hii! welcome to my acc! just your local autistic biro ace who loves natasha romanoff more than anything! also you do not have permission to repost any of my works, but reblogs, likes, and comments are always appreciated!!
ayoooo I know I only log on like once a year or so but right now I really like this older girl and I am desperate enough to ask for help from gay people on the internet
backstory: ya girl is 22 now (I was like 17-18 when I was most active on here đ) I just graduated from college, and I've been playing rec hockey for about a year
I met this girl from hockey when I first started playing, but now we've been hanging out again and she's been helping me (she's advanced and I'm novice lmao) AND HOLY FUCK SHE'S HOT. Like, she had me practice body slamming into her on the ice and I nearly died on the spot
The only issue is that she's nine years older than me đŤ
sooooo I am looking for tips for flirting with women when there's an age gap!! anything and everything is appreciated!
also hope my followers are doing well, I miss this place a lot :((
upon seeing the Thunderbolts trailer, I have mostly high hopes for Yelena but I think I'll still wait to see what others say rather than watch on opening weekend
i'm a junior in college rn majoring in creative writing, so i write a LOT for classes but it's mostly short stories
i've been writing novels for YEARS, as some might remember a few years ago when i published my first book! (i regularly bragged about publishing at 17 lmao) it's a fantasy series about a girl with wings who has to save the world from her evil parents who want to take over the government (lowkey has x-men vibes, so if you like that you might like my books!)
however, i dont post about it much on here cuz i dont like my real name associated with this acc, but if anyone is interested in reading then feel free to dm and I'll happily send the link
my main project rn is a new novel about a dystopian futuristic society, where the president (entirely based on tr*mp btw) figured out a way to be immortal via brain transplants, so the daughter of his next host starts a revolution to stop him! and she gets guidance from a ghost who gives her telepathy powers! and there's a friends to lovers subplot with a hot redhead :))
hoping to get that one traditionally published! it's at about 66k words rn, and I'm guessing it still has about 10-15k before I'm finished
if anyone's interested in beta and/or sensitivity reading then lmk đ
i may not write fanfic anymore but i feel like people who used to read my stuff will be happy to know that in almost all of my creative fiction pieces i've made the love interest a hot redhead with green eyes :))
dark day in America today... but it's giving me motivation to write my dystopian novel about overthrowing an oppressive government, so at least there's that!
nothing's more embarrassing than when you like a girl, everything seems fine in person, you talk about hanging out, then suddenly you text and she says 'my life is too busy rn' đđ
anyways I'm tempted to turn these emotions into writing when I finish my assignments đŤ
wassup besties, I wrote a story for my creative writing class with the intention of one of the characters representing Natasha, and I decided to change some things and make it into a fit to post here! It's in 3rd person, which isn't my fav to read but idc I'm not changing this entire thing to second person </3
ANYWAYS enjoy!!
Nat x fem reader as always
Laying in her loverâs arms, Y/N looked up and let out her final breath. Natashaâs heart stopped as she felt the rise and fall of her loverâs chest come to an end.
Nothing was clear during the following moments. Not even screams of agony could be heard from the surrounding teammates. A gust of wind circled around the two women, engulfing them in the dust.
The enemy began to draw back. The Chitari forces moved farther and farther away from the tornado brewing atop the hill. The rest of the Avengers backed away too. There was another force driving everyone away, and it certainly wasnât the wind.
Inside the tornado, Natashaâs heart raced faster. The girl in her arms was holding the Eternal Life Source. This was what the Chitari had been seeking, and it would make them immortal, as well as their rule over humanity. Now, the source began to fade in Y/Nâs hands. She began to fade too.
âNo.â Natasha muttered. She squeezed her shoulders, shaking her, yelling into her ear; anything to get her to wake. But Y/N stayed still.
Green and white swirls of light formed around the Eternal Life Source. As the light became brighter, Y/Nâs image began to fade more quickly. The yelling grew louder, but the swirls of light only continued to grow.
Within minutes, everything Natasha had been holding was gone. Now, she lay there crying over mere empty space. The tornado died down as well, revealing what had happened to the surrounding fighters.
Even the Chitari drew back, while the heroes ran up to Natasha. The five of them surrounded her, each offering out an arm for support. She scowled, ignoring everyone. There was nothing anyone could do for her.
Y/N was gone⌠and Natasha was alone.
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She couldnât stay. She had to avenge Y/N. The Chitari needed to be wiped out so they could never hurt anyone ever again.
It was just after midnight when she left. She had trained as a spy all her life, it was no issue to deceive the people closest to her. Her red hair was pulled back in a tight ponytail as she crawled out the window down the side of the building. Natasha jumped on her motorcycle, then sped off.
The Avengers had been looking for the Eternal Life Source for years. Its power is great enough to immortalize an entire civilization. They agreed that no one should have that power, especially not the Chitari. So their plan was to find it first, then destroy it.
After so many years, its power finally showed up on their energy readings. Unfortunately, that meant the Chitari knew about it as well. So thatâs when they set off on their mission. It was located in an isolated field in the North, and they were able to get there within a few days.
But there were only seven Avengers; the Chitari army was thousands. Y/N and Natasha were the only humans without any enhancements (besides Clint, of course). So it only made sense that they fell in love.
It started out from training sessions. The two girls would exchange lingering looks after spending hours sparring. Y/N was always the one to heal Natasha when she was hurt. She wrapped her wounds so delicately, it made the pain lessen.
After a losing battle, Natasha was there to comfort Y/N as she was for her. She would stroke her hair, holding her close. Sheâd tell her everything was going to be okay, and despite everything going wrong, Y/N would believe her simply because it was Natasha.
Their first kiss took place when they had the building to themselves. Music was playing quietly in the corner, and Y/N had gotten up for a snack. Natasha happened to be in the kitchen for the very same reason, staring into the refrigerator looking for something to eat.
No words were said as Y/N made her way over and wrapped her arms around the redhead to pull her into a hug. She rested her chin on her shoulder, breathing in her scent. Natasha grabbed her arms, and moved in a swaying motion. Y/N smiled as she realized what was happening, and leaned into her.
Even if they were the only ones without powers, there was magic that night. When they kissed, thatâs when Natasha immediately knew that Y/N was her soulmate. She would do anything and everything for her.
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And now, she would do anything and everything to get her back.
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But Y/N wasnât actually dead. No one knew, but the Eternal Life Source didnât kill her. Its power was too much for one person to hold, so her life force ended up getting drained. But she wasnât exactly dead, either.
Instead, she was just here. Nobody could see her, but she could still see others. Now, she was following her soulmate as she set off on a quest to bring her back.
Y/N wished more than anything that she could talk to Natasha, and let her know that she was here. But instead, there was nothing she could do except watch the woman she loved suffer like never before.
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Natasha knew what she had to do. If the Eternal Life Sourceâs power is what ultimately killed Y/N, then she would simply have to harness the power of the Eternal Death Source. Then, she could get to her.
It had only been a day, but she was able to pick up on the readings. Of course, as soon as she noticed, she erased the data so the others couldnât figure out her plan and stop her.
She rode her motorcycle as far as she could, but had to go on foot once she reached the cave system. It was dark and cold, both physically and emotionally. Natashaâs hands hadnât stopped shaking since Y/Nâs death; her lover would hold her hands close when she was nervous, and it always made her feel better. Now, there was no one to hold her hand and stop her heart from pounding against her chest.
Natashaâs fists were clenched as she walked in further. The feeling of dread was beginning to grow, which meant the Eternal Death Source was close. Tony and Clint had tried to check on her, to make sure she wouldnât do something exactly like this. But she wouldnât let them stop her.
The only light came from her screen, showing the energy readings of the Eternal Death Source. Just a little further, and sheâd be there. Sheâd be able to reach Y/N.
The cave grew cooler, and her insides began to twist. She was here.
The Eternal Death Source showed a sacrifice. Thatâs what she needed to do to wield its power. But it couldnât be anyone meaningless, it had to be someone she loved; that was the only way it would work.
As soon as she touched the glowing skull, a portal opened up, pulling Clint through. Besides Y/N, he was the one closest to her. He was there for her too, just in a different way.
He looked up and saw the Eternal Death Source. âNatasha, what are you doing?â Just then, a glowing knife appeared on the mantle next to the Eternal Death Source. She picked it up and looked down at him, trembling.
âItâs the only way I can get her back,â she muttered.
âNatasha, you donât have to do this.â
âI donât want to⌠but itâs the only way.â
He had been her friend all these years. She loved him, but she loved Y/N more. Clint tried to use his abilities to fight back, but he seemed to be frozen in place.
Black and purple light began to swirl around the knife. Natasha let out a shaky breath as she looked at her friend. It was all for Y/N.
Stifling her cries, in a single motion, she swung the knife down to end her friendâs life. It was done.
The black and purple light began to grow, completely engulfing her. Lightning crackled from the knife connecting to the Eternal Death Source. For a moment, Natasha was lifted off the ground. When she saw the dead body of her friend, she felt nothing.
Now, she wielded the power of the Eternal Death Source.
âShow me Y/N L/N.â
She felt the new power surging within her. The first thing she was was Clintâs spirit staring at her in shock. She still felt nothing about him, she couldnât feel when she had this newfound power.
One movement, and an entire population would go extinct. One motion, and she could kill whoever she wanted.
And yet, it was all for nothing.
Y/N was there, in between life and death. She saw the woman she once loved wielding the power of death. She had killed her closest friend, and she wasnât afraid to kill anyone else to get to her lost lover.
That was the moment Y/N lost hope. Natasha would spend eons using the power, massacring peoples, causing endless destruction. And it would all be for nothing.
Natasha Romanoff had the power of death. Soon, the Avengers would attempt to take her down, but it would be unsuccessful. She would stop at nothing to get back to Y/N.
The Master of Death was born that day, cursed to spend forever searching for the one spared by Life.
as for writing fics... hmmm no promises BUT I'm taking a creative writing class this semester where we're supposed to write like three short stories a week, SO I miiiiiiight write one of them as a Natasha fic, and post it here lmao
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