[ddeerslayer]

Hello hello!! I adore ‘The Secret History’, and that’s mainly what this blog is about (both serious and un-serious) as it lovingly takes up an incredible amount of space in my thoughts. That said, this is my blog and it will include whatever other ramblings, nonsense, and non-nonsense I want

Feel free to send me asks about anything, and have a wonderful morning, afternoon, evening, or night all of you lovely people <3

A03: deerslayer Posts of importance, to me: I. 'The Secret History' Official Playlist II. Henry Winter is disabled - Living Greek class members after the epilogue? - Milly wanted to murder that man good for her - Charles Ramble III. Winternathy grief - Richard has a shit gaydar - What Henry wrote about Bunny - Cuniculus molestus - If Henry lived and Bunny still died IV. The Truth... V. Asks - The Museum--'The Secret History' art <3

[ddeerslayer]

Going to the motivation and energy and functioning memory store does anybody— oh wait. it’s midnight and I forgot and now I’m exhausted more than my usual exhaustion. well I’ll try again tomorrow I guess

[grlstlker]

invading your dreams because i miss you

[talkshowboyluvr]

Richard Papen: My alcoholic Boyfriend accidentally Shot me through the Stomach and No One fucking Cared

[bunnycorcs]

Bun did you see my walkman be honest

- @the-rayburn

Nope. Havent seen it. Gee I sure hope nobody happened to pass by and see it laying out all by itself on the common room table . On that note i hope Nobody decided to swipe it from that common room table and store it in their nightstand to take it out at Undetermined times of the day to listen to Sinatra. That would seriously blow Cloke old pal. All the luck to you in finding it buddy

Yours,

Bun

p.s. Havent seen it by the way

[ddeerslayer]

Charles struggling at the funeral because of his booty swings 😔

[picturesque-atall-costs]

I DIDNT KNOW YOU POSTED ABOUR THIS THATS EVIL!!!!

[ddeerslayer]

I’M SORRY MY FRIEND BUT IT WAS VERY FUNNY AND THE PEOPLE HAVE A RIGHT TO KNOW!! THEY HAVE A RIGHT TO KNOW ABOUT HIS BOOTY SWINGS!!!

[ddeerslayer]

Richard having needed to practice his French, so he recorded him and Francis together, Francis helping him with his pronunciation and such so he could reference it later, but the others walked into the room and he completely forgot about it in the moment. Years later he finds the tape, plays it back, remembers all of their voices again

[ddeerslayer]

ALSO Camilla getting really into taking pictures for some time and one day years after all that happened she found an old box with a ton of her old pictures. Her brother playing the piano, Henry reading not even noticing her taking the picture, Francis and Richard playing cards, the group of them playing in the lake, her finger in the corner by mistake, one of her smiling awkwardly at the camera, it clear that one of them took the camera from her to get a picture of her for once, she can’t remember who it was. She wants to burn them, she also wants to frame them, she also wants to bury them in the ground, pack the dirt hard over their grave

[nahmann]

Always down for Richard slander. But not Richard hate, never hate.

[nox-lucida]

I believe in childish little Henry

[apolloniansorrow]

literally canonically he gets so peevish when ppl try to disagree with him. richard being like “you thought he might not go to the police?” and henry going “i know bunny better than you” or asking richard for help and him going “the persians were master poisoners.” when richard disagreed like okay buddy

he’s also such a ragebaiter. francis freaking out during the search party and him repeatedly going “have a donut” like oh i’d strangle him i would

[spookedstarzz]

do u think henry was a more typical kid before the “accident” or that he always kind of strange? like was he born with those traits or was it a result of the isolation he endured… i’m so interested in his childhood and his relationship to his family

personally i think he was always kind of strange but the isolation turned it up to eleven. my personal hc is that his “accident” was his father abusing him throughout childhood so even before his early teens when the migraines started and he could only stay in bed i think he would’ve been affected, probably being very quiet and having overly stiff and formal manners because he worries about saying the wrong thing which when he’s older translates into being careful with his words to project a very precise image of himself. bunny also says he thinks henry must’ve read at a very high level from a young age and i agree; i think he would’ve been a precocious child and would try to talk to his parents friends (or at least his mother’s who he was less nervous around) at social events but would probably often make social errors or be talked down to which would make him feel humiliated and drive him further into bettering himself. he gives up on bettering his social skills quite quickly though because he can see no point in it and so instead of allowing himself to feel humiliated when he falls short socially he instead develops a feeling of superiority over those who give weight to those sorts of things. i don’t think he ever had many friends at school and got into quite a few fights which meant he switched schools quite frequently, and although he’s a quick learner i don’t think he ever would’ve cared enough in classes like maths or the sciences to pay attention and as a result did very badly in them, but didn’t care because he already knew what he was interested in and knew he never wanted to work so school didn’t really matter. i think he was interested in concepts of death and madness an ecstasy and grief from a young age but never felt such strong emotions himself and in fact never felt much emotion at all himself which is what begins to make him so dissatisfied with life and drawn to the classical world. i also think he’s been passively suicidal before even fully understanding the concept and perhaps never fully realising it until adulthood

i don’t really know hoe to round all this off because i think about child/teenage henry so much i think he’s entering the realms of becoming an oc and i don’t want to spend hours typing out every little random unconnected thought i have about him but in conclusion anon i love you

[ddeerslayer]

Richard having needed to practice his French, so he recorded him and Francis together, Francis helping him with his pronunciation and such so he could reference it later, but the others walked into the room and he completely forgot about it in the moment. Years later he finds the tape, plays it back, remembers all of their voices again

[teenagebeatnik]

Everyone stop talking about Camilla Macaulay because respectfully you all don’t know what the fuck you’re talking about

[romanceyourdemons]

we need fewer songs about falling in love and breaking up and MORE songs about famous disasters of the sea

[talkshowboyluvr]

judy flirts by referring to camilla with her last name

[spookedstarzz]

the deterioration of the macaulay twins’ relationship makes me so so sad😭😭 it’s 2026… I wonder if they would’ve ever reconnected

it makes me so sad too and to add to that sadness i hope they never do and i hope they grow to resent each other and create more and more horrible versions of each other in their own heads that mirror their own self loathing and become obsessed with the other all over again but this time its charles pacing around drunk, raving about his “bitch sister”, throwing a glass at his wife if she tries to say something negative about camilla too, and it’s camilla after a long day of dealing with her nana screaming into a pillow because she still feels like she isn’t allowed to be angry but cursing charles in her head and pulling on her own hair until it hurts the way he did and saying to herself that she hopes he’ll drink himself to death without her there to look after him and picturing him choking on his own vomit again and again and again until she can hear it

[b3au-regards]

This made me think of The Mountain Goats — No Children if anyone needed some more salt in the wound <3

[b3au-regards]

The Ratliffs being mixed but white passing is extremely interesting because to me this means they punch down at the black folk around them to distance themselves from their own heritage in order to align themselves with the white folk who punch down at them.

[ddeerslayer]

The ‘modern’ style of blacks and whites and grays and matte colors was created specifically to upset me and to make my work fourty percent more boring