about me!: nana, she/her, adult (on paper anyways), stem student (rip), interests include: sakuverse, anime, genshin (among others heh)
i discovered zsakuva's channel ~3 years ago! luca's halloween episode was my first video and the series that caught my attention the most at the time was the 3 part "yandere boy" series (rip). i actually didn't really enjoy angst before but i do now (bc i am a wimp and simp). i made this account mainly to post memes, random thoughts, rants, interact with my fellow crumpets, etc! i'm not sure what else to add so... yeah. i don't sleep, so feel free to hit me up whenever haha.
side note!:
i do plan on possibly posting memes/fics and i don't mind if you repost, just please give credits if you so!
"And then I go and spoil it all
By saying somethin' stupid like, "I love you""
"I love you"
...
The laughter stops, yours first, then his slowly fades into silence. The heaviness of his words lingered, and he could tell you were uncomfortable.
"Xant-"
"You don't have to say it back." He cuts of you off, looking off to the side.
"No no thats not it. I wish I could. It's just that all that I feel and share with you is beyond our control. It's this fated connection that was predestined for us. I know how I feel about you with this bond, but without it, I don't know if this is actually love. I don't know if I love you."
His mouth opens to say something, but nothing comes out. It's even more uncomfortable now, and Xanthus internally curses himself for repeating those words.
The first time he said them, he knew for sure he wasn't going to hear them reciprocated, but this time he'd hoped it would be different.
"Right, that's a good point. I suppose I don't know for certain what I'd feel without the bond either."
Lies. He lied. It's deeper than just a bond for him. The bond was an uncomfortable reality he accepted, but the love he has for you is entirely different than just a stupid 'fate'.
You don't answer, instead offering him a small smile to ease the discomfort that had settled between you. A silent gesture that he reluctantly returns before averting his gaze and excusing himself
Foolish.
That's how he felt. The mixed embarrassment and disappointment stirs his mind and he wishes he could throw something across the room and hear it shatter. He knows he shouldn't, and he can't. It would be too complicated to explain and a risk of further embarrassment.
With time comes acceptance, something Xanthus has yet to perfect. He's used to having what he wants, but he knows he can't force you to love him. Can he?
YES !! YOU !! ARE !! YOU KNOW WHY??? BECAUSE YOU TOOK AN ASK THAT SOMEONE ASKED SAKU (WHICH WAS MINE BY THE WAY IT JUST HAPPENED TO BE MINE) AND YOU MADE THE MOST SOUL CRUSHING "DRABBLE" KNOWN TO MAN! SO YES, YOU ARE WRONG!!!!!!
'FURTHERMORE' IT DOES NOT MATTE WHAT YOU SAY. WHATEVER YOU SAY IS INCORRECT.
AND ITS ALSO NOT MY FAULT THAT MY ASK HAPPENED TO BE LIKE LITERALLY THE BEST ??? BUT YOU DIDNT HAVE TO BREAK OUR HEARTS LIKE THIS! YEAH I SAID 'OUR' BECAUSE THIS IS A COMMUNITY ISSUE !!! THE COMMUNITY HAS READ THIS AND NOW THEIR HEARTS ARE BROKEN TOO, NOT JUST MINE.
HOW AM I ALSO WRONG?? WE CANT BOTH BE WRONG AT THE SAME TIME, IVE NEVER BEEN WRONG BEFORE IN MY LIFE EXCEPT FROM THE TIMES WHERE I HAVENT BEEN RIGHT BUT THOSE DONT COUNT!!!!
THE COMMUNITY IS FINE EVERYONE IS FINE AND DONT ACT LIKE YOUR FIC DIDNT BREAK THEIR HEARTS TOO BECAUSE IT ABSOLUTELY DID
AND YES IM SAYING YOURE WRONG TOO AND YES WE CAN BOTH BE WRONG AT THE SAME TIME! AND IF YOU'RE NOT WRONG THEN THAT MEANS I'M NOT WRONG WHICH WOULD MEAN IM RIGHT AND THIS WHOLE THING WAS YOUR FAULT BECAUSE "the past is in the past" IS NOT A VIABLE ARGUMENT
OKAY ANN (WITHOUT AN E), IF THATS EVEN YOUR REAL NAME. I MUST BRING THE KIDS INTO THIS BECAUSE THAT MAY BE THE ONLY WAY TO HELP YOU REALIZE HOW HARMFUL YOUR FIC IS AND UR FUTURE ONE WILL BE. I DIDNT BREAK ANYTHING!
WE CANNOT BE WRONG AT THE SAME TIME, THAT IS FALSE. YOU ARE COMPLETELY WRONG! THIS WHOLE THING IS NOT MY FAULT. YOU'RE THE ONE THAT BROUGHT UP MY FIC SO I HAD TO DEFEND IT.
IS CLAI EVEN YOUR REAL NAME? DOES THIS RELATIONSHIP MEAN ANYTHING REAL TO YOU???
AND YKW JUST SO WE'RE ON THE SAME PAGE THE KIDS ARE IN THE COMMENTS ASKING FOR A PART 2 SO CLEARLY THEY ENJOYED IT
AND YES WE ARE THE SAME SO WHATEVER YOU CALL ME ITS WHAT YOU ARE TOO! AND SIMILARLY HOW YOU'RE DEFENDING YOUR (VERY PAINFUL AND JUST AS HARMFUL) FIC, THATS WHAT IM DOING WITH MINE
SEE NOW YOU'RE TRYING TO TURN THIS ONTO ME! ONCE AGAIN. WOW. WOW. WOW. AND I THOUGHT YOU WERE BETTER THAN THIS BECAUSE I KNOW I AM.
NO WE ARE NOT THE SAME! THE KIDS DONT KNOW WHAT'S GOOD FOR THEM, IGNORE IT. AT LEAST I DIDNT USE AN ASK OF YOURS TO MAKE A PAINFUL FIC 317 WORDS AND 1432 CHARACTERS WITHOUT COUNTING SPACES. CANT YOU SEE? IM TRYING TO DO NOTHING BUT HELP AND YOU'RE JUST TURNING EVERYTHING ONTO ME!
IM JUST USING THE SAME THINGS YOU'VE SAID AGAINST YOU.
AND WHAT DOES MY MEASLY 315 WORDS COMPARE TO YOUR 34 PARAGRAPHS, 88 LINES (EXCLUDING SKIPS BETWEEN PARAGRAPHS), 1270 WORDS AND 5503 CHARACTERS (COMBINED PARTS, NO SPACES)??? AND ITS A FIC INSPIRED BY A SONG IVE CRIED TO MULTIPLE TIMES!
YOU DID MORE DAMAGE CLAI AND YOU'LL CONTINUE TO DO MORE AS YOU KEEP DROPPING MORE PARTS
I WONT DENY ILL ALSO CAUSE MORE DAMAGE BUT AT LEAST IVE ACCEPTED IT AND IM ACTUALLY WARNING EVERYONE
SO WHAT IF MY FIC HAS 34 PARAGRAPHS AND HOWEVER MANY LINES?? AND WHO CARED ABOUT THE SONG I USED?? MY POINT STILL STANDS.
I HAVE NOT DONE MORE DAMAGE. PLUS, WHAT IF THE NEXT PARTS ARE LESS ANGSTY??? THEN WHAT? THEY WONT BE HARMFUL THEN. AT LEAST I CAN MAKE IT DEVELOP INTO A POSITIVE STORY (IF I WANTED TO). YOURS IS STRAIGHT UP OVER AS FAR AS I KNOW.
WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHO CARES ABOUT THE SONG YOU USED?? THATS THE EQUIVALENT OF ME SAYING "WHO CARES WHAT ASK I REFERRED TO?" BESIDES I CARED. ME. DOES THAT NOT MEAN SOMETHING TO YOU?
WELL FINE THEM CLAI, ILL ASK YOU THIS DO YOU PLAN ON WRITING THE REST OF THE STORY WITHOUT ANGST?
AND I CAN ALSO DEVELOP THIS FIC INTO A HAPPY ENDING! MAYBE LOVE IS JUST CONFUSED AND DOESN'T REALISE IT YET BUT IS INFACT INLOVE WITH XANTHUS CUZ LETS BE REAL HES AMAZING ANR LOVEABLE (xanthus please show up in my house and take my blood, i may be iron deficient but i dont mind you taking my blood good sir)
"And then I go and spoil it all
By saying somethin' stupid like, "I love you""
"I love you"
...
The laughter stops, yours first, then his slowly fades into silence. The heaviness of his words lingered, and he could tell you were uncomfortable.
"Xant-"
"You don't have to say it back." He cuts of you off, looking off to the side.
"No no thats not it. I wish I could. It's just that all that I feel and share with you is beyond our control. It's this fated connection that was predestined for us. I know how I feel about you with this bond, but without it, I don't know if this is actually love. I don't know if I love you."
His mouth opens to say something, but nothing comes out. It's even more uncomfortable now, and Xanthus internally curses himself for repeating those words.
The first time he said them, he knew for sure he wasn't going to hear them reciprocated, but this time he'd hoped it would be different.
"Right, that's a good point. I suppose I don't know for certain what I'd feel without the bond either."
Lies. He lied. It's deeper than just a bond for him. The bond was an uncomfortable reality he accepted, but the love he has for you is entirely different than just a stupid 'fate'.
You don't answer, instead offering him a small smile to ease the discomfort that had settled between you. A silent gesture that he reluctantly returns before averting his gaze and excusing himself
Foolish.
That's how he felt. The mixed embarrassment and disappointment stirs his mind and he wishes he could throw something across the room and hear it shatter. He knows he shouldn't, and he can't. It would be too complicated to explain and a risk of further embarrassment.
With time comes acceptance, something Xanthus has yet to perfect. He's used to having what he wants, but he knows he can't force you to love him. Can he?
YES !! YOU !! ARE !! YOU KNOW WHY??? BECAUSE YOU TOOK AN ASK THAT SOMEONE ASKED SAKU (WHICH WAS MINE BY THE WAY IT JUST HAPPENED TO BE MINE) AND YOU MADE THE MOST SOUL CRUSHING "DRABBLE" KNOWN TO MAN! SO YES, YOU ARE WRONG!!!!!!
'FURTHERMORE' IT DOES NOT MATTE WHAT YOU SAY. WHATEVER YOU SAY IS INCORRECT.
AND ITS ALSO NOT MY FAULT THAT MY ASK HAPPENED TO BE LIKE LITERALLY THE BEST ??? BUT YOU DIDNT HAVE TO BREAK OUR HEARTS LIKE THIS! YEAH I SAID 'OUR' BECAUSE THIS IS A COMMUNITY ISSUE !!! THE COMMUNITY HAS READ THIS AND NOW THEIR HEARTS ARE BROKEN TOO, NOT JUST MINE.
HOW AM I ALSO WRONG?? WE CANT BOTH BE WRONG AT THE SAME TIME, IVE NEVER BEEN WRONG BEFORE IN MY LIFE EXCEPT FROM THE TIMES WHERE I HAVENT BEEN RIGHT BUT THOSE DONT COUNT!!!!
THE COMMUNITY IS FINE EVERYONE IS FINE AND DONT ACT LIKE YOUR FIC DIDNT BREAK THEIR HEARTS TOO BECAUSE IT ABSOLUTELY DID
AND YES IM SAYING YOURE WRONG TOO AND YES WE CAN BOTH BE WRONG AT THE SAME TIME! AND IF YOU'RE NOT WRONG THEN THAT MEANS I'M NOT WRONG WHICH WOULD MEAN IM RIGHT AND THIS WHOLE THING WAS YOUR FAULT BECAUSE "the past is in the past" IS NOT A VIABLE ARGUMENT
OKAY ANN (WITHOUT AN E), IF THATS EVEN YOUR REAL NAME. I MUST BRING THE KIDS INTO THIS BECAUSE THAT MAY BE THE ONLY WAY TO HELP YOU REALIZE HOW HARMFUL YOUR FIC IS AND UR FUTURE ONE WILL BE. I DIDNT BREAK ANYTHING!
WE CANNOT BE WRONG AT THE SAME TIME, THAT IS FALSE. YOU ARE COMPLETELY WRONG! THIS WHOLE THING IS NOT MY FAULT. YOU'RE THE ONE THAT BROUGHT UP MY FIC SO I HAD TO DEFEND IT.
IS CLAI EVEN YOUR REAL NAME? DOES THIS RELATIONSHIP MEAN ANYTHING REAL TO YOU???
AND YKW JUST SO WE'RE ON THE SAME PAGE THE KIDS ARE IN THE COMMENTS ASKING FOR A PART 2 SO CLEARLY THEY ENJOYED IT
AND YES WE ARE THE SAME SO WHATEVER YOU CALL ME ITS WHAT YOU ARE TOO! AND SIMILARLY HOW YOU'RE DEFENDING YOUR (VERY PAINFUL AND JUST AS HARMFUL) FIC, THATS WHAT IM DOING WITH MINE
SEE NOW YOU'RE TRYING TO TURN THIS ONTO ME! ONCE AGAIN. WOW. WOW. WOW. AND I THOUGHT YOU WERE BETTER THAN THIS BECAUSE I KNOW I AM.
NO WE ARE NOT THE SAME! THE KIDS DONT KNOW WHAT'S GOOD FOR THEM, IGNORE IT. AT LEAST I DIDNT USE AN ASK OF YOURS TO MAKE A PAINFUL FIC 317 WORDS AND 1432 CHARACTERS WITHOUT COUNTING SPACES. CANT YOU SEE? IM TRYING TO DO NOTHING BUT HELP AND YOU'RE JUST TURNING EVERYTHING ONTO ME!
IM JUST USING THE SAME THINGS YOU'VE SAID AGAINST YOU.
AND WHAT DOES MY MEASLY 315 WORDS COMPARE TO YOUR 34 PARAGRAPHS, 88 LINES (EXCLUDING SKIPS BETWEEN PARAGRAPHS), 1270 WORDS AND 5503 CHARACTERS (COMBINED PARTS, NO SPACES)??? AND ITS A FIC INSPIRED BY A SONG IVE CRIED TO MULTIPLE TIMES!
YOU DID MORE DAMAGE CLAI AND YOU'LL CONTINUE TO DO MORE AS YOU KEEP DROPPING MORE PARTS
I WONT DENY ILL ALSO CAUSE MORE DAMAGE BUT AT LEAST IVE ACCEPTED IT AND IM ACTUALLY WARNING EVERYONE
SO WHAT IF MY FIC HAS 34 PARAGRAPHS AND HOWEVER MANY LINES?? AND WHO CARED ABOUT THE SONG I USED?? MY POINT STILL STANDS.
I HAVE NOT DONE MORE DAMAGE. PLUS, WHAT IF THE NEXT PARTS ARE LESS ANGSTY??? THEN WHAT? THEY WONT BE HARMFUL THEN. AT LEAST I CAN MAKE IT DEVELOP INTO A POSITIVE STORY (IF I WANTED TO). YOURS IS STRAIGHT UP OVER AS FAR AS I KNOW.
WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHO CARES ABOUT THE SONG YOU USED?? THATS THE EQUIVALENT OF ME SAYING "WHO CARES WHAT ASK I REFERRED TO?" BESIDES I CARED. ME. DOES THAT NOT MEAN SOMETHING TO YOU?
WELL FINE THEM CLAI, ILL ASK YOU THIS DO YOU PLAN ON WRITING THE REST OF THE STORY WITHOUT ANGST?
AND I CAN ALSO DEVELOP THIS FIC INTO A HAPPY ENDING! MAYBE LOVE IS JUST CONFUSED AND DOESN'T REALISE IT YET BUT IS INFACT INLOVE WITH XANTHUS CUZ LETS BE REAL HES AMAZING ANR LOVEABLE (xanthus please show up in my house and take my blood, i may be iron deficient but i dont mind you taking my blood good sir)
No one understands How bad i want Elias and barista to get a happy ending because?!
just listening to how in love he is with barista and how he’s happy with studying what he loves legit made me kick my feet in the air
and hello???
his mum being alive in this au made my jaw drop (boss girl idc)
this is how it should have been in all honesty but fuck fresno or whatever..
honestly another great upload from king crumpet
P.S: AND HIM THREATENING TO THROW HANDS EVERY TWO MINUTES IS SO STINKING CUTE
AIOQOEGSODJKN
Another P.S : getting to see(hear??) him ride a bike after the last audio was so amazing ngl
(excuse my english lol had to get that out somehow)
currently laughing my ass off scrolling through reblogs of the debate raging between @xzhdjsj and @claiestve , and between their paragraphs that’d make sticky keys breakdown are random bystanders just munching on some popcorn and enjoying the show.
"And then I go and spoil it all
By saying somethin' stupid like, "I love you""
"I love you"
...
The laughter stops, yours first, then his slowly fades into silence. The heaviness of his words lingered, and he could tell you were uncomfortable.
"Xant-"
"You don't have to say it back." He cuts of you off, looking off to the side.
"No no thats not it. I wish I could. It's just that all that I feel and share with you is beyond our control. It's this fated connection that was predestined for us. I know how I feel about you with this bond, but without it, I don't know if this is actually love. I don't know if I love you."
His mouth opens to say something, but nothing comes out. It's even more uncomfortable now, and Xanthus internally curses himself for repeating those words.
The first time he said them, he knew for sure he wasn't going to hear them reciprocated, but this time he'd hoped it would be different.
"Right, that's a good point. I suppose I don't know for certain what I'd feel without the bond either."
Lies. He lied. It's deeper than just a bond for him. The bond was an uncomfortable reality he accepted, but the love he has for you is entirely different than just a stupid 'fate'.
You don't answer, instead offering him a small smile to ease the discomfort that had settled between you. A silent gesture that he reluctantly returns before averting his gaze and excusing himself
Foolish.
That's how he felt. The mixed embarrassment and disappointment stirs his mind and he wishes he could throw something across the room and hear it shatter. He knows he shouldn't, and he can't. It would be too complicated to explain and a risk of further embarrassment.
With time comes acceptance, something Xanthus has yet to perfect. He's used to having what he wants, but he knows he can't force you to love him. Can he?
YES !! YOU !! ARE !! YOU KNOW WHY??? BECAUSE YOU TOOK AN ASK THAT SOMEONE ASKED SAKU (WHICH WAS MINE BY THE WAY IT JUST HAPPENED TO BE MINE) AND YOU MADE THE MOST SOUL CRUSHING "DRABBLE" KNOWN TO MAN! SO YES, YOU ARE WRONG!!!!!!
'FURTHERMORE' IT DOES NOT MATTE WHAT YOU SAY. WHATEVER YOU SAY IS INCORRECT.
AND ITS ALSO NOT MY FAULT THAT MY ASK HAPPENED TO BE LIKE LITERALLY THE BEST ??? BUT YOU DIDNT HAVE TO BREAK OUR HEARTS LIKE THIS! YEAH I SAID 'OUR' BECAUSE THIS IS A COMMUNITY ISSUE !!! THE COMMUNITY HAS READ THIS AND NOW THEIR HEARTS ARE BROKEN TOO, NOT JUST MINE.
HOW AM I ALSO WRONG?? WE CANT BOTH BE WRONG AT THE SAME TIME, IVE NEVER BEEN WRONG BEFORE IN MY LIFE EXCEPT FROM THE TIMES WHERE I HAVENT BEEN RIGHT BUT THOSE DONT COUNT!!!!
THE COMMUNITY IS FINE EVERYONE IS FINE AND DONT ACT LIKE YOUR FIC DIDNT BREAK THEIR HEARTS TOO BECAUSE IT ABSOLUTELY DID
AND YES IM SAYING YOURE WRONG TOO AND YES WE CAN BOTH BE WRONG AT THE SAME TIME! AND IF YOU'RE NOT WRONG THEN THAT MEANS I'M NOT WRONG WHICH WOULD MEAN IM RIGHT AND THIS WHOLE THING WAS YOUR FAULT BECAUSE "the past is in the past" IS NOT A VIABLE ARGUMENT
OKAY ANN (WITHOUT AN E), IF THATS EVEN YOUR REAL NAME. I MUST BRING THE KIDS INTO THIS BECAUSE THAT MAY BE THE ONLY WAY TO HELP YOU REALIZE HOW HARMFUL YOUR FIC IS AND UR FUTURE ONE WILL BE. I DIDNT BREAK ANYTHING!
WE CANNOT BE WRONG AT THE SAME TIME, THAT IS FALSE. YOU ARE COMPLETELY WRONG! THIS WHOLE THING IS NOT MY FAULT. YOU'RE THE ONE THAT BROUGHT UP MY FIC SO I HAD TO DEFEND IT.
IS CLAI EVEN YOUR REAL NAME? DOES THIS RELATIONSHIP MEAN ANYTHING REAL TO YOU???
AND YKW JUST SO WE'RE ON THE SAME PAGE THE KIDS ARE IN THE COMMENTS ASKING FOR A PART 2 SO CLEARLY THEY ENJOYED IT
AND YES WE ARE THE SAME SO WHATEVER YOU CALL ME ITS WHAT YOU ARE TOO! AND SIMILARLY HOW YOU'RE DEFENDING YOUR (VERY PAINFUL AND JUST AS HARMFUL) FIC, THATS WHAT IM DOING WITH MINE
SEE NOW YOU'RE TRYING TO TURN THIS ONTO ME! ONCE AGAIN. WOW. WOW. WOW. AND I THOUGHT YOU WERE BETTER THAN THIS BECAUSE I KNOW I AM.
NO WE ARE NOT THE SAME! THE KIDS DONT KNOW WHAT'S GOOD FOR THEM, IGNORE IT. AT LEAST I DIDNT USE AN ASK OF YOURS TO MAKE A PAINFUL FIC 317 WORDS AND 1432 CHARACTERS WITHOUT COUNTING SPACES. CANT YOU SEE? IM TRYING TO DO NOTHING BUT HELP AND YOU'RE JUST TURNING EVERYTHING ONTO ME!
IM JUST USING THE SAME THINGS YOU'VE SAID AGAINST YOU.
AND WHAT DOES MY MEASLY 315 WORDS COMPARE TO YOUR 34 PARAGRAPHS, 88 LINES (EXCLUDING SKIPS BETWEEN PARAGRAPHS), 1270 WORDS AND 5503 CHARACTERS (COMBINED PARTS, NO SPACES)??? AND ITS A FIC INSPIRED BY A SONG IVE CRIED TO MULTIPLE TIMES!
YOU DID MORE DAMAGE CLAI AND YOU'LL CONTINUE TO DO MORE AS YOU KEEP DROPPING MORE PARTS
I WONT DENY ILL ALSO CAUSE MORE DAMAGE BUT AT LEAST IVE ACCEPTED IT AND IM ACTUALLY WARNING EVERYONE
SO WHAT IF MY FIC HAS 34 PARAGRAPHS AND HOWEVER MANY LINES?? AND WHO CARED ABOUT THE SONG I USED?? MY POINT STILL STANDS.
I HAVE NOT DONE MORE DAMAGE. PLUS, WHAT IF THE NEXT PARTS ARE LESS ANGSTY??? THEN WHAT? THEY WONT BE HARMFUL THEN. AT LEAST I CAN MAKE IT DEVELOP INTO A POSITIVE STORY (IF I WANTED TO). YOURS IS STRAIGHT UP OVER AS FAR AS I KNOW.
WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHO CARES ABOUT THE SONG YOU USED?? THATS THE EQUIVALENT OF ME SAYING "WHO CARES WHAT ASK I REFERRED TO?" BESIDES I CARED. ME. DOES THAT NOT MEAN SOMETHING TO YOU?
WELL FINE THEM CLAI, ILL ASK YOU THIS DO YOU PLAN ON WRITING THE REST OF THE STORY WITHOUT ANGST?
AND I CAN ALSO DEVELOP THIS FIC INTO A HAPPY ENDING! MAYBE LOVE IS JUST CONFUSED AND DOESN'T REALISE IT YET BUT IS INFACT INLOVE WITH XANTHUS CUZ LETS BE REAL HES AMAZING ANR LOVEABLE (xanthus please show up in my house and take my blood, i may be iron deficient but i dont mind you taking my blood good sir)
"And then I go and spoil it all
By saying somethin' stupid like, "I love you""
"I love you"
...
The laughter stops, yours first, then his slowly fades into silence. The heaviness of his words lingered, and he could tell you were uncomfortable.
"Xant-"
"You don't have to say it back." He cuts of you off, looking off to the side.
"No no thats not it. I wish I could. It's just that all that I feel and share with you is beyond our control. It's this fated connection that was predestined for us. I know how I feel about you with this bond, but without it, I don't know if this is actually love. I don't know if I love you."
His mouth opens to say something, but nothing comes out. It's even more uncomfortable now, and Xanthus internally curses himself for repeating those words.
The first time he said them, he knew for sure he wasn't going to hear them reciprocated, but this time he'd hoped it would be different.
"Right, that's a good point. I suppose I don't know for certain what I'd feel without the bond either."
Lies. He lied. It's deeper than just a bond for him. The bond was an uncomfortable reality he accepted, but the love he has for you is entirely different than just a stupid 'fate'.
You don't answer, instead offering him a small smile to ease the discomfort that had settled between you. A silent gesture that he reluctantly returns before averting his gaze and excusing himself
Foolish.
That's how he felt. The mixed embarrassment and disappointment stirs his mind and he wishes he could throw something across the room and hear it shatter. He knows he shouldn't, and he can't. It would be too complicated to explain and a risk of further embarrassment.
With time comes acceptance, something Xanthus has yet to perfect. He's used to having what he wants, but he knows he can't force you to love him. Can he?
YES !! YOU !! ARE !! YOU KNOW WHY??? BECAUSE YOU TOOK AN ASK THAT SOMEONE ASKED SAKU (WHICH WAS MINE BY THE WAY IT JUST HAPPENED TO BE MINE) AND YOU MADE THE MOST SOUL CRUSHING "DRABBLE" KNOWN TO MAN! SO YES, YOU ARE WRONG!!!!!!
'FURTHERMORE' IT DOES NOT MATTE WHAT YOU SAY. WHATEVER YOU SAY IS INCORRECT.
AND ITS ALSO NOT MY FAULT THAT MY ASK HAPPENED TO BE LIKE LITERALLY THE BEST ??? BUT YOU DIDNT HAVE TO BREAK OUR HEARTS LIKE THIS! YEAH I SAID 'OUR' BECAUSE THIS IS A COMMUNITY ISSUE !!! THE COMMUNITY HAS READ THIS AND NOW THEIR HEARTS ARE BROKEN TOO, NOT JUST MINE.
HOW AM I ALSO WRONG?? WE CANT BOTH BE WRONG AT THE SAME TIME, IVE NEVER BEEN WRONG BEFORE IN MY LIFE EXCEPT FROM THE TIMES WHERE I HAVENT BEEN RIGHT BUT THOSE DONT COUNT!!!!
THE COMMUNITY IS FINE EVERYONE IS FINE AND DONT ACT LIKE YOUR FIC DIDNT BREAK THEIR HEARTS TOO BECAUSE IT ABSOLUTELY DID
AND YES IM SAYING YOURE WRONG TOO AND YES WE CAN BOTH BE WRONG AT THE SAME TIME! AND IF YOU'RE NOT WRONG THEN THAT MEANS I'M NOT WRONG WHICH WOULD MEAN IM RIGHT AND THIS WHOLE THING WAS YOUR FAULT BECAUSE "the past is in the past" IS NOT A VIABLE ARGUMENT
OKAY ANN (WITHOUT AN E), IF THATS EVEN YOUR REAL NAME. I MUST BRING THE KIDS INTO THIS BECAUSE THAT MAY BE THE ONLY WAY TO HELP YOU REALIZE HOW HARMFUL YOUR FIC IS AND UR FUTURE ONE WILL BE. I DIDNT BREAK ANYTHING!
WE CANNOT BE WRONG AT THE SAME TIME, THAT IS FALSE. YOU ARE COMPLETELY WRONG! THIS WHOLE THING IS NOT MY FAULT. YOU'RE THE ONE THAT BROUGHT UP MY FIC SO I HAD TO DEFEND IT.
IS CLAI EVEN YOUR REAL NAME? DOES THIS RELATIONSHIP MEAN ANYTHING REAL TO YOU???
AND YKW JUST SO WE'RE ON THE SAME PAGE THE KIDS ARE IN THE COMMENTS ASKING FOR A PART 2 SO CLEARLY THEY ENJOYED IT
AND YES WE ARE THE SAME SO WHATEVER YOU CALL ME ITS WHAT YOU ARE TOO! AND SIMILARLY HOW YOU'RE DEFENDING YOUR (VERY PAINFUL AND JUST AS HARMFUL) FIC, THATS WHAT IM DOING WITH MINE
SEE NOW YOU'RE TRYING TO TURN THIS ONTO ME! ONCE AGAIN. WOW. WOW. WOW. AND I THOUGHT YOU WERE BETTER THAN THIS BECAUSE I KNOW I AM.
NO WE ARE NOT THE SAME! THE KIDS DONT KNOW WHAT'S GOOD FOR THEM, IGNORE IT. AT LEAST I DIDNT USE AN ASK OF YOURS TO MAKE A PAINFUL FIC 317 WORDS AND 1432 CHARACTERS WITHOUT COUNTING SPACES. CANT YOU SEE? IM TRYING TO DO NOTHING BUT HELP AND YOU'RE JUST TURNING EVERYTHING ONTO ME!
IM JUST USING THE SAME THINGS YOU'VE SAID AGAINST YOU.
AND WHAT DOES MY MEASLY 315 WORDS COMPARE TO YOUR 34 PARAGRAPHS, 88 LINES (EXCLUDING SKIPS BETWEEN PARAGRAPHS), 1270 WORDS AND 5503 CHARACTERS (COMBINED PARTS, NO SPACES)??? AND ITS A FIC INSPIRED BY A SONG IVE CRIED TO MULTIPLE TIMES!
YOU DID MORE DAMAGE CLAI AND YOU'LL CONTINUE TO DO MORE AS YOU KEEP DROPPING MORE PARTS
I WONT DENY ILL ALSO CAUSE MORE DAMAGE BUT AT LEAST IVE ACCEPTED IT AND IM ACTUALLY WARNING EVERYONE
SO WHAT IF MY FIC HAS 34 PARAGRAPHS AND HOWEVER MANY LINES?? AND WHO CARED ABOUT THE SONG I USED?? MY POINT STILL STANDS.
I HAVE NOT DONE MORE DAMAGE. PLUS, WHAT IF THE NEXT PARTS ARE LESS ANGSTY??? THEN WHAT? THEY WONT BE HARMFUL THEN. AT LEAST I CAN MAKE IT DEVELOP INTO A POSITIVE STORY (IF I WANTED TO). YOURS IS STRAIGHT UP OVER AS FAR AS I KNOW.
WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHO CARES ABOUT THE SONG YOU USED?? THATS THE EQUIVALENT OF ME SAYING "WHO CARES WHAT ASK I REFERRED TO?" BESIDES I CARED. ME. DOES THAT NOT MEAN SOMETHING TO YOU?
WELL FINE THEM CLAI, ILL ASK YOU THIS DO YOU PLAN ON WRITING THE REST OF THE STORY WITHOUT ANGST?
AND I CAN ALSO DEVELOP THIS FIC INTO A HAPPY ENDING! MAYBE LOVE IS JUST CONFUSED AND DOESN'T REALISE IT YET BUT IS INFACT INLOVE WITH XANTHUS CUZ LETS BE REAL HES AMAZING ANR LOVEABLE (xanthus please show up in my house and take my blood, i may be iron deficient but i dont mind you taking my blood good sir)
Call me crazy, but I was reading Speak of the Devil (a bl manhwa) and you cannot tell me that there is no similarity between these two and Isaac & Andrew:
why couldn't i just have been into normal asmr . why did my brain decide "hey why don't we follow every creator that does audio rps with really in depth storylines and try to follow the narratives"
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