When jealousy, fear, and old trauma collide, Celeste storms into Tyriqโs apartment with heartbreak in her chest and destruction in her hands. What begins as rage quickly becomes something far more vulnerable, forcing both Celeste and Tyriq to confront the ghosts standing between them. In the wreckage of what she breaks, they begin the harder work of honesty, accountability, forgiveness, and learning whether love can still find a home after the storm.
a/n : listen man , tumblr don't want me to be great so the dialogue is in one line instead of its separate paragraph. its driving me insane but i also dont wanna drag this out ! so here's part 2 !
part one is here
The words sat there on the screen in cruel black letters, bright beneath the glow of her phone, and the picture beneath them might as well have been carved into the inside of her skull, Tyriq stepping out somewhere expensive and shadowed, broad shoulders wrapped in dark fabric, face angled away from the camera, and beside him some long-legged, glossy-haired woman with a mouth made for rumors and a dress made for men to remember later, her hand too close to his arm, her smile too familiar, the whole frame composed with the deliberate malice of modern gossip, blurry enough to deny, clear enough to destroy. Celeste stared at it until the image stopped being an image and became evidence, evidence of what, she did not know, and that was the danger.
Her mind did what her body had been trained to do long before therapy ever entered the room; it filled in the blanks with betrayal, with humiliation, with the old sickening knowledge of being made a fool in a house full of beautiful things, with Malcolm coming home smelling like someone elseโs perfume and smiling when she noticed, with the chandelier burning overhead like a false sun while he told her she was dramatic, unstable, insecure, ungrateful. Anger came first, hot and immediate, a match thrown into dry grass, but fear came beneath it like oil beneath the earth, ancient and black and waiting to feed the fire, and by the time hurt joined them, by the time jealousy slid its jeweled fingers around her throat, Celeste had already swallowed the whole poisonous cocktail and called the burn clarity.
She did not remember deciding to go to his apartment; that part would come back later in pieces, the reckless snatch of her keys from the counter, the furious click of heels against marble, the elevator descending too slowly, the city outside the car window smearing into gold and red and midnight blue while her pulse beat behind her eyes like war drums outside the gates of Troy. All she knew was that by the time she arrived, she was no longer Celeste Sterling, not the boardroom monarch, not the woman in therapy, not the survivor who had promised herself she would stop turning terror into cruelty, but Hera descending from Olympus with betrayal foaming beneath her tongue, Medea before the terrible choice, hair unbound, heart set aflame by a manโs public shame, every goddess men had mistaken for decorative until they learned too late that a womanโs rage, once awakened, did not ask permission to become divine.
And she had a golf club in her hand.
Tyriqโs apartment was too clean when she stepped inside, which made it worse somehow, because the sight of his neatness, his dark couch, his shoes lined by the door, his throw blanket folded over the armrest like some domestic little lie, made her feel violently mocked by the life he had been living outside the storm she had been fighting herself through; everything in that apartment looked like him, smelled like him, held the weight of him, and every object seemed to whisper that he had been calm while she had been tearing herself open in therapy trying to become a woman worthy of the love he had sworn he was offering. A laugh tore out of her, sharp and humorless, as she stared at the living room. โOh, you got me fucked up,โ she whispered, though no one was there to hear it, though the sentence was less for Tyriq than for the humiliation crawling up her spine with red nails.
The first swing came before the last word fully left her mouth, the golf club cutting through the air with a clean, vicious whistle before it smashed into the tall glass vase on his console table, shattering it so violently that water, flowers, and jagged crystal exploded across the floor like a constellation being murdered, white lilies skidding over hardwood, petals torn loose and wet, stems broken, the delicate arrangement ruined in an instant beneath the force of a woman who had spent too long arranging herself for men who still found ways to make a mess of her. The sound fed her, and that was the terrifying part, because the crash did not sober her, did not make her step back and gasp at what she had done; it opened something, it pulled the bronze doors of her restraint wide and let the beast come through, and Celesteโs breath hitched not with regret but with the ugly, pulsing relief of destruction finally matching the violence inside her chest.
She swung again, and this time she caught the framed photograph near the bookshelf, the one of Tyriq with his brothers and cousins at some event, all of them smiling wide, all of them looking impossibly warm and alive, and the glass split across Tyriqโs face in a bright, spiderwebbed fracture before the frame hit the floor and bounced once near her feet. โBombshell?โ Celeste said, her voice shaking now, but not from weakness, not from fear, not from anything soft enough to save the room. โNew bombshell?โ She laughed again, louder, uglier, as the words from the headline circled her mind like vultures over a battlefield.
Because had she not been the bomb he kept walking toward? Had she not been the woman with fire under her ribs and ruin in her history, the woman who had let him see parts of her she barely knew how to touch without flinching, the woman who had sat in therapy and said his name like a prayer she was terrified to believe in? She loved him, God help her, she loved Tyriq Withers with a violence that frightened her, loved him in a way that made her feel stripped of all her old, elegant defenses, loved him so deeply that it made her ashamed of how much power he had to hurt her without even lifting his hand, and in her mind, in that terrible, feverish moment, every hard thing she had done had been for him: every session, every confession, every apology she had choked on, every night she had not run, every time she had forced herself not to punish him for loving her, every time she had stood in front of the mirror and told herself, He is not Malcolm, he is not Malcolm, he is not Malcolm, until the words became less a belief than a plea.
And now there he was, photographed beside some woman whose name the internet would learn by morning, while Celeste stood in the ruins of her own effort feeling like Persephone dragged back to the underworld by the ankle after almost touching spring. The television was next, his beautiful, obscene, wall-mounted television, huge and black and silent, reflecting her back to herself in fragments as she approached it, her hair wild around her face, chest heaving, eyes bright with tears she refused to let fall because crying would make her feel like a victim and rage made her feel, for one blessed second, like a god.
The club came down with both hands, the screen cracking in a burst of electric veins, lightning trapped behind glass, and Celeste hit it again, then again, until the reflection of her own face disappeared beneath a web of damage and the living room filled with the brittle crunch of expensive technology giving way beneath fury that had nowhere else to go. โYou had me sitting in that office talking about healing,โ she spat, not caring that he was not there, not caring that the apartment could not answer, not caring that she sounded half-mad because maybe she was, maybe love had always been a kind of madness when it came dressed as devotion and left you standing in the dark with a weapon in your hand. โYou had me out here trying to be better for you.โ
She crossed the room like a storm with a name, the club dragging once against the floor behind her, metal scraping wood with a sound that set her teeth on edge and still did not slow her, because everything in the apartment suddenly had the audacity to exist peacefully while she felt like her heart had been thrown from the top of a burning tower. The coffee table shattered when she brought the club down on it, glass collapsing into diamonds around her feet, magazines sliding through the wreckage, one candle rolling under the couch as wax smeared across the floor, and Celeste stepped over it like a queen walking through a conquered city, breath ragged, pulse wild, the old terror and new jealousy braided together so tightly she could no longer tell whether she wanted to hurt him, hurt the room, or hurt the version of herself that had dared to hope.
Because hope was humiliating. Hope was standing in front of a man and letting him see where the door was. Hope was telling Dr. Hargrove that Tyriq made her feel young, before, alive, only to find herself staring at a headline that made every soft thing in her feel stupid for crawling out into the light. She moved into the kitchen, and his kitchen was neat too, of course it was, with dishes stacked in the cabinet, a stainless steel pan drying by the sink, a bottle of hot sauce near the stove, protein powder near the counter, the ordinary evidence of a man living his life, and it made her so furious she could barely breathe.
The club struck the cabinet door first, splintering the wood at the hinge, then caught a row of glasses that burst across the countertop in bright little deaths, then swept through a set of plates so hard that porcelain flew everywhere, white shards skidding beneath the fridge, bouncing off the lower cabinets, breaking into smaller and smaller pieces until the whole kitchen looked like someone had dropped the moon and stomped through the fragments. โWas she worth it?โ Celeste demanded, voice breaking on the question, and the break only enraged her more because she did not want to sound wounded, did not want to sound like some woman begging for reassurance in the ruins, did not want to be the kind of woman men felt sorry for after they finished humiliating her.
She wanted to be terrible. She wanted to be untouchable. She wanted every object he owned to understand what it felt like to be loved by a woman who thought she had been betrayed. She wanted Tyriq to come home and see the shape of her pain made physical, to see that she had not simply cried over him, had not curled into herself like a kicked thing, had not sat quietly with her heart in her hands while the world called another woman a bombshell next to his name. No. She wanted him to walk into devastation and know her fingerprints were holy and furious on every broken surface.
The bedroom was worse because the bedroom smelled like him, clean sheets, cedar, warm skin, the cologne she pretended not to notice but could identify in a crowded room with her eyes closed, all of it rising around her the second she crossed the threshold, and for a moment, just one treacherous moment, her rage faltered beneath the memory of his hands on her waist, his laugh against her neck, his voice saying her name when she was being impossible, patient and low and knowing, as if he had always understood the exact temperature of her chaos. That almost stopped her. Almost.
Then she saw the shirt folded on the chair, the one she had worn once after spending the night, the one he had kept without saying anything, and the tenderness of it hit her so hard it curdled immediately into fresh anger, because how dare he keep pieces of her softness in his room while letting the world photograph him beside someone else. The closet doors slammed open beneath her hand, his clothes hung there, arranged by color, dark jackets, designer shirts, hoodies, sweatpants, suits he looked unfairly good in, all of them bearing witness to the man she loved and the life he had built and the ease with which he seemed able to exist outside the ache that consumed her.
Celeste swung, the club tearing through hangers and fabric, knocking shoes from shelves, bringing a row of boxes crashing down like offerings thrown from an altar, and she kept going until shirts lay twisted on the floor and one of his watches had skittered beneath the dresser and the clean, masculine order of the space had been dragged into the same chaos clawing at her insides. Her arms ached, her ribs burned with effort, her hair stuck to her face, and tears had come at some point, hot and furious and unwanted, but she barely noticed them except when they blurred her vision and made the room swim.
โYou donโt get to do this to me,โ she said, though the words were barely coherent now, torn from somewhere so deep they sounded older than language. โYou do not get to make me love you and then do this to me.โ Because that was the heart of it, the ugly, naked thing beneath all the smashing and screaming and goddess rage. He had made her love him, not by force, not with manipulation, not by trapping her in the cruel architecture Malcolm had built, but by being there, by staying, by laughing at her, by seeing her, by touching the wounded animal in her chest and not recoiling when it bared its teeth.
He had made her love him by being safe long enough that she started to believe in doors without locks, and if that safety had been false, if all that patience had been performance, if every moment of tenderness had led her back to the same old altar where a woman laid herself down and called it devotion until a man decided whether to spare her, then Celeste did not know what part of herself would survive it. So she broke his world before it could break her. She raised the golf club again, standing in the middle of his bedroom like Nemesis beneath a dying star, hair loose, chest heaving, mascara streaked at the corners of her eyes, surrounded by torn fabric, shattered glass, ruined furniture, and the terrible music of her own breathing.
Somewhere in the apartment, something creaked, maybe the building settling, maybe the door, maybe nothing. Celeste turned her head slowly, eyes blazing, the club still gripped in both hands, knuckles tight, body humming with so much rage and heartbreak that she looked less like a woman and more like a warning sent from the gods after centuries of men mistaking love for something they could test without consequence. And still, beneath the fury, beneath the destruction, beneath the hurricane she had become, one truth beat against her ribs with brutal, humiliating force: she loved him. She loved Tyriq. She loved him so much she could not tell whether she wanted to ruin him or crawl into his arms and make him swear, swear on every star in the sky and every god who had ever punished a man for arrogance, that the headline meant nothing, that the woman meant nothing, that Celeste had not done all this healing just to be made a fool in front of the whole world. But he was not there to swear it, so Celeste lifted the club again.
The sound that made Celeste turn was not the building settling. It was the front door, not opening softly, not with the careless rhythm of a man coming home to peace, but swinging inward with a force that sent the ruined vase shards near the entryway skittering across the floor like frightened stars, and for one suspended second, Tyriq Withers stood in the threshold of his own apartment and looked at the wreckage as if he had walked into a war zone where every casualty had once belonged to him.
His face changed in layers: first came confusion, sharp and immediate, his eyes moving over the broken glass, the demolished television, the flowers dead on the floor, the cracked photo frames, the kitchen cabinet hanging from one hinge like a jaw knocked loose, the shattered plates scattered like moon fragments across hardwood and tile; then came recognition, not of the room, but of her. Celeste stood in the middle of his bedroom doorway with his golf club in both hands, hair loosened around her shoulders, chest rising and falling with ragged fury, mascara shadowed beneath her eyes, cheeks wet though she looked too enraged to admit she had been crying, and Tyriq went still in a way that had nothing to do with fear and everything to do with a man trying, very quickly, to calculate how close he could get to a woman with a weapon before either of them did something they could not take back.
โCeleste,โ he said, her name low in his throat, not angry yet, not the way another man might have been angry walking into devastation, but careful, too careful, like he had entered a room with gasoline on the floor and was trying not to strike a match by breathing wrong. That caution only made her angrier, because caution looked too much like guilt when a woman was already bleeding from her pride. โDonโt,โ she said, lifting the club slightly, not at him exactly, but not away from him either, the metal head catching the bedroom light in a cold silver flare. โDonโt say my name like you about to calm me down, Tyriq.โ
His eyes flicked from the club to her face, then back to the club, and something in his jaw hardened. โWhat the hell are you doing?โ Celeste laughed, and the sound was jagged, beautiful in the most frightening way, the kind of laugh that belonged to women standing at the edge of cliffs in old myths, hair whipping in the wind, gods watching too late from the clouds. โWhat does it look like Iโm doing?โ she asked, turning back toward the bedroom as if his presence had not interrupted the ritual but merely given it an audience. โIโm redecorating.โ
Before he could move, she swung again, the club coming down on the dresser mirror with a sound so violent the whole room seemed to flinch, glass cracking outward from the impact in a web of silver lightning, and Tyriq stepped forward instinctively, one hand lifting, his body already moving to stop her before his mind could finish deciding how. โCeleste, put the club down.โ She turned on him so fast he stopped. โWhy?โ she demanded, breathing hard, eyes blazing. โSo you can explain? So you can stand there with that calm-ass voice and tell me Iโm tripping? Tell me itโs not what it looks like? Tell me Iโm crazy for seeing what the whole damn internet saw before I did?โ
Tyriqโs brow pulled tight. โWhat are you talking about?โ That did it, that innocent confusion, whether real or performed, made something in her snap clean through. Celeste crossed the room in three furious strides, snatched her phone from where she had thrown it onto the bed, and hurled it at his chest hard enough that he caught it on reflex, his eyes dropping to the screen just as the headline glowed between them like an oracle delivering a death sentence. TYRIQ WITHERS SPOTTED WITH NEW BOMBSHELL.
His face shifted again, slower this time, understanding moving through him like a storm cloud covering the sun. โCelesteโโ โNo,โ she cut in, pointing the club at him now, her arm trembling with rage and exertion and something so much worse than both. โNo, donโt Celeste me. Donโt stand in this room like you donโt know how this looks, like you donโt know what that headline does, like you donโt know people been waiting to see me look stupid beside you.โ
Tyriq looked from the screen to her, and for one second, beneath the shock, beneath the rising anger, beneath the clear and reasonable part of him that knew his apartment was being destroyed and that this was objectively insane, he saw it, not the mess, not the club, but her. The emotion poured out of her like a dam had finally cracked after years of holding back the sea, and Celeste, who rationed vulnerability like it was medication that could kill her in the wrong dose, was standing in front of him practically split open, furious, jealous, humiliated, devastated, wild with love she did not know how to say without turning it into a weapon.
The realization hit him somewhere below the ribs with such force that for one insane, inappropriate, deeply inconvenient second, all he could think was that this was the most alive she had looked in months; not happy, not okay, but alive, on fire, present, feeling everything with no glass between them. And God help him, even in the middle of his destroyed apartment, even with his television cracked beyond repair and his cabinet hanging sideways and his favorite watch probably buried under a landslide of his own clothes, some part of him recognized the terrible intimacy of finally being allowed to see the storm instead of only its aftermath.
Then she swung at the lamp. โCeleste!โ he barked. The lamp exploded against the wall, shade collapsing, bulb bursting, sparks of glass scattering across the floor as she recoiled from the impact only long enough to steady her grip again. โDonโt yell at me,โ she snapped. โYou in my apartment breaking my shit with a golf club.โ โAnd Iโll break more.โ โI see that.โ โGood,โ she hissed, turning toward the nightstand now, eyes darting over his things like she was choosing which part of him hurt next. โThen keep watching.โ
Tyriq moved fast, but she was faster than he expected, not in the controlled way she moved through boardrooms and hospitals, not with that regal precision that made men twice her age sit up straighter, but with the frightening momentum of a woman possessed by heartbreak, a maenad tearing through marble halls while Dionysus laughed somewhere in the dark. He reached for the club, but she jerked it back and swung low, not at him, at the nightstand beside him, cracking the top so hard one drawer popped open and spilled receipts, cufflinks, and an old charger onto the floor.
โStop,โ he said, sharper now, stepping back because the metal head had passed close enough to his thigh to make the danger undeniable. โWhy?โ she shouted, and there it was, her voice finally breaking into something raw enough to make him stop breathing for half a second. โWhy should I stop, Tyriq? You stopped? You thought about me before you let some bitch smile in your face for cameras? You thought about what that would do to me?โ โIt was a picture.โ โIt was a headline.โ โIt was nothing.โ โNothing,โ Celeste repeated, tasting the word like poison, her laugh coming out wet and vicious. โOf course it was nothing. Itโs always nothing to men when they not the ones being humiliated.โ
Tyriqโs eyes narrowed, anger finally rising properly now, not enough to make him reckless but enough to put steel in his voice. โWatch how you talk to me.โ โOh, now you got standards?โ she said, stepping over broken glass as if she did not feel it beneath her shoes. โNow you got boundaries? Now I gotta watch my mouth while your name is online next to some woman they calling a bombshell?โ โI didnโt put that headline up.โ โBut you gave them the picture.โ โShe was at the same event.โ โAnd her hand was where?โ โCeleste.โ โWhere was her hand, Tyriq?โ
His jaw flexed. โNear my arm.โ โNear your arm,โ she repeated, nodding as if the phrase had confirmed every nightmare she had been trying not to have. โNear your arm, smiling like she knew something, dressed like she wanted the world to ask questions, and you just standing there looking good and guilty.โ โI looked guilty because a camera caught me walking out a damn building?โ โYou looked available.โ
The words hit harder than either of them expected. Tyriq blinked once, and for the first time since he had walked in, something wounded crossed his face. Celeste saw it, hated that she saw it, hated that it made her want to cry again, so she chose the club instead. The next swing caught the closet door, splintering the frame, and Tyriq cursed under his breath, moving toward her again with his hands up, not grabbing, not yet, because even furious, even shocked, even standing ankle-deep in the ruins of his own bedroom, he knew enough about Celeste to know that forcing something out of her hands while she was this far gone could turn the whole room into a different kind of battlefield.
He did not know the details. That was the thing. He knew Malcolm had been bad because everyone spoke around that marriage like it was a grave they did not want to step too close to, knew Celeste had survived something that made her flinch at certain tones and turn cold at certain touches, knew she had a history she kept locked behind so many doors that even loving her felt sometimes like standing outside a museum after closing, able to see the lights inside but never the full exhibit. But he did not know about the grits, did not know about Chewie trembling against her chest in the rain, did not know about blood down her nose and bruised ribs and the sound of Malcolmโs hand hitting the side of her car, did not know that love, for Celeste, had once been a house with too many locks and not enough air.
All he knew was that she was breaking his shit like each object had personally betrayed her, and that beneath the fury she looked terrified in a way that made his anger twist into something more complicated. โCeleste,โ he said again, lower this time, trying to reach her through the sirens wailing in her head. โLook at me.โ โI looked at you,โ she snapped. โThat was the problem.โ โNo, look at me now.โ She did, and the look she gave him was so full of rage it should have scorched the paint from the walls. โWhat?โ โI did not touch that woman.โ
Celesteโs nostrils flared. โI did not leave with that woman,โ he continued, voice firm, eyes locked on hers. โI did not flirt with that woman. I did not do anything with that woman.โ โBut she wanted you.โ โPeople want me all the time.โ Her eyes flashed, and he knew immediately he had said the wrong thing. โYou arrogant son of aโโ โIโm not saying it like that,โ he cut in, frustrated, dragging one hand down his face before catching himself because he needed both hands free in case she swung again. โIโm saying I canโt control what somebody writes, I canโt control what somebody wants, I canโt control what angle a camera catches when Iโm walking out of an event.โ
โBut you can control what you entertain.โ โI didnโt entertain anything.โ โYou entertained being seen with her.โ โI was seen near her.โ โThatโs convenient.โ โThatโs the truth.โ โTruth,โ she whispered, and her mouth twisted like the word disgusted her. โMen love that word after they already done made you feel crazy.โ Tyriq stared at her, and something in him shifted at that, because that sentence had not come from the headline, not entirely, and it had not come from him, not unless he had missed something so badly that the thought made his stomach drop. โWho are you talking to right now?โ he asked quietly.
Celeste froze for half a second, then her face hardened. โYou.โ โNo,โ he said, taking one careful step closer. โNo, you not.โ The club lifted again, but not as high this time. โDonโt psychoanalyze me.โ โIโm not.โ โYou are.โ โIโm asking you who you fighting right now, because I walked in here and it ainโt just me in this room with you.โ
Her grip tightened around the handle. For one awful moment, Malcolmโs ghost seemed to stand between them, invisible but massive, wearing Tyriqโs silhouette like a stolen coat, his voice threaded through every fear Celeste had not yet learned how to separate from the man in front of her, and because that frightened her, because Tyriq had come too close to the old door and nearly found the locks, she lunged for rage again. โIโm fighting the man who had me looking like a fool!โ she yelled, swinging at a stack of shoe boxes so hard they collapsed off the shelf, sneakers and tissue paper tumbling across the floor. โIโm fighting the man who got me sitting in therapy talking about how he makes me feel safe while heโs outside with some Instagram-built bitch letting strangers put her name next to his.โ
Tyriqโs face flickered. โYou talk about me in therapy?โ That question, somehow, cut through the room more than the shouting had. Celeste turned toward him, chest heaving, eyes bright. โDonโt look touched,โ she warned, voice trembling. โDonโt you dare look touched right now.โ โIโm notโโ โYou are,โ she said, and the tears spilled over again, furious and beautiful and humiliating. โYou are, and I hate that. I hate that you can stand here in the middle of all this and still find some little piece of me to be soft about.โ
Tyriq swallowed, because she was right. Even now, with half his belongings destroyed and the other half in immediate danger, he could not stop looking at her like he wanted to reach through the flames without burning her further. โThatโs what you mad about?โ he asked, voice rougher now. โThat I love you even when you make it hard?โ Celesteโs mouth parted, and the club lowered another inch. Then the headline flashed in her mind again, and the image of that woman beside him returned like a blade sliding cleanly back into the wound. โYou donโt get to say that,โ she whispered. โYou do not get to love me in private and embarrass me in public.โ
โI didnโt embarrass you.โ โThe world thinks you did.โ โI donโt give a damn what the world thinks.โ โI do!โ she screamed, and there it was, the truth thrown like lightning from the top of Olympus. โI care because I have been standing here trying to become a woman who can love you without punishing you for every man who hurt me before you, and then I open my phone and see that, and all I can think is I knew better, I knew better, I knew better.โ
Tyriq went still, and the apartment, somehow, seemed to go still with him. Celesteโs breathing shook, and she looked almost surprised by what had come out of her own mouth, as if the confession had been pulled from her by force and left her standing exposed in the wreckage. Tyriq took another step, and this time she did not swing. โCeleste,โ he said, carefully, like her name was something breakable he had no intention of dropping. โBabyโโ โDonโt call me that,โ she said, but there was less venom in it now, more pain. He stopped anyway, because despite the broken glass, despite the chaos, despite the fact that she had turned his apartment into a memorial for her jealousy, he heard the line beneath the words and respected it. โOkay,โ he said. โCeleste.โ
Her throat worked. โYou made me love you,โ she said, and the accusation in it was so raw it almost sounded like grief. โYou kept coming back. You kept showing up. You kept looking at me like I wasnโt ruined. You kept making me laugh and feeding me and touching me like I was something precious, and I told myself not to believe you, I told myself not to be stupid, but you were soโโ She stopped, furious at herself, shaking her head as if she could physically knock the vulnerability loose. โSo what?โ Tyriq asked, his voice barely above a murmur. โSo steady,โ she snapped, as if the word offended her. โSo damn steady. Like you had all the time in the world for me to stop being scared.โ
His eyes softened, and that softness almost undid her more than anger would have. โSo when I saw that,โ she continued, lifting one trembling hand toward the phone lying somewhere behind him, โit felt like the floor opened up under me, and I hated you for it. I hated you because I love you. I hated you because I thought you finally found the door everybody else found.โ Tyriqโs brows pulled together. โWhat door?โ โThe one out,โ she said.
The quiet after that was huge, ancient, the kind of quiet that existed before gods gave names to grief. Tyriq looked at her then, really looked, and whatever anger had been left in him had nowhere to stand against the sight of Celeste Sterling, brilliant, impossible, terrifying Celeste, holding a golf club like a sword while admitting, in the ruins of his bedroom, that she had been waiting for him to leave her. He wanted to grab her, wanted to shake her, wanted to hold her so tightly neither of them could tell where the wreckage ended, wanted to ask her what the hell had happened to make her believe love was always one wrong headline away from abandonment, but he did not know how to ask that without stepping on a landmine.
So he said the only thing he knew was true. โIโm not Malcolm.โ Celesteโs face went white with shock so fast he knew he had touched something deeper than he understood. He regretted it immediately, not because it was untrue, but because saying the manโs name out loud made the room colder, as if an old god had been summoned by accident and now stood listening from the corner. โI know that,โ she said, but her voice had changed, gone thin and dangerous. โDo you?โ The club came back up, not high enough to strike, but high enough to warn. โYou donโt know what youโre talking about.โ
โYouโre right,โ Tyriq said, and that honesty stopped her more than defensiveness would have. โI donโt. I know it was bad, I know nobody tells me the whole story, I know sometimes you look at me like Iโm holding a match when Iโm just trying to turn on a light, but I donโt know what he did, Celeste, because you wonโt tell me.โ She stared at him, tears still on her face, fury trembling in every line of her body. โAnd maybe thatโs my right,โ she said. โIt is.โ The answer came so quickly that her mouth shut. Tyriq took another careful step, eyes flicking once to the club and back to her. โItโs your right,โ he said again. โYou donโt owe me every ugly thing that happened to you. You donโt owe me a tour through hell so I can prove I love you. But you also donโt get to turn my apartment into Pompeii every time a headline scares you.โ
Celeste let out a broken, disbelieving laugh. โPompeii?โ โYeah, Pompeii,โ he said, anger sparking again despite himself as he gestured at the room. โAshes, ruins, bodies frozen in place, all that. Look around.โ She did, for the first time really looked, at the ruined mirror, the torn clothes, the shattered lamp, the broken nightstand, the cracked screen in the other room catching light in jagged pieces. The apartment looked like her insides had been given permission to decorate. Her face flickered. Shame tried to enter. Rage slammed the door in its face.
โSo what?โ she said, voice hoarse. โYou want me to apologize? You want me to stand here and be sorry because your things broke when I felt like my whole chest got ripped open?โ โI want you to stop swinging the damn club.โ โAnd then what?โ โAnd then we talk.โ โWe are talking.โ โNo,โ Tyriq said, shaking his head. โYou are destroying property in between accusations.โ She almost smiled, almost, but it vanished before it became mercy. โMaybe you shouldโve thought about your property before you let that woman stand next to you.โ โFor the last time, I did not let anything happen.โ โYou always got an answer.โ โBecause I didnโt do what you accusing me of.โ
The back-and-forth cracked through the room like thunder chasing lightning, fast and hot and dangerous, and Celeste felt herself slipping again, felt the rage begin to rise not because he was lying, but because he sounded too reasonable, too solid, too sure of himself, while she felt like a woman trying to hold back the sea with both hands bleeding. She turned away from him sharply, lifting the club toward the framed jersey mounted on the wall near the corner. Tyriq saw where she was looking, and his voice changed. โDonโt.โ
Celeste paused. The jersey mattered. She knew it did. The knowledge went through her like wine, dark and powerful and terrible. โCeleste,โ he said, and now there was real warning in his voice, not fear, not pleading, but the sound of a man drawing a line. โDo not touch that.โ She turned her head slowly, tears shining on her cheeks, mouth curved into something wounded and cruel. โOh,โ she said softly. โThis one hurts?โ Tyriqโs jaw set. โPut the club down.โ โThis one sacred?โ โCeleste.โ โYou got a lot of sacred things in here for a man who plays with mine.โ
His eyes flashed. โI didnโt play with you.โ โYou made me love you,โ she said again, and this time it came out almost as a sob, though she forced her mouth around it like an accusation, because if she let it become a confession she might not survive the sound. โYou made me love you, Tyriq.โ Then she swung, not at the jersey, but at the wall beside it. The club crashed through drywall with a dull, ugly thud, missing the frame by inches, and Tyriq moved before she could pull back for another swing. โEnough.โ
He reached for the club, catching the shaft with one hand, but Celeste yanked hard, and the two of them struggled with it for one wild second, close enough now that he could smell her perfume beneath sweat and fury, close enough that she could see the strain in his face, the hurt he had been trying to keep behind his teeth, the disbelief that she could do all this and still expect his love to stand there untouched like a statue made of stone. โLet go,โ he said. โYou let go.โ โCeleste.โ โLet go!โ She twisted, trying to rip the club free, but the motion sent the metal head jerking sideways, and before either of them could stop it, the blunt end caught Tyriq hard in the side.
The sound was not dramatic, it was worse, a sick, compact impact, followed by Tyriqโs sharp grunt as his hand released the club and his body folded slightly around the hit, one palm flying to his ribs, his breath leaving him in a harsh burst. Celeste froze, and the club lowered. For the first time since he had walked in, silence truly took the room. Tyriq looked down, breathing through the pain, one hand pressed to his side, and when he lifted his face again, his expression was different, not furious, not yet, but stunned, wounded in a way that had nothing to do with the blow. Celesteโs mouth opened, horror breaking through the rage like dawn through smoke. โTyriqโโ He lifted one hand, stopping her.
And there they stood, surrounded by the wreckage of his apartment, both of them breathing hard, the golf club still in her grip but no longer raised, his side aching where she had struck him, her face suddenly stripped of goddess and fury and left only with the woman underneath, terrified by the sight of what her pain had done when it finally found flesh instead of furniture. Tyriq looked at her for a long moment, then, voice low and rough with pain, he said, โNow you ready to stop?โ
For one horrifying second, Celeste did not hear him, not because he had spoken too quietly, not because his voice had disappeared beneath the ringing aftermath of the blow, but because the sight of Tyriq folded slightly around his own pain emptied the room of every other sound, every other thought, every other reason she had stormed in there like a woman carrying fire in both hands. The headline vanished, the bombshell vanished, the apartment, the broken television, the ruined cabinets, the shattered mirror, the destroyed evidence of her jealousy and fear and humiliation, all of it blurred into the edges of her vision until there was only Tyriqโs hand pressed against his side and the sharp, controlled way he was breathing through the place where she had struck him.
She had hurt him, not his things, not the neat, masculine order of his apartment, not the version of him she had invented in her head when the headline tore open the old wound and poured Malcolmโs ghost into it, but him. Tyriq. Her Tyriq. The man who had brought ribs to her unfinished hospital office at midnight, who had laughed at her runaway whiteboard, who had stood still in the middle of her storms so many times that she had mistaken his steadiness for something indestructible, something mythic, something like Atlas holding up the sky without complaint. But Atlas could bruise. Gods could bleed. And Tyriq Withers, for all his size, all his confidence, all his broad-shouldered patience that made her furious because it felt so much like safety, was standing in front of her with his jaw tight and his breath uneven because she had swung hard enough to make him flinch.
The golf club slipped lower in her hand. โTyriq,โ she said, and his name came out wrong, thin and broken and stripped bare of all the fury she had wrapped around it moments before. He looked at her, still breathing through the pain, still holding his side, still trying to keep his face unreadable in that infuriating, masculine way men did when they were hurt and had decided that showing it would somehow make the injury worse. โPut the club down,โ he said, quieter now, though the command in it had not disappeared. Celeste looked at the club as if she had forgotten it was there. For a moment, the metal shaft in her hand looked obscene, monstrous, a relic from some battlefield she had created and then become terrified of, and her fingers opened so quickly it clattered onto the floor between them, bouncing once against a piece of broken dresser mirror with a sound that made her whole body jerk.
Then she moved toward him, not carefully, not rationally, not with any awareness of the terrain beneath her feet, but because he was hurt and every part of her, every savage, wounded, half-healed, terrified part of her, suddenly had one purpose and one purpose only, to get to him, to see how bad it was, to put her hands where the pain was and somehow undo the fact that her own pain had found his body. โLet me see,โ she said, voice trembling as she stepped forward. Tyriqโs gaze dropped, and his face changed. โCeleste, stop.โ She did not. โLet me see, Tyriq.โ โCeleste,โ he snapped, sharper now, and the bark of her name made her flinch, but not enough to stop, not enough to override the panic that had narrowed the whole universe down to his ribs beneath his hand. โStop moving.โ
โI hit you,โ she said, as if he did not know, as if saying it aloud might somehow organize the horror of it into something she could survive. โI hit you, I didnโt meanโGod, I didnโt mean to hit you, let me see.โ She took another step, then another, and the broken glass accepted her before she felt it, a soft, wet pressure under her foot, a sharp bloom of pain that registered somewhere far away, distant as a star dying outside the visible sky, but Celeste did not look down, did not even seem to understand that her heels had been kicked off somewhere in the earlier chaos, that she was barefoot now among the glittering wreckage of his apartment, walking through the consequences of herself with no regard for the fact that those consequences had teeth.
Tyriq saw the first red mark before she did, a thin smear against the hardwood, then another, and his eyes widened, pain forgotten so violently that anger surged back into his face, not the anger from before, not the disbelief of a man watching his home be destroyed, but something hotter, more immediate, more frightened. โCeleste, stop!โ he shouted. She froze only because the panic in his voice cut through hers. โWhat?โ she breathed, eyes still locked on his hand at his side. โWhat, is it bad? Did Iโdid I break something?โ He stared at her like she had lost her mind. Maybe she had. โYouโre bleeding.โ
Celeste blinked. For the first time, she looked down. Her foot was planted among splinters of mirror and glass from the lamp, small bright shards scattered like fallen stars around her toes, and there was blood now, not much at first, but enough to streak red against the floor, enough that the sight of it should have brought her back to herself, enough that any sane woman would have stopped breathing and stepped away carefully. But Celeste only looked at it for half a second, then she looked back at him. โI donโt care,โ she said, and the words were so immediate, so automatic, so devastatingly honest that they seemed to knock the air from both of them. โTyriq, move your hand.โ
Something in his face broke open, not fully, not dramatically, but enough, because there she was, the woman who had just turned his apartment into a ruin out of jealousy and fear, the woman who had screamed at him like Hera lighting the heavens on fire, the woman who had nearly taken a golf club to the things he loved because she thought he had made a fool of her, standing barefoot in broken glass and telling him she did not care because he was hurt. And suddenly Tyriq understood, with a clarity that made his chest tighten around something far worse than the ache in his side, that Celeste did not lack love. That had never been the problem. Celeste loved like a house on fire, like someone dragging a body out of the underworld with her bare hands, loved him so much that the thought of hurting him made her forget she was bleeding. The problem was that she had learned love in rooms where pain and devotion had been fed from the same bowl, and now every feeling in her arrived armed.
โBaby,โ he said, before he could stop himself. Her face crumpled at the word, not all the way, not into tears yet, but enough that the rage slid off her features and left terror behind, raw and young and shaking. โI hurt you,โ she whispered. โYouโre stepping in glass.โ โI hurt you.โ โCeleste.โ โI hurt you,โ she repeated, louder now, frantic, her breathing quickening as if the sentence itself had become a trap she could not escape. โI was trying to pull away, I didnโt mean to, I swear I didnโt mean to hit you, Tyriq, I swear, I wasnโt trying toโโ โI know,โ he said. โYou donโt know,โ she said, her eyes wild, and then she tried to move again, tried to close the space between them as if she could fix him by reaching him quickly enough.
Tyriq moved faster, catching her by the forearms before her foot could come down on another jagged piece, his own injury making him wince as he stepped into her, but he did not let go, did not yank, did not restrain her roughly, only held her still with both hands firm around her arms, his palms warm against her skin, his face inches from hers. โStop,โ he said, low and forceful. โYou are bleeding, Celeste.โ โI donโt care.โ โI care.โ The words struck her harder than his anger had. Her mouth parted, but nothing came out. Tyriqโs grip loosened slightly, not releasing her, just softening enough that she could feel the difference between being held and being trapped, between a man controlling her and a man trying to keep her from tearing herself open on the floor. โI care,โ he repeated, his voice rough with pain and frustration and something dangerously close to heartbreak. โSo stand still.โ
Celeste shook her head, tears gathering fast now, not elegant tears, not the silent kind she could turn away and hide beneath dignity, but the messy, frightened kind that came when the body realized it had become the danger it was running from. โI hit you,โ she said again, and her voice cracked so violently his hands tightened on her arms by instinct. โI hit you and youโre worried about my foot.โ โYes,โ he said, almost angrily, because of course he was, because that was the whole unbearable problem, because even now, even standing in the wreckage of what she had done, he could not stop loving her body enough to want it safe. โIโm worried about your damn foot.โ โWhy?โ
The question left her small, too small, so small it did not belong to Celeste Sterling, did not belong to the woman who owned hospitals and reduced boardrooms to silence and wore her name like a crown sharpened at the edges. It belonged to the barefoot wife who had once run through rain with blood on her face and a dog in her arms. Tyriq did not know that, not fully, not with the shape and the sound and the horror of it, but he heard the childlike confusion beneath her question and something in him went very still. โWhy?โ he repeated. She swallowed, tears slipping over now. โI hurt you.โ โAnd that means I stop caring if you bleed?โ
Her face twisted, and she looked away sharply, as if the answer was too obvious and too shameful to survive being said aloud. Tyriq stared at her, his own breathing uneven, his side throbbing, his apartment destroyed around them like the aftermath of a jealous goddessโs descent, and for a moment the rage he had every right to hold became crowded by grief, grief for himself, grief for her, grief for the fact that someone had taught this woman that love kept score so ruthlessly, that an injury she caused meant she deserved one in return, that care had to be earned back immediately after a mistake or it would disappear forever.
He shifted his hands from her arms to her face, slowly, giving her time to pull away, and she did not. His thumbs rested near her cheeks, careful of the tears there, and her eyes fluttered shut for the smallest second before she forced them open again, as if softness still frightened her even when she was reaching for it with everything she had. โLook at me,โ he said. She did. โIโm hurt,โ he said plainly. Her breath caught. โBut Iโm not broken.โ Her eyes searched his face desperately, as if looking for proof, as if men had not lied to her before with tenderness in their mouths and cruelty in their hands. โAnd Iโm mad as hell,โ he added, because love did not erase truth, because if he softened too much she would mistake comfort for absolution and they would both drown in it. โDonโt get that twisted.โ
A broken little sound left her, half sob, half laugh, awful and relieved and guilty all at once. โI know,โ she whispered. โBut right now,โ he said, glancing down at her feet, his voice tightening again, โyou are standing in glass, and if you move one more time without looking, Iโm gonna lose my mind.โ Celeste looked down again, and this time the pain arrived properly, not all of it, not enough to eclipse the panic over him, but enough that her face tightened, enough that she finally realized where she was, what she had done, what she was standing in. โOh,โ she breathed. Tyriq gave her a look despite everything, despite the pain and the mess and the emotional earthquake still splitting the room beneath their feet. โOh?โ he repeated, incredulous. โThatโs what we doing? Oh?โ
She looked up at him, tears still shining, guilt still sitting heavy in her throat, and somehow the familiar irritation in his tone made the room tilt toward something almost survivable. โI didnโt feel it,โ she said. โI felt that club, so congratulations, one of us got sensation tonight.โ Her eyes filled again instantly. The joke had been too soon. He saw it and exhaled, closing his eyes for half a second. โCeleste,โ he said, softer, but still firm. โIโm okay enough to fuss at you, alright?โ โYou grunted.โ โI got hit.โ โBy me.โ โYes,โ he said, and did not let her look away from it. โBy you.โ
The truth sat between them, heavy and breathing. She nodded once, but the motion broke into trembling. โIโm sorry,โ she whispered. โIโm so sorry.โ Tyriqโs jaw flexed, because he wanted to accept it and he wanted to reject it, wanted to pull her into him and wanted to put distance between them, wanted to tell her she had scared him and wanted to protect her from the shame already devouring her alive. Instead, he looked down at her feet again and made a decision. โHold onto me.โ Celeste blinked. โWhat?โ โHold onto me.โ โYour sideโโ โCeleste.โ โNo, Tyriq, I can walk.โ โYou literally cannot walk, because every time you take a step you act like the floor personally apologized to you.โ
A helpless tear slid down her cheek. โDonโt make me laugh right now.โ โIโm not trying to make you laugh,โ he muttered, though there was something frayed and tender beneath it. โIโm trying not to have you bleed all over the rest of my security deposit.โ โYour apartment is destroyed.โ โI noticed.โ โI did that.โ โI noticed that too.โ She flinched, and his face tightened immediately. โNot right now,โ he said, not unkindly. โWe are not doing the entire guilt spiral while you got glass in your foot.โ โI deserveโโ โFinish that sentence and I swear to God, Celeste.โ
Her mouth shut. Tyriq looked at her for a long second, and the warning in his eyes was not dangerous, not the kind she had once known, but fierce and protective in a way that almost made her knees go weak. โYou donโt get to decide you deserve to bleed because you messed up,โ he said. โNot in my house. Not with me.โ Her face crumpled again, and this time, she could not catch it. A sob escaped her, small and strangled, and she pressed her trembling fingers against his wrist where his hand still hovered near her face, not pushing him away, not pulling him closer, just holding on like touch itself was the only thing keeping her from dropping through the floor of herself.
โI didnโt mean to hurt you,โ she said. โI know.โ โI need you to know that.โ โI know.โ โNo, I need you to know, because I was angry and I was scared and I saw that picture and I thoughtโโ Her breath hitched so hard his expression sharpened with concern. โI thought you made me safe just to make me stupid.โ Tyriq went silent. There it was again, the wound beneath the rage, the sentence that was not about the bombshell, not really, not about the article, not about the hand near his arm or the flash of cameras outside an event. You made me safe just to make me stupid. He looked at her, and the anger in him did not vanish, but it rearranged itself around the truth of her fear. โI didnโt,โ he said. She looked at him like she wanted to believe him so badly it hurt. โI know,โ she whispered, and then, almost immediately, โI donโt know. Iโm trying to know.โ
Tyriq swallowed. His side still hurt, his apartment was still destroyed, her feet were still bleeding, the golf club still lay on the floor like the discarded weapon of some failed goddess who had mistaken devastation for justice. Nothing was fixed. Nothing was forgiven. But Celeste was looking at him, really looking, not through the haze of headline and humiliation and inherited terror, but at him, and in her face he saw the terrifying tenderness she had tried to bury beneath all that rage. โHold onto my shoulders,โ he said again. This time, she obeyed. Carefully, as if touching him might cause more damage, she placed both hands against his shoulders, her fingers trembling against the solid warmth of him, and when he bent slightly to lift her, she panicked instantly.
โYour side, noโโ โI got it.โ โTyriq, donโtโโ โI said I got it.โ โYouโre hurt.โ โAnd youโre bleeding.โ โI hurt you first.โ He paused, bent close enough that she could feel his breath against her cheek. โAnd Iโm still choosing to pick you up,โ he said, voice low, strained, and devastatingly clear. โSo let me.โ Celeste went still. The words entered her like a key turning in a lock she had forgotten existed.
Then Tyriq lifted her. He hissed through his teeth from the pull against his bruised side, and Celeste immediately made a wounded sound that was almost worse than his, her arms tightening around his neck in alarm. โPut me down,โ she said. โPut me down, youโre hurting yourself.โ โWould you stop giving orders while being rescued from your own crime scene?โ โThis is not funny.โ โIโm not laughing.โ โYouโre being sarcastic.โ โThatโs because Iโm in pain and emotionally overwhelmed.โ Despite herself, despite the tears, despite the blood, despite the shame gathering like thunder behind her ribs, Celeste let out a broken little laugh against his shoulder. It died quickly, but it existed.
Tyriq carried her across the ruined bedroom with careful steps, avoiding the worst of the glass, his jaw tight and his breathing controlled, and Celeste clung to him with her face turned toward his neck, her whole body trembling not because she was afraid of him, but because she was afraid of herself, afraid of how close she had come to making him look at her the way Malcolm had once looked at everything he planned to punish. He set her down on the bathroom counter, gently, too gently, and that almost hurt more.
The bathroom light came on, bright and unforgiving, and the mirror above the sink reflected them both in brutal clarity: Tyriq with one hand still guarding his side, shirt rumpled, face drawn with pain and anger he had not yet been able to process; Celeste perched on the counter barefoot and shaking, hair wild, cheeks wet, hands streaked with dust and glass glitter, looking less like a goddess now and more like a woman who had survived the lightning only to realize she had been the one holding the bolt. Tyriq opened the cabinet beneath the sink and pulled out a first aid kit, and Celeste watched his every movement, eyes tracking the way he favored his side, the small inhale he tried to hide when he bent too far, the tight set of his mouth.
โLet me look at you first,โ she said. โNo.โ โTyriq.โ โNo.โ Her eyes flashed, reflexive pride rising even through guilt. โIโm a doctor.โ โAnd Iโm the person not currently sitting on a counter with glass in my foot.โ โYou could have a cracked rib.โ โI donโt.โ โYou donโt know that.โ โI know I can breathe.โ โThat doesnโt meanโโ โCeleste.โ His voice stopped her, not because it was loud, but because it was tired, because beneath the firmness was something worn thin, and she realized with a fresh twist of pain that she had exhausted him, truly exhausted him, not with her trauma, not with being damaged, not with needing patience, but with the destruction she had chosen when she was hurt.
He looked at her for a long moment. โIโm gonna take care of your feet,โ he said. โThen we are going to deal with me. Then we are going to deal with this apartment. Then we are going to deal with you thinking a gossip headline gave you the right to come in here and swing on everything I own.โ She swallowed. The order of it, the calm structure, the refusal to pretend this was fine while also refusing to abandon her bleeding on the floor, made tears rise again. โOkay,โ she whispered.
Tyriq knelt carefully in front of her, and the sight nearly destroyed her. โNo,โ she said instantly, voice breaking. โDonโt kneel, your sideโโ He looked up at her. โCeleste.โ She pressed both hands over her mouth, because he was hurt, because she had hurt him, because he was still kneeling between her feet with antiseptic and tweezers and gauze, because this was love and accountability in the same room, because he was not telling her it did not matter, but he was also not letting her suffer as payment. And somehow that was more frightening than his anger, more frightening than shouting, more frightening than the headline, because Malcolm had taught her that after harm came punishment, and Tyriq, kneeling in front of her with pain in his side and fury in his chest, was teaching her that after harm came responsibility. Celeste, who had known how to survive punishment for years, had no idea how to survive mercy.
Celeste watched him kneel there in front of her with the first aid kit open beside his knee, his jaw set tight against the pain in his side, one large hand wrapped carefully around her ankle as if she were something breakable instead of the woman who had just turned his apartment into a museum of her own ungoverned fury, and the sight of it did something terrible to her chest, something she immediately tried to outrun by becoming practical. โI can have the glass cleared tonight,โ she said quickly, her voice too smooth, too efficient, too much like the voice she used with contractors and board members and men who thought hesitation meant weakness. โThere are emergency cleaning services for biohazard and property damage, I have a company I use for the hospital when things happen after hours, they can be here within forty minutes if I call them directly, and Iโll pay whatever surcharge they add.โ
Tyriq did not look up. He only dipped a square of gauze in antiseptic, his movements steady even though the muscle in his cheek jumped once when he leaned slightly too far to reach her foot. Celeste saw it, and her stomach twisted. โIโll replace the television first thing in the morning,โ she continued, words spilling faster now, because silence was where the guilt waited with its mouth open. โActually, no, I can order one tonight and have it delivered by noon, mounted by tomorrow evening if the wall isnโt too damaged, and if it is too damaged then Iโll get someone to patch it properly before the mount goes back up, because the last thing you need is some rushed installation tearing the drywall further.โ โHold still,โ Tyriq said.
The words were calm, but not soft. Celeste shut her mouth for half a second. He took the tweezers from the kit and bent closer to her foot, his brows drawing together as he examined the thin, glittering sliver lodged near the ball of it, and Celesteโs fingers curled against the edge of the bathroom counter, not because of the pain, not really, but because watching him focus on her injury while ignoring his own made shame crawl over her skin like fire ants beneath silk. โYou should let me look at your ribs,โ she said. โI said hold still.โ โYou could have a contusion.โ โAnd you got glass in your foot.โ โThat doesnโt negate the possibility of a contusion.โ โCeleste.โ โI am simply saying that blunt trauma to the lateral ribs can cause bruising, fracture, intercostal muscle strain, internalโโ โBaby, I know you know big doctor words,โ he said, still not looking up, his voice rough with irritation and restraint and something underneath both that made her throat tighten. โBut unless one of them words means sit there and let me get this glass out, I donโt wanna hear it right now.โ
Her lips pressed together. The pet name hurt worse than the antiseptic, because he sounded angry when he said it, yes, but he had still said it, still let the word leave his mouth like some stubborn little ember that refused to go out even while the whole room smelled of smoke. Celeste looked down at him, at the top of his head, at the broad line of his shoulders, at the hand bracing her ankle with infuriating gentleness, and because the tenderness of it was unbearable, she retreated again into the clean, sterile architecture of logistics.
โThe mirror can be replaced easily,โ she said, her eyes fixed on the cabinet behind him instead of his face. โCustom size, maybe two days if I use the right supplier, same for the closet door, and the dresser might be salvageable depending on how deep the crack goes, but Iโll replace it if you want something different, and the kitchen cabinetsโโ โCeleste.โ โThe cabinets may take longer if they have to match the existing finish, but I can get them refinished as a full set so it doesnโt look patched, because I know you like things coordinated, and the plates were probably part of a set, so send me the brand and Iโllโโ โCeleste.โ โAnd your clothes,โ she said, voice trembling for the first time as her gaze flicked toward the ruined bedroom beyond the bathroom door, toward the scattered fabric and fallen hangers and the splintered closet frame that looked, in the mirrorโs reflection, like the aftermath of a god losing a war with his own temple. โIโll replace the clothes too, all of them, even the ones that arenโt torn, because thereโs glass dust everywhere and I donโt want you wearing anything that might have pieces in it, and Iโll get your shoes cleaned professionally, or replaced if they canโt beโโ
Tyriq looked up then, not slowly, not gently, his eyes lifting to hers with enough force to make the words die on her tongue. โDo you think this is about money?โ Celesteโs breath caught. โNo,โ she said quickly, because that was the correct answer, because she was intelligent enough to know the emotional terrain even when she was stumbling through it barefoot. โNo, of course not.โ โThen why you talking to me like you settling an invoice?โ Her face flinched before she could stop it, and Tyriq saw that too, because of course he did, because the man noticed everything when it came to her and somehow still managed to miss the ways she wanted him to stop noticing before it became too intimate to survive. โIโm not,โ she said, but even she heard how false it sounded.
He held her gaze for another second, then looked back down and pulled the tiny shard free with a careful flick of the tweezers. Celeste sucked in a breath through her teeth. Tyriqโs thumb moved once against her ankle, soothing by instinct, and then his jaw tightened as if he resented his own tenderness for arriving before his anger could object. โThere,โ he muttered, dropping the glass onto a piece of gauze. โOne.โ โOne?โ she repeated, alarmed despite herself. โYou walked through a damn constellation, Celeste.โ
A miserable little laugh almost escaped her, but it broke apart before it became sound. Her eyes dropped to her foot, to the small red beads gathering where the glass had been, to his hands moving with practiced steadiness as he cleaned the cut, and suddenly all she could think about was the red trail she must have left across his floor, her blood mixed with his broken things, her guilt made visible in a way even she could not polish into abstraction. โIโll pay for the floors,โ she said faintly.
Tyriq stopped. For one long second, he did not move at all. Then he exhaled through his nose and set the gauze down with the careful precision of a man trying very, very hard not to say something cruel just because he had been hurt enough to earn the right. โWhy do you keep doing that?โ he asked. Celeste swallowed. โDoing what?โ โTaking everything you feel and turning it into a task list.โ Her mouth opened, then closed. โIโm trying to fix what I damaged.โ โNo,โ he said, and this time he did look at her, his eyes dark and tired and still sharp enough to cut through the marble walls she kept trying to drag between them. โYouโre trying to get to the part where you can write a check and not have to sit with what happened.โ
That landed in her chest with the brutal accuracy of an arrow loosed from Apolloโs own bow. Celeste looked away. The bathroom suddenly felt too bright, the mirror too honest, the counter too cold beneath her thighs, and Tyriq kneeling in front of her became unbearable not because he looked weak, but because he did not, because even hurt, even furious, even sitting in the ruins of what she had done, he was still forcing her to face the difference between repairing damage and taking responsibility. โI know what happened,โ she said, her voice tight. โYou know what broke,โ he replied. โThat ainโt the same thing.โ
Her eyes flashed back to him, defensive instinct rising fast, elegant and poisonous, but his expression stopped her before it could find its teeth, because he was not trying to humiliate her, and that was the problem. He was not Malcolm, standing over her with a smile and calling cruelty correction. He was Tyriq, kneeling wounded between her feet, cleaning blood from her skin while refusing to let her hide behind efficiency. Celesteโs throat worked. โI canโt undo it,โ she said, and the sentence came out smaller than she wanted, stripped of all its boardroom polish. โI know I canโt undo it.โ Tyriqโs face changed, but not enough to soften the whole room. โNo,โ he said. โYou canโt.โ She nodded once, her eyes burning. โSo Iโm telling you what I can do.โ
He held her foot more carefully, turning it slightly to check for more glass, and she watched his fingers move over her skin with a tenderness that felt like judgment only because she did not know how to receive care without searching for the cost. โI can have the television replaced,โ she said again, quieter now, almost pleading with the universe to let this be enough. โI can have the cabinets fixed. I can have the glass removed. I can get a restoration team in before morning, Tyriq. I can make it look like this didnโt happen.โ His hand stilled around her ankle. When he looked up, there was something in his face that made the air leave her lungs. โBut it did happen,โ he said.
The words were not loud. They did not need to be. They moved through the room with the terrible weight of prophecy, with the inevitability of stars collapsing after burning too hard for too long. Celesteโs eyes filled despite every ounce of pride she had left. โI know.โ โYou came here.โ โI know.โ โYou broke into my peace because you were hurting.โ Her lips parted, but no defense came. โYou smashed my apartment,โ he continued, voice low, controlled, but shaking at the edges now with the emotion he had been swallowing since he walked in. โYou accused me of humiliating you. You put your hands on my things like they were standing in for me. You almost hit something that meant something to me just to see if I would bleed the way you were bleeding.โ
Celesteโs face crumpled. โI didnโt hit the jersey.โ โBut you wanted to.โ She looked down, and that was answer enough. Tyriq breathed out slowly, then reached for another piece of gauze, his movements rougher for half a second before he caught himself and gentled them again, which somehow hurt more, because even his anger had boundaries with her. โIโm not saying that to make you feel worse,โ he said. โItโs working anyway,โ she whispered. His mouth tightened, and for a moment she thought he might smile, not because any of this was funny, but because there was still some bruised, familiar rhythm between them trying to breathe beneath the wreckage. He did not smile. He cleaned another cut.
Celeste watched him and tried not to fall apart. The antiseptic burned, sharp enough that her toes jerked, and Tyriqโs hand tightened around her heel to keep her still. โSorry,โ he muttered. That was the thing that undid her almost completely. He said sorry. He said sorry while cleaning the foot she had cut walking through the glass she had made after hitting him with a golf club in the middle of his own destroyed apartment. A tear slipped down her cheek before she could stop it. โI should be saying that.โ โYou have.โ โNot enough.โ โIt wonโt start counting extra just because you repeat it.โ
She let out a shaky breath, somewhere between a sob and a laugh, and wiped at her face with the back of her hand like she was annoyed at the tears for being so unprofessional. โI can replace the watch too,โ she said, because she could feel herself slipping again, because the emotional floor had no railings and logistics, at least, had stairs. โThe one that fell under the dresser. If itโs scratched, I can send it to the manufacturer, or I can just buy the same one, unless it was sentimental, in which case restoration would be better, because replacement would be insulting if it carried personal valueโโ Tyriq looked up at her again, and this time his disbelief was so exhausted that it almost became comedy. โYou cannot be serious.โ โI am being helpful.โ โYou are being insane.โ โI am being accountable.โ โYou are being a concierge for a crime you committed.โ
Celeste blinked. Then, despite everything, a startled laugh broke out of her. It was small, ugly, wet with tears, but it was real enough that Tyriqโs face betrayed him for half a second, some reluctant flicker of softness crossing his mouth before he buried it beneath irritation. โYou are not funny,โ she said, voice trembling. โIโm hilarious.โ โYouโre hurt.โ โI can be injured and hilarious.โ โYou should let me examine your side.โ โYou should let me finish removing glass from your foot.โ โYou are very stubborn.โ โI learned from the worst.โ Her mouth parted in offense, but the look he gave her said plainly that she had absolutely no room to argue inside the apartment she had just reduced to Troy after the Greeks came through with torches. Celeste closed her mouth.
Tyriq returned to her foot. For a while, the only sounds were the faint hiss of his breathing when he shifted the wrong way, the wet press of gauze against skin, the soft clink of tweezers setting another sliver of glass aside, and the distant hum of the bathroom fan above them, absurdly domestic in the middle of devastation, as if the universe itself had a cruel sense of humor. Celeste watched him like she was committing a penance, noticing every time he winced, every time his hand paused near his side, every time his brows tightened and he pretended it was because of the glass in her foot and not the ache she had put beneath his ribs.
โI can call someone for you,โ she said quietly. He did not look up. โFor what?โ โTo take you to urgent care.โ โNo.โ โTyriq.โ โNo.โ โYou need imaging if the pain gets worse.โ โI know.โ โNo, you donโt know, because men think being large makes them immune to internal injury.โ His eyes lifted slowly. โYou really about to lecture me on self-preservation while you sitting here bleeding from both feet because you was too busy worrying about me to look down?โ Celesteโs face heated. โThat is different.โ โHow?โ โBecause I hurt you.โ โAnd?โ โAnd that matters more.โ
He stared at her, and the room changed again. Celeste realized too late what she had revealed, and panic flickered across her face, not the loud, destructive kind from before, but the quieter kind, the kind that lived under the skin and whispered that she had said too much, shown too much, given him another piece of her he might one day learn how to use. Tyriqโs expression softened in a way that made her want to disappear. โNo,โ he said. Her brows pulled together. โNo what?โ โNo, it does not matter more.โ โTyriqโโ โDonโt argue with me on this.โ โIโm not arguing.โ โYou breathing like you about to.โ
Despite herself, her lips twitched once and vanished again. He set the gauze down and leaned back slightly, though the movement made him wince; Celeste moved forward immediately, hands hovering near his shoulders, but he gave her a look and she froze. His eyes held hers. โIf I hurt you,โ he said carefully, โwould you want me standing there saying my injury donโt matter because yours does?โ Celeste went still, and the question opened something beneath her, not a memory exactly, but a sensation: Malcolmโs voice after, softer than his hands had been before, telling her he hated when she made him that way; the way he turned her pain into an inconvenience he had suffered through; the way his apology always somehow required her to comfort him by the end of it. Her stomach turned. โNo,โ she whispered. โThen donโt do that to me.โ
Her eyes shone. โIโm not trying to.โ โI know.โ โI donโt know how toโโ She stopped, pressing her lips together hard, and when she spoke again her voice had dropped into something thin and frightened. โI donโt know how to be the person who caused harm and still let someone care about me.โ Tyriqโs face shifted. There it was, the truth beneath the invoice, the wound beneath the efficiency, the altar beneath the offerings. He looked at her for a long time, his anger still there, bruised and breathing, but no longer alone. โYou donโt get cared for because you perfect,โ he said at last. โYou get cared for because youโre loved.โ Celeste looked away fast, a tear sliding down her cheek. โThat sounds like absolution.โ โItโs not.โ โThen what is it?โ Tyriq picked up the antiseptic again. โItโs reality.โ
He cleaned another cut, more gently this time, and she watched his hands through blurred vision, watched the man she had hurt refuse to become cruel simply because cruelty would have been understandable. โI will pay for everything,โ she said, because she still needed him to know, because the practical mattered too, because accountability without repair was just performance dressed in language. โIโm not saying that to avoid anything, I swear Iโm not. I know it doesnโt make it okay, and I know I canโt buy my way out of what I did, but I am going to replace everything I broke because I broke it, and you should not have to live in the ruins of my episode.โ Tyriq glanced up, and the corner of his mouth tightened at the phrase. โYour episode.โ โYou know what I mean.โ โI do.โ โI donโt mean it like an excuse.โ โI know that too.โ
Celeste breathed in shakily. โIโll have them clean first,โ she said, quieter, less frantic now, more like a woman trying to build a bridge from action because emotion alone would drown her. โThen repairs. Then replacements. Iโll cover somewhere for you to stay if you donโt want to be here while they work.โ He looked at her. She swallowed. โOr if you donโt want me to arrange that, I can just send the money and let you handle it.โ His gaze stayed on hers long enough to make her squirm internally. โYou trying so hard not to control the cleanup that you controlling the options.โ She blinked, then frowned, offended mostly because he was right. โThat is a very annoying observation.โ โIโm an annoying man.โ โYou are.โ โAnd yet.โ
She looked at him sharply. There was no smile on his face, but there was history there, a small bruised echo of the unfinished office and the ribs and the runaway whiteboard, and for one second Celeste saw the version of them that existed before the headline, before the golf club, before every old ghost in her body had mistaken a gossip post for prophecy. The ache in her chest deepened. โI love you,โ she said suddenly.
Tyriq went still. The words did not arrive soft or pretty or staged; they fell out of her like something she had been holding in her mouth for too long and could not bear to choke on anymore, and the second they were in the room, Celeste looked almost startled by herself. Tyriqโs hand remained around her foot, his eyes lifting to hers, unreadable now in a way that frightened her more than anger, and she rushed to fill the silence because silence was a cliff and she had never trusted her balance near edges. โIโm not saying that to manipulate you,โ she said quickly. โIโm not saying it because I think it fixes anything, and Iโm not saying it because I expect you to say it back right now, especially not after what I did, I justโโ Her breath caught. โI just need you to know that this wasnโt because I donโt love you.โ
Tyriqโs jaw flexed. โThatโs what scares me,โ he said. Celesteโs face crumpled. He saw it and did not take the words back, because they were true, because love that could become a wrecking ball was still dangerous, even if it had tears in its eyes. โIt scares me that you can love me and still do this,โ he said, voice low, rough, almost reluctant. โIt scares me that the second you think I hurt you, you go straight to making sure I feel it.โ She looked down, shame burning through her. โI know.โ โAnd then you hurt yourself trying to get to me because you scared you hurt me.โ โI know.โ โThat is not okay, Celeste.โ Her tears fell freely now. โI know.โ
He nodded once, as if the admission mattered, but did not erase anything. Then he went back to cleaning her feet. That, somehow, was worse and better than any speech he could have given her, because he was angry, because he was scared, because he was not letting her off the hook, because he was still there with gauze in his hand. Celeste sat on the bathroom counter with blood on her skin, tears on her face, and the consequences of her rage scattered beyond the doorway like offerings after a temple collapse, and for once she did not try to make the room prettier with a plan, did not try to bury the feeling beneath deliveries and cleaners and same-day replacements.
She watched Tyriq wrap her foot carefully, then the other. His hands were warm. His silence was not empty. And when he finally finished, pressing the tape down with one last gentle, infuriating stroke, Celeste whispered, โIโll still replace the television.โ Tyriq closed his eyes. For one second, she thought he was about to snap. Then he opened them and looked up at her, exhausted, pained, and so deeply done with her that under any other circumstances she might have laughed. โWoman,โ he said slowly, โI do not care about that damn television right now.โ Celesteโs mouth trembled. โI know.โ โNo, you donโt.โ โIโm trying to know.โ
Tyriq looked at her for a long moment, then, bracing one hand against the counter beside her thigh, he pushed himself carefully to standing, and the wince he tried to hide made her hands fly toward him again before she caught herself. His eyes dropped to her hovering hands. โAsk,โ he said. She froze. โWhat?โ โIf you want to touch me,โ he said, voice firm despite the pain, โask.โ The instruction hit something old in her, not like a wound this time, but like a door opening somewhere she had not expected. Celeste swallowed. โCan I look at your side?โ she asked, her voice barely above a whisper. Tyriq held her gaze. The bathroom light hummed. The ruined apartment waited outside. Nothing was resolved. Nothing was forgiven. But after a long, tense breath, Tyriq lifted his arm just enough and said, โCarefully.โ
Celesteโs hands shook before she even touched him. She tried to hide it, tried to make her fingers become the fingers everyone trusted in operating rooms and board meetings and emergency wings when blood was on the floor and panic had teeth, tried to summon the calm, precise woman who could read scans under fluorescent lights and make impossible decisions without so much as a tremor in her voice, but this was not a patient on a table, this was not a chart, this was not a strangerโs body asking for clinical distance. This was Tyriq.
This was Tyriq standing in front of her beneath the unforgiving bathroom light, one arm lifted slightly because she had asked and he had let her, his shirt raised just enough for her to see the place where the golf club had caught him, the skin along his side already beginning to flush with the deepening promise of a bruise, red at the center and darker around the edges, ugly and real and blooming beneath her gaze like an accusation she had no defense for. Celesteโs throat closed. Her fingertips hovered over him without landing.
Tyriq watched her face more than he watched her hands, saw the way her lips parted but did not form words, saw the way her eyes glassed over immediately, saw the sudden, violent effort it took for her not to cry, not because she was trying to manipulate him, not because she wanted comfort, but because the sight of his bruising body seemed to drag her somewhere so far away from the bathroom that for a moment she looked like she was staring through him into another house, another night, another manโs shadow. โCeleste,โ he said quietly.
She flinched at her own name, and that made something in his chest tear a little. โIโm sorry,โ she whispered, and her voice was barely there, a ruined little thing crawling out from behind her ribs. โIโm so sorry, Tyriq, Iโm so sorry.โ โI know,โ he said, softer than before. โNo,โ she said, shaking her head, one tear slipping loose despite how hard she clenched her jaw. โNo, you donโt. You donโt know what I mean.โ
His anger, which had been sitting in him heavy and justified, did not disappear, because he was still hurt and his apartment was still destroyed and there were pieces of broken glass glittering beyond the bathroom like the aftermath of a meteor shower, but it changed shape as he looked at her, softened at the edges, not into forgiveness exactly, not yet, but into concern, into recognition that whatever was happening inside Celeste now was bigger than the bruise on his side, older than the headline, older than him. โTell me,โ he said.
Celeste let out a breath that sounded almost like a laugh and almost like a sob, because the word was simple and impossible, because tell me was what people said when they did not understand that some things were not stored in language but in muscle, in scar tissue, in the bodyโs flinch before thought. She pressed her fingers very lightly near the bruise, and Tyriq hissed through his teeth before he could stop himself. Celeste recoiled as if burned. โI did that,โ she said, staring at the place as if it had become the only true thing in the world. โI did that to you.โ
โItโs a bruise,โ he said, trying to keep his voice steady. โIt hurts, but Iโm standing.โ โYou should call the police.โ Tyriq blinked. โWhat?โ โYou should call the police,โ she repeated, faster now, panic rising, her eyes fixed on the mark she had left on him, her hands curling into fists against her own thighs as if she were trying to keep herself from touching him without permission again. โI hit you. I came into your apartment and I destroyed your things and I hit you, and you should call the police on me.โ
His face changed. โCelesteโโ โNo,โ she said, and now the tears came harder, though she fought them with every ounce of pride she had left, her whole body trembling on the edge of something vast and terrible. โNo, donโt soften it because itโs me. Donโt make it smaller because Iโm crying. Donโt do that. I know what it looks like when someone hurts you and then makes you comfort them. I know what that is. I know what that becomes. I know what happens when everybody keeps saying it was a bad night, it was a mistake, it was stress, it was love, it was fear, it was anything except what it was.โ
Tyriq went very still. The bathroom seemed to narrow around them, the mirror holding both of their faces in its merciless frame, his stunned and bruised, hers wet-eyed and shaking and finally cracking open in a way he had never seen before. Celeste looked at him then, really looked, and the shame in her face was so raw he almost wished she would look away. โI know because Malcolm used to say that,โ she whispered.
Tyriq did not move. He did not speak. He barely breathed. Celeste swallowed hard, her gaze dropping to the bruise again like she could not bear to look at his face while she dragged the dead out of the grave. โHe used to hurt me and then make me explain why he had to,โ she said, her voice thin but steady in the terrible way voices sometimes become when the truth has finally exhausted all performance. โHe used to stand there and tell me I knew how he was, I knew his temper, I knew not to embarrass him, I knew not to make him feel disrespected, I knew not to use that tone, I knew not to make that face, I knew not to leave the room when he was talking, and by the end of it, somehow, I would be the one apologizing with blood in my mouth.โ
Tyriqโs jaw clenched so hard a muscle jumped near his cheek. Celeste saw it, but she did not stop, because if she stopped now, the old house would swallow everything back into silence. โAnd the worst part,โ she said, one hand rising toward her own throat before she forced it down again, โthe worst part is that there are gaps. There are pieces I donโt have. Whole minutes missing. Sometimes I remember being in the kitchen and then I remember being on the bathroom floor, and nothing in between, just pain showing up before memory could explain it. Sometimes I remember the sound before I remember what happened. Sometimes I remember his shoes. Isnโt that stupid? I can remember his shoes beside me on the tile, but I canโt always remember how I got down there.โ
Tyriqโs eyes shone, sudden and unwilling. He looked away for a second, not because he could not bear to see her, but because if he kept looking at her while she said it, while she stood there blaming herself for one bruise on him and unveiling years of violence done to her, he was afraid something furious and ancient in him would climb out of his skin. Celeste mistook the movement for disgust. Her face crumpled. โIโm sorry,โ she said quickly. โIโm sorry, I shouldnโtโโ โNo,โ Tyriq said immediately, turning back to her, his voice rough, urgent, the hard edge from earlier gone now beneath something warmer, wounded, fiercely attentive. โNo. Keep talking.โ
She stared at him. He swallowed, and when he spoke again his voice was quieter. โIโm listening.โ The simplicity of it almost undid her more than any softness could have. Celeste nodded once, though it looked more like her body agreeing to keep standing. โHe had rules,โ she said. โNot written rules, because then I could have called them rules and maybe understood sooner that I was living inside a cage, but little things, things that shifted depending on his mood so I could never fully learn the shape of the room. He liked me in pale colors, because he said I looked softer in them, but if another man looked at me too long then suddenly I had dressed like that on purpose. He liked when I hosted, but if people laughed too much at my jokes then I was performing. He liked that I was educated until I corrected him in public. He liked that I was beautiful until beauty made him feel like other people were seeing what he owned.โ
Tyriqโs hand lowered from his side slowly. He forgot, for a moment, to guard the bruise. Celeste reached for him instinctively, then stopped herself, fingers hovering again in midair. โIโm not going to touch you unless you say I can,โ she said, voice trembling. His heart broke so sharply it nearly made him angry all over again, not at her, not now, but at the man who had taught her that a hand needed permission only after it had already become dangerous. โYou can,โ he said softly. โCarefully.โ
She nodded and pressed her fingers near his ribs again, so gentle now that it almost hurt worse than the bruise itself, her doctorโs brain trying to assess swelling while her heart kept stumbling over the knowledge that she had caused any of it. โIt doesnโt feel fractured,โ she murmured, the words automatic, clinical, a thread she could hold while walking across the bridge of her own confession. โSoft tissue injury, probably. You need ice. You need to watch your breathing. If it gets worse, if you have sharp pain taking a deep breath, if thereโs dizziness, shortness of breathโโ โCeleste,โ he said, not to stop her this time, but to bring her back.
She blinked. Then the professional tone collapsed again. โHe used to make me kneel,โ she said suddenly, and the sentence fell between them so quietly that Tyriq almost thought he had misheard it. His face went blank with horror. Celesteโs eyes stayed on his side because if she looked at him, she would not be able to continue. โNot always. Not likeโฆโ She shook her head, frustrated by the inadequacy of language, by how obscene it felt to reduce humiliation into sentences. โSometimes it was to clean something he broke. Sometimes it was because he said I needed to remember how to be humble. Sometimes it was after heโd torn something of mine, a note or a dress or a photograph, and he would make me pick the pieces up while he watched, and heโd be so calm, Tyriq. So calm. That was worse than the shouting, the calm, because it made me feel insane for being scared.โ
Tyriqโs eyes closed for a second. He saw her then not as the woman who had entered his apartment like a jealous goddess with a golf club, but as a younger Celeste, barefoot on a cold floor, swallowing terror until it looked like obedience, surrounded by beautiful furniture and a marriage that had eaten her alive one bite at a time. โI didnโt know,โ he said, and his voice cracked at the edge. Celesteโs laugh was small and broken. โI didnโt want you to.โ โWhy?โ โBecause you look at me like Iโm not ruined.โ
The answer went through him with devastating force. Celeste finally lifted her eyes to his, and what he saw there was not only shame, not only fear, but grief so old it had become part of her architecture, something load-bearing, something she had built whole identities around. โAnd I didnโt want to watch that change,โ she whispered. Tyriqโs mouth parted, but nothing came out at first. The room felt too small for the amount of pain in it. โCeleste,โ he said finally, and her name in his mouth was no longer caution, no longer warning, but heartbreak.
She shook her head quickly, tears spilling again. โHe almost killed me,โ she said. Tyriq stopped breathing. She nodded as if confirming it to herself too, as if even after all this time the sentence still sounded too dramatic, too impossible, too much like something that happened to other women in movies with blue lighting and not to Celeste Sterling in a beautiful house with orchids on the table. โThe night I left,โ she said, voice hollowing around the memory, โhe had already beaten me so badly I couldnโt breathe right. Blood was coming down my nose, and my ribs were bruised, and I remember thinking very clearly that if I took one deep breath I might split open from the inside, but I still didnโt know if I was leaving until he looked at Chewie.โ
Tyriq frowned, lost for half a second. โMy dog,โ she said, and even then, even in the horror of it, something impossibly tender crossed her face. โMy little dog. He was barking at him, just this tiny, ridiculous thing trying to protect me, and Malcolm looked at him like he had just found a new way to hurt me.โ Tyriqโs eyes filled fully then, not tears falling, not yet, but shining with a grief he had no interest in hiding from her. Celeste saw it and looked stunned, as if his heartbreak on her behalf was harder to understand than his anger had been. โHe was going to hurt Chewie,โ she whispered. โMaybe kill him. I donโt know. I just knew he was going to do something because Chewie loved me and Malcolm hated anything that loved me without asking his permission.โ
โJesus,โ Tyriq breathed. โSo I threw grits on him.โ The sentence, absurd and brutal and magnificent, landed in the room with the terrible force of a survival myth told in kitchen language, and Tyriq stared at her as if he had just watched Persephone drag herself out of the underworld with burning hands. Celesteโs mouth trembled. โThey were on the stove. I donโt even remember deciding. I remember the pot, then his sound, then running. I grabbed Chewie and ran barefoot into the rain. I didnโt have my phone. I didnโt have shoes. I had blood all over my face and I got in the car and he was coming down the driveway, and his hand hit the side of the car when I reversed.โ
Tyriqโs hand lifted slowly to his mouth. He looked away again, and this time Celeste knew it was not disgust. It was devastation. It was a man receiving an image he could never unsee and realizing that the woman he loved had once been alone in a nightmare that should have had armies at the door. โI went to a gas station,โ she said, quieter now. โI called Nala from the cashierโs phone.โ Tyriq looked back sharply. โNala?โ Celeste nodded. โShe knows everything?โ he asked. โShe knows enough.โ
And there it was again, the other wound, the one still fresh and bleeding somewhere outside this bathroom, Nala walking out after Celeste had used a sacred scar like a weapon because truth had frightened her too badly to let her stay kind. Celesteโs face tightened. โShe came,โ she said. โNala came. She was young, too young to carry all that, but she came anyway, and I repaid her by throwing her worst night in her face because she said something true about me.โ Tyriqโs expression shifted, pained but not surprised, because he had not known the words, but he knew the pattern, knew Celeste could be cruelest when the truth placed a hand near the locked doors. โWhat did you say to her?โ Celeste shook her head. โI canโt say it again,โ she whispered. โNot to you. Not in this room. I canโt hear myself say it again.โ
Tyriq did not push, and that mercy nearly made her fold. Instead, she turned slightly, her fingers going to the shoulder of her blouse, and before Tyriq could ask what she was doing, she slipped the fabric down just enough to expose the top of her left shoulder. The scars were small. That made them worse somehow. Not one dramatic mark, not the kind of wound people knew how to respond to with cinematic horror, but a scattered constellation of pale, uneven marks near the curve of her shoulder, some thin as crescent moons, some rounder, some nearly invisible unless the light caught them, delicate little ruins on otherwise smooth brown skin.
Tyriq stared. His face went still in a way Celeste had never seen before. โThese,โ she said, and her voice almost vanished. โThese were from the night before a charity gala.โ Tyriqโs gaze snapped to hers. โHe broke a champagne flute,โ she said. โNot on me at first. On the fireplace. He said I had embarrassed him at dinner because I disagreed with one of his friends about hospital funding, and then he told me to come closer, and I didnโt move fast enough.โ Tyriqโs nostrils flared. Celeste kept going because the words were coming now, horrible and unstoppable. โHe didnโt cut me deep because deep cuts would have needed stitches and stitches would have asked questions. He was careful like that. Thatโs the part people donโt understand. Bad men arenโt always out of control. Sometimes they are very controlled. Sometimes the control is the point.โ
Tyriq turned his head away and cursed under his breath, a low, shattered sound. Celesteโs eyes widened. โIโm sorry.โ His head whipped back toward her. โStop apologizing for what he did to you.โ She froze. The command was not cruel, but it was fierce enough to shake something loose. Tyriqโs face had changed completely now, anger and grief and tenderness all crossing it at once until he looked younger somehow, wounded by knowledge, furious at time itself for not letting him go back and stand between her and the man who had left marks small enough to hide but large enough to rewrite the way she loved. โI canโt,โ she admitted. โYou can start.โ
She looked down at his bruise again, and shame pulled her back by the throat. โI hurt you.โ โYou did,โ he said, and there was no evasion in it, no false comfort, no attempt to make her feel absolved before she had sat with the truth. โAnd weโre going to talk about that, Celeste, because what happened here is not okay.โ Her eyes closed. โBut,โ Tyriq continued, stepping closer despite the ache in his side, โyou telling me what he did is not you making excuses. Do you hear me?โ She did not answer. He waited. โDo you hear me?โ he repeated, softer. Celeste nodded, but her face said she did not believe it yet.
Tyriq lifted a hand toward her cheek, then stopped. This time, he asked. โCan I touch you?โ Her whole face changed. โYes,โ she whispered. His palm settled against her cheek with such careful warmth that Celesteโs breath shuddered out of her, and for a moment she leaned into it before she could remember to be afraid. Tyriqโs thumb moved once beneath her eye, catching a tear. โIโm sorry,โ he said. Her brows pulled together, confused. โFor what?โ โFor not knowing how heavy it was.โ โYou couldnโt know.โ โI knew it was bad.โ โYou knew what I let you know.โ โStill,โ he said, his voice rough. โI hate that you were carrying all that and I was standing there thinking you just didnโt trust me.โ
A faint, devastated smile touched her mouth. โI didnโt trust you.โ He huffed a sad little laugh despite himself. โFair.โ โI wanted to,โ she said, and now that the door was open, the truth kept coming through in pieces, less like confession and more like debris after a flood. โI did. I wanted to trust you so badly it made me mean. Because you would be kind to me, and my body would react like kindness was a trick. You would ask me where I was going and I would hear Malcolm asking for an itinerary. You would say you didnโt like how another man looked at me and I would hear ownership. You would stand in a doorway and my brain would measure the distance to get around you.โ
Tyriqโs hand fell slowly from her face, not because he wanted to stop touching her, but because that one hurt him in a place he could not hide. Celeste saw it and reached for him before she could stop herself, her fingers curling lightly around his wrist. โNot because of you,โ she said quickly. โNot because you did anything. Because I was still living in rooms you had never entered.โ Tyriq looked at her hand on his wrist, then at her face. โI donโt want to be another room you survive,โ he said.
A sob escaped her before she could catch it. โYouโre not.โ โTonight I was.โ The truth landed softly and still broke something. Celeste nodded, crying openly now, no longer trying to hold her face in place, no longer trying to become marble beneath the weight of what she had done. โI know,โ she whispered. โI know, and I hate myself for it.โ โI donโt want that either.โ She blinked through tears. โI donโt want you hating yourself,โ he said, voice firm even as his eyes shone. โThat ainโt accountability. Thatโs just another way of bleeding on the floor and calling it justice.โ
Celeste stared at him, breath catching. Dr. Hargrove would have loved that, some absurd corner of her mind thought, and the thought was so inappropriately human that she almost laughed and cried harder at the same time. Tyriq noticed the tiny flicker in her face. โWhat?โ โNothing,โ she said, wiping under her eyes with the heel of her hand. โMy therapist would like you.โ โIโm sure she got notes for my ass too.โ โShe does.โ โShe donโt even know me.โ โShe knows enough.โ He gave her a look, and for one fragile second, something familiar passed between them, not enough to heal the room, not enough to erase the broken glass or the bruise or the terrible truth she had laid bare, but enough to remind them both that there was still a them beneath the wreckage, bruised and breathing and not yet gone.
Then Celeste looked at his side again and the guilt returned like a tide. โI need to ice that,โ she said quietly. Tyriq sighed, but there was less resistance in it now. โOkay.โ โAnd if it gets worseโโ โIโll get checked.โ โYou promise?โ He looked at her. โYou asking me for promises after tonight?โ She flinched. He regretted the sharpness instantly, though he did not entirely regret the truth beneath it. โSorry,โ he said, quieter. โThat came out harsher than I meant.โ โNo,โ she whispered. โI deserve harsh.โ โNo, you deserve honesty,โ he corrected, and the exhaustion in his voice made the distinction feel sacred somehow. โNot cruelty.โ
Celeste lowered her head, one hand still resting lightly against his wrist. โMalcolm used to say I deserved whatever made me better.โ Tyriqโs expression went dark. โI am not Malcolm.โ โI know.โ This time, she sounded like she meant it a little more. Not fully. Not perfectly. But more. Tyriq stepped closer, careful of her bandaged feet, careful of his own bruised side, careful of the invisible wounds now breathing in the room with them. โAnd you are not him either,โ he said.
Celesteโs eyes lifted sharply, wet and frightened. โYou say that now.โ โIโm saying it after you hit me,โ he replied, voice low. โIโm saying it standing in my busted-up bathroom with a bruise on my ribs and half my apartment looking like a Greek god threw a tantrum in it.โ A broken laugh pushed through her tears. โI am so sorry about the television.โ โIโm gonna throw that damn television at you if you apologize for it one more time.โ โYouโre not supposed to threaten patients.โ โYou are not my patient.โ โI am injured.โ โYou are a menace with gauze.โ
Her laugh broke again, small and wet and disbelieving, and Tyriq watched it with an ache so sharp it almost matched his side, because now he understood something he had only felt before, that every time Celeste smiled without armor, every time she laughed before fear could catch her, he was seeing a rescued piece of the woman Malcolm had tried and failed to bury. His eyes dropped to the scars on her shoulder again. Celeste saw the grief there and instinctively pulled her blouse back up, covering them. Tyriq did not stop her. But his voice was almost a whisper when he spoke. โDid anybody everโฆโ He stopped, swallowing hard, trying to ask without sounding like he blamed her for the answer. โDid anybody ever see those?โ โNala,โ Celeste said. โSelah. A nurse. My lawyer. Not many.โ
โDid he go to jail?โ Her face went still. That silence was an answer. Tyriqโs jaw tightened. โCeleste.โ โHe had money,โ she said. โHe had friends. He had a reputation. I had injuries that were old by the time I was willing to call them injuries, and gaps in my memory, and a marriage full of people who thought I was dramatic, and there were things I did not want public, things I was ashamed of, things he made me ashamed of.โ Tyriq looked away, breathing hard through his nose. โAnd I was tired,โ she added, the words quieter now, heavy with a grief that had no glamour left in it. โI was so tired, Tyriq. People think leaving is the end of it, but leaving was just the first time I survived out loud. After that there were lawyers, and statements, and security, and waking up not knowing whether I had made a mistake because sometimes the cage is horrible but at least you know where the bars are.โ
Tyriqโs eyes closed. When he opened them, they were wet. He did not wipe them. Celeste stared at him, stunned. โDonโt,โ she whispered, but it was not a command this time, not really; it was the plea of a woman who did not know what to do with a man crying because she had been hurt. Tyriq shook his head once. โIโm not gonna pretend that donโt hurt me to hear.โ โI donโt want you to hurt.โ โYou donโt get to control that.โ The words should have made her defensive, but they did not. They made her quiet.
Tyriq reached for the counter beside her, bracing himself slightly, not because he was about to collapse but because the combination of the bruise, the confession, and the sheer effort of not becoming rage incarnate was taking more from him than he wanted to admit. Celeste immediately touched his arm. โSit down,โ she said. He looked at her. โPlease,โ she added, and that softened him faster than the command ever could have. He let her guide him down onto the closed toilet seat, moving carefully, and she slid off the counter before he could stop her, landing gingerly on her bandaged feet with a wince she tried to hide.
โCeleste.โ โIโm fine.โ โYou are not.โ โI am standing, arenโt I?โ โYou are standing in defiance of medical advice.โ โI am the medical advice.โ โYou are the reason we need warning labels.โ She almost smiled, then reached for a washcloth, ran it under cold water because there was no ice within reach, folded it carefully, and pressed it to his side with both hands. Tyriq hissed softly. Celesteโs eyes filled again. โIโm sorry,โ she whispered. He covered one of her hands with his, keeping the cloth in place. โI know.โ
She knelt in front of him before either of them fully understood what she was doing, and Tyriqโs entire body tensed, the image of what she had told him flashing between them like lightning. โCeleste, donโtโโ โIโm not him,โ she said quickly, looking up at him through tears, understanding immediately what he feared she had just stepped into. โI know. Iโm not doing it because of that. I justโyour side. Itโs easier from here.โ Tyriq searched her face, heart thudding. โAre you sure?โ She nodded. โThis is my choice.โ
The words changed the posture. They changed everything. Tyriq let out a breath and leaned back slightly, allowing her to hold the cold cloth there, allowing the woman who had hurt him to care for the hurt without turning the care into punishment, and Celeste held his gaze because she needed him to see that she knew the difference now, or at least wanted to learn it. โI donโt want you to call the police,โ he said after a while, voice quiet. Celesteโs face tightened. โButโโ โIโm not finished.โ She swallowed and nodded. โI donโt want you arrested,โ he said. โI donโt want you dragged out of here. I donโt want to punish you. But I do need this to never happen again.โ
โIt wonโt,โ she said immediately. His look stopped her, not disbelieving, careful. โDonโt promise it because youโre scared,โ he said. โTell me what changes.โ Celeste breathed in shakily. For once, she did not answer too fast. โI keep seeing Dr. Hargrove,โ she said. โMore than once a week if I need to. I tell her this happened. I tell her all of it, not the polished version. I apologize to Nala and I do not force her to forgive me. I pay for everything I damaged, but I donโt use paying as a substitute for being accountable. I donโt come to your home angry again. If I see something that triggers me, I call my therapist, or Selah, orโโ She hesitated. โOr I call you and ask instead of deciding the answer by myself.โ
Tyriq nodded slowly. โAnd the club?โ Her face crumpled with shame. โI never pick up anything in anger again.โ His gaze stayed on hers. โI mean that,โ she whispered. โI never want to see you look at me like that again.โ โHow did I look?โ โLike I scared you.โ Tyriq was quiet for a long moment. โYou did,โ he said. The words hurt. They needed to. Celeste nodded, tears slipping down her face. โI know.โ โBut you also scared yourself,โ he added. She gave a faint, broken nod. โYes.โ
Tyriq looked down at her kneeling there by choice, holding cold cloth to his bruise with both hands, her shoulder scars hidden again beneath silk, her bandaged feet tucked awkwardly beneath her, her whole face stripped of the terrible goddess rage that had brought her through his door, and what he felt was too complicated to name cleanly. He was angry. He was hurt. He was shaken. He was heartbroken for the girl in the rain with a bleeding nose and a dog in her arms. He was in love with a woman who had survived hell and still managed to make him laugh over barbecue ribs, and he was terrified of what that love would cost them if they did not stop pretending passion could do the work of healing.
He leaned forward carefully and touched her chin, lifting her face. โCeleste,โ he said. She looked at him. โI love you.โ Her breath stopped. He saw the shock move through her, the disbelief, the immediate instinct to argue with him because surely love should withdraw after damage, surely love should become conditional after violence, surely a man with a bruise on his side should not be looking at her like she was still someone worth reaching for. โBut I need you to understand me,โ he continued, voice low and steady. โI love you, and I am not going to be your Malcolm. I am not going to make you pay for being hurt, and I am not going to let you make me pay for what he did.โ
Celesteโs mouth trembled. โThatโs fair,โ she whispered. โItโs more than fair.โ A tiny, broken laugh escaped her. โIt is.โ His thumb moved gently along her chin. โAnd one day,โ he said, his voice roughening with emotion he did not bother hiding anymore, โwhen youโre ready, I want to know all of you. Not because I need proof. Not because I want to dig through your scars. Because I donโt want you alone in rooms that still got you bleeding.โ Celesteโs eyes overflowed. โI donโt know how to do that.โ โI know.โ โIโm scared.โ โI know.โ
โI love you,โ she whispered, and this time it did not sound like an accusation or a panic offering or something thrown into the room before he could leave; it sounded like a truth pulled from the bottom of a dark sea and placed trembling in his hands. โI love you so much that it terrifies me.โ Tyriqโs face twisted with the effort not to break fully in front of her, though perhaps breaking was not the right word, perhaps this was simply what happened when a man with a good heart finally understood the shape of the monster his woman had survived and realized love alone could not kill it, but love could stand guard while she learned how. โI know, baby,โ he murmured. This time, when he called her baby, she did not tell him not to.
She bowed her head over his hand and cried, not beautifully, not quietly, not as Celeste Sterling the woman with hospitals and wealth and a last name rebuilt from ashes, but as Celeste, simply Celeste, the woman who had run barefoot through rain once and never fully stopped running until this bruised, ruined night forced her to kneel in front of a man she loved and finally tell him why. Tyriq stayed there. He let her cry. He let the cold cloth numb the bruise she had given him. He let the wreckage wait outside the bathroom door, because for once, neither of them tried to clean the ruins before naming the war. And when Celeste finally whispered, โI donโt want to become him,โ Tyriq leaned forward, pressed his forehead gently to hers, and answered with a tenderness so fierce it felt less like forgiveness than a vow. โThen we donโt let you.โ
Tyriq stayed there with his forehead against hers, breathing carefully through the ache in his side, one hand still covering hers where she held the cold cloth to the bruise, the other resting against her jaw with a tenderness that felt almost impossible inside a bathroom lit too brightly, inside an apartment torn open by rage, inside a night that had begun with a headline and become something closer to confession, closer to exorcism, closer to the kind of truth that left both people alive but changed. Celeste did not move. She was afraid that if she moved too quickly, the whole fragile architecture of the moment would collapse, that if she blinked too hard he would remember the television, the mirror, the glass, the bruise blooming beneath her own hands, that if she breathed wrong he would pull away and the mercy would end.
But Tyriq did not pull away. He only kept his forehead to hers, eyes closed, breath warm against her mouth, and for a while neither of them said anything, because there were no words large enough for what had been laid between them, no apology that could repair it instantly, no declaration that could make it safe, no single act of love powerful enough to erase the ruined apartment waiting outside the bathroom door like evidence. Still, when he spoke, his voice was low and careful. โLook at me.โ Celesteโs lashes fluttered. She lifted her eyes to his.
There was anger there still, yes, hurt too, and exhaustion, and the raw, devastating knowledge of a man who had just been given the map to a war he had only ever seen from the border, but beneath all of that was love, bruised and breathing, not naive, not clean, not untouched by what she had done, but still there, still standing, still looking at her like leaving had not yet won. โIโm not saying tonight is okay,โ he said. She nodded immediately, tears gathering again. โI know.โ โAnd Iโm not saying we donโt have things to figure out.โ โI know.โ โAnd Iโm not saying Iโm not mad.โ โI know,โ she whispered, her voice breaking softly. โYou should be.โ
His thumb moved against her cheek, slow enough that she almost leaned into it before she remembered herself, before she remembered that she had spent years confusing tenderness with debt and needed to learn how to receive it without immediately offering up her own throat in payment. โBut I am saying,โ Tyriq continued, his gaze holding hers, โthat I hear you.โ Celesteโs mouth trembled. He swallowed once, and the words came out rougher. โI hear you, Celeste.โ
That undid something in her more thoroughly than forgiveness would have, because she had not asked him to erase what happened, had not asked him to absolve her, had not even asked him to stay, not with her mouth at least, but some starved part of her had been begging, silently and desperately, to be heard without being made smaller, to be known without being owned, to have all the ugliness placed in the open and not immediately weaponized against her. She bowed her head, but Tyriq caught her chin gently before she could disappear. โNo,โ he said, softer now. โStay with me.โ โIโm trying,โ she whispered. โI know.โ
Her eyes searched his face, frantic still, though quieter than before, the storm in her beginning to weaken into rain. โI donโt know what to do now,โ she admitted. Tyriq let out a tired breath, and despite everything, despite the bruise, despite the wreckage, despite the fact that their night had been dragged through fire and broken glass, the corner of his mouth lifted just barely. โThat might be the most honest thing youโve said all night.โ Celeste gave a broken little laugh through her tears. โThatโs rude.โ โThatโs true.โ โI can be honest and still be offended.โ โI know.โ
His mouth softened, and the familiarity of that small exchange, the rhythm of them still finding itself beneath the devastation, made Celeste ache so deeply she nearly pressed her fist against her own chest to hold it in. Then his gaze dropped to her mouth. Just for a second. A second was enough. Celeste went still beneath his hand, her breath catching in a way that had nothing to do with fear and everything to do with the sudden, impossible awareness of how close he was, of the warmth of him, of the tenderness still living in his face despite the anger, despite the hurt, despite the fact that she had come into his home like a curse and he was still touching her like she was a woman, not a weapon.
Tyriq looked back into her eyes. โCan I kiss you?โ The question moved through her like light breaking over the edge of the world. For a moment, she could not answer, not because she did not want him to, but because being asked so simply, so gently, after everything she had confessed, after all those years of hands that took and punished and called ownership intimacy, made her feel as though some locked room inside her had opened and found not a monster on the other side, but air. She nodded once, quickly, then realized he was waiting for words. โYes,โ she breathed. โPlease.โ
Tyriq kissed her carefully, not hungrily at first, not with the kind of urgency that would have turned the moment into escape, but slowly, softly, his mouth brushing hers like he was making a promise with pressure instead of language, like he was teaching her that closeness did not have to arrive as conquest, that a man could hold her face in both hands and still leave her free. Celeste made a small sound against him, not a sob, not quite, but something close, something wounded and relieved and terrified by relief, and Tyriq kissed her again, deeper this time, still careful of his side, still careful of her tears, his thumb stroking beneath her cheekbone while she lifted both hands to his chest as if she needed to feel his heartbeat to believe he was real.
He was warm. He was there. He tasted faintly like mint and grief and the aftermath of too much truth, and Celeste kissed him like a woman returning from a country no one had known she was trapped in, not trying to swallow him whole, not trying to make desire erase accountability, but letting herself have one honest thing in the middle of the ruin. When he pulled back, he did not go far. His lips still brushed hers when he spoke. โYou done tearing up my house?โ
A laugh broke out of her so suddenly she had to press her forehead into his shoulder, and it was ugly and wet and half-crying, but it was laughter, real laughter, the kind that shook something loose in the room. โI am so sorry,โ she whispered against him. โI know.โ โI really am.โ โI know.โ โIโm going to replaceโโ โCeleste.โ She stopped immediately. Tyriq sighed, but there was a tired fondness beneath it now, bruised and reluctant. โTomorrow.โ She nodded into his shoulder. โTomorrow.โ โAnd therapy.โ โYes.โ โAnd Nala.โ Celeste shut her eyes. The pain of that name was different, sharper, fresher. โYes,โ she whispered. โNala.โ
Tyriq kissed the side of her head, and the tenderness of it made her chest hurt. โGood.โ They stayed like that for another few breaths, the ruined apartment beyond the door and the first aid kit open beside them, her bandaged feet touching the tile, his bruise cooling beneath the cloth, both of them suspended in the strange, fragile quiet after catastrophe, when love had not fixed anything but had refused, stubbornly, to leave the room. Eventually, Celeste drew back and looked at him properly, her doctorโs eyes returning through the tears as she studied the way he shifted his weight. โYou canโt sleep here,โ she said.
Tyriq blinked. โMy bed still exists.โ โYour bedroom is covered in glass.โ โMy couch mightโve survived.โ โYour couch is surrounded by glass.โ โI have shoes.โ โAnd a bruised side, and a destroyed apartment, and I am not leaving you here alone after I did this.โ His eyes narrowed slightly. โYou not leaving me here alone?โ โNo.โ โCeleste.โ โIโm bringing you home with me.โ He stared at her. For the first time that night, something almost amused moved through his expression. โYou bringing me home with you after you trashed my place?โ โYes.โ โThat sounds like kidnapping with extra steps.โ โIt is medical observation.โ โItโs guilt.โ โIt is also guilt,โ she admitted, lifting her chin with a fragile dignity that would have been more convincing if her eyes were not swollen from crying. โBut mainly medical observation.โ
Tyriq huffed, then winced immediately, one hand going to his side. Celesteโs face changed. โSee?โ โDonโt sound happy about my pain.โ โI am not happy, I am correct.โ โYou love being correct.โ โI love you alive and not internally bleeding.โ His gaze softened, and the room quieted around the words. Celeste realized what she had said and looked away, but Tyriq caught her hand before she could retreat too far into embarrassment. โIโll come,โ he said. Her eyes returned to his. โTo your place,โ he clarified, voice low. โIโll come.โ She nodded, and something unclenched in her shoulders.
It took longer than it should have to leave. Celeste insisted on helping him change into a clean shirt from the least-damaged part of his closet, though Tyriq made a point of standing in the doorway and watching her navigate the wreckage with exaggerated suspicion, muttering that he had already survived one natural disaster and did not need a sequel. She ignored him, mostly because he was right and because looking at the broken things made shame crawl up her throat again, but every time her face began to close, he said her name, not sharply, not softly, just enough to keep her from disappearing into the ruins.
She called the cleaning service from the hallway while Tyriq sat on the only chair that had not been destroyed, holding an ice pack to his side and watching her pace barefoot in the disposable slippers she had found beneath his sink. Her voice was composed when she spoke to them, efficient, precise, but every so often her eyes flicked back to him, checking the set of his mouth, the angle of his breathing, the way his fingers tightened around the ice pack, and each time he caught her looking, he lifted his brows as if to say, Iโm still here.
By the time they got to her car, the adrenaline had thinned enough that Celeste began to feel the cuts in her feet properly, each step a small punishment she did not protest because Tyriq was already moving more carefully than usual and she refused to add any more weight to the night. He noticed anyway. Of course he did. โGive me your keys,โ he said. โYou are not driving.โ โI didnโt say I was driving.โ โThen why do you need my keys?โ โSo I can unlock the car before you try to sprint across the garage like your feet arenโt wrapped in gauze.โ โI do not sprint.โ โYou sprint emotionally all the time.โ Celeste glared at him. He looked back calmly. After a beat, she handed him the keys. โThat was very irritating.โ โThat was growth,โ he said. She almost smiled. Almost.
At her house, the silence was different, not empty, not accusing, not full of broken glass and splintered wood, but soft and dim and warm, the kind of quiet that came from lamps left on low, from polished floors reflecting amber light, from expensive candles that smelled faintly of fig and cedar and something floral Celeste would have described with unnecessarily dramatic precision if she had not been so tired. Tyriq stepped inside slowly, eyes moving over the space. He had been there before, but tonight it felt different, because she had not brought him there as a lover arriving after dinner or a man pulled into her orbit by chemistry and pride and stubborn attraction. She had brought him there bruised. She had brought him there after showing him the rooms inside herself that still had blood on the floor.
Celeste shut the door behind them and leaned against it for one second, eyes closed, gathering herself. When she opened them, Tyriq was watching her, not cautiously, not suspiciously, just watching. โCome on,โ she said quietly. โLet me get you ice properly.โ He let her. In her kitchen, under soft pendant lights, Celeste moved with gentle purpose, pulling ice packs from the freezer, wrapping one in a dish towel, guiding him to sit at the breakfast bar even as he complained once, mildly, that she was bossy as hell for someone wearing medical gauze like couture.
She did not snap back. She smiled faintly instead, and that tiny smile nearly brought his anger back in a different form, because he realized then how much he had missed seeing her face unguarded, how much of himself had been waiting for her to come back from wherever she went when fear took the wheel. When she pressed the ice to his side, he hissed softly. Her eyes filled immediately. โCeleste,โ he warned gently. โIโm not crying.โ โYou absolutely are.โ โIโm assessing.โ โWith tears?โ โMy eyes are hydrated.โ Despite himself, Tyriq laughed once, low and brief, and then immediately regretted it when the movement pulled at his bruise. Celesteโs hand flew to his shoulder. โI told you.โ โYou did not tell me jokes were medically dangerous.โ โYou are not allowed to laugh until further notice.โ โThatโs gonna be hard if you keep saying ridiculous things.โ โI am a physician.โ โYou are a physician who committed a felony with a golf club.โ
She closed her eyes. โTyriq.โ His humor faded. โIโm sorry,โ he said quietly. She looked at him, startled. โI shouldnโt joke about it like that yet.โ Celeste swallowed. โNo,โ she said after a moment. โItโs okay. I mean, itโs not okay, but I know what youโre doing.โ โWhat am I doing?โ โTrying to make the room breathable.โ He looked at her for a long second. โYeah,โ he admitted. She nodded, her hand still resting near his shoulder. โI appreciate it.โ He covered her hand with his. Neither of them said anything after that.
Later, after he had iced his side properly, after she had checked his breathing twice and nearly checked it a third time until he gave her a look, after she had taken something for the pain in her feet and changed into soft pajamas with a loose robe over them, after Tyriq had borrowed one of the oversized shirts she kept because somehow half her wardrobe had become quietly prepared for him, they stood at the entrance to her bedroom with the kind of awkwardness that would have been funny if they were not both so emotionally flayed. Celeste looked at the bed, then at him. โYou can take the bed,โ she said. Tyriq frowned. โWhere you going?โ โThe couch.โ โAbsolutely not.โ โTyriq.โ โCeleste.โ โYouโre injured.โ โYouโre injured.โ โI injured you.โ โAnd you still not sleeping on the couch in your own house with cut feet.โ
She looked away. He exhaled slowly. โWe can share the bed,โ he said, gentler now. โOr I can take the couch. But you not punishing yourself with furniture tonight.โ Her throat tightened. โThat is a very specific boundary.โ โIโm becoming emotionally literate. Donโt make it weird.โ A small laugh escaped her. It was tired, but real. โDr. Hargrove would be thrilled.โ โDr. Hargrove sounds nosy.โ โShe is.โ โShe good at it?โ โUnfortunately.โ Tyriq nodded toward the bed. โThen listen to the nosy woman in your head and get in.โ Celeste hesitated for only a moment longer before obeying.
They moved carefully, both of them sore in different ways, Celeste sliding beneath the covers first, her bandaged feet kept away from the sheets as much as possible, Tyriq easing in behind her with a quiet grunt he tried to hide and failed. She turned immediately. โYour side.โ โItโs fine.โ โIt is not fine.โ โIt is fine enough.โ โYou should lie on the other side.โ โI know how to lie down, Celeste.โ โYou say that, but men have a long history of overestimating their competence.โ He stared at her in the dark. She stared back. Then he shook his head, faint amusement softening his face. โMove over.โ
She did, carefully. Tyriq settled behind her, leaving space at first, not assuming, not reaching, the room washed in low moonlight and the faint golden glow of the lamp she had left on across the room. Celeste lay stiffly on her side, facing away from him, every nerve in her body aware of his warmth behind her, of the empty inches between them, of the fact that this bed, this room, this night held the possibility of tenderness and accountability without one erasing the other. Then his voice came quietly behind her. โCan I hold you?โ Celeste shut her eyes. The question was so simple. It still nearly broke her. โYes,โ she whispered.
Tyriq moved slowly, sliding one arm around her waist with careful weight, mindful of his side and her body and all the invisible bruises that had nothing to do with tonight. He pulled her back against him inch by inch, not trapping her, not caging her, just bringing her close enough that her back rested against his chest and his breath warmed the curve of her neck. Celeste trembled once. His arm tightened slightly. โYou okay?โ She nodded, then remembered he could not see her face. โYes,โ she said softly. โIโm okay.โ His hand flattened gently over her stomach, grounding but not possessive, and Celeste placed her hand over his, threading her fingers through his as if she needed to learn the shape of him again after everything they had survived in the last few hours.
For a while, neither of them spoke. The room held them. Outside, the world moved on with its cruel little headlines and flashing cameras and strangers hungry for stories they did not understand, but inside Celesteโs bedroom, beneath the hush of linen and lamplight, there was only Tyriq breathing behind her, his body curved carefully around hers, his bruised side kept from pressure, his chin resting near her hair. She should have felt trapped. She did not. She felt held. The difference was so profound that tears slipped silently down her face before she could stop them.
Tyriq felt the shift in her breathing. โCeleste?โ โIโm not spiraling,โ she whispered quickly. โYou crying?โ โYes.โ โAbout what?โ She breathed in shakily. โI donโt know how to explain it.โ โTry.โ She stared at the shadows on the wall, at the soft blur of her own bedroom in the dark, at the life she had built after leaving hell and the man behind her who had walked into the aftermath without demanding she become easy to love by morning. โI keep waiting for care to turn into consequence,โ she whispered.
Tyriq did not answer immediately. His thumb moved once over her hand. โItโs not going to tonight,โ he said. Her eyes closed. โOkay.โ โAnd tomorrow, when we talk about what happened, it still wonโt be punishment.โ Her breath hitched. โIt might feel like it.โ โI know,โ he said. โBut it wonโt be.โ Celeste nodded against the pillow, and this time the tears did not come from terror alone, but from the strange grief of being given something gentler than what she had prepared herself to survive.
Behind her, Tyriq pressed a kiss to her hair, not her mouth this time, not her skin with hunger, just her hair, soft and tired and intimate, a quiet little seal over the night, a reminder that the body could be touched without being taken, that love could have boundaries and still have warmth, that a man could be hurt and still choose not to become a weapon. โI love you,โ he murmured. Celeste held his hand tighter. โI love you too,โ she whispered. Her voice shook, but the words did not.
Tyriq tucked her closer, careful of them both, his arm warm over her, his chest steady at her back, and for the first time all night, Celeste let herself melt into him without planning the escape route, without bracing for the turn, without turning tenderness into a transaction she had to repay before sunrise. She did not sleep immediately. Neither did he. There was too much still waiting for morning: the apartment, Nala, therapy, the bruise, the broken things, the unbroken things. But eventually, Tyriqโs breathing slowed behind her, his body curved around hers like a shield that did not know how to become a cage, and Celeste lay awake in the circle of his arms, listening to the soft, living proof of him.
He had kissed her. He had come home with her. He had shared her bed. He was holding her after seeing the ugliest parts of the storm. And for once, when the quiet settled over them, Celeste did not mistake it for danger. She let it be peace.
โฆ.
A year later, the house no longer felt like a place Celeste had built to survive in. That was the first thing Tyriq noticed as he stood in the middle of her foyer with two boxes stacked in his arms, his name written across the side in Celesteโs sharp, elegant handwriting, the kind of handwriting that made even cardboard look like it had been processed through a board meeting and approved by three committees; the house was still beautiful, still expensive, still unmistakably hers, all soft stone and tall windows and carefully curated art, but somewhere over the last year the space had loosened, had exhaled, had stopped feeling like a museum where grief wore silk gloves and started feeling like a home that expected laughter to leave fingerprints.
There were flowers on the entry table now, not the stiff white orchids Malcolm would have sent as commands disguised as romance, but wild, overblown things in warm colors, peonies and ranunculus and tulips leaning toward the light like they had every intention of living dramatically before they died, and there was a pair of Tyriqโs sneakers by the door beside Celesteโs heels, not placed there by accident, not hidden away before company came, not treated like evidence of a man slowly invading her space, but left there openly, casually, almost smugly, as if even the house had accepted that he belonged there now.
โDo not put that box on the console,โ Celeste called from somewhere deeper inside the house, her voice carrying through the foyer with the same regal certainty she used to command surgical teams, donors, contractors, and occasionally him when he was breathing too loudly near her paint swatches. โI just had that surface refinished.โ Tyriq looked at the console, then looked down at the very heavy box in his arms, then, because he loved her and because loving Celeste Sterling had always required a certain willingness to be both devoted and deliberately annoying, he lowered the box slowly toward the console without letting it touch.
Celeste appeared in the doorway of the sitting room instantly, curls pinned up loosely, paint sample cards in one hand, tape measure in the other, wearing wide-leg linen trousers and one of his old T-shirts knotted at her waist like she had stolen it with legal authority. โTyriq.โ He paused, box hovering. โWhat?โ Her eyes narrowed. โDo not play with me in this house.โ He grinned. โThis house?โ โOur house,โ she corrected, and then immediately looked irritated with herself for saying it so easily, so naturally, like the words had slipped out before fear could frisk them at the door.
Tyriqโs grin softened into something quieter, and Celeste saw it and rolled her eyes because she knew exactly what that face meant, knew he was about to get sentimental and impossible in the foyer while holding his dumbbells, probably, or sneakers, or some unnecessarily heavy object he insisted was โnot that badโ because men believed weight was a personality trait. โDo not look at me like that,โ she said. โLike what?โ โLike I just gave you a sonogram.โ โYou said our house.โ โIt is legally efficient phrasing.โ โUh-huh.โ โIt is.โ โSay it again then.โ Celeste lifted the tape measure in warning. โI will throw this at you.โ โYouโve grown too much to throw objects at me.โ
Her face flickered, not with shame the way it would have six months ago, not with the sudden collapse into guilt that used to turn her whole body into apology, but with a quieter recognition, a little shadow passing over a room now bright enough not to be swallowed by it. Tyriq noticed because he noticed everything, and Celeste noticed that he noticed because unfortunately, loving a perceptive man meant she could not get away with half the emotional crimes she once committed in peace. Then she breathed in, slow and deliberate, grounding herself in the way Dr. Hargrove had taught her, feet on the floor, name the room, name the feeling, do not let the past drive without a license. โI am not throwing anything,โ she said after a moment, chin lifting. โBut I am still capable of threatening you with interior design consequences.โ
Tyriqโs expression warmed. โThatโs my girl.โ Celeste pointed at him. โDo not reward me like Iโm a labradoodle.โ โYou responded instead of reacting.โ โI am aware.โ โThatโs growth.โ โI am aware, Tyriq.โ โAnd Iโm proud of you.โ The words landed softly, but they still landed. Celeste stood there in the doorway for a beat too long, paint cards pressed against her palm, mouth caught between a sharp reply and something too tender to risk in bright daylight, and then, because she was still Celeste and love had not made her any less theatrical, she turned toward the sitting room with a huff. โPut the box in the library,โ she said, voice just slightly rougher than before. โAnd stop being emotionally observant before noon.โ
Tyriq laughed and carried the box past her. The library had been the biggest debate, not because of the shelves, though Celeste had strong opinions about walnut versus oak and had once spent forty-seven minutes explaining undertones to him with the gravity of a woman presenting evidence before the Supreme Court, but because making room for Tyriq there had meant something neither of them said aloud at first. It meant his books on the lower shelves beside hers, his framed photographs beside her awards, his game film notes and scripts and worn paperbacks on the desk she had once kept painfully clear, as if clutter were a moral failure and personal objects were liabilities waiting to be used against her.
It meant his life not visiting hers, not hovering at the edge with overnight bags and chargers and spare hoodies, but merging, visibly, stubbornly, into the architecture. It meant trust had become heavier than a word. It had become furniture. Paint. Closet space. A toothbrush that never left. A drawer that was not offered in a panic after a tender night, but measured, lined, and assigned with Celesteโs full, terrifying commitment to precision.
Tyriq placed the box on the library floor and looked around at the half-finished room, at the newly painted walls in a deep olive that Celeste swore was โearthy and masculine without being emotionally repressed,โ at the brass reading lamps still wrapped in protective paper, at the large blank section of wall where she refused to hang anything until Nala finished the piece she had promised them. โYou still set on the mural?โ he asked. Celeste leaned against the doorway, arms folded, watching him in the space as if she were trying to memorize him there. โNala said she can start next month,โ she said. โShe and her husband are turning part of their estate into a whole painted storybook for the children, and apparently she has decided we also need something celestial and mythological in here, because subtlety has never been one of her spiritual gifts.โ
Tyriqโs brows lifted. โShe painting murals while pregnant?โ โShe is very pregnant and deeply unreasonable,โ Celeste said, but there was fondness beneath every syllable, warm and careful and still a little fragile in the places where friendship had been repaired slowly instead of magically. โHer husband is losing his mind because she keeps climbing on step stools when she thinks no one is looking, and she keeps telling him the baby likes the smell of paint, which is medically ridiculous and spiritually annoying.โ Tyriq chuckled. โHe letting her paint around the estate?โ โLetting is a generous word,โ Celeste said, lips twitching. โHe follows her around with water, snacks, a chair, and the expression of a man one ladder away from calling her daddy on her.โ Tyriq laughed harder, then shook his head as he opened another box. โThat sounds like them.โ โIt does,โ Celeste said softly.
A year ago, Nalaโs name would have sat between them like broken glass. Now, it still had edges, but Celeste no longer bled every time she touched it. Apologizing had not been cinematic; there had been no immediate embrace, no grand forgiveness, no soft music swelling beneath the scene while old wounds dissolved into candlelight, because Nala was kind but not careless with herself, soft but not stupid, and Celeste had learned that accountability was not a performance meant to purchase instant closeness but a discipline, a repeated choosing not to make someone else responsible for the guilt you had earned.
It had started with a letter Celeste did not ask Nala to answer, then therapy, then silence, then a phone call where Celeste cried so hard she had to sit on the bathroom floor, not because Nala was cruel, but because Nala was calm, and somehow calm disappointment hurt worse than shouting. Then, months later, coffee. Then a careful hug. Then Nala telling her, โI love you, but donโt ever do that shit again,โ with her hand resting over the small swell of her pregnant belly and her eyes shining with the kind of mercy that did not erase the scar but refused to turn it into a weapon. Celeste had said, โI wonโt.โ And, for the first time in a long time, she meant it not as a desperate promise born from fear, but as a plan.
Tyriq looked over at her from the floor, where he had begun unpacking books. โYou okay?โ Celeste blinked. โYes,โ she said, then paused, because honesty had become one of the strange new habits of her life, like letting him load the dishwasher incorrectly and not immediately treating it as an omen of civilizational decline. โI was thinking about Nala.โ His expression softened. โYeah?โ โShe forgave me,โ Celeste said, and her voice held the wonder of it still, even after months, even after brunches and voice notes and Nala sending her dramatic pictures of paint samples from the estate with captions like which shade says my husband is getting on my nerves but I still want his baby to have joy? โNot all at once. Not the way people write forgiveness when they donโt understand damage. But she did.โ
Tyriq nodded, patient. Celeste looked down at the paint cards in her hand. โAnd I did not chase her into forgiving me,โ she said. โI waited. I listened. I let her be angry without making it about me.โ Tyriqโs eyes warmed with pride again, and this time she let herself see it without flinching. โThatโs real,โ he said. โIt was horrible.โ โI bet.โ โI hated it.โ โI know.โ โI am still very good at hating consequences.โ โYou are.โ โBut I did it.โ โYou did.โ Celeste breathed in, her gaze moving around the library, over the open boxes and empty wall and shelves waiting to hold both their histories side by side. โIโm glad sheโs painting something here,โ she admitted. โIt feelsโฆright.โ
Tyriq stood slowly, brushing his hands off on his sweats as he crossed the room toward her. โWhat she painting?โ โShe said she was thinking of Orpheus and Eurydice, but I told her absolutely not because I do not need a tragic myth about a man looking back and losing the woman he loves permanently memorialized in our library.โ โGood call.โ โThen she suggested Persephone, and I said only if she paints spring, not the underworld, because I am deeply uninterested in decorating my home with allegories of captivity.โ โAlso good call.โ โSo now,โ Celeste continued, eyes narrowing with affectionate suspicion, โshe says she wants to paint two constellations meeting over a garden, with a little nod to Athena and Ares because apparently I am strategy and you are war.โ Tyriq looked offended. โWhy I gotta be war?โ โYou were the athlete.โ โI contain multitudes.โ
Celesteโs mouth opened. Then she laughed. It came out bright and surprised, the same kind of laugh that had once filled an unfinished office at midnight while cold fries sat between them and a runaway whiteboard hit the wall, the kind of laugh Tyriq had fallen in love with before he understood he was falling, the kind of laugh that made her look, for a second, younger than all she had survived. He stared at her like he had been struck. Celesteโs laughter faded into a smile. โWhat?โ โNothing.โ โThat is not a nothing face.โ โI just love when you laugh like that.โ
Her expression softened before she could defend herself against it. A year ago, she would have made a joke sharp enough to push him back. Now, she stepped closer. Only a little. But enough. โI laugh more now,โ she said. โYou do.โ โThat is partly your fault.โ โIโll take that.โ โAnd partly mine,โ she added, because she had worked for that laughter, had earned it in therapy rooms and apology calls and nights when she woke up from old dreams and did not turn away when Tyriq asked whether he could hold her. โI had to make room for it.โ
Tyriq reached for her hand, slow enough to ask without words, and she gave it to him. His thumb moved over her knuckles. The ring on her finger was not an engagement ring, not yet, not because he had not thought about it, not because she had not noticed him thinking about it, but because they had agreed, after that broken night, that love would not be rushed into ceremony just to prove it had survived; still, he had bought her a thin gold band after their first full year of therapy together and separate, a simple thing she wore on her right hand as a promise not of forever yet, but of continuing.
Continuing had become holy to them. Continuing meant he moved in not because passion demanded it, but because peace invited it. Continuing meant she could say, โIโm jealous,โ without smashing a mirror. Continuing meant he could say, โThat hurt me,โ without fearing she would collapse into self-hatred so completely he would have to comfort her instead. Continuing meant there were no golf clubs in the house except the ones locked in the garage, which Celeste called โpracticalโ and Tyriq called โsymbolic as hell.โ Continuing meant that when headlines tried them now, Celeste sent screenshots to him with the caption, explain before I become mythologically unreasonable, and Tyriq called her immediately, laughing and serious at once, because they had learned that reassurance given early was better than apologies made in rubble.
Tyriq tugged her gently toward him. Celeste went. That was new too, not the desire, not the chemistry, not the gravitational pull that had always made being near him feel like standing too close to a beautiful fire, but the ease of letting herself be gathered without stiffening first. He wrapped his arms around her waist, careful and familiar, his chin lowering toward her temple. She leaned into him. The library smelled of paint, cardboard, cedar, and the faint trace of his cologne already beginning to settle into the room as if the house itself were learning him by heart. โYou really ready for me to be here full-time?โ he asked, voice low against her hair.
Celeste rested her hands on his forearms. โNo.โ He pulled back slightly. โNo?โ โNo,โ she said, glancing up at him with a seriousness that made his brows draw together before she continued. โI am ready for you to live here, but I am not ready for you to put protein powder on my counters, leave damp towels on chairs, or pretend your decorative preferences are anything more than sports memorabilia and masculine confusion.โ Tyriq stared. Then laughed, full and loud, head dropping forward until his forehead nearly touched hers. โThere she go.โ โI am being honest.โ โYou are being rude.โ โI can multitask.โ
His hands tightened slightly at her waist, and his smile softened into something that made her stomach turn warm and nervous, not from fear, but from the beautiful, inconvenient knowledge that after everything, after all the ruin and work and repair, he still looked at her like she was the place he wanted to come home to. โYou know Iโm proud of you, right?โ he said. Celesteโs throat tightened. โYou tell me often.โ โIโm telling you again.โ โI know.โ โNo, I meanโฆโ He paused, searching for words with a care that made her still. โNot proud because youโre easy now. Not proud because you never get scared. Proud because you get scared and you stay in the room anyway.โ
Celesteโs eyes burned. She hated that tears came faster now, hated and loved it, because there had been years when crying felt like losing, and now sometimes tears simply meant her body trusted the room enough to stop holding its breath. โI still want to run sometimes,โ she admitted. โI know.โ โSometimes when things are too good, I think something terrible is waiting behind them.โ โI know.โ โAnd sometimes when you are kind to me, there is a terrible little voice in my head that asks what it will cost.โ Tyriqโs jaw shifted, pain moving through his face for her, but he did not interrupt. Celeste looked up at him, fingers tightening around his arms. โBut it is quieter now.โ His eyes softened. โYeah?โ โYes,โ she whispered. โBecause you are louder.โ
He smiled faintly. โI do have a big voice.โ โThat is not what I meant.โ โI know what you meant.โ โYou are very annoying.โ โAnd moving in.โ โYes,โ she said, and this time there was no flinch, no correction, no need to make the words less intimate by dressing them in logistics. โYou are moving in.โ Tyriq kissed her then, soft and slow in the unfinished library, surrounded by half-unpacked boxes and bare walls waiting for Nalaโs pregnant, paint-covered genius to turn them into sky, his hands warm at her waist, her body relaxing into him with the quiet confidence of a woman who had finally begun to understand that being held was not the same as being trapped.
When he pulled back, Celesteโs eyes stayed closed for one extra breath. He noticed. He always noticed. โYou good?โ She opened her eyes. โIโm happy,โ she said, and the honesty surprised them both. The words did not shake. They did not apologize for themselves. They did not ask permission to exist. Tyriq looked at her with something close to awe, and Celeste almost made a joke to save herself from the intimacy of it, almost reached for sarcasm like a shawl, almost became the woman who could make any room laugh before it saw too much of her heart. Instead, she let him see it: all of it, the fear still healing, the love still expanding, the woman Malcolm had not killed, the woman Tyriq had not saved alone, because she had saved herself too, but had loved steadily enough to stand beside while she came back from the underworld with dirt beneath her nails and spring trembling in her hands.
โIโm happy too,โ Tyriq said. From somewhere near the front of the house, another delivery driver rang the bell, and Celeste sighed so dramatically that Tyriq laughed before she even spoke. โIf that is the wrong sofa,โ she said, stepping out of his arms with renewed purpose, โI am going to become unpleasant.โ Tyriq followed her toward the foyer, smiling. โBecome?โ She turned, eyes narrowing. โCareful, Withers.โ He lifted both hands. โOur house, your rules.โ Celeste paused at the phrase. Our house. This time, she smiled first. โYes,โ she said, opening the door to the rest of their life with paint on her fingers, love in her chest, and no desire to run from either. โExactly.โ
The mover at the door was, mercifully, not carrying the wrong sofa. He was carrying paperwork, which Celeste accepted with the solemn gravity of a woman receiving classified documents from a foreign ambassador, her eyes scanning the delivery confirmation while Tyriq stood behind her trying, and failing, not to look amused. โItโs the right sectional,โ she said, signing her name with a flourish that made the clipboard look briefly more expensive than it was. โPerformance linen, ivory, left-facing chaise, walnut legs.โ Tyriq leaned down near her ear. โYou sound like you giving birth to it.โ โI have been waiting twelve weeks for this sofa,โ she replied without looking at him. โEmotionally, I am.โ The mover, wisely, said nothing.
Once the paperwork was finished and the delivery team left to bring the first pieces up from the truck, Celeste shut the door and turned around with immediate purpose, already glancing toward the sitting room as if she were mentally measuring wall clearance, traffic flow, and the spiritual compatibility of furniture and natural light. โWe need to clear the path,โ she said, stepping around Tyriq. โThe rug has to be rolled back, the side table needs to move, and if they scratch the floor, I need you to witness it because I refuse to be gaslit by men with dollies.โ Tyriq caught her wrist before she made it two steps. Celeste stopped, then turned back slowly, brows raised. โTyriq.โ
He did not answer immediately. He only looked at her. That was the problem with him lately, the way he had learned to be quiet at precisely the wrong times, the way he could stand in the middle of their half-redecorated foyer with boxes stacked behind him and sunlight laying gold across his shoulders, looking at her like the whole house had faded behind her, like the paint samples and movers and sectional delays and all her little plans were charming, but not nearly as important as the fact that she was standing there smiling without armor. Her expression softened before she could help it. โWhat?โ she asked, though her voice had already lost some of its command.
Tyriq stepped closer. โYou know you been giggling all morning?โ Celeste blinked. โI have not.โ โYou have.โ โI have been issuing instructions.โ โYou been giggling between instructions.โ โThat is administratively impossible.โ He smiled. โNah. Itโs cute.โ Her eyes narrowed, but the corners of her mouth betrayed her, lifting against her will. โDo not call me cute while Iโm managing a delivery.โ โYou cute when you manage deliveries.โ โI am formidable.โ โYou cute and formidable.โ โI hate you.โ โYou love me.โ
She opened her mouth to deny him on principle, but he had already pulled her closer, one hand sliding around her waist, the other settling at her lower back with the kind of easy possession that no longer made her body brace for consequence, and the words dissolved somewhere between her tongue and her pride. Tyriq bent his head. Celeste lifted her chin. The kiss was supposed to be quick. It was not.
It started soft, a warm press of his mouth to hers in the foyer of their house, surrounded by cardboard boxes and rolled rugs and all the chaotic evidence of a life being merged on purpose, and Celesteโs hands went to his chest with the intention of pushing him back after one second, maybe two, because movers were outside and the sofa was coming and she was a woman with priorities. But then he kissed her again, slower this time, and her fingers curled into his shirt instead. Tyriq hummed against her mouth like he knew. Like he always knew. โMm-mm,โ she murmured, but it had no conviction, none at all, especially not when his hand pressed more firmly against her back and pulled her flush to him.
He smiled into the kiss. Celeste felt it and laughed, breathless, the sound breaking against his lips in a bright little spill of happiness she would have once swallowed out of fear that too much joy might summon punishment from whatever gods kept score of women like her. Now she let it out. She giggled against his mouth, soft and startled and young in a way that made his whole face change, made his arms tighten around her like he could feel the exact moment the woman he loved chose not to run from being loved back. โTyriq,โ she protested, laughing again when he kissed the corner of her mouth, then her cheek, then found her lips once more like he had all the time in the world and no respect whatsoever for scheduled logistics. โThe movers are going to be here in ten minutes.โ
โThatโs plenty of time.โ Her eyes flew open. โNo, it is not.โ โIt is for me.โ โAbsolutely not.โ He grinned, wicked and beautiful and far too pleased with himself, and before she could step back, before she could gather even a shred of dignity, he bent and lifted her clean off her feet. Celeste gasped, arms flying around his shoulders on instinct, her laughter bursting out of her as he carried her backward with the confidence of a man who had learned every room in her house and every way to make her forget the existence of clocks. โTyriq Withers,โ she said, trying to sound stern and failing miserably because she was still laughing into his jaw, โput me down.โ โNo.โ
โThe moversโโ โGot ten minutes.โ โThey have my sofa.โ โAnd I got you.โ โThat is not the same thing.โ โItโs better.โ She tried to glare at him, but he kissed her again, and the glare melted embarrassingly fast, her fingers slipping into the curls at the nape of his neck as he carried her toward the sitting room instead of the staircase, because he was not reckless enough to disappear with an entire delivery team on the way, only bold enough to make a point in the middle of their almost-finished home. โFour,โ he murmured against her mouth. Celeste pulled back, breathless and suspicious. โFour what?โ His eyes glittered. โAll I need is four.โ
For one suspended second, she stared at him. Then her mouth dropped open in scandalized delight, laughter overtaking her so completely she had to press her forehead to his shoulder. โYou are impossible,โ she said. โAnd moving in.โ โYou are not allowed to be this pleased with yourself.โ โIโm very allowed.โ โThe sofaโโ โCan wait four minutes.โ โThe delivery men cannot.โ โThey can if they value their tip.โ Celeste laughed again, helplessly, beautifully, and Tyriq kissed the sound right out of her mouth, holding her there in the warm, unfinished center of their house while sunlight poured across the floor and the future waited outside with furniture pads, paperwork, and terrible timing.
And for once, Celeste did not check for exits. She only held on.
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