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[nabilah-rashid]

To My Complete Stranger

To my complete stranger,

I hope you have found your happiness out there

I hope you have uncovered the answers, to all those questions you had in your head,

the questions you would ask me,

but I could not respond with things you wanted to hear

I hope your wishes are slowly getting fulfilled,

I hope your hard work and exhaustion, 

the ones you used to pour to me about, 

is finally paid off in some ways, or another

Complete stranger,

I dont know where and how you are doing.

I dont know if your favourite food is still cheese or cupcakes,

I can barely remember how your smile would begin to form,

or whether your eyes squint first before your laugh,

I cannot recall which side of your arm it was that you had your childhood scar,

or, how you say my name, 

I dont think I can recognise the sound of your voice anymore,

be it a shout or a whisper, or even in a song.

but, I can still sing out the songs we used to share

the inside jokes that made only us, burst with laughter

and maybe, one and a few other more moments, 

among all those that has been lost, with time.

To my complete stranger,

I wish nothing but health and wealth 

for your mother, sister, and dear family I had a short glimpse with

and for you, 

to find the meaning in what you have searched for,

all this while, 

be it in a person,

be it in a lifetime.

To my complete stranger,

"3 weeks, 3 months, 3 years, I dont know"

I somehow recollect these words.

the timeline you had once invisibly sketched, that I remember.clear.

and it is now coming to an end.

Dearest complete stranger,

I do not regret how our paths have crossed,

and the lessons I have learnt out of it.

but in this far distance, 

in wishing you the best in all you do,

in life and in love,

I pray that we never chance upon again.

so that we could just continue to be

beautiful complete strangers.

[nabilah-rashid]

Amidst the was and is

Was it by mere chance or calculated fate that we crossed paths and stayed parallel alongside each other all these years. Was it in the beginning,we had so much in common that we felt our wavelengths combine,achieving great amplitudes, and all our differences turned out to be those missing puzzle pieces of ourselves we were always silently looking for. What was it?those violent butterflies that made our very hearts flutter,our stomachs churn,only in each other’s presence. It wasnt a feeling of fear but it was an enthralling amazingness that we seldom feel when we are alone or with other people. Now it is a blanket of comfort, subtly covering our body figures. Sometimes slipping down without us realising,leaving us bare,exposed. Sometimes the love feels like the waves crashing on the shores.hitting you so hard you freeze in standing motion,feet buried beneath the sands. The tides come in for mere seconds, only to disappear and pull itself back in the ocean again. The foam and bubbles,proof of the momentum and force, fading away into the pulling waters,and all you could do is watch them vanish.and hope and wait for the next wave to hit again. Beautiful things come disguising their true not-so-pretty elements.the ocean and sea.the tears from those countless arguments. Both.corroding.eroding.your soul and emotions. What was it?what is it that we have now?
a question asked too much but the answer well known, clearly written on the heart.and it remains there,the words unspoken.

[nabilah-rashid]

lost

so intertwined with another being that you somehow lose yourself.its amazing how in sync your different wavelengths can come in tune,yet so scary that what you were as yourself is no longer there,as you get immersed and lose yourself. you think of the what ifs and the maybes.of how different it might have been.you notice slowly you are possibly changing into the person you never wished to be.the type of being you swear you would not become one day.and the hate is in you now. sometimes,you look in the mirror and cant recognise the person staring back.you look into her eyes hoping to reach her soul,but nothing.

[nabilah-rashid]

lost

so intertwined with another being that you somehow lose yourself.its amazing how in sync your different wavelengths can come in tune,yet so scary that what you were as yourself is no longer there,as you get immersed and lose yourself. you think of the what ifs and the maybes.of how different it might have been.you notice slowly you are possibly changing into the person you never wished to be.the type of being you swear you would not become one day.and the hate is in you now. sometimes,you look in the mirror and cant recognise the person staring back.you look into her eyes hoping to reach her soul,but nothing.

[nabilah-rashid]

the if(s)

what if,your happiness is just not me.

what if, your happiness is other than me?

what if the my laugh does not resonate yours

what if my waves do not amplify yours

what if this is not what you dreamed of.

not what you want(ed)

what if your happiness,is nowhere here.

[nabilah-rashid]

chances

the ones we missed. the ones we never give.the ones we intended to offer but never did.maybe we were too scared, maybe we couldn't afford to take the risks and leap of faith.or maybe it was too daunting to explore into somewhere beyond our familiarity and boundaries of comfort.maybe it was just a second that passed by, determined by fate, played by circumstances and situations.apologize to the people you denied the chances to happen, or lie in your own remorse for the things you never allowed to happen in the first place.

chances.take your chances. give chances. live by chances.allow and accept;chances.

[nabilah-rashid]

Closed eyes on the outside.

She sat with her eyes closed, staring at the images of him in her own messed up mind. Staring at the very soul who touched her heart.in ways she could have never imagined. Who she let in,slowly. Firstly from a peek,a little creak in the doors of her imperfect self. And right down to the very core of what she is.what she was. Giving him the freedom of witnessing what she will be.Letting him paint droplets of blue, black and red on her canvas with occasional sprinkles of stardust. He once climbed her walls.He begged to come in.He fought her fortress. And she chose let him in, freely with no such reservations. She wonders now,she wonders why. Why now, is he choosing to stay on the outside? #stories #excerpts #monologue #her #writings

[nabilah-rashid]

Padam

Tenang tenang, Usap lembut hati mu sayang.

Tenang tenang, Ulitkan tangisan di pipimu sayang.

Tenang tenang, Layarkan jauh kesedihan di fikiranmu sayang.

Pejam Pejam, Hanyutlah sendiri dalam mimpimu sayang.

Luka mu sayang,biarkan tenggelam dan hilang.

Malapnya cahaya mu kini, jangan biarkan ia sesekali terpadam sayang.

#monologue #piece #puisi

[nabilah-rashid]

Find her

Find her.pull her out her own misery when shes not reaching out her hand.walk alongside her when shes not crying out loud for you.know her.know  that she needs you,without the need of saying so.know her enough that you would want to go find her not because shes lost but because you just need to.because you want to. Sometimes a cry for attention is its loudest in silence. Show her that you would go through her invisible walls.

[nabilah-rashid]

mutual silence

And what scares me the most is the sheer silence in our conversations.how can there be mutual transferance in complete silence and solitude?its like being in the same place but worlds apart.i used to find comfort in our silence.when the quiet belonged to us.when we were on an equal level of finding sanctuary within it ,no uttered words but then so much more going through beyond that. Now,its pure silence with no noise.its like im in my own world and you in yours.two circles of seperate entities whose circumfrences dont even touch,let alone intersect.its scaring me that i cant feel it breathing.its almost on an arrest while we just look at it helplessly.

[nabilah-rashid]

Over & again.

That broken heart. feeling its parts all mended together, healing up. just so that it can be dropped to the ground, to its shattered form, Over again. #monologue #stories #piece

[nabilah-rashid]

"When i’m with you,whenever, wherever,theres just this one split of a second.that i just need to stop, and stare.at just you.

And when you’re,not looking,i fix my gaze,and smile to myself,thinking how grateful i am to be here. To listen to your voice, to see your face concentrating so much on something you love,and to see you just get about with whatever youre doing,while i just sit there.

and then,I get lost in you.lost in when you would greet my mornings with sunshine.And brighten my nights with your words that sparkle like stars.

lost in the canvases we have painted.our laughter and jokes,our quarrels and tears.everything around and in between.

I keep on smiling.try to look away but somehow just caught up in staring back and again. I keep on smiling.and you still wont know why.” #remember #script #mentalthoughtsoutloud

[nabilah-rashid]

Two Looks

"You have two looks that are the same yet extremely opposite. The first is that glimpse of hope i see in your eyes when you're waiting for me to say those words. The second, you'll have this glimpse of look again,before you crash and shatter.thats when i know i've said something wrong." #script #remember #mentalthoughtsaloud

[nadirkeval]

Sometimes, we go through struggles and battles in our lives or within ourselves for so long that we begin to wonder why things aren’t getting better. We increase in good deeds, we pray, we try to change everything about ourselves, so that we can maybe, just maybe, be “worthy” of freedom from that struggle. Sometimes, however, it’s not only about making a change within ourselves. That’s just the beginning. Sometimes, we need to experience something, and the struggle is protecting us from something worse or is preparing us for what’s to come. So, when you struggle with something, try your best to overcome it through strength, patience, and betterment, but ALWAYS remember that your solution will come when the time is right for you. You don’t know what it means for something to be right for you, but Allah does, so hold tight, be patient, and never give up. Allah always fulfills His Promise.

Nadir Keval (via nadirkeval)

[nabilah-rashid]

What is there not to love. When i feel that i'm most distant to You, You send me reminders, helpers, small joys in every form. When i'm at my lowest, You surround me with Your greatness,tonlift me upm Allahuakbar.ya dzaljalali wal ikraam. Ya Rabb, ease my path,make me steadfast.i know You have given me this test just to make me stronger.so, guide me through it,make me successful coming out of it,and may it bring me closer to You. AMIN.

[nabilah-rashid]

One of my favorite page. #love #life #scribblings #thoughts #words

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[dearchereen]

This is so legit mA. 

[nabilah-rashid]

Word!!!