connor

fuck wilbur soot.

[mysticalsoot]

my new account is @teddysboy

I'm saying fuck it and letting y'all have it. i no longer associate myself with this (mysticalsoot) account or the person it's about. I'm permanently logging off, and do not wish to come back. again, love you all and I hope to see you in my new space soon <3 stay safe, loves!

[mysticalsoot]

this will most likely be my genuine last and final time that I'm logging into this account.

i retract every fucking positive thing or statement I have ever made about wilbur soot. fuck him. i believed his manipulation, I believed he could be good. FUCK HIM.

i wish I never liked him, because I'm hurt. I can't look at him without wanting to scream in anger. his fucking statement/apology is shit. i expected better, but honestly what should I expect from a man? fuck him.

he's a manipulative fucking dickhead abuser and I'm ashamed of even believing that it couldn't be him. I'm ashamed and I'm hurt and I'm angry.

I'm pissed for how many people in his life he's hurt, I'm pissed for how many lives he's ruined, both those he knows and the people in his fanbase he's hurt.

he was my source of consistency, of comfort for four years. he and his content and band were there when my grandmother died, and the following weeks after that where my mother was 3 hrs from death. he was there through every ounce of loneliness, abuse, and trauma I endured and to find out he causes that to other people PISSES ME OFF.

you can say you told me so all you want, and yes you did. i needed hope, and the dots didn't connect to me. it's what he wanted, to lead us astray and believe he could be good. I'm sorry for everyone who's hurting, you're not alone and it's okay to grieve and hurt and be angry. it's okay to cry and scream and get pissed.

fuck wilbur soot.

I'll be leaving everything up, you can still read every fic I have. they were never written with this wilbur in mind, if that gives you any peace. every fic I've written has always had my DRs version of him, depending on the setting. so if that helps, there. @koithelittle will stay up as well, you can enjoy everything over there as well.

to any requests I haven't finished or posted, I'm sorry, I wish I didn't have to leave, but it's what I must do.

i have a new account and I won't be revealing the user name publicly but if you wish to follow me, you can dm me and I'll send it to you.

thank you for all you've given me here. for the love, the support, the community. I can't thank you enough. this account has given me friends, community and family and I am beyond thankful, but my time here is done. this account is tainted by a horrible person and I wish to be rid of him. this is about him, not you all.

i love you, stay safe, take care of yourself<3

- connor

[mysticalsoot]

i logged out on my mobile devices but about to log out on my laptop, but before i do, i need to scream angerily for a minute. if you wish to send hate, sure, have fucking at it; i dont care anymore. for those of you who are kind and lovely, i hope you're alright, and i may see you again one day.

now onto the screaming.

FUCK YOU. fuck everyone who took my words out of context, fuck everyone who verbally attacked me, fuck everyone who told me i was a mentally ill parasocial dream stan person. FUCK YOU!!

fuck everyone who's ever EVER sent a damn threat to ANYONE for not jumping ship immediately, for not automatically believing twitter speculation.

FUCK YOU for telling wilbur to kill himself, to stick to the 27 muscian rule. and fuck you who SUPPORTED DOXXING wilbur. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!! fuck, you.

fuck you all for every shit thing ive had to see, hear or experience in the past fucking almost WEEK

fuck you for driving me away from what has made me grow, from what has given me reason to live. congrats, and fuck you.

[koithelittle]

I left my main blog, and with @mysticalsoot goes this blog with it. I don’t think i’ll be back, i still stand by what i’ve said there, but it’s too much now. I can’t do it anymore.

i love you all, i had so much fun while i was here. take care, and i’ll see you all in another life<3

[mysticalsoot]

I hope that I’ve been able to help some of y’all. Keep your chin up.

I’ll see you all in another time, I won’t be back.

Take care, drink water, be safe<3

[mysticalsoot]

I'll be logged out for a bit today. I need to give myself a bit more space again, I'm tired, and sick and honestly I need a breather.

love you all, take care of yourselves<3

[mysticalsoot]

i have a couple of important asks I plan to answer tomorrow, my body is hurting way too much, especially my hands and arms rn. BUT-

I watched the vod all the way through.

my thoughts have remained the same, I stand with Shelby but I don't think it's Wilbur. And so I support him.

[wilt-the-guy]

The one thing I’m hung up on in the vod that points me firmly in the direction it wasn’t him is that Shelby said after they broke up he never reached out, socialized or even spoke with her again.

There are plenty of streams from the past few years of them being perfectly friendly with each other. Which could be for the camera, or it could be genuine. Wilbur hasn’t really been anywhere in the streaming space for almost two years thanks to Lovejoy, but again up until then they seemed perfectly friendly.

Without a timeline of events we just can’t know, but unless all of this happened while Wilbur was on tour (which wouldn’t even be possible) or in 2020-2021, clearly they’d have spoken and socialized since then. Which would make Shubble’s statement just a blatant lie, which like. Why would she lie about that?

[mysticalsoot]

i have a couple of important asks I plan to answer tomorrow, my body is hurting way too much, especially my hands and arms rn. BUT-

I watched the vod all the way through.

my thoughts have remained the same, I stand with Shelby but I don't think it's Wilbur. And so I support him.

[wilt-the-guy]

I found the vod if anyone wants to watch it for themselves.

Don’t trust claims you hear about tweets or statements unless there are screenshots or clips. Anyone can say anything and make it sound convincing.

Draw your own conclusions. I say it’s too vague to know.

[mysticalsoot]

my wisdom teeth are coming in, kill me nowwwwww

surgery scares me SO bad- tonsil surgery was enough and I had to be anxious for a year before getting it😭

[mysticalsoot]

did some shitty math with lilly last night, and came to the conclusion that it could be 800 thousand other men that we are assuming to be wilbur.

that makes no sense-

it could be anyone. it could be anyone, but because shelby and wil were shipped together, and other varrying factors, it's immediately wilbur.

i don't think it is, but that's my opinion. it's more in depth then that, but I'll leave it there.

[mysticalsoot]

cred; @mrbeeboi

anon asks are off, don't try sending hate to me or the asker

[lillylvjy]

be kind to yourselves.

please.

[mysticalsoot]

I don’t really see why people immediately jumped to Wilbur aside from the shipping back in the day.

I watched the vod, and I don’t recall her mentioning her ex was a musician once. Only that he wrote her a beautiful poem, lived in England, was a filthy slob and the biting. I fit the bill for three of those things (though I’m working on being cleaner). She did say they met online through a mutual social circle, which could be streaming or it could be something else. She didn’t say he was a streamer in the video from what I remember.

Anyway my point is her ex could he literally anyone. I don’t see why everyone is so quick to cast their stones. And like, I hate Dream as much as the next guy, but the evidence looked damning and he was innocent. This is all based on coincidences.

I don't know what she said aside from what I've been told from friends and have seen online. I cannot track her words down to the vod.

From what I've been told, there's things that Twitter has filled in. Things that were not said.

it could be anyone. there is no solid proof or reasoning, it's all mild coincidence and speculation.

i think wilbur was picked because he was convenient, and I think the lack of advocacy against his doxxing, says more than we think.

also I feel like I recognize you from ages ago, so hi again!

anon asks are off, don't try sending hate to me or the asker

[mysticalsoot]

Hi! Bit new to asks but I’ve been a long time lurker! Just wanted to say my peace

While it’s important to always believe victims it’s equally as important to recognize what actually happened and the lack of knowledge we have. I can’t BELIEVE people are so so quick to see the first British boy that sings and is associated with Shubble PUBLICLY (we all know how private Wilbur is about shit) and point out that it COULD be him.

People are literally bashing anyone who decides to be either neutral or thinks it doesn’t add up. But guess what? It DOESNT add up. We’re never given a set date where this happened so it could even possible pre-date when Shubble and Wilbur even met.

There’s so many things people are either missing or just down right refusing to acknowledge. Twitter is nuts, literally everyone and their mom is bashing Wilbur fans, it’s a dumpster fire at this point.

Until he says anything, if he even does, it’s innocent until proven guilty. Ruining someone’s career, someone LIFE, someone’s DREAM, over and IF statement is ludicrous and idiotic.

I’m with you, and everyone who’s sending hate can go fuck themselves.

Sending love <3333333

i agree entirely with your statements!

it is all speculation. we don't have solid background or information to base anything off of. it could be anyone. just because wilbur is your first thought and you think it adds up, doesn't necessarily mean anything here.

there are a lot of details that are being ignored or left out, alot of things that are blurry. I can't even tell you the exact words Shelby spoke because she deleted the vod two days after.

vods don't automatically delete until 30 days. this was intentional.

it's believe the victim yes, but be aware of what is said around you and what doesn't fit. everyone is entitled to their own thoughts and opinions.

thank you for the kindness and support, again I appreciate the hell out of you.

i send twice as much love back<33 thank you.

anon asks are off, don't try sending hate to me or the asker

[mysticalsoot]

Everything you've said on this situation is something I 100% agree and stand with and honestly is such a breath of fresh air to see after spending so much time in the official Lovejoy discord.

People in there were at first being civil with their opinions despite the tense emotions, but it's quickly turning into a "Fuck Wilbur" train since many are straight up convinced he was the one Shelby was talking about, while those trying to stay neutral or are wishing Wilbur luck in changing for the better should it actually be him are being attacked. Mods have been trying to calm the attackers down but it hasn't worked too well from what I've seen. And it's only gotten worse since one of the Sr Sootmods came out and said how they're all leaving their mod positions since they're also convinced he's the abuser. What especially hurts is that one mod went into the chat and even said "Abusers will always be abusers" as if people can't genuinely change for the better.

Also, while we're all here speculating and all that, what happens if it's officially confirmed that it wasn't Wilbur and was instead one of the many other British musicians who had an ant infestation and mold problem (both of which are very common problems in the Uk from what I've heard)? This isn't something you can fix with an "Oops sorry for jumping ship without proper confirmation." It just feels like it's quickly gotten to a point where "Damned if something is said, damned if not."

Sorry for rambling/ranting, but that discord group really got me heated up. Keep your chin up, king. You deserve the crown on your head for sticking to your guns and dealing with the assholes coming to you.

Honestly the more messages I get agreeing with me, the more I'm shocked. When I first started questioning things, I felt if I even uttered them to my sister I'd be crucified. So many people agree and support me and it's insane. It outweighs the hate by millions. (i say that as if my chest wasn't so tight earlier today that I couldn't breathe!)

i checked the lvjy server and wil's server earlier today. lvjy I didn't read much on, and when I found that wil's was closed, I wasn't surprised. i was told by an anon ask that the mods know more, but if they did, I feel as though they all wouldn't have waited until the rest of the internet said it was wilbur.

people can change. hurt people who hurt people can change. abusers are a different level, and oftentimes are unwilling to change or are aware they can. sometimes they do! I've seen it, abusers can change but it's so so so very rare.

but jumping on the bandwagon based on rumor and speculation and then saying that shit is not cool.

something I've been trying to say is that those who've left and abandoned ship will most likely regret it when and if things come out in favor of wil (which my gut leans to yes, but we'll see), theyll have to deal with the consequences of being rash.

i understand not wanting to support a possible abuser, but Shelby didn't say a name. she didn't say one for a reason, whatever that reason is, I don't know. and I have my own feelings on that but I won't voice them yet.

don't apologize for rambling, I understand your frustrations and I see you. thank you for the kind words and the support, it means a lot and it's helping me keep going<3 I will continue to say my piece until I can no longer do so, for whatever reason.

anon asks are off, don't try sending hate to me or the asker

[mysticalsoot]

I just want things to go back to normal :(

Of course I support shubble with every bone in my body but it's just so annoying that I can't go on Tumblr and just read about wilbur like before. There's so much proof it wasn't him and yet people still blame him off just coincidence!

How about instead of just focusing on hating wilbur for some weird coincidence, focus on actually supporting the victim??

It's like all the attention was taken from shubble when she should of had the most support, all because people want to hate others that much :(

Okay rant over. On a side note, I hope you're doing well man, really sorry about all the assholes just trying to be jerks to you. Have a good day/night :)

thank you, and I agree!!

i don't want to speak on Shubble much, simply since I feel you should support her regardless, I focus on speaking about wilbur or the general situation. to show people the side they're not seeing or refusing to, and in the process causing a lot of harm to alot of people, wilbur aside.

thank you, have a wonderful day/night and thank you for your support!!

[mysticalsoot]

Honestly the people sending hate can go fuck themselves, i know my friends and I don't believe it's true

hate will happen, especially when you have differing opinions that don't align with the masses. hate happens, but I've got it. I'd rather take the brunt of it, say what I believe and reassure others who are having a hard time, therefore often keeping them here then shaming them and telling them how horrible they are; as I have been told.

most if not all of you harassing and sending hate, are adults. do better.

anon asks are off, don't try