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Thursday, May 1st, 2014

I guess you've finally said it. I guess you've finally had enough. I'm sorry for all these years that I've depended on you. I'm sorry for asking you for favors. I'm sorry for your wasted time because of me. I'm sorry.  I've always been grateful of you, but I guess the meaning of "thank you" has diminished over the years. "What have I got from helping you? Nothing." And yes, that's true. You've given so much and what have I given you? The bare minimum. I'm sorry I haven't done much for you, while you have done everything for me.  In my defense, I really do try to help you whenever I can. The thing is, you are independent. You are capable of so many things that I am not capable of. You never ask for my help. Do you know how guilty that makes me? Whenever you couldn't do something, I always try to come to your aid. But---it never really works out well because I end up making the situation worse. I am sorry for all your wasted time and efforts on me. I promise I won't ask you to help me cook. I promise I won't ask you to drive me to places. I promise I won't bother you about my life problems. I promise I won't ever depend on you again. I never knew how much it bothered you until today. I never realized how burdensome I am.  A quick note about driving---even though I am old enough to drive, I find it to be one of the scariest things ever. Everytime I dream of myself driving a car, I always end up hitting something or someone. These dreams strip away every bit of confidence I could possibly possess.  I don't want to be that person to ruin another person's life, but I guess it's too late anyway. It's inevitable, huh?

I know I come off as a strong person, but I'm actually very sensitive. I tend to hide my feelings from people whenever I get emotional, and I'm pretty good at holding in the tears unwil I'm alone. My parents haven't seen me cry in the past few years...until today. I hate feeling useless, and today was one of those days where I feel like I'm just a burden to everyone around me. Maybe me moving out far far away from home was the best decision--for myself and everyone else. I hope you guys will be better off without me, like all of you have said before. One less person to make y'all angry, one less person to give you trouble. 

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February 5th, 2014

I'm not as strong as everyone thinks I am. I can't stand being accused for things I never did/said. It drives me insane.

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Tet Family Day 2014

We ate food, played cards, laughed, and had a great time. 

It has been so long since I've seen my family enjoy the company of one another. It made me so happy. I was just sitting, smiling, and observing my parents and my siblings. I teared up, but I covered it by pretending to yawn...a lot.  I came to realized that despite all of the arguing and nagging of each day, I still love all of them to death. 

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It's when people are the most angry that the truth comes out. The truth about you, about all your flaws that you've been struggling to accept. They finally come out. 

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Confessions of a Rookie Dancer:

I suck. 

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Obsessed with this song atm. Cool choreo. 

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January 25, 2014

Looking at my grades. I only needed a 0.08 of a point to jump to a higher grade. @_@

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Dimension hopping

Earlier this month we released a short film called "ONE". It was written in Nov and shot in Dec of last year. It stars international pop star Wang Leehom. It is about different dimensions and wheth...

Something that I've always thought about. 

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Thoughts: You

It is currently 3:39 am. Why is it that you always appear in my stream of consciousness? I've cut off all distractions to concentrate on my work, and yet, you always manage to break through my seemingly fire-proof walls. I met you five years ago, and I should have gotten over you in three. As much as I try to wrap my head around this, I don't think I will ever be able to understand how or why you can stay so permanently in my mind.  I don't think I can ever fully get over you, as much as I say I am.

You will never know how much you mean to me. 

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January 19, 2014

Is it true that not having the happiest reactions to things, means that I'm just downright cold?

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January 18, 2014

Good show.

Good food.

Good weather.

Good music. 

Good company.

Perfect day. 

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January 14, 2014

Sometimes, I just really need to speak my mind instead of letting people speak my thoughts because "I was just thinking that" happens way too often, to the point where no one actually believes you. 

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January 13, 2014

I really screwed myself over this time, huh?  But you know what really sucks? When you're looking for the slightest bit of reassurance, and even your own family can't give you that. Is that really so hard? Just lie to me, just this once, to make me feel alright. Because right now, there's no more hope. 

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The “Drop Box” for Unwanted Babies inspires Youngsters to Join South Korean Pastor Lee Jong-rak to Save Abandoned (VIDEO)

Since last year, the heart-felt story of "the drop box" for unwanted babies, an orphanage ministry by South Korean pastor Lee Jong-rak has been widely reported by media. A young filming crew from US was touched and traveled to Seoul for making a documentary film for Pastor Lee. Now, about a year later, the same filming crew composed of a few young men forms a non-profit organization, Kindred Image, to support the vision and legacy of Pastor Lee.

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January 12, 2014

New laptop, check.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S. series, check.

Sleep, no check. 

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Thoughts: Him

You know what’s funny? This is going to sound cheesy and dumb, but I sincerely cared for you when you were still at school. When I was still in eighth grade, you were a junior. That was the year when I developed this infatuated crush for you. You can say, I “fell-in-like” with you at first glance, and to have you sit next to me in study was a blessing. That entire year transformed me into the most giddy girl in the universe. Yes, I said universe. Then came my freshmen year, your senior year. You were the only person who could change my mood to the extreme. Every time I was upset over quizzes or tests, simply seeing you in the hallways would shoot my mood up from 0 to 110. I glowed as bright as the sun and my cheeks were as red as cherries. Then came the smile from ear-to-ear that I could not control.  But yes, I cared for you. Seeing you at general meetings coughing your lungs out made me concerned. Seeing a band-aid on your finger made me wonder what happened, and if it hurt. And during your college application process, I prayed every night that you would not stress too much and get into the school that you wanted. I don’t know if it worked, but you’re in a school where you definitely belong. That makes me happy.  

But to be completely honest with myself, I still do care for you.