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I’m nothing in my soul if not a bed rotter

[nahmann]

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Level 22 | She/Her | adhd | bi | and that’s all she wrote

Messere dei Refusi (lyst, I have cautioned thee)

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Oh my god I just accidentally deleted my entire folder of tsh art wips. This is like the burning of the library of Alexandria; a Richard level fumble u guys

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Vintage pulp and slick magazine art, how very henrymilla of you

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Bunny wearing an article of clothing with the playboy logo on it!?? Ooh you mfs. The absolute cheek

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So funny that the Greek class told Henry no Richard at the bacchanal, then Henry turned around and said no ablution so as to not scare away the hoe (1). Like what was thought process on that one? “Nah I’m not gonna chance it with spiritually-cleansing animal sacrifice but an archaic ritual orgy with four other men and one boyish woman…that seems like it would be right up his alley. I think he might enjoy that.”

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zane holtz from the ‘dusk till dawn’ series is so henry winter coded and i don’t care what anyone says

[nahmann]

This character, Richie Gecko, was played by Quinton Tarantino in the source material. That’s all. The juxtaposition just makes me laugh; this y’all’s Henry? 😭 vv

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Yay yippee I love going through a cool Pinterest, Spotify, Letterboxd etc profile like a raccoon digging in a trash can, like I’m thrifting ideas

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Life’s too short to not put your mouth on soft things

[moonlitsuguru]

can everyone drop their autistic henry winter headcannons pLEASE!!! there’s a drought!!!!

[apolloniansorrow]

OKAY IM HERE WITH A LOT OF THOUGHTS

- henry is touch repulsed. he is not necessarily opposed to touch though, but in most instances, if he is not the initiator of the touch in question he will become incredibly agitated.

- he gets overstimulated easily !! in part because of his migraines, in part because of his autism. since it’s clear in canon that stoicism as a practice is uplifted by them, henry believes that his reactions to overstimulation are an affectation he needs to discipline, and not a necessary accommodation for his comfort. this is also in part due to his abusive childhood. this in turn leads to him being very withdrawn and stiff, though richard does describe him as erratic.

- though he does not have food texture issues, if he is not having dinner with the class, he has the same food every morning every night. this is also the same with his clothes, brands of food he may buy, etc. he will be upset if he has to eat or wear something different. richard did groceries on e over the winter and brought back a different brand of milk and he refused to drink it.

- he DOES however have sensory issues with his body, resulting in specific clothing of specific fabrics and tailoring. this was less an issue in youth because his family already adopted this particular mode of living with their wealth.

- this may be controversial but i actually believe he has time blindness!! he hyperfocuses HARD, and i believe he has clocks in every room in his house in a very visible location (and in his bedroom multiple) to make up for this, and it is only for this reason that he gets anywhere on time (and the fact that he is a reckless driver)

- i believe he was nonverbal up until the age of 5, but when he did begin to speak he was very direct and articulate. this is in part because his mother read to him regularly in youth, and in part because his father did not believe in baby-speak.

- to that last point, i believe he has selective mutism !!! i think this is part of what makes him come across as arrogant, and i believe that when he is overstimulated (like at the funeral) he is very incapable of speaking!!! this is as well canonically exacerbated by his migraines!!

- i believe he does not see a very large emotional difference between platonic and romantic relationships, and that has translated into him not really seeing a point in romance beyond a life partner to share in understanding with. he’s canonically against the conventions of marriage, but charles implies he would happily live with francis, who seems to be one of his closest friends.

- and finally (not really, i can go on) this is actually canon but idc !! he definitely infodumps !! “didactic monologues” my ass richard !! that man infodumps as a form of love and to further develop his reasoning and understanding of the world !

[nahmann]

Yeas, I’m gonna print this thread out and eat it; incept it directly into the theatre of the mind by converting it into the very fiber that will maintain the physical architecture of my brain, your neurons r now my neurons

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Richard: They’re just so sophisticated and ethereal, I’m utterly bewitched by their apotheotic synergy blah blah blah

Meanwhile what Judy sees:

[orcboxer]

"The wrath of God lies sleeping. It was hid a million years before men were and only men have power to wake it. Hell aint half full. Hear me. Ye carry war of a madman’s making onto a foreign land. Ye’ll wake more than the dogs."

from Blood Meridian by Cormac McCarthy

[nahmann]

Was thinking about how Henry left Bunny with 2k when he dipped from Rome, but like, that’s 80s money, so to us that would be the equivalent of almost seven grand + what he’d already spent thus far 😐

[himbotheninth]

blood meridian may be one of the craziest books i've ever read. It's so so well-written and there's so much to chew on. Like I've got lines from it echoing around in mind still. McCarthy's grasp of language is unreal - i have NEVER seen anyone write like him. Not only are his sentences and word choices absolutely evocative and visceral, the dude plainly has a phenomenal understanding of what to leave unsaid. There's so much to analyze and so many different takes from his audience and I ADORE that. Like here's a guy that trusted his readers. One of the biggest pitfalls I run into when reading is having everything handed to me, overwrought explanations and finalities, when sometimes the implication and the silence is so so so so much better and more delicious. Blood Meridian is def in my top 5 of all time now

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Winterpapen Headcanons cus I’m in a romantic mood

Richard will brush Henry’s hair off of his forhead whenever he gets the chance, ie leaning in for a kiss, admiring Henry’s sleeping face while laying side by side in bed

When Henry’s got a hold on his waist, Richard, in turn, likes to grasp at his shoulders. It feels like completing a unit, closing a feedback loop.

In disagreements, Henry isn’t the type to yell. He may be icy or sharp, but rarely does he raise his voice. This is very appealing to Richard.

After having a little bicker Rich might flip Henry’s tie over his shoulder to bug him.

Richard worries he’s only a passing fancy to Henry; a dalliance that will burn bright but fast. Henry’s devotion and intensity regarding their relationship do nothing to placate him as Henry is intense about everything.

Before leaving for work, Rich’ll come up behind Henry while he’s working at his desk to press a quick goodbye kiss to the side of his neck.

Its Henry who says “I love you” first, it made Richard smile so hard even he didn’t believe him one bit

Loving and being loved by a man goes crazy with Richard’s daddy issues.

Rich likes to hit Henry with an ironic “Honey, I’m home” at the door when coming from his dorm or back from work.

Richard will use the bath at Henry’s cus the dorms have only showers, Henry’s not really the type to want to take a bath together tho (he’s too big for that, it wouldn’t be practical) but he will pull a kitchen chair up next to the tub and read so they can still be together.

Henry likes to take Rich’s chin between his thumb and forefinger and direct his gaze, Richard likes the intense way Henry looks at him when he does this, his face so enthralled despite the motion being a controlling one

A blush is more pronounced through Henry’s pale complexion.

Henry will non verbally tell Rich to chill by reaching for his face with one hand and smoothing over the furrowed line between his brows with the thumb of his other before toping it all off with a little brush of a kiss over that spot.

Similarly, Richard will push Henry’s glasses up onto the top of his head, lean in and graze his lips over each eyelid in a kiss before pulling back and replacing the glasses back on his nose once more

Henry doesn’t always make eye contact when speaking to someone so on occasion when Rich finds their gazes suddenly meeting, intense eyes locked into him, it makes him forget what he was going to say.

Henry’s got the impulse to constantly groom Richard, ie smooth down his shirt collar, reach over and brush a leaf or speck of lint out of his hair, wipe away any smudges on his face.

Henry finds deep satisfaction and contentment in the weight of Richard laying on his chest and the warm flutter of his breath against his skin.

They take walks together in the morning, side by side, hands in their coat pockets, either deep in conversation or silent in parallel contemplation.

Henry’s not above holding something over his head to keep it out of Richard’s reach.

Henry enjoys when Richard answers the phone and you can still hear sleep in his voice.

Richard tries twice as hard to appear apathetic regarding Henry in front of the rest of the Greek class in order to conceal their dynamic and compensate for his intense feelings.

Most of their misunderstandings stem from Richard intentionally keeping his feelings to himself to avoid having to be vulnerable and/or Henry assuming his own feelings were obvious when in fact they were not.

Henry: control freak, Richard: like herding a cat

Henry inquires after every little one of Richard’s experiences: “Tell me what you thought of…,” “How did you like it?” “Would you do it again?” “How did it compare to…?” This is him flirting

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Tsh Headcanons (the briefest whisper of nsfw)

Richard:

As a child he’d fantasize about running away over the breakfast table. Milk carton kids weren’t a thing yet, but were they, I imagine he’d be quite enamored with the idea of being one.

Will flip through Rolling Stone, Circus, etc. magazine whenever coming across one in book/grocery stores, or on the rare occasion when buying cigarettes or topping off Henry’s BMW at a gas station. Likes NME or Smash Hits too if he can get his hands on them.

Thought ironically of summer nights sleeping with a portable fan proped in his open bedroom window while lying awake shivering in the warehouse, in that place between sleep and awake he could’ve almost sworn he heard that fan running

Had to learn how to huff cough + Started side sleeping for ease of breathing + His laugh had a rattle in it for months after he recovered from pneumonia.

Startles easily/ jumpy

Keeps a messy journal that he’ll write in for a few days straight before forgetting about it for weeks at a time. He doesn’t code it in Greek or anything but he is very melodramatic and cryptic so if anyone were to read it they wouldn’t get any tea, just lyrical bitching and the odd contextless jotting. I just know instagram notes would hate to see him coming.

U can practically see when a, shall we say, dark thought passes through him cus his eye twitches

Borrows Judy’s Sony Walkman sometimes, she's a social butterfly and keeps herself booked and busy so she doesn't miss it much, he pesters her about getting new tapes, less “chick stuff.”

He's already got a permanent line between his brows from being perpetually posted up with an attitude. From afar, ppl think he's confronatational and aloof (and that suits him just fine) but in actuality he’s just shy or lost in overthinking.

He’s an angry cryer, absolutely hates it when he can’t hold back the tears as he works so hard to curate a carefully constructed image. Not being able to control his emotional responses makes him feel ridiculous and feeble.

Jude:

Car girl, it was a daddy-daughter hobby when she was a kid + she has an oversized sleepshirt with the Mattel hot wheels logo (from the 80s obvs) on it. She got it from a car show in the valley that had irl cars next to their miniature toy counterpart.

Naturally curly hair pattern, but heat damage keeps it from holding as tight as it otherwise would, but hey, no need to perm

U can find at least three of her scrunchies in Richard’s room at any given time, he picks them up and deposits them back in her room (cus they mess up his vibe and he doesn’t want ppl thinking he has a girl), but they always find their way back. She has a habit of putting her hair up and taking it back down multiple times within the hour, and so, when in her room, her car, or her friend’s rooms, she’s content to throw the scrunchy wherever and leave it where it lies. Likewise if she needs one, all she has to do is look around and chances are there's one within arms reach.

Keeps a scrap book of fabric swatches, sizing notes, sketches, magazine cutouts that were used as references, and playbills from shows she's worked on.

Milly:

Has a special appreciation for days that are overcast but warm.

Rarely swears but absolutely does not shy away from vulgar topics. Charles is the just the opposite, a real profanitist but oddly coquettish about certain subjects.

She’s got a little watch with a thin brown leather strap and argent metal (she’s a silver girly almost exclusively, being cool toned) that she wears everyday.

Every so often, instead of dinner, she’ll make herself and Charles a charcuterie board to pick at throughout the evening. He likes the fruits: dried apricot, fig, berries, pomegranate seeds, as well as nuts and breads, while she likes the cheese, crackers, meats, and chocolate. They compete for the olives.

A happy drunk, you can tell she’s buzzed by if she’s wearing a perpetual little smile or laughing too easily

Bit jealous of Richard’s friendship w/ Judy, both because she doesn't like to share Richard’s attention and because she begrudgingly finds Judy interesting despite knowing Jude would have nothing to do with her after the spilled drink incident <- some cognitive dissonance there as Cam likes to look down on ppl like her for being “simple” yet finds her open demeanor and magnetic personality compelling (attractive?? question mark?? From a distance that is).

Bralette wearer, has fashion boobs so it’s not like she needs the support + she strikes me as a person who will sleep in panties and nothing else, or panties and Charles’ big sweaters/socks if its cold

Henry:

If Richard doesn’t pick up the phone on days when Henry knows he’s not out, he might try Judy’s number to see if he’s down the hall at her’s. She hates having to speak to him, and chewed Richard out for giving him her number (even if their exchanges are akin to just “Hello, is he in?” “No.” “Thank you, goodbye.” Or “Yes.” “Will you put him on please?”) but she stays relatively cordial for Richard’s sake. Henry has no idea why she might dislike him, nor does he take notice of it in the first place.

His leg aches when the weather turns + he’s got a compression sleeve for it

Gets motion sick when riding as a passenger on long car rides; too much ambient sensory input. It won’t happen if he’s the driver or if it’s nighttime. If he absolutely has to be a passenger during a long ride, for whatever reason, he’ll take Dramamine to knock out and sleep through as much of it as possible.

When he gets migraines, the aura will be in the left eye, not always, but mostly.

Rapid blinking, flared nostrils, and a thousand yard stare indicate when he’s on the verge of a crash out.

Bunny:

He got the milkshake to share w/ Marion, he was waiting for her in the mess when Charles walked by.

Fucks heavy with zotz candy, made Henry try some one Halloween back when they were roommates, neglected to mention they were fizzy…he didn't like it. Went as far as to spit it out and then brush his teeth for good measure.

He scrunches his nose like a rabbit when he’s pissed. (I’ll never tire of Bunny having rabbit characteristics, no matter how on the nose (ha))

Charles:

The stomach sleeper to Francis’ back sleeper.

Sneezes loud as hell. It makes Richard jump and gets a side eye from Henry for being disruptive

In the context of looks, implicates Camilla with the usage of an “us” instead of me/I, ie “Ever thought of growing your hair out a bit more?” “No it doesn’t suit us.”

Francis:

Likes seafood

There’s a garden at the old house; when the Greek class visits, he takes the opportunity to pick rosemary and put it in his shampoo bottles (thinning hair runs in the family and he’ll be damned if).

His favorite color is red, but it clashes with ginger hair so he doesn’t get to wear it much :(

He keeps/steals flowers from special events: a bit off a wedding centerpiece, taken from someone’s lapel late in the night, picked from landscaping or flower arrangements, or pieces saved from given/received bouquets, and keeps them in a book of pressings, each page containing a few flowers/petals and labeled with the date of the occasion from which they were taken.

Francis + Cam, enjoyers of big band Jazz

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Very down and dirty interpretation of the kid and the man

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If in fact Francis’ dad’s band was a rock band (which I'm saying it is), timeline-wise it wouldn’t be hair metal/hard rock but rather a psychedelic 60s rock band (think Hendrix, The Doors, Pink Floyd, Joplin, Jefferson Airplane, Cream, Rolling Stones, Led Zepp, etc)

Following that vein, I think that in addition to the yuppie/ New England/ Ivy league prep style everyone is sporting vv

it would be cool if Francis still retains influences of his parents’ fashion during his formative years and incorporate that into his personal style with aspects of Eastern mysticism, art nouveau revival, and/or Victorian + Edwardian flourishes vv

to make something akin to this, at least in my mind (I can't imagine someone who wears a pince nez being any less avant garde). vv

I also saw an artist depict his fashion (post) with new wave influences as well, genius vv