the thought of baelor being on the plane and waking up to find out he’s the only survivor and that his boys and his father died… :(
to make it even worse, imagine his last words to valarr and matarys were just him frantically trying to reassure them that everything was going to be okay. maybe he instinctively tried to shield them with his own body, but the impact ended up hitting them anyway while he only survived with the head injury. and for the rest of his life he’s haunted by the thought that maybe if he’d done something different they’d still be alive.
and i also wonder if part of why baelor ends up clinging so tightly to reader afterwards is because she reminds him of the version of himself from before the crash. before everything changed. before he stopped being a father. maybe somewhere in his mind he thinks that if he can hold onto her tightly enough, he won’t completely lose that version of himself too.
baelor losing his father and his boys and also himself in a way... that part of him that believes in the goodness of the world is tainted and replaced by this bitterness and disillusionment that he tries to tamp down but it's poisoning him and his relationship with jena... they're bonded through their grief and their disappointment now instead of being bonded through love and it makes a once happy, idyllic marriage more volatile... and he sees reader as this bright, innocent, eager young scholar who still believes in love and family and he wants to guard that... but "guarding" that innocence just results in the fucked up psychological dynamic between him and her and jena and everyone's too possessive and traumatized to let go... yeah happy tragic tuesday <3
it is, or could be, thoughtful thursday. perhaps we could get some insights into how baelor’s family would feel about reader in the main au. aside from the baby maekarlings and maekar himself lol. like rhaegel, alys, aerys, papa daeron, the older maekarlings etc. how would they feel about her in general and about how she and baelor met? would they vibe with her right away or would it take some time?
or alternatively, if you’re feeling more thotful thursday what would reader’s verdict be if she had to play smash or pass with all the men in the family lmao. who do you think she’d actually be into in another context, and who would be an immediate pass?
rhaegel & alys: immediate vibe. listen. i know i torture reader and this whole family so much but that ends at rhaegel and alys. they're just quirky and artsy and living a fun silly life in the vale and they would LOVE that baelor found himself this witty, moody writer girl.
aerys & aelinor: not close, but not enemies. i don't think aerys would connect with reader's curiosity (and occasional quippyness) in the same way that baelor does (and he WOULD judge the prof/student situation), but he'd be polite and nice and glad that big brother crawled out of the grief void at last. i hc that alys and aelinor are still close even after the aerys/aelinor divorce, so if alys loves reader then aelinor would like her well enough.
papa daeron: would be hesitant but would grow to love her. especially once he sees her bonding with valarr & matarys. really just wants someone to take care of his darling firstborn boy and is relieved to see baelor smiling and in love again.
About Me: I'm Zee (she/her), trying to fight the writers block dragon! I hope you enjoy my work :)
I refuse to accept responsibility for any typos or mistakes in my work. It was all an illusion you witnessed.
EDIT: started another blog @thirstingseason (write on this one now but repost it here!)
Follow and turn on notifs to know when I post my stories :)
Taglist: Pls go on the masterlist for the fandom/character you would like to be tagged for and reply explicitly stating that you would like to be tagged and for what!
Request Status: CLOSED
Note: I only write x reader fics
I do not give permission for any of my work to be copied or translated without my explicit consent. I do not give permission for any of my content to be used for AI or to be related to AI in any way, shape, or form. My content cannot be used or altered in any way without my explicit consent. All content is my own unless stated otherwise in disclaimers. - MDNI!!! Please put your age in your blog and do not interact on my blog if you are under 18!!!
Request Guidlines + Fandoms/Characters I write for
AO3 (slowly updating this to match tumblr)
Divider Masterlist/References
WIPs
Writing Style/Scheduling Explanation
Recent Posts: jealousy - DIL!reader, DIL!B smutty drabble, ormund hightower x wife!reader, another maekar x reader req, spoilt DIL!M moment, maekar x reader req, baelor x reader req, remember my name - tom wambsgans, young FILs with DIL!reader, baelor's moustache - DIL!reader, president!baelor drabble 3, sex therapist!baelor, a change in him - baelor, tmm!scene, personality change - DIL!M, president!baelor drabble 2, hot day w/ DILs, president!baelor drabble, too busy - DIL!reader, secret wedding - DIL!reader, swapping DILs - pt & w&p, president baelor p4, revenge trip - pt & w&p, professor!baelor thoughts, pt daughter drabble, aerion tries to win dil!reader back, valarr tries to win dil!reader back, pt and w&p - servant's pov, pt and w&p drabble
This has been one of my favorites ever since I joined the fandom and first read it:
the demons around you, 14k, complete
When Jon came back for her, he came with dragons.
Dragons, and an army, and the promise of a crown, but all Sansa had ever wanted was him.
(Or, the one in which Jon Snow knows his heritage, and the day Lord Stark betroths Sansa to Joffrey fucking Baratheon, he packs his things and travels to the other end of the world. The other end of the world turns out to be Astapor.
Astapor, and Daenerys Stormborn.)
this one too!
Found In Forbidden Nights, 16k, complete
In which Robb Stark still refuses to trade Jaime Lannister for his sisters, but Jon Snow decides if being an oathbreaker means he can tell strategy and politics to fuck off, then it's worth it to take matters into his own hands.'
(It’s the after, though, that Jon and Sansa hadn’t bargained on.)
(more below the cut)
Shelter As We Go, 65k, complete
“I was afraid.” Her ribs expand in his palm as she takes a breath. “But I am not afraid now, Jon.” Tilt of her head as he sinks his mouth to chase away the heat of his fingers from her neck. “I am here with you.”
Lips resting on her skin as he breathes the scent of her. “You are here with me.” Low and soft, voice curling from his throat like a fire burned down to embers. “Wherever we may go, you are always here with me.”
A wildling scout finds a fire-haired stranger in the snow — but within each other they find something else entirely.
what do you want (that you do not have) 128k, complete
When the Winterfellians learn that Cersei has hired men to kidnap Sansa, they decide that Sansa needs to run away and Jon volunteers to protect her. During their travels the tension builds between them--especially after Jon suffers an injury and they're taken in by an older couple. Because, in hopes of protecting their identities, Jon and Sansa have to pretend to be happily married and in love. Every day. In close quarters. For quite some time.
Takes place after the war against the NK is won. Not a kidnapping fic.
Homecoming, 31k, incomplete
(it says there's meant to be one more chapter but there is a happy ending so it's safe to read)
Halfway to him, she broke composure; she flew at him, an arrow from a bow, and he opened to receive her, lifting her, clutching her to the soft, neglected animal of his body.
---
Sansa has one request of Jon, and then he can leave her forever: help her to find a husband.
you're in my blood like holy wine, 72k, complete
Sansa finds it difficult to look at Jon’s face, with its weathered lines and cragginess. It is the face of the North and a face that northerners trust; the face of Sansa’s brothers and her father, who had been loved and respected by their tenants as their forefathers had been when they were kings. How can Sansa feel anything but resentment, looking into that face and knowing that all of her years of hard work will never earn her the respect that that profile engenders within seconds?
But she does. It is a small, burning coal of something that must be smothered.
Not a Suitor, 1k, complete
Jon smiles and reaches into his waist pocket to offer his calling card.
The man looks him up and down with a fearsome scowl, ignoring the card before speaking. “I’m sorry, sir, but suitors are received on Saturdays from 10 till 11 in the parlor. You’ll have to return to see Miss Sansa tomorrow,” he states in a monotone voice as if someone has drilled the phrase into him.
“I’m not a suitor.”
The monotone tone is absent when the man responds with clear sarcasm. “Sure, you ain’t. We’ve had a regular spring flood tide of ‘em since Miss Sansa got to town and word spread about her beauty and wealth. Left and right, they come at all hours with their cards and their neatly tied cravats looking to have a leer at ‘er.”
Unnatural, 2k, complete
Once he is close enough, she leaps at him, arms wrapping him up and his nose buried in her copper hair. The shuddering exhale he expels is the most amount of sound he’s made in days but all he can hear is Sansa’s sniffling and the way their two hearts talk to one another in beats of the same song.
and we can see the future and the dreams it's made of 17k, complete
This is how it goes: you stand, and you are bruised, aching, tired and worn. You have won again, as you’ve won everything you’ve ever won in your life: scrabbling, tussling, dust under your nails and blood hot in your mouth. Hard-won, bitter-fought. Victory is all the sweeter for it.
[Jon is raised by his father. It doesn't go according to plan. When he weds Sansa, that doesn't go according to plan either. It all works out anyhow.]
O Voyagers, 28k, incomplete
Jon’s eyes are fixed on the floor at her feet. To a stranger it might look like respect, the proper deference shown to a queen, but Sansa knows better. If he wished to look at her, he would.
He has not forgiven me, she thinks, her heart a stone in her chest. He likely never will.
I also made lists for specific popular jonsa tropes and a few of them are Jealous Jon fics, Rickon lives AUs, Free Cities Au, The Girl in Grey (book verse). I have a list of other book verse fics somewhere, but can't find it at the moment so here is a list kitnjon made once.
i'll never be able to recreate the feeling of getting drunk and lore dropping dunk and maekar's unrequited love for reader and then waking up to like 10 asks about it the next day. i feel like i've lost my ability to shock y'all and that's on me i gotta get back on my game
this photo is VERY important. of vital importance actually.
i'm so full of beer and hot dogs right now i feel like i can't give this picture the art history level close reading it deserves right now but let me just say i had a VISCERAL reaction and that probably means he achieved EXACTLY the look he was going for
i feel like after a fight with reader, especially if it was about something dumb and especially if professor baelor loses, he would go look for typos in reader's writing and passive-agressively highlight all of them
this is frying me... on one hand this could be so funny and he'd be crashing out over her exessive comma usage or something, or on the other hand you could have an angsty moment of him discovering that she's quoted him in a research paper and it's beautifully integrated and part of a well-argued point and he'd have to go stare at the horizon for an hour
this is probably a dumb question but i’m still new to fanfic and trying to figure out the vibes with character/reader (i’m a novel girlie so rn character/oc is the most familiar to me)
Your reader has so much lore specific to her and only her now, she has her own distinct personality and individual set of behavior and I saw that you gave her a name! I like her uniqueness
but At this point would you consider her an OC written from second POV? or are we allowed to like pretend like the details that don’t apply to us don’t exist for her and replace them with our own traits since I’m reader, you’re reader, and we’re all reader bahah!
Or would you prefer that we not do that lol
I want to enjoy the story the way you wrote it to be enjoyed !! so should we think of her as your own original character now or is she left open for interpretation ❤️
I feel kind of weird making my own head canons if they don’t match the specific individual personality and behavioral repertoire that you set for her
sorry if this question comes off as rude or hating i love your story and i was not sure how to word it so I hope this lands okay
thank you for all that you do!
this is such a good question! i know that tloyl reader has sort of become an oc with lots of lore, but PSA & please rest assured: she's remaining a reader insert in the fic itself and i will not be weaving the vast majority of her lore into the story. MAYBE we will get a reference to her childhood, but i still want tloyl to be open for everyone to project on in their own way. so that being said, PLEASE do create your own headcanons, lore, fancasts, etc for her, and i would LOVE to hear what y'all come up with! i think if i've learned anything from chatting with y'all on here, it's that we're all bringing our own emotions and experiences with us to the reading experience, and that makes all of our interpretations of reader (even as an oc) different. and i truly truly love that.
the way i talk about reader on this blog is purely optional. you can take it and get into her as an oc, or you can leave it and hopefully still get something out of the story. i want you all to proceed in whatever way feels best! i never want it to feel like i'm forcing an oc upon y'all, i get so nervous and shy and paranoid abt ocposting. anyways, to boil it down: in tloyl, she's up for interpretation. on winterstellars dot tumblr dot com, she's a conglomeration of my oc plus y'alls ideas for her (like i think that dunk being her best friend was someone else's idea!).
oml we got the maekarlings!!! i’m actually so invested in reader’s dynamic with the whole family now
i can already tell she’s instantly becoming rhae and daella’s favorite auntie. like she’s fully indulging rhae’s chaotic 6 year old energy, playing dolls with her and taking it way too seriously, and then switching to sitting with daella listening to her middle school gossip and giving her advice. they absolutely need an older sister figure in their life
also are we meeting daeron and aerion?? because i lowk want that chaos. i feel like daeron would be surprisingly chill and actually get along with reader pretty well, and then aerion is just there being insufferable on purpose. like constantly throwing little jabs about her age, making comments like “didn’t think uncle had it in him” and poking at baelor about how exactly they met. i can literally see him fake flirting just to be annoying like and baelor is this close to losing it while maekar is just watching like… do i intervene or let this play out
and speaking of chaos i NEED the valarr and matarys angst. like why make it simple when it can be deeply uncomfortable. i can so see valarr being perfectly polite but clearly off, and then baelor asking him later what’s wrong and it slowly coming out that he’s weirded out because reader is basically his age. like based on baelor's description he was expecting a mid thirties established academic librarian type not a girl in her 20s who awkwardly dodges anything about uni or degrees and he kind of puts it together that baelor is not being fully honest about how they met
and then reader overhears part of it and just spirals because now it’s all in her head too, like maybe this is wrong, maybe she doesn’t fit into his life at all, maybe everyone sees it. i’m sorry but the angst potential here is insane i need it immediately
anon i'm sorry i sat on this ask too long but i'm working on part 5 rn specifically more maekarling interactions so this is PARTICULARLY topical. without spoiling too much... yes we will be meeting daeron (sooner) and aerion (later). and you know me. angst central over here. maybe she's gonna bond with her new artsy queer son matarys but valarr is a very different story. he's so baeloresque that i think he needs time to trust people, he's more introverted and sensitive, he was still young when jena died (10 or 11ish) but was old enough to remember her unlike matarys (who was 5ish and doesn't really have many memories of her). so we shall see. but in the meantime reader gets to practice being momma on the maekarlings <3
please, do you think prof!baelor would place his wedding ring in a resting place and perhaps create a sense of appreciation for his relationship with the reader without a ghost sitting on the table?
i was thinking, they are together in this limbo between dating and marriage for eight years now. he still gives classes and the reader is happy writing and building her library. vallar and matarys have a whole life distant of their father wings. he looks at the wedding ring, the one he keeps because he owns so much to jena, but also, because he cant go throught it, the loss, the mourn, vallar and matarys with that orphan look and take that ring and put another is reopen the same pain. but then he looks at reader. shes in bed, her hands in the belly that grows everyday in a call with valarr. and prof!baelor dont want her to resent him when the babygirl grow up and wondered why her father never married her mother. and he dont want her to doubt the place she ocupies in his heart, in his sons heart.
he didnt take it that night. the ring seems glued in his finger.
and maybe he never takes of his hand, but only change the finger the ring is in and, silently, offer the reader a gold band. his name inside hers and hers inside his. is simple, there is no cerimony, nothing too formal, but is a restart. is hope.
anon this is BEAUTIFUL and sweet and gorgeous omg 😭 i cannot speak on The Ring much because i fear i would accidentally spoil something big but i am so here for all this bittersweetness <3
the nation of prof!baaelor au requires more reader social media posts if you would be so inclined. the difference in the way they text, the candid photos of him on her insta. what would her wallpaper be? their photo gallery’s being proof of their love even though I imagine baelor’s phone to be a little boring
little glimpse inside reader's phone (hope it's okay if i use the courtney fc so that she has a face lol)
Sad Saturday but it’s how the ghost of Jena haunts their relationship! does baelor see her in the books he recommends or reads with reader? the places they go to? a subconscious comparison to what life was like when Jena was alive? does she haunt the narrative or is it separate enough that reader never feels like third wheel to a ghost? what’s life like when it’s Jena’s birthday or their wedding anniversary or even her death anniversary…
i think that no matter how functional reader & baelor's relationship becomes and no matter how much he heals from the grief of losing jena, there are just these certain small things that can't be changed. he'll always become a bit of a ghost on his wedding anniversary with jena. he'll disappear for the day to visit her grave and maybe spend time with the boys. on her death anniversary, he'll shut himself in his office and just be by himself. reader just comes to accept that there are a handful of days every year where baelor has to be jena's husband instead of hers. and maybe she doesn't love that, but she comes to live with it.
The angst is so good in prof baelor fic, but would he get jealous and desperate if reader finally said "enough" because she can't take feeling like a dirty secret any longer, gives an ultimatum and leaves him? Like what would he do to get her back after boiling himself alive frog style?
Reader and dunk on a beach, suffering while dunk tries too cheer her up
Baelor having spotted them from a balcony: suffering like the tragic prince
i think about a What Are We Ultimatum so much and i'm like okay. i had these two get in a fight where baelor's pov was "you're acting immature and pretending like actions don't have consequences and it's a little demeaning to yourself because you're much smarter than that" and reader's pov was "i'm pointing out that if you really want to end things you should just Do That instead of being mysterious and avoidant about it and also if you think i'm being childish why are we fucking???" and that post-fight-no-talking phase lasted TWO DAYS. like 48 hours. at this point baelor could probably commit first degree murder in front of reader and she'd be back on his doorstep a week later like "heyyyyy. miss u :/"
personification of adorable @mysteriousblindcrow - Tumblr Blog | Tumgag
