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[thisfeebleheart]

I have only been in love with one person. Same here. Only one.

[rylandsgrace]

Does it fucking kill you too? Not anymore.

Hollanov + season 1 timeline

[mytwocens]

alright so it's been almost a week since HR finale and I think I've gotten my thoughts together possibly enough to articulate what I'm thinking and feeling about the books and the show.

The books are good and I will be rereading them again to take notes, but I think having Jacob Tierney's hands on them to give the show shape (plus the cast putting on a masterclass in how you portray emotions and intimacy) makes the show even better. And I say this as someone who 99.9% of the time prefers written word over film adaptation.

With the books I wanted to know what happened. I was invested, I was seated, I was ready for the ride to get the characters to their destination. With the show I was struck by the relatability of their emotions, even if not every scene or emotion was something I had experienced personally. The show stayed with me afterward, gave me that kind of fandom hangover the books hadn't.

[ihopeicanchangethislater05]

shane's out there discussing their futures and next to him, is his hungry boyfriend who's absolutely devouring that pasta

[mytwocens]

So I got to wondering: when was the last time he had a home cooked meal made by a parental unit?

[meatdiaz]

i want to take a moment to express genuine gratitude towards heated rivalry the tv show and everyone involved with making it happen because. i kind of almost didn’t know we could have this? a beautiful and intense and intimate queer love story with a happy ending that doesn’t try to sell us something else and doesn’t try to be sexless to seem more palatable for straight people and doesn’t feel forced and where nobody’s acting like they’re doing us a huuuge big favor for letting it exist. it means a lot

[mytwocens]

Heated Rivalry Episode 6: The Cottage

My semi-coherent thoughts (hopefully tagged appropriately as not to spoiler anyone):

- yay more skip! was not expecting it but heck yeah our boys deserve a mention

- the antsy gittery pickup scene was so good, like so hecking relatable

- mister landlord, mister real estate mogul, mister get on your damn knees (but we will not be doing the deed in the dark)

- the subtle nod to it being years so Ilya knows just what Shane likes

- stupid Canadian wolf bird. (that scene was even better in the show)

- god Ilya has such a tragic backstory it always takes me out

- everything about Ilya's head in Shane's lap and the subtle boring intimacy (the way Ilya initially finds it boring that they're just staring at the fire but later on when Shane asks if he wants to go inside he says no - has this man ever known peace before this moment??? my poor Russian bb)

- it is fucking criminal for Shane to be so beautiful when he (almost) cries. exquisite acting goddamn

- don't listen to what society tells you: if men weren't supposed to cry why are they so fucking beautiful when they're undone by emotions?

- the desperate confessions in Russian followed by the one in English hitting me like a freight train

- knowing what's coming < aquatic handstands and giving smooches

- okay yup yup time to set down my coffee because it's go time they are coming up the walk and getting their smooch on

- this is a masterclass in camera work. I don't know shit about film but like the focus and perspectives are so hecking amazing. give this team every damn award for this absolute goddamn cinema

- the camera zooming around and showing just the back of David's head

- the fuckin look Ilya gives Shane when he suggests staying in the car is everything (callback to Yuna and David having a silent convo with a glance in an earlier ep)

- Yuna like 'is that Ilya fucking Rozanov, public enemy number one coming up the walk with my baby boy?'

- David is a fucking beauty

- look, I don't know who cast these actors but I hope both sides of their pillow are always cool because like... all of them killed it. this was so freaking good. the awkward tension, the interpersonal dynamics

- rookie year // the summer before (kicks feet and giggles manically) honorable mention ""lovers"""

- supportive footsie is my new love language

- too busy crying to discuss the scene with Shane and Yuna, my coffee is mostly saltwater now

- he's trying to be loyal to me, not boston (hhhhhhhhhng)

- the fucking comfort when Shane shuts down is just... the way Ilya just steps in and calms him down (like if there was any fucking possibility Y + D doubted Ilya, it just disappeared). I am a puddle of feelings

- David + Ilya are now my new favorite duo, can't wait for them to have special vodka nights when Ilya ends up in Ottawa. Ilya likes "boring" people and also he deserves a good father figure, as a treat (like the way he's like "wow I can't believe it's Rozanov" and yet is like "guess this is my new normal, ok adjustment done" ugh. Side note: can David adopt me?)

- David instantly understanding the assignment re: texting before they come over. GOAT honestly

- post note: the way D + Y were so sad for the kids bc they plan to hide their relationship was arguably more gut wrenching to me once they verbalized it. it's so easy to tune out when the focus is on Shane and Ilya but from outsider pov, especially people who love Shane and want what's best for him like just ughh. and also then you have Ilya who is sitting at this table meeting the parents for the first time and they're so sad for them in direct opposition to what his family was like. fuuuuuck

- post note 2: "she would have loved you... like I love you." (i am unwell)

In summary: how the fuck am I ever supposed to move on? (I'm not, I've been obsessed with sad Russians since 2002 when Beyblade came out in North America and I fear I shall never recover)

[mytwocens]

merry cottage eve ya filthy animals

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