I want to dress up with whatever dress I like without feeling insecure...I will try my level best...hope I achieve atleast this time🎀

[mynsllife]

Some of the bravest girls I have ever seen.... proud to be a bunny.....will always stan you girls no matter the name is...it's you who I love not the name...go show the world how it's done...NEWJEANS NEVER DIE🎀🦋🐇🐰

[mynsllife]

Once there lived few legends...

I would give you infinite reasons why modern family is my favourite sitcom ....it has everything I need...till end....I started it on June 2024....now it's November 24...what a journey it was with these series...it helped me through my placement season...it helped me with my hellishly lazy and boring life....it helped me with my inner child...I am really sad it ended....but I am grateful that it ever existed....each character have their own pro's and cons....But Iy would like to talk about my three...it was tough but I finalized these cause somewhere I know it's me ...

Thanks Alex dunphy...I know you struggles...I know how it's to be that kid...but you survived to this beautiful young women...and I will always look up to it..

Thanks phil dunphy....you were one of the greatest dad's I have ever witnessed...all sense from you is innocence...you will always be favourite character....

Thanks Cameron tucker....oh come on I wrote this dramatic of a note and you thought I wouldn't mention my dear cam....yup I know cams a lot... but he is one of the greatest care taker and loveable being I have ever seen... you will be remembered as the icon...

Finally thanks to everyone who played their characters and helped me to get through few of the toughest days of my life...I will always remember this...and who knows I may come back...you are worth it...🎀💕

[mynsllife]

A dream come true...just got posted on our college Instagram post regarding my job placement...I was little down till now...that one post gave me a lot of boost...I can't post picture here ...but I will forever remember this moment...always greatefull for everything 🎀🎀🎀

[mynsllife]

I can't even imagine what she must be going through...being a girl in this man's world is already tough..but now she needs take a stand for all young ones in this adult world....I am the same age of her and I can't even imagine if I am that strong....she gave a lot of inspiration to this generation...I hope the others and all other idols learn something and come forward to show the dark reality of their world...

them presenting all bubbly things for us and asking us to know their hardwork is not fair...if they had shown this darkness before maybe k-pop wouldn't have been this immature and people would have treated others like humans...

I am glad our hanni took a step forward...I will always stay with her forever in this journey...just remember we love the idols as humans not as an image the company is trying to sell us...

I love you hanni....I am with you stay strong... bunnies are here with you always 🐰

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