my pharm diaries

jade | 19 | sg | otw to bpharm (hopefully?)

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major wins and major messes

hi guys! came on here today for a little diary entry because today was truly a rollercoaster for me. sit tight for the full break down of today HAHAHAH ( •̀ .̫ •́ )✧

bright and early in the morning, i got to school and wasn't able to connect to the campus wifi. usually i wouldn't complain about it since its strength really varies by location BUT THEN

MY LAPTOP COMPLETELY CRASHED O-O

yes indeed this laptop of one year died on me T_T all i did was to press the retry button on the error message my antivirus software gave (because it couldn't connect to the internet)

i restarted the computer so many times and it didn't work, until i resorted to completely reinstalling windows .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·. thank goodness that

after one hour of trying to reinstall windows, the laptop came back to life, albeit wiped of all the apps i had installed

it was able to keep all my files and i wouldn't have to download them all back from my google drive and onedrive *phew*

after that fiasco in the morning, i had a "conflict resolution" workshop, attended by medicine and pharmacy students. my group had to submit a report beforehand, and then was required to send someone up in front of the class for a roleplay which was supposed to include improvements to prevent conflict.

my group was supposed to send a pharmacy student, so my friend and i (we were the only two pharmacy students in the group of 7 lmao) decided i would go for this one, while my friend represented our pharmacy group in another roleplay assignment for our clinical care module. i was so stressed leading up to the workshop, because me being me, i was getting all worried about not doing well.

it then came around to my turn and

I BLANKED

i had expected the standardized patient to act exactly as in the video sent to us (the one that we were supposed to improve upon) but of course, he didn't. (i mean, this is a healthcare course, not an acting class, what was i thinking) LUCKILY, i managed to sort of recover after blanking for about a minute or so. though the conversation was mainly steered by the standardized patient, i somehow managed to keep my composure and do as i usually would *phew*

it then came to the end of my roleplay and I GOT ACTUAL APPLAUSE WOW (in comparison to the courtesy applause uk) my teammates from my pharmacy group who were in the same room were also cheering me on and i'll tell you it felt great (●ˇ∀ˇ●)

it then got even better when the pharmacist attending the session was debriefing us for that scene on behalf of the pharmacy faculty AND SHE SAID SHE COULD ALREADY IMAGINE ME AS A PHARMACIST (p≧w≦q) omg it made my anxiety filled day so much better

in other news today, my dinner looks very sad (pictured above) HAHAHAHAH definitely feeling great today at the end of the day (tbh im still on a high even a lecture later) but my goodness it was such a mess today

to more days with these sort of highs (✿◕‿◕✿) (and hopefully less of the lows ._.)

ヾ(￣▽￣) Bye~Bye~

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start of year 2!

hai guys 👋 yesterday marked the start of year 2 for me! it didn't really hit me that i'm not a freshman anymore until i started getting asked by freshmen for directions HAHAHAH the good old days of being a lost freshman :')

it also felt so different that lessons are now fully in person. i've never seen the shuttle buses this full T_T the buses are literally completely full every 2 hours from 8am (since that is how majority of the lessons run) study spots are a lot easier to find though, since no one is camping at one spot for the whole day to attend all their zoom lessons.

on the other hand, i had a lecture on anatomy for my gastrointestinal system module yesterday andddd i'm already lost on the first day :') doing some catch up on that lecture today since its a public holiday today o(*^＠^*)o

this semester is already starting to look crazy even though i'm taking less credits this semester compared to the last :/ year 2 life i guess...

to more posts this semester maybe? since i'm going to be spending more time in random spots in school studying ◉_◉ see y'all then!

here's a pic from me trying to get a grip on work in between lessons in the meantime HAHAHAHAH

p.s. omg its so weird that im tagging w #mypharmdiariesy2 rather than y1 （⊙ｏ⊙）

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summer madness

haiiiii its been long heheh been juggling work + school projects so i am ngl quite swamped in work rn

had a bit of time to sort out my admin work for a volunteer project the other day so here's that :D this place is one of my favorite places to study in around my faculty because its quiet, has tables w dividers (to help me focus on my stuff) and has a nice view out the window (for destressing *_*)

lowkey scared i won't be able to finish my self-directed module :') i feel like ive taken on too much work this break, especially with work and one of my projects being very time consuming since i have to physically be there multiple times a week. im starting to decrease my number of work days as the sem starts so yay for my sanity :D

see y'all soon? i hope?

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same location diff day🌤️

hi again! back in school to settle some stuff and thought i might as well study the stuff i need to in between, so back at the same location we go!

semester results came out today and i honestly don't know how to feel :/ i scored straight B+s for all my pharmacy modules, with some As scattered around in my non-pharmacy modules. i somehow feel like i don't have a grasp of what is a good grade and what isn't. on one hand, i've seen on the school reddit that B+ is a good grade because its above average. on the other hand, i've heard from seniors that the average for the pharmacy cohort is B+ due to some technicalities. it also doesn't help that there's is no way for me to see grade distributions (obviously), so i don't know where i stand within the cohort as well.

i really don't want to sound like im being ungrateful for my grades because i know these grades are still quite okay. rather, im confused about what to do going forward - how to use my pass/fail credits when they all have the same grade, and how i should pace myself for subsequent semesters. hopefully, talking to some seniors will help me sort this mess in my head out (。﹏。*)

moving on from results release, this week is going to be really happening for me ヾ(＠⌒ー⌒＠)ノ i'm going on a 3 day hospital pharmacy attachment, settling school activities, and starting out in a new dental clinic! (for context since i don't really talk about it here: i also work as a dental assistant/dental nurse while studying pharmacy - in fact i have more dental experience than pharmacy experience rn oops) revising some dental assisting stuff today as a refresher, and i got a new notebook to summarize my past assisting stuff in, hence the notebook. hopefully i won't end up like the otter on the notebook this week heh

see y'all when i remember to post next ヾ(^▽^*)))

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post-finals season

hi guys!! it's been long :D my finals ended at the beginning of may and well, post-finals has been a mess :/ from ongoing school activities, to changing jobs, to sorting out the mess i left behind during final, there's been a lot of things that i've been attending to so big oops right there

my results are coming out next monday and well, as much as i already can estimate how well i'll do, i can't help but dread it all the same. hopefully i won't be too upset about it, and well let's see if there'll be an update then! hahaha

i've been taking on some self-directed modules to clear some credits - been planning to clear the non-pharmacy mods before year 3 since i'll be doing my research project then, but overloading during year 2 didn't seem too great. right now, i'm taking modules on big data/data analytics. i took R and Rcmdr during semester for one of my mods so i was curious to learn more. fast forward to now, i'm now learning Rstudio and Java. my friends do think i'm a bit nuts for liking R but o wells HAHAHAHAH to each their own

see y'all whenever i see yall again :))

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finals studying

hihi long time no see!

the last 2 months or so have been a mess for me - thus no time to post > < all of my family members got covid except for me, then i got dengue fever not too long after they all recovered so not much productive studying sessions since. i've fully recovered (except for some general tiredness) so no worries []~(￣▽￣)~*

my finals for my second semester of year 1 are coming up 🙃 can't believe year 1 is ending so quickly because i kinda don't want to be a year 2 yet :')

having extra-curricular activities later so i'm studying in school :| the funny thing is that i bought starbucks but am studying outside of the starbucks (⊙_⊙;) but okay i bought it to use a soon expiring voucher, and this is probably my favorite study spot around here sooo maybe i don't feel so weird about it anymore

studying pharmacology today and tbh my brain can fry from this - you need a lot of thinking through to get how to apply the concepts to the real-life examples :/ thank goodness we are allowed to bring in a reference sheet (the file im doing up on my laptop) so i'm making the most of the space i'm allowed to have HAHAHAHAH font size 5 here we go

my finals are until may so (hopefully) more productive study sessions to come o(≧口≦)o see y'all then!

ヾ(^▽^*)))

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long time no see ヾ(^▽^*)))

its my first post in 2022 sooo HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

been gone because school has been a mess of school work oops

im overloading this semester to try make life easier for future me + to try to use up my pass/fail credits but the workload has been a mess man. on one hand i feel like just doing the bare minimum for the modules i intend to use the credits on, but on the other i feel like im not giving my grades a fair chance since i could somehow do well in those modules and maybe help my gpa uk o(≧口≦)o

studying for my dispensing test tmr and its all on the eye and skin - but all the eyedrops look the same to me (。﹏。*) especially when we are only supposed to learn about medications for the skin and eye next month. seriously hoping the prof cuts us some slack for this since we actually havent learnt anything about these medicines, but for the meantime ill rely on uptodate and mims to try save my sanity 🙃

see yall again soon! hopefully i won't be gone for as long this time HAHAHAHA

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christmassy vibes(??)

hihi havent been on here in a long time ヾ(^▽^*))) i've been on winter break - aka i haven't been studying oops. planning some stuff for the extracurricular im leading, so i decided to drive it home with the christmas vibes - which admittedly aren't very christmassy bec yours truly does not celebrate christmas (or any related holiday for that matter)

in more updates, i got my exam results back recently for my first ever sem and tbh it ain't too bad (*^▽^*) had 3 examinable modules this semester and came out with A/A-/B+ which imo ain't too shabby. only thing is that my sole pharmacy module is the B+ (oops) but for a module that i was hoping to just scrape through and then change to pass/fail, im happy with it HAHAHAHAH

going into 2022, im hoping to be more organised in the coming semester, especially because the difficulty is ramping up and that i'm intending to overload my modules to utilise my pass/fail credits. i've also taken on more commitments outside of academics so i really need to GET! MY! S**T! TOGETHER! ◉_◉ more on that soon hehe

in the meantime, merry christmas to all those celebrating christmas!

p.s. can you tell i recently found the kaomoji function on my laptop oops (mostly bec i realised the laptop generated normal emojis don't really translate well onto all platforms)

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end of finals celebratory dinner hehe

finally ended finals last night :D wasn't the best but did not have high expectations for that paper anyways 🤡 had a celebratory dinner with my friends yesterday right after the paper (since social distancing rules have been relaxed to allow gatherings of 5 - yay) so i had an extra solo celebration today HAHAHA

not completely free yet because ive signed up to head projects and stuff so... more updates to come i guess? see y'all then :))

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first exam of the semester - let’s go!

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got my planner for 2022!

because ya girl here needs to keep some form of order in her life

(then again its still a mess even with my current methods bec the workload is just crazy)

i used to bullet journal to keep my life together from sec sch to jc, then i was gifted a muji planner (which i now am using for 2021) which turned out to be useful in uni - aint got time to prep spreads anymore oops

my current planner is in the same format as that one in the pic but the black fabric-covered(??) one, but i decided that i want my planners to look different year to year so i got the craft paper one (at least thats what the listing on shopee called it HAHAHAHA) except that idiot me few months ago didnt realise that i'll actually need the december pages because i for once have activities in dec now that im in uni so.... had to get the one with added on dec 2021 pages HAHAHAHAHAH going to be setting up the rest of the planner after my finals end and like - i can't wait?? im so excited to use it HAHAHAHA

still in finals season so my studying levels has gone quite off the charts 🙃 see yall soon when it ends :))

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info overload

heres yet another one of my lunch breaks HAHAHAHA eating leftover onigiri from my impulse purchases and some veg while watching june from delish :D i seriously don't know how she can make food go for so long but the long videos have made great studying accompaniment for me while i trudge through the swamp of biology

have many high stakes presentations/tests/exams coming up so idk how often ill be able to post but in the meantime its the last few weeks of semester (at least for me) so lets all pull through yea ^-^ i believe in you <3

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a break from studying 🙃

studying in school today because my schedule this week is just packed af for me so reducing travel time is great for my sanity

this is from my lunch break today (while watching linh truong bec ❤)

see yall soon (hopefully 😬 bec well the end of sem is crazy)

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compounding at the uni of zoom

yes you heard that right, ya girl here is making drugs from home 🤙

(don't worry nothing illegal)

the covid situation over here recently got a lot more serious so the pharmacy profs decided to shift whatever they could online, even though most of the course was already shifted online since the beginning of semester. soooooo, we were compounding capsules from home 😬

for the unacquainted with chemistry, basically we were making capsules with baking soda, and lemme tell you, the urge to just source for extra from the kitchen was unbelievably strong since i went to fiddle on my own and made 2 extra for the memories HAHAHAHAHAH i still do have extra empty capsule shells with me but maybe i'll keep those for preparing for compounding exams later 🤔

another crazy week ahead for me sooooo, see yall again soon!

(also the personal details on the labels above are nobody's dw)

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yet another morning study sesh

back to my stats module again 🙃 the number of times i have opened and closed R commander to start from scratch again has been infuriating but we still gotta finish the tutorial (cries)

also discovered (maybe a bit late) feardog lofi??? somehow feels so zen listening to their videos while studying

and yes my iced tea is the same colour as my table heh

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hellu hellu

finally on mid sem break this week 😁 still have a ton of work and topics to catch up on but its nice to have a breather 😅

been listening to the OSTs of Start Up (playlist not mine) while I study hehe except ive never watched Start Up in full 😅 im one of those who just watch the snippets that netflix/korean broadcasting channels upload to youtube and consider it watched

back to studying for me :/ dk when ill post again HAHAHAHAH

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D-1 to mid-sem break 😭

2 tests today so not feeling great right now 😬 1 test is for pharm on just chemistry, and the other is for my sign language (SEE) course and I kinda don't want to fail either test 😅 in the meantime, we have chill songs playing to try to manifest the "alls good" vibes while annotating my own notes for revision heh.

can't wait to just sleep after all these tests are over 🥱 see y'all then!