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Some say the world will end in fire, some say in ice. Nila of the Ice Nation | 26 | Warrior [ An indie The 100 OC. Mod and muse are of age. Please check out the verses tag as I've got plenty of verses to be had. ^^ There will be nsfw and trigger warnings aplenty. ]

[fortrcss]

“You’re a different case than I’m used to, I’m used to people fighting me tooth and nail while I attempt to drag them into sobriety.” Uriah answers her with a small smile. “I don’t have to coerce you into wanting to get better. Has SHIELD managed to find you something synthetic to help you come down?”

[nailakomazgedakru]

She smiled a little.  “They used the drug to enslave me.  I do not want to keep that up.”  Naila shrugged.  “They have - I am on something they created that they say is similar to methadone.”

[fortrcss]

“We sure think it’s nice to have you, we really are. Our family just keeps expanding, but only with more testosterone it seems. It’s good to have a woman in the mix.” Jesse says and takes the seat that she offers to him. “It’s also good to have you here, I gotta get better so that you have a good example.”

[nailakomazgedakru]

Her smile widened at being told she was a part of their family.  Naila had wanted family for a long time - and while she was sequestered due to the instability of her emotion-controlled powers at that time - she felt a lot more secure knowing Jesse considered her as such.

“I am glad I could help just by being here.”

[fortrcss]

“My mother makes her own macaroni and cheese from scrap, always makes it around the holidays…” He starts to get teary eyed here for no apparent reason. “I’ll… I’ll have to bring you some so you can truly experience it.” He takes a moment to wipe at his eyes with his handkerchief. “My allergies are acting up, I apologize. Have you been introduced to any music quite yet?” He didn’t know why he was so emotional right now.

[nailakomazgedakru]

She sat up a bit, confused by the sudden change in emotion - she didn’t believe that it was allergies but there was no need to make him feel bad about it.  Still, she looked at Shane, concerned she’d done something to cause it, but he just shook his head with a smile.

“I have.  Shane and Jesse have been making playlists for me.  I recognize some songs from before, some are new.”

[fortrcss]

“About how devilishly handsome I am and how bad he wants me even though he’s a married man, right? He’s a victim of a milk chocolate addiction that he doesn’t quite know how to cure.” Sirius teases, bringing her hand up to his lips to kiss her knuckles. “I have not yet heard much about you but I would like to.”

[nailakomazgedakru]

She laughed again - he was charming.  Naila was pretty sure she wouldn’t be interested as she was almost positive she was a lesbian but still, he was cute.  “Not exactly that.  But he’d be blind not to want you, clearly.”  She teased lightly and Shane knew bringing her to Sirius was a good thing - he’d yet to even hear her crack a little joke in all the time he’d known her.  His face lit up with a smile as he watched the two interact.

“Shane rescued me from HYDRA while he was on a mission.  I was a brainwashed asset but he managed to snap me out of it and detox me as they’d gotten me hooked pretty badly on drugs to help keep me in line.  He took me into his custody as he didn’t really trust SHIELD to handle my rehabilitation properly.  So far I’ve been doing pretty well.  Jesse and Shane look after me in the safehouse near where they live.”  She explained with a smile.  “He’s trying to get me to meet people, especially people with similar life experiences.”

[fortrcss]

“I promise you, Naila, that I will work hard with you to make sure that they don’t. You’ll prevail with this, I promise.” Uriah assures her and he means it, he can get people hooked on heroin and speed and cocaine and whatever have you off of their shit and they don’t even want the help. Naila desperately wants to get better, so she will.

[nailakomazgedakru]

She looked at him and then down at her hands for a moment.  “Thank you, Aaron.”  Naila let out a sigh, looking back up at him again with a soft smile.  “So where do we begin?”

[fortrcss]

“That’s very descriptive. I like that you were so specific. I’m pretty boring, I like blue.” He says, trying to make her feel comfortable with these sort of nonsense questions to start off with. “Do you have a favorite food? I really like chocolate chip cookie dough and tomatoes. I’m also a very big fan of pickles. Not all together of course.”

[nailakomazgedakru]

Naila smiled a bit.  “I don’t remember what I liked before all of this but I have discovered I like macaroni and cheese.”  Shane tried not to snort at the color - he imagined blue was his favorite color.  And Shane was going to tell his son in law to take a pregnancy test after this.  That food was food a pregnant person would eat.

[fortrcss]

“All of that is very, very good, Naila. I’m glad you’re getting better.” He praises some more. “I know personally how hard withdrawal and detox is. If you ever need someone to call when you’re having a hard time, you have my number. I’m always here for you. Shane too. We are your family now too.”

[nailakomazgedakru]

She smiled a bit.  “I am too.”  Naila admitted.  “I’ll call you if I need to talk.”  She promised.  “Having a family’s new.  I’m not used to this but it’s nice.” Naila gestured to the chair across from her.  “You can sit if you want.”

[the-perks-of-being-black]

The excerpt referenced by Jonathan Frandzone containing the quote by Emmeline Pankhurst (the role played by Meryl Streep in the feature film Suffragette) is from the book The Women’s Movements in the United States and Britain from the 1790s to the 1920s by Christine Bolt, The University of Massachusetts Press, 1993.

[danielle-mertina]

Practically every big name white feminist has a history of hyperbolically comparing their struggle to that of Black ppl–who they render gender-less. Just the other day I was reading Naomi Wolf’s book where she compares white women getting plastic surgery in the 1980s to the forced scarification of Black ppl during slavery.

[moneymae-deactivated20231206]

Like they’re not even subtle with this bullshit. As if the confederates weren’t called rebels and the confederate flag wasn’t called the rebel flag.

[fortrcss]

Sirius teasingly offers her his left arm, stub and all to shake at first before he smiles and gives her his right hand instead. “Nice to meet you Naila, I’m Sirius Turner.” He says cheerfully. He was much better at pulling humor out of the loss of his hand now than he had been at the beginning.

[nailakomazgedakru]

She actually cracked a wider smile at that, laughing.  He was funny - and it was inspiring to see he’d been able to find humor in what happened to him.  It meant maybe she could at some point, too.  Shane did say humor was a good way to not go insane.  “It’s nice to meet you too, Sirius.”  She said, shaking his hand.  “Shane’s told me a lot about you.”

[fortrcss]

This wasn’t the situation that he was used to by any means. Uriah was used to people coming in and telling him that they were sixteen, stupid and it felt good, or that something tragic had happened in their life and the drugs had made them numb or that it just felt good and they didn’t care. He’s never in all his years as a drug addiction counselor ever heard a story where the drugs were used as a reward system and that was how their addiction started. This didn’t mean that Uriah didn’t believe her and it didn’t mean that he wouldn’t help her either.

“So you will,” Uriah says, crouching down and offering her his hand. “My name is Aaron and I will help you be just that.”

Above all else, Naila had one other thing that his other clients usually didn’t at first: the desire to get better.

[nailakomazgedakru]

She took his hand tentatively.  “Thank you, Aaron.”  She said quietly, sniffling softly.  Shane stroked his hand down her back reassuringly.  “Shane got me through the withdrawal when I first got out.  I was reluctant to let anyone even remotely close to a medical field of any kind near me but he says you and your brothers can be trusted.”  Naila admitted softly.  “I just - I can’t let them win out in the end of all of this, Aaron.”

[fortrcss]

Matthias hits her with a gentle and warm smile, knowing that if she had Shane here she might share some of his fears about medical professionals. “It is good to meet you too, Naila. You can call me Mattie if you’d like.” He’s trying to make her feel more comfortable, less afraid. “We’re all friends here. We don’t have to get into the hard stuff today, tell me about yourself a little. Tell me your favorite color.”

[nailakomazgedakru]

It was a mildly odd way to start - at least she hadn’t expected that - but she wasn’t about to complain about not having to get into the things that hurt just yet.  “Okay, Mattie.  I just remembered that the other day, actually. The color orange that the sky turns when the sun sets.”  Before they’d taken her off the streets, she’d always loved sunset.  Would climb up onto the rooftops to watch.

[fortrcss]

“I’m glad to see you eating, Naila. You’re already doing so much better at taking care of yourself than even I am. I’m proud of you.” Jesse praises before he hangs his jacket up on the door and comes over to sit across the table from her. “How are you feeling, sweetheart?”

[nailakomazgedakru]

“Thank you, Jesse.”  She said softly.  Shane had re-taught her how to care for herself knowing that she’d have to be independent sometimes and she’d held onto that pretty securely.  “It’s...difficult.  At least I don’t have to deal with withdrawal anymore.”  That had been her own special circle of hell.  “But I feel a little better than I have been lately.  A little more like my own person.”

[nailakomazgedakru]

[ fortrcss ]

It wasn’t safe to have her in the house with Shane’s children.  Even she could see that.  Her powers were tied to her emotions and her emotions were still on the rocks.  But Shane had a safehouse very close to his home that he had housed her in.  She was eating when Shane’s husband Jesse, came into the safehouse - presumably to check on how she was doing.  The two of them tended to take shifts while Aiden stayed with the kids.  She offered Jesse a weak smile and set her fork down.  “Hello.”

[nailakomazgedakru]

[ fortrcss ]

They’d decided private sessions with Uriah would be better.  She was still unstable and they’d work their way up to the group meetings if they could.  Shane sat down next to her and stroked her back reassuringly.  “You’re alright.”  Naila just nodded with a sigh and looked up at the man in question with a weak smile.  “I’m Naila.  Shane says you can help me.  In HYDRA, they - they wanted to control me more, so they introduced me to this drug I think when I was around 19.  I think it’s a form of heroin.  They used it as a reward for when I did well but really it was meant to cripple me because they knew if I ever rebelled they’d be fucked.”  Her eyes watered and Shane took out a handkerchief, kissing her temple gently as he gave it to her.  “I don’t want them to continue to have that power over me.  I want to stay sober.”

[nailakomazgedakru]

[ fortrcss ]

She didn’t trust medical professionals as far as she could throw them, but Shane had promised Matthias was a good man.  Naila sat down quietly, looking up at Shane and then over at the doctor.  “Hello.”  She murmured.  Her fear prompted Shane to sit down and gently take her hand.  “It’s okay, Naila.  Dr. Royce isn’t going to hurt you.  He just wants to help you.”  The former asset just nodded softly and looked up at the man in question.  She wanted a control on her temper, on her abilities which could be often tied to her emotions.  “I’m Naila.  It’s nice to meet you, Dr. Royce.  Thank you for seeing me.”  She said quietly.

[nailakomazgedakru]

[ fortrcss ]

She’d been recuperating and Shane decided she needed to socialize with more people who understood what being in captivity was like.  She’d spoken with Nattie and Kitty, even Landon - but Shane thought some time spent with Sirius wouldn’t hurt her.  He was a great example, like Aiden, of someone who had been through a lot and come out of the darkness.

Shane smiled.  “Hey, Sirius.  This is Naila."  Naila smiled a little, waving shyly.

[nailakomazgedakru]

RULES

There’s a fair amount of triggering content on this blog.  I’ll tag whatever I feel should be tagged as trigger cw.  If there’s something you need me to tag that I’ve missed, please politely let me know!  I have zero problem tagging things.  :)  Lastly, if what I rp bothers you (even if it is tagged) but you still would like to continue roleplaying with me, please come talk to me about it. That's absolutely okay if that's the case, guys! I'm an understanding person. I will happily do my best to work around it - it is possible to rp with each other without you following me and that way, your dash is a secure and happy place for you to be! I don't want to get in the way of that by any means. Just please, be polite in speaking to me about it.

I don’t mind being sent memes at all, but if I don’t think Naila would respond to them I won’t force her to do so - across the board she’s a woman of few words and so I tend to be selective when it comes to memes that force her to emote verbally.

Naila’s got many verses and I’m happy to roleplay in whichever ones you want.  But her default is going to be v;; rebellion unless asked otherwise.

Don’t be an asshole.