Girl, so confusing
I have not posted on here for such a long time. However, just like everyone else, I been listening to brat by Charli XCX nonstop. It's such a fun album. I did not expect for it to make me think about something that I have not thought about in a long time. High school.
Hearing the backstory of Lorde and Charli XCX on girl, so confusing opened a dang pandora box that I did not know I had.
The way that they basically both dealt with comparisons of each other and didn't really know what the other one felt. It's like missed time. The remix is amazing, and if only they weren't compared to each other constantly, they would've probably felt comfortable to do a remix sooner. Idk.
I remember I didn't want to go to a dance during high school, and somebody said that I would end up regretting it and high school would only be one time experience. I never really understood it, until now.
It happened during hearing this song, where I just thought about high school. I was so stuck in my head about what people would say or think about me, that I never did anything. I didn't make friends, I didn't join any clubs/activites, etc. I didn't even go to prom.
I always went straight home after school and I was just so sad and full of anxiety. I don't really remember high school, it's just a big blur. But I didn't make lifelong friends, like a lot of my classmates did.
I didn't think I would ever regret it, until now. Seven years after graduating. Wild.
I want to make friends now, build or be part of a community. & I am so terrified, because everyone says it's hard to make friends as a adult. But I do want to try. So, I'm going to try.
This is such a silly rant, but I feel like posting this to remind people to enjoy moments! put yourself out there! love yourself!






