this paracosm sucks. hope the next one's better

[narrasoulic]

i enjoy xanax's effects perhaps too much for my comfort, but luckily i am unemployed and only unmanageably anxious about once a week so i don't have to worry about that right now

[reactionimagesdaily]

[tacaleo]

TALES OF THE ABYSS 2005, dev. Namco Tales Studio

[narrasoulic]

le guin's steering the craft has been really good for getting me to connect to writing again after six years of professionally writing mostly very utilitarian and compromised stuff

[narrasoulic]

turns out the worst might not happen and everything is not doomed

[narrasoulic]

finished season 1 of showa genroku rakugo shinju and i must ask, how is this site not being way more abnormal about it? that old man has levels of baggage that are fucking with gravity itself

[shadowen]

This is an anti-despair checkpoint! You must share something you're looking forward to before scrolling on.

[narrasoulic]

due to a cascade of technical failures i recently lost all but the past two years of art i've made in my life: art i used to relate and bond with different friends i'm not longer in contact with, art i used to communicate some of the darkest moments of my mental health, collaborations, milestones, personal projects from middle school to high school to college to most of my adulthood, and I'm very Harvey Keitel crying.mp4 about it all.

[narrasoulic]

i was good in the daytime and now it's evening i'm feeling the grief again. i at the very least drew a postcard for my girlfriend today, but couldn't bring myself to draw more. i don't know how to make up for the loss of precious memories when right now I have no inspiration to make more art. honestly, i will take advice on how to get through this if you have any.

[narrasoulic]

due to a cascade of technical failures i recently lost all but the past two years of art i've made in my life: art i used to relate and bond with different friends i'm not longer in contact with, art i used to communicate some of the darkest moments of my mental health, collaborations, milestones, personal projects from middle school to high school to college to most of my adulthood, and I'm very Harvey Keitel crying.mp4 about it all.

[lucydacusgirl]

i wish swimming was something you could do alone in your bedroom.

[nobrashfestivity]

Toshio Matsumoto, Funeral Parade of Roses,1969

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[narrasoulic]

I hate hate hate advice about anxiety that mostly consists in "let it be external to you" "let it not matter to you" are you suggesting it shouldn't matter to me that my siblings are being abused the way that i was how am i supposed to both not worry about it, and also be ready to pack my bags the moment they need me? how can i treat it as immaterial when i go to sleep after writing one witness statement and waking up to write another. it's everywhere. it's invasive. there's no getting away from it.

[cryptotheism]

A lot of people want to kill their dad. There are a lot of stories where dad is some kind of evil wizard that can and should be killed, and this happens. Dad is killed by the end of the story in some meaningful way. But most of the time in real life you don't get to kill your dad; this is interesting. Desire has to articulate itself. So if you can't or won't or are too much of a bitch to kill your dad, you end up killing him in other ways. Maybe you start a restaurant, or date beyond normativity, or maybe you just kind of sit in a room and rot, and something about your dad is killed in this way. Or that's the idea.

[ringneckedpheasant]

[anxeious]

[synthwizardromance]

Doctor prescribed me 2 hours of nuzzling into your neck and letting out a happy sigh

[narrasoulic]

my life won't be subsumed by someone else's life if i don't let it i will give less than the most i can because self-possession exists inside that interval i will help exactly as much as i want to help, and then i will leave