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uhh reminder ive moved blogs? im about to change urls but yea unfollow me here this blog is kaput!!!!!!!

#im currently at hatchinos but im about to change jsyk!

narcissisticpd

hey y'all do me a favor and read this

https://pastebin.com/a06dXrXD

narcissisticpd

i am also now permanently at @objectfile ❤💕❤

narcissisticpd

hey y'all do me a favor and read this

https://pastebin.com/a06dXrXD

narcissisticpd

i am also now permanently at @objectfile ❤💕❤

narcissisticpd

hey y'all do me a favor and read this

https://pastebin.com/a06dXrXD

narcissisticpd

i am also now permanently at @objectfile ❤💕❤

you arent being genuine in ignoring peoples messages and asks about your continued racism can we expect "is homura akemi a japanese name ohhh i didnt knoooow" from you anytime soon

i am answering all the asks im getting? like again im not even saying the shit i did wasnt bad but like, even in that situation (and yea i know what thats in reference to) i.. like, i stopped. i hadnt thought about it. i dont know, im stupid, and the character wasnt human so i just didnt stop for 10 seconds to think, and then i did, and then i stopped using a japanese name, and i wont ever use one again. i was racist, and one more than one occassion, and i know its shitty and i know that i cannot fix it all in one easy way. i have a tendency to push myself away from the shitty stuff i do, and i did that for a very long time, including my racism. i am trying to change this now.

narcissisticpd

hey y'all do me a favor and read this

https://pastebin.com/a06dXrXD

narcissisticpd

i am also now permanently at @objectfile ❤💕❤

you care so little about actually changing or improving its hilarious

listen yall in tryin not to be like. defensive but. i do care, actually, and i have always cared, and if i didnt care i wouldnt bother bcos the people who hate me now arent going to suddenly stop?? what would i be trying to accomplish if i didnt actually.. like.... feel remorse?? yall think im gonna metamorphis into an entirely new person in under a week? i really dont understand what im doing to make it seem like i dont give a shit. like nobody is required to forgive me or anything but like, im being genuine w this

oh im so sorry "venting" about how bad you feel :( about having been a shitty person for this length of time and to this amount of people while pulling that same "i was racist because im ND" is nothing like crytyping my mistake. anyway you dont have to "intend" to garner sympathy for your actions to be shitty and manipulative and asking not to receive "hate" (which of course you can define perfectly) for your shitty actions is annoying as hell. why do you think you deserve that level of respect

i never said my racist comments were because im mentally ill? i did say that part of the reason was my impulsivity often has me saying before thinking, but regardless, i still said racist shit. part of it was as i said, i felt entitled to making comments others did, when it wasnt my place.

i didnt ask to not recieve hate, i just said id block. and by hate i literally meant messages that consisted antirely of like, "kill yourself". baseless hate. so far, nothing of that nature has come into my inbox.

im not saying i deserve respect right now, only that people should expect to be blocked if they send stuff like that. i wanted to make the boundries of what i personally would put up with clear, thats all. whether or not im deserving of it is irrelevant - i just dont want to deal with that.

i really dont understand the issue with me late at night posting on my blog that i feel upset. i didnt like, mention names - unless this is in reference to posts earlier on THIS blog shortly after the whole thing. if thats the case, i agree with you - while ill say i was really just feeling shitty at the time, the tone of the posts are bad.

however, anything other than that, i really dont see the manipulation in them?

at the time, i didnt think about how the things i did were bad. and now i have, and its made me feel shitty, bc i was shitty. i never intend to excuse myself. ill admit that taking responsibility is somethig new to me, and previously (intentionally or not) i play victim, and i am trying to rectify this.

i wanna be very clear, im aware of how in the wrong i am, and also that while i do think im handling this better than before, im not going to know 100% how i should be conducting myself in regards to this, and i want to fix anything i do if its inappropriate or something

i understand the anger there and it might even be pathetic or hypocritcal for me to post abt feeling awful for being hated... but i dont mean to use it to garner sympathy, i just feel upset

are you seriously gonna admit to being a shitty racist and then whine about people hating you thats so pathetic

i mean, yeah? cos the two things arent mutually exclusive? theres a different cos like, the latter is Me on My Personal Blog Venting Feelings that i cant help feeling? im rly unsure the point of this, bc i can feel sorry and remorseful and also feel bad bc ppl hate me. like. idk what to tell u. not to mention its not like im going to people specifically crytyping abt how sad and pathetic i am... im just like... going on my personal blog and being upset....

like yea lots of ppl hate me rn and rightfully so, but like. it still hurts for me so im also venting that

*face gets really red and swollen and puffy and pissed off looking*/you are a butt face/

so i finally logged on expected a shitton of anon hate and this is literally it, and its pretty much the best fucking thing ever