every once in a while i will feel a great pressure to exist, but then i just have to sit back and relax and remind myself 'oh wait, you already exist without even trying. GOOD JOB.' i think this realization can be a huge relief
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every once in a while i will feel a great pressure to exist, but then i just have to sit back and relax and remind myself 'oh wait, you already exist without even trying. GOOD JOB.' i think this realization can be a huge relief
Sorry I'm writing another damn essay here but I just can't stop turning around in my head the similarities & differences between tinglers and erotic fanfiction.
Right now, specifically the perception of sincerity or lack thereof.
When "The State Of California Stalks My Gay Butthole" came out in 2015, I was in Hetalia fandom. I even remember retweeting the cover and going "lol look Chuck Tingle is one of us!!" Very few people thought Chuck Tingle was serious about his work back then. But, none of my friends, nobody else in the nsfw side of the fandom who wasn't writing intentionally comedic work, ever had anyone doubt that we had sincere interest when we wrote about personified countries having gay sex. Others may have laughed, and had criticisms (some very legitimate) but never "why are you still making this joke?". When people make jokes ABOUT shipping culture, part of the "comedy" is that the people doing it are 100% sincere!
I could go on AO3 right now, and post a story about a character with a goofy-ass name like Foo Fighters, a sentient colony of plankton piloting a human body, making tender love to a woman named after a Dolly Parton song in the swamp behind a women's prison in Florida. If I did not write this story in a comedic style or tag it as crack, I KNOW that the majority of folks who read or even scrolled past it would see this as a sincere expression of my desire for these two characters to know each other carnally. Even if they laughed, I would be the butt of the joke, they would not see me as "in on the joke".
So, I know that in my example, part of this is that the absurd and fantastical elements came from a popular manga/anime. People already accept the premise before they even go looking for fic of it. However, there's also furry fandom which is centered on original characters. Furries who draw/write yiff get a pretty similar treatment to erotic/romantic fic writers. Furries have our own relationship with humor that I could make a whole other post on, but suffice to say, even when some do make some of their porn as a bit, rarely does anyone think someone IS a furry As A Joke.
So, back to the Chuck Tingle of it all... Like I keep saying, as someone who's spent time in these subcultures, I've never been 100% satisfied with the explanation of "people always insisted tinglers were a joke because they're fantastical and queer and sexual". To me it has always felt like part of the story but not the entire one. What's the explanation when that attitude also comes from people who create and make communities around art like that?
I think the difference is that it's presented confidently as literature, as a worthy part of the culture. In fandom, even when we are so sincere in our creations, we're viewing what we make as niche, as subculture, not as much no-prefix Culture. It isn't interesting to me that none of this- tinglers, fanfic, furries, etc- is taken seriously by a mainstream media viewpoint. However, it IS interesting to me that people who create art outside the mainstream can view THEMSELVES and the way they make their OWN creations with joy as something so separate from "legitimate" art, so different, that they can see someone so similar to themselves and think it must be a joke if they insist that their art is art. I think it's really a sign that we need to be more confident that our culture is culture regardless of whether it's advertiser-friendly and marketable.
a world where fantastical sexuality in art is not seen as a gutter to emerge from
i think the fact that i can say over and over again 'i am not being ironic, this is not a bit, my books are not a joke' and have people on the right AND left just say 'NO YOU ARE' to my face (or my mask) over and over again is very telling. culture just cannot deal with neurodivergent people yet
i am very thankful i have the confidence to weather decades of people calling my work ‘shit posts’ or ‘intentionally bad’. i think it has personally made me very strong and confident in my art, but it is fascinating how hard it is for some folks to even CONCEIVE of someone this different than them
most creators have these BIG DREAMS and goals, like winning an oscar or traditionally publishing a book: my dream is to live in a world where the average person has a relationship with joy and sincerity and sexuality and fantasy that makes my books seem not outrageous at all. which is how i see them
i know buds mean well when they post stuff like ‘i cant believe chuck tingle went from erotica to traditional bestseller lists’ and thats FINE. i take it in the kind way it is intended. at same time, i want to live in a world where fantastical sexuality in art is not seen as a gutter to emerge from
when i finally trot off and ride that lonesome train, my biggest hope is that someone like me will have JUST SLIGHTLY fewer folks insisting that they must be a character or a joke or an ironic creation because no REAL person would do that. i am real. they will be real too. HERES TO THEM
every moment happens once, just floating by wether we notice it or not. here and gone. it is up to us to grab these little slivers of time and see them and give them a nod. what a blessing it is to be given this chance. remember to take it when you can
Something I really love about Bury Your Gays by Chuck Tingle is the point he makes about overcorrecting from the original trope. Sanitizing queer art to the point that nothing bad happens to queer characters ever is not only unrealistic, not only shitty to tell queer people what part of their stories they are or are not allowed to tell, it's also just putting us in another box. The beauty of queer art is when we just get to create what we want to and tell our stories authentically. There's a place for fluffy feel-good queer romance and horrifically fucked up queer horror. As long as queer people and those who love us get to tell our stories in a way that is meaningful, that resonates with the people who interact with it, that is all that should matter.
would be really cool if new film 28 DAYS LATER: THE BONE TEMPLE had a winking emoji at the end as official part of the title
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i dont mind when people are annoying online bc i remember back when i was 14 and so annoying online and its fun to be young and not know how to act we've all been there. Checks bio. oh theyre older than me
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"You misspelled Weltanschauung" is one of the funniest punchlines I've ever encountered.
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but don’t worry folks, he DID hate the business world more than the art world. barely
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I LOVE TODAY. LETS TROT
trot on
yes this timeline is a rough route. yes there are waves of strife. but behind it all lies the inertia of all things which prompted fish to trot out of the ocean and humans to gather in commune. we are driven to fill the nothing with ourselves, with LOVE. its the unconquerable wind behind our sails
i spend lots of time talkin on love as a powerful force that builds universes and ties strings of fate and its a beautiful thing to picture, but sometimes that can seem so external. best part: its internal too. its within us, in every part of our being even when it doesnt feel like it. pretty cool
LETS TROT
BUCKAROOS i have just learned CAMP DAMASCUS kindle ebook will be on sale for the month of july. right now you can get it for just 2.99 so it is great time to ENTER THE TINGLEVERSE (also great time to hunt for hidden connections to LUCKY DAY in camp damascus pages)
This is how your computer works btw. This little guy transports information to and fro.
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