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isco is genuinely surprised that her guard does down so soon. he wasn’t expecting her to be understanding of his feelings so fast, not when he’s sure that daphne already put her up to speed on how much he’d hurt her. no matter how close he and naomi are, he knows that daphne is right to feel every way that she feels and that he’s the one to blame for their relationship not working out. he wouldn’t even hold it against naomi if she did choose daphne over him when it came to all of this because the way he handled everything made everything worse for them. isco pushes some of his hair off his face, letting out a shaky breath and for a moment thinks about staying silent. but he can’t help but think that she’s giving him a chance to say what he’s really feeling and he won’t take it for granted. “i keep fucking up, naomi. i just keep—sabotaging myself and every single thing that makes me happy and i don’t fucking know why. i can’t even put this on my relapse or my drug addiction. i chose to lie to her for my own benefit, naomi. this can’t be who i really am. i refuse to be this person.” he immediately wipes the tears that threaten to fall down his cheeks, his eyes still focused ahead. “ i just don’t know how to make it stop hurting—”
it’s not that the anger in naomi has died. it’s still there, but it’s an ember burning quietly now and not the flames that had always threatened to engulf everyone when her temper flared. there’s still some residual hurt lingering that had settled in her months ago when she realized that he had left without a word, worrying her and daphne beyond belief. all to get comfort in the arms of luci. but this wasn’t about her. she knows that if they’re silent long enough, he’ll speak again and her suspicion is confirmed as his tone lingers heavy between them. “ it is who you are right now. but maybe that’s not who you have to be. ” she was always going to be brutally honest, especially with him, and now was no exception. she didn’t reach out to him like she usually would, her hands in her lap and her gaze straight out. “ you’ve told daph everything. i think, anyways. now, you just have to wait. ” the mention of his drug addiction takes her off guard for a minute. she knows that he’s always been careful around the party scene but he had never told her. “ is that why you went to luci? ”








