i made a new account since i confirmed that this account is shadowbanned. i cannot receive mails and i tried sending a message from another acc and as expected, i cannot reply to it.
i also couldn't receive notifications about me getting tagged for the updates of the stories i'm reading. now i finally know why.
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i'm also planning a new smau and it's already in my drafts hehe but i will not post it yet since i'm still busy (midterms is coming *cough* *cough*)
i will keep this account dw!! but i'm just a little sad because i dont think i will update on this blog anymore :(( i will miss everyone and also my mutuals (you guys still there? haha)
see you on my new account!! i still haven't posted anything lmaooo still updating it ><
i'm back again after disappearing for 3 months ๐ฅฒ i forgot about tumblr because of uni and spent half of my time playing genshin to lessen my stress (just hit ar 60 lmao). i'd like to apologize for not updating TT
and speaking of updating, i dont think i can update twenty-one and here's your perfect because i lost inspiration to continue it :(( i'm sorry everyone. i'm thinking of moving blogs too since i felt like i'm shadowbanned here? idk (but im not sure yet, i love this blogg ๐ฅบ)
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โข summary: you did someone a favor, but at what cost?
โข wc: 2.4k ( not proofread :( )
โข genre: angst, hurt, comfort, just you being confused and a lil dense
โข a/n: i'm a sucker for angst so... pain ๐ ( still thinking about what if tomo is playable ๐ )
โข inspired by: haunted - taylor swift
" Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
Can't turn back now, I'm haunted "
โAll the papers are already processed. And here is your class schedule. Donโt worry, it is not rare that there are students transferring here in the middle of the school year so youโre good.โ Ms. Jean said with a smile before handing you a piece of paper which contains your class schedule. โYour class and room number are also there.โ
โThank you, Ms. Jean.โ you took the paper and gave her a small bow
โItโs still pretty early. If you want, you can take a look around sbowo you can be familiar here.โ
โWaking up early kind of became my hobby because of my former school, thatโs why.โ you chuckled
โSeems like youโll have to get used to it now.โ
โNo doubt.โ
After saying goodbye, you leave the faculty office and start walking. Itโs still early, so you canโt see a single student walking in the hallways. Itโs starting to creep you out because the silence is deafening. Youโre not scared of ghosts, but the atmosphere is making you uncomfortable.
After confirming that youโre the first student to arrive, you decided to check if the rooftop is open. Surprisingly, it is. You carefully closed the door and started walking towards the fence. The height is quite high and you can see everything from where youโre standing. The sunrise is breathtaking and of course, you didnโt want to lose your chance to capture it. You took your phone from your pocket and started taking pictures to show it to your parents later.
โItโs beautiful, isnโt it?โ
โYeah, and the clouds surrounding it makes it more beautiful.โ
โI know, right?โ
You were just about to answer but you suddenly remember that you went here alone.
You quickly turned around to see who the guy was, but your heart almost dropped when you saw that nobody was there but only you. The door is still firmly shut. No sign of someone entering the space.
โH-hello?โ you called out to nowhere and as expected, you were greeted by silence.
โUp here, my lady.โ
Following the voice, you turn to your right and raise your head. There, you saw a guy around your age looking down at you with a playful grin. Heโs also wearing a uniform, so that means heโs a student hereโand that you werenโt the first student who came early.
โYou looked shocked, did I scare you? My bad." He's holding a rubix cube and starts solving it, but he stopped right away before looking at you. โThis is the first time that I see you. New student?โ
โUh, yeah.โ you gave him a smile. His voice is gentle and you donโt know why, but youโre starting to feel safe and comfortable around him already. โAnd no, you didnโt scare me.โ
โYour face says otherwise, though.โ he chuckled. โOops, wait, youโre taking pictures, right? I hope I didn't disturbed you or anything.โ
โOh..โ you look at your phone for a moment before returning your gaze at him โIโm done, donโt worry.โ
โThe view is better from here.โ he said, โWant to go here?โ
Heโs sitting at the top of a small room and just thinking of being there is already making you anxious. โNope, Iโm good.โ
After a few minutes, you and Tomoโyou just learned his nameโstart talking like youโve known each other for years. Heโs telling you some funny stories and jokes and no shit, you find all of them hilarious. Plus, his laughing voice is also making you laugh.
The two of you are sitting on the floor, back against the chain fence. He also tells you about his friends, and his childhood friend Kazuha, whom he joked that he couldnโt live without him because he is like a brother to him.
โWell, heโs an independent person. So Iโm sure heโll be fine without me.โ he pouted and you chuckled
โStop being dramatic. I havenโt met him but based on the stories you told me, I think heโs the same as you.โ you said, โIโm an only child and I donโt have that many friends so I donโt know the feeling of having someone who can support me on everything..โ
โWait, you donโt have friends?โ
โI said, I donโt have the many friends. I am not a lone wolf, for your information!!โ
โI know. Iโm just kidding!โ he pinched your cheek โYou look sad all of a sudden so I had to lift your spirits.โ
โWow, thatโs deep.โ
โ...Now I know why you have a very few friends.โ
โShut up!โ
You look at each other and stop for a moment before bursting out laughing.
Weirdโฆ Iโm laughing but somethingโs bothering me, and I donโt know what it is.
Your eyes caught something from the cornerโfrom Tomoโs left. There are traces of something burnt on the fence. It almost covered the whole fence. You donโt know if itโs really burnt or if itโs just paint.
โWhatโs wrong?โ Tomo followed your gaze
โUm, correct me if Iโm wrong, but is the fence over there burnt?โ
Tomo falls silent at your question.
โItโs okay if you wonโt answer! Letโs just talk about something else..โ
โThe schoolโthis rooftop rather, was engulfed in fire because of an accident.โ
What?
You wanted to open your mouth to say something but nothing would come out, so you just wait for him to continue.
โI told you we love having fun, right? We always pull all the types of pranks we can think of. But one of those pranks went too far, and it led to an accident because one of my friends accidentally bumped on the candle and it fell on a blanket until the fire started spreading.โ there was a hint of sadness in his voice as he spoke. And you purse your lips and keep listening. โWe didnโt have any idea that the blanket weโre sitting on has a tinge of gas. So imagine our terror when the fire almost reached us.โ
He chuckled, โbut thankfully, no one was harmed. The teachers called a firetruck when the alarm started ringing. And we got called on the guidance because of what happened. We almost set the school on fire.โ
You just smiled faintly. โThatโsโฆ one hell of an experience.โ
โNo shit.โ
The two of you look at the scenery below you. The sun is already high, and the cold wind is hitting your face. You stole a glance at Tomo.
Heโs smiling, but thereโs a faraway look on his eyes.
Why do you look so sad?
You wanted to ask him that, but you flinched when he turned his head and caught you staring at him.
โI understand. Every girl looks at me like that, too.โ he said, nodding his head with closed eyes. You just stared at him. โIโm so attractive, arenโt I?โ
โGo to hell.โ Maybe i was just imagining itโฆ
โThatโs so harsh!โ he said in a dramatic tone as he put his hand on his chest like he was shot. You were just about to say something but the school bell started ringing. โOh, itโs time for class.โ
โTime went by so fast..โ
โWell, what are you waiting for? Youโre not going to be late on your first day, donโtcha?โ
He stood up and held out his hand. You accepted it and he helped you to your feet. โI have never been late ever since I started going to school.โ
โLooks like it.โ his gaze landed on the paper youโre holding โIโve been meaning to ask this.. but what is that?โ
โOh, this? My class schedule and room number.โ you gave it to him โSince you know all the ways here, can you help me find my room?โ
Heโs looking at the paper with a serious look on his face. โClass 2-3โฆ?โ
โYep, you know which floor is it?โ
โYouโre in the same class as themโฆโ he whispered, but you didnโt hear it so you asked him.
โHm? What is it?โ
He just shook his head and smiled at you. โNothing. Anyway, your classroom is on the second floor. Youโll probably find it right away because it is not on the farthest side from the staircase.โ
โAlright.โ you took the paper from him and started walking. But you stopped when you noticed that he didnโt move from his place. โTomo? The class will start in 5 minutes, what are you standing there for? Letโs go.โ
Tomo just stood there, looking at you with his usual smile. โUm, I think Iโll stay here for a while.โ
โHuh? Why? Youโre not going to cut class on the first subject, are you?โ
โNo, of course not! I just, uh, I need to do something so you can go ahead.โ
โReally..? If you say so..โ you said reluctantly โAnyways, I had fun talking to you.โ
He widened his eyes, like he looked really shocked at your statement. Why? Were you too forward??
โI had fun talking to you too.โ there goes the sadness in his eyes again while heโs smiling. Itโs making you feel uncomfortable but you ignored it. โAnd,โ
โHm?โ
Tomo started walking towards you. He gently holds your hand and itโs strangely cold. He put the fully solved rubix cube on your palm. You furrowed your eyebrows and looked up at him. โWhen did you finish it?โ
โFor a long time now.โ that doesnโt make sense. We were talking the whole time and I never saw you move your hands to solve this!
You were just about to say that to him but he cuts you off. โYouโre in the same class as Kazu. Can I ask you to give this to him?โ
โWhy donโt you give it yourself? And how am I suppose to know Kazu?โ
โYou will probably be seated beside him so youโll meet him right away.โ he said and finally let go of your hand โBut I canโt give this to him personally.โ
โDid you have a fight or something?โ
He was silent for a second before answering, โYep! I did something and because of that he was so mad at me!โ
Is this guy serious.
You sighed. โFine. Iโll give this to him.โ
โThank you, y/n.โ your heart skipped a beat when he said your name in the most gentle and soft voice it could be. You cleared your throat and smile at him.
โPromise me you will apologize to him.โ
โI canโt promise but Iโll try.โ
โDonโt try, do it.โ
โCan you tell him that for me?โ
โWhy me!?โ
โPlease?โ why does he look so desperate? โPlease tell him sorry, and it is not his fault so he needs to stop blaming himself for what happened.โ
โ..youโre not expecting me to say that to him directly, arenโt you?โ thatโs way TOO embarrassing!!
โI know you can do it.โ this guy..!
โFine, fine!! I will tell him.โ you sighed, โAnyways, I have to go now.โ
You waved at him and ran towards the door. You hold the doorknob and look at Tomo for one last time before you leave.
โSee you later?โ
He waved at you. โYep. See ya. Goodluck on your first day!โ
โWow your bento looks expensiveโฆ did you make this?โ Thoma asked while looking at your lunch. Itโs lunch time, and you already made some friends on your first day. Youโre currently at the cafeteria.
โI am not in good terms with the kitchen, so my mom made this.โ you answered playfully and they laughed
โMy brother is also not a good cook so I understand where youโre going.โ Ayaka chuckled
โAyato may not be a good cook but heโs attractive and handsome so thatโll make up for it.โ Yoimiya said as she open her lunch box
โYou only care about the looks, this is why youโve never got a boyfriend.โ Kazuha said that earn a chuckle from all of you expect from Yoimiya.
โThat was so uncalled for!โ
You took your bag to get your milk carton. But you stopped when you saw the rubix inside. Shoot! I almost forgot! Tomo asked me to give this to Kazuha!!
โHey, Kazuha.โ
โHm?โ you only called out to Kazuha but all your friends were also looking at you. You pulled out the rubix from your bag and handed it to him.
โYour friend asked me to give this to you.โ
Everyone went silent when you finished talking. Hm?
Thoma and Ayaka looked at each other before turning their gaze to Kazuha. Yoimiya was silent, too. And Kazuhaโฆ
โKazuhaโฆ?โ
โ...where did you get this?โ he silently asked. His hand was shaking as he took the rubix from you. Youโre starting to feel uneasy. Whatโs with their reaction? Why do they look like they saw something they shouldnโt see?ย
โYour friendโฆ I mean, Tomo. He asked me to give you that.โ you answered quietly โAnd, uh, he said heโs sorry, and please stop blaming yourself for what happened because itโs not your fault..โ though i donโt have any idea about what happenedโฆ
Kazuha didnโt said anything. Heโs just staring at the cube in his hands. Then all of a sudden, you heard a quiet sob from your left.
Huh?
โYoimiya?โ you called out but she didnโt answer you. You saw that Ayaka was crying as well.
Waitโฆ okay, what the hell is going on??? Why are they crying over a single rubix cube?
โy/n..โ Kazuha called out your name and heโs also crying. The students from the other tables are starting to look at you. โThank youโฆ Thank you so much..โ
โYouโre.. welcome. But, why are you guys crying?โ
โThat rubix cube is Tomoโs birthday present to him.โ Thoma said with a sad smile. โBut.. y/n, I donโt know why, or how you manage to talk to him and give the rubix back to Kazuha, but thank you.โ
โEh?โ wait.. hold on. โWhy are you thanking me? I just did Tomo a favor. And what do you mean how did I manage to talk to him? Iโm starting to get confused.โ and a bad feeling..
Thoma bit his lip before answering. And you swear, you feel like your world has turned upside down when you hear the next words from him.
โTomo.. he died because of a fire accident last year.โ
โข summary: you did someone a favor, but at what cost?
โข wc: 2.4k ( not proofread :( )
โข genre: angst, hurt, comfort, just you being confused and a lil dense
โข a/n: i'm a sucker for angst so... pain ๐ ( still thinking about what if tomo is playable ๐ )
โข inspired by: haunted - taylor swift
" Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
Can't turn back now, I'm haunted "
โAll the papers are already processed. And here is your class schedule. Donโt worry, it is not rare that there are students transferring here in the middle of the school year so youโre good.โ Ms. Jean said with a smile before handing you a piece of paper which contains your class schedule. โYour class and room number are also there.โ
โThank you, Ms. Jean.โ you took the paper and gave her a small bow
โItโs still pretty early. If you want, you can take a look around sbowo you can be familiar here.โ
โWaking up early kind of became my hobby because of my former school, thatโs why.โ you chuckled
โSeems like youโll have to get used to it now.โ
โNo doubt.โ
After saying goodbye, you leave the faculty office and start walking. Itโs still early, so you canโt see a single student walking in the hallways. Itโs starting to creep you out because the silence is deafening. Youโre not scared of ghosts, but the atmosphere is making you uncomfortable.
After confirming that youโre the first student to arrive, you decided to check if the rooftop is open. Surprisingly, it is. You carefully closed the door and started walking towards the fence. The height is quite high and you can see everything from where youโre standing. The sunrise is breathtaking and of course, you didnโt want to lose your chance to capture it. You took your phone from your pocket and started taking pictures to show it to your parents later.
โItโs beautiful, isnโt it?โ
โYeah, and the clouds surrounding it makes it more beautiful.โ
โI know, right?โ
You were just about to answer but you suddenly remember that you went here alone.
You quickly turned around to see who the guy was, but your heart almost dropped when you saw that nobody was there but only you. The door is still firmly shut. No sign of someone entering the space.
โH-hello?โ you called out to nowhere and as expected, you were greeted by silence.
โUp here, my lady.โ
Following the voice, you turn to your right and raise your head. There, you saw a guy around your age looking down at you with a playful grin. Heโs also wearing a uniform, so that means heโs a student hereโand that you werenโt the first student who came early.
โYou looked shocked, did I scare you? My bad." He's holding a rubix cube and starts solving it, but he stopped right away before looking at you. โThis is the first time that I see you. New student?โ
โUh, yeah.โ you gave him a smile. His voice is gentle and you donโt know why, but youโre starting to feel safe and comfortable around him already. โAnd no, you didnโt scare me.โ
โYour face says otherwise, though.โ he chuckled. โOops, wait, youโre taking pictures, right? I hope I didn't disturbed you or anything.โ
โOh..โ you look at your phone for a moment before returning your gaze at him โIโm done, donโt worry.โ
โThe view is better from here.โ he said, โWant to go here?โ
Heโs sitting at the top of a small room and just thinking of being there is already making you anxious. โNope, Iโm good.โ
After a few minutes, you and Tomoโyou just learned his nameโstart talking like youโve known each other for years. Heโs telling you some funny stories and jokes and no shit, you find all of them hilarious. Plus, his laughing voice is also making you laugh.
The two of you are sitting on the floor, back against the chain fence. He also tells you about his friends, and his childhood friend Kazuha, whom he joked that he couldnโt live without him because he is like a brother to him.
โWell, heโs an independent person. So Iโm sure heโll be fine without me.โ he pouted and you chuckled
โStop being dramatic. I havenโt met him but based on the stories you told me, I think heโs the same as you.โ you said, โIโm an only child and I donโt have that many friends so I donโt know the feeling of having someone who can support me on everything..โ
โWait, you donโt have friends?โ
โI said, I donโt have the many friends. I am not a lone wolf, for your information!!โ
โI know. Iโm just kidding!โ he pinched your cheek โYou look sad all of a sudden so I had to lift your spirits.โ
โWow, thatโs deep.โ
โ...Now I know why you have a very few friends.โ
โShut up!โ
You look at each other and stop for a moment before bursting out laughing.
Weirdโฆ Iโm laughing but somethingโs bothering me, and I donโt know what it is.
Your eyes caught something from the cornerโfrom Tomoโs left. There are traces of something burnt on the fence. It almost covered the whole fence. You donโt know if itโs really burnt or if itโs just paint.
โWhatโs wrong?โ Tomo followed your gaze
โUm, correct me if Iโm wrong, but is the fence over there burnt?โ
Tomo falls silent at your question.
โItโs okay if you wonโt answer! Letโs just talk about something else..โ
โThe schoolโthis rooftop rather, was engulfed in fire because of an accident.โ
What?
You wanted to open your mouth to say something but nothing would come out, so you just wait for him to continue.
โI told you we love having fun, right? We always pull all the types of pranks we can think of. But one of those pranks went too far, and it led to an accident because one of my friends accidentally bumped on the candle and it fell on a blanket until the fire started spreading.โ there was a hint of sadness in his voice as he spoke. And you purse your lips and keep listening. โWe didnโt have any idea that the blanket weโre sitting on has a tinge of gas. So imagine our terror when the fire almost reached us.โ
He chuckled, โbut thankfully, no one was harmed. The teachers called a firetruck when the alarm started ringing. And we got called on the guidance because of what happened. We almost set the school on fire.โ
You just smiled faintly. โThatโsโฆ one hell of an experience.โ
โNo shit.โ
The two of you look at the scenery below you. The sun is already high, and the cold wind is hitting your face. You stole a glance at Tomo.
Heโs smiling, but thereโs a faraway look on his eyes.
Why do you look so sad?
You wanted to ask him that, but you flinched when he turned his head and caught you staring at him.
โI understand. Every girl looks at me like that, too.โ he said, nodding his head with closed eyes. You just stared at him. โIโm so attractive, arenโt I?โ
โGo to hell.โ Maybe i was just imagining itโฆ
โThatโs so harsh!โ he said in a dramatic tone as he put his hand on his chest like he was shot. You were just about to say something but the school bell started ringing. โOh, itโs time for class.โ
โTime went by so fast..โ
โWell, what are you waiting for? Youโre not going to be late on your first day, donโtcha?โ
He stood up and held out his hand. You accepted it and he helped you to your feet. โI have never been late ever since I started going to school.โ
โLooks like it.โ his gaze landed on the paper youโre holding โIโve been meaning to ask this.. but what is that?โ
โOh, this? My class schedule and room number.โ you gave it to him โSince you know all the ways here, can you help me find my room?โ
Heโs looking at the paper with a serious look on his face. โClass 2-3โฆ?โ
โYep, you know which floor is it?โ
โYouโre in the same class as themโฆโ he whispered, but you didnโt hear it so you asked him.
โHm? What is it?โ
He just shook his head and smiled at you. โNothing. Anyway, your classroom is on the second floor. Youโll probably find it right away because it is not on the farthest side from the staircase.โ
โAlright.โ you took the paper from him and started walking. But you stopped when you noticed that he didnโt move from his place. โTomo? The class will start in 5 minutes, what are you standing there for? Letโs go.โ
Tomo just stood there, looking at you with his usual smile. โUm, I think Iโll stay here for a while.โ
โHuh? Why? Youโre not going to cut class on the first subject, are you?โ
โNo, of course not! I just, uh, I need to do something so you can go ahead.โ
โReally..? If you say so..โ you said reluctantly โAnyways, I had fun talking to you.โ
He widened his eyes, like he looked really shocked at your statement. Why? Were you too forward??
โI had fun talking to you too.โ there goes the sadness in his eyes again while heโs smiling. Itโs making you feel uncomfortable but you ignored it. โAnd,โ
โHm?โ
Tomo started walking towards you. He gently holds your hand and itโs strangely cold. He put the fully solved rubix cube on your palm. You furrowed your eyebrows and looked up at him. โWhen did you finish it?โ
โFor a long time now.โ that doesnโt make sense. We were talking the whole time and I never saw you move your hands to solve this!
You were just about to say that to him but he cuts you off. โYouโre in the same class as Kazu. Can I ask you to give this to him?โ
โWhy donโt you give it yourself? And how am I suppose to know Kazu?โ
โYou will probably be seated beside him so youโll meet him right away.โ he said and finally let go of your hand โBut I canโt give this to him personally.โ
โDid you have a fight or something?โ
He was silent for a second before answering, โYep! I did something and because of that he was so mad at me!โ
Is this guy serious.
You sighed. โFine. Iโll give this to him.โ
โThank you, y/n.โ your heart skipped a beat when he said your name in the most gentle and soft voice it could be. You cleared your throat and smile at him.
โPromise me you will apologize to him.โ
โI canโt promise but Iโll try.โ
โDonโt try, do it.โ
โCan you tell him that for me?โ
โWhy me!?โ
โPlease?โ why does he look so desperate? โPlease tell him sorry, and it is not his fault so he needs to stop blaming himself for what happened.โ
โ..youโre not expecting me to say that to him directly, arenโt you?โ thatโs way TOO embarrassing!!
โI know you can do it.โ this guy..!
โFine, fine!! I will tell him.โ you sighed, โAnyways, I have to go now.โ
You waved at him and ran towards the door. You hold the doorknob and look at Tomo for one last time before you leave.
โSee you later?โ
He waved at you. โYep. See ya. Goodluck on your first day!โ
โWow your bento looks expensiveโฆ did you make this?โ Thoma asked while looking at your lunch. Itโs lunch time, and you already made some friends on your first day. Youโre currently at the cafeteria.
โI am not in good terms with the kitchen, so my mom made this.โ you answered playfully and they laughed
โMy brother is also not a good cook so I understand where youโre going.โ Ayaka chuckled
โAyato may not be a good cook but heโs attractive and handsome so thatโll make up for it.โ Yoimiya said as she open her lunch box
โYou only care about the looks, this is why youโve never got a boyfriend.โ Kazuha said that earn a chuckle from all of you expect from Yoimiya.
โThat was so uncalled for!โ
You took your bag to get your milk carton. But you stopped when you saw the rubix inside. Shoot! I almost forgot! Tomo asked me to give this to Kazuha!!
โHey, Kazuha.โ
โHm?โ you only called out to Kazuha but all your friends were also looking at you. You pulled out the rubix from your bag and handed it to him.
โYour friend asked me to give this to you.โ
Everyone went silent when you finished talking. Hm?
Thoma and Ayaka looked at each other before turning their gaze to Kazuha. Yoimiya was silent, too. And Kazuhaโฆ
โKazuhaโฆ?โ
โ...where did you get this?โ he silently asked. His hand was shaking as he took the rubix from you. Youโre starting to feel uneasy. Whatโs with their reaction? Why do they look like they saw something they shouldnโt see?ย
โYour friendโฆ I mean, Tomo. He asked me to give you that.โ you answered quietly โAnd, uh, he said heโs sorry, and please stop blaming yourself for what happened because itโs not your fault..โ though i donโt have any idea about what happenedโฆ
Kazuha didnโt said anything. Heโs just staring at the cube in his hands. Then all of a sudden, you heard a quiet sob from your left.
Huh?
โYoimiya?โ you called out but she didnโt answer you. You saw that Ayaka was crying as well.
Waitโฆ okay, what the hell is going on??? Why are they crying over a single rubix cube?
โy/n..โ Kazuha called out your name and heโs also crying. The students from the other tables are starting to look at you. โThank youโฆ Thank you so much..โ
โYouโre.. welcome. But, why are you guys crying?โ
โThat rubix cube is Tomoโs birthday present to him.โ Thoma said with a sad smile. โBut.. y/n, I donโt know why, or how you manage to talk to him and give the rubix back to Kazuha, but thank you.โ
โEh?โ wait.. hold on. โWhy are you thanking me? I just did Tomo a favor. And what do you mean how did I manage to talk to him? Iโm starting to get confused.โ and a bad feeling..
Thoma bit his lip before answering. And you swear, you feel like your world has turned upside down when you hear the next words from him.
โTomo.. he died because of a fire accident last year.โ
โข summary: you did someone a favor, but at what cost?
โข wc: 2.4k ( not proofread :( )
โข genre: angst, hurt, comfort, just you being confused and a lil dense
โข a/n: i'm a sucker for angst so... pain ๐ ( still thinking about what if tomo is playable ๐ )
โข inspired by: haunted - taylor swift
" Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
Can't turn back now, I'm haunted "
โAll the papers are already processed. And here is your class schedule. Donโt worry, it is not rare that there are students transferring here in the middle of the school year so youโre good.โ Ms. Jean said with a smile before handing you a piece of paper which contains your class schedule. โYour class and room number are also there.โ
โThank you, Ms. Jean.โ you took the paper and gave her a small bow
โItโs still pretty early. If you want, you can take a look around sbowo you can be familiar here.โ
โWaking up early kind of became my hobby because of my former school, thatโs why.โ you chuckled
โSeems like youโll have to get used to it now.โ
โNo doubt.โ
After saying goodbye, you leave the faculty office and start walking. Itโs still early, so you canโt see a single student walking in the hallways. Itโs starting to creep you out because the silence is deafening. Youโre not scared of ghosts, but the atmosphere is making you uncomfortable.
After confirming that youโre the first student to arrive, you decided to check if the rooftop is open. Surprisingly, it is. You carefully closed the door and started walking towards the fence. The height is quite high and you can see everything from where youโre standing. The sunrise is breathtaking and of course, you didnโt want to lose your chance to capture it. You took your phone from your pocket and started taking pictures to show it to your parents later.
โItโs beautiful, isnโt it?โ
โYeah, and the clouds surrounding it makes it more beautiful.โ
โI know, right?โ
You were just about to answer but you suddenly remember that you went here alone.
You quickly turned around to see who the guy was, but your heart almost dropped when you saw that nobody was there but only you. The door is still firmly shut. No sign of someone entering the space.
โH-hello?โ you called out to nowhere and as expected, you were greeted by silence.
โUp here, my lady.โ
Following the voice, you turn to your right and raise your head. There, you saw a guy around your age looking down at you with a playful grin. Heโs also wearing a uniform, so that means heโs a student hereโand that you werenโt the first student who came early.
โYou looked shocked, did I scare you? My bad." He's holding a rubix cube and starts solving it, but he stopped right away before looking at you. โThis is the first time that I see you. New student?โ
โUh, yeah.โ you gave him a smile. His voice is gentle and you donโt know why, but youโre starting to feel safe and comfortable around him already. โAnd no, you didnโt scare me.โ
โYour face says otherwise, though.โ he chuckled. โOops, wait, youโre taking pictures, right? I hope I didn't disturbed you or anything.โ
โOh..โ you look at your phone for a moment before returning your gaze at him โIโm done, donโt worry.โ
โThe view is better from here.โ he said, โWant to go here?โ
Heโs sitting at the top of a small room and just thinking of being there is already making you anxious. โNope, Iโm good.โ
After a few minutes, you and Tomoโyou just learned his nameโstart talking like youโve known each other for years. Heโs telling you some funny stories and jokes and no shit, you find all of them hilarious. Plus, his laughing voice is also making you laugh.
The two of you are sitting on the floor, back against the chain fence. He also tells you about his friends, and his childhood friend Kazuha, whom he joked that he couldnโt live without him because he is like a brother to him.
โWell, heโs an independent person. So Iโm sure heโll be fine without me.โ he pouted and you chuckled
โStop being dramatic. I havenโt met him but based on the stories you told me, I think heโs the same as you.โ you said, โIโm an only child and I donโt have that many friends so I donโt know the feeling of having someone who can support me on everything..โ
โWait, you donโt have friends?โ
โI said, I donโt have the many friends. I am not a lone wolf, for your information!!โ
โI know. Iโm just kidding!โ he pinched your cheek โYou look sad all of a sudden so I had to lift your spirits.โ
โWow, thatโs deep.โ
โ...Now I know why you have a very few friends.โ
โShut up!โ
You look at each other and stop for a moment before bursting out laughing.
Weirdโฆ Iโm laughing but somethingโs bothering me, and I donโt know what it is.
Your eyes caught something from the cornerโfrom Tomoโs left. There are traces of something burnt on the fence. It almost covered the whole fence. You donโt know if itโs really burnt or if itโs just paint.
โWhatโs wrong?โ Tomo followed your gaze
โUm, correct me if Iโm wrong, but is the fence over there burnt?โ
Tomo falls silent at your question.
โItโs okay if you wonโt answer! Letโs just talk about something else..โ
โThe schoolโthis rooftop rather, was engulfed in fire because of an accident.โ
What?
You wanted to open your mouth to say something but nothing would come out, so you just wait for him to continue.
โI told you we love having fun, right? We always pull all the types of pranks we can think of. But one of those pranks went too far, and it led to an accident because one of my friends accidentally bumped on the candle and it fell on a blanket until the fire started spreading.โ there was a hint of sadness in his voice as he spoke. And you purse your lips and keep listening. โWe didnโt have any idea that the blanket weโre sitting on has a tinge of gas. So imagine our terror when the fire almost reached us.โ
He chuckled, โbut thankfully, no one was harmed. The teachers called a firetruck when the alarm started ringing. And we got called on the guidance because of what happened. We almost set the school on fire.โ
You just smiled faintly. โThatโsโฆ one hell of an experience.โ
โNo shit.โ
The two of you look at the scenery below you. The sun is already high, and the cold wind is hitting your face. You stole a glance at Tomo.
Heโs smiling, but thereโs a faraway look on his eyes.
Why do you look so sad?
You wanted to ask him that, but you flinched when he turned his head and caught you staring at him.
โI understand. Every girl looks at me like that, too.โ he said, nodding his head with closed eyes. You just stared at him. โIโm so attractive, arenโt I?โ
โGo to hell.โ Maybe i was just imagining itโฆ
โThatโs so harsh!โ he said in a dramatic tone as he put his hand on his chest like he was shot. You were just about to say something but the school bell started ringing. โOh, itโs time for class.โ
โTime went by so fast..โ
โWell, what are you waiting for? Youโre not going to be late on your first day, donโtcha?โ
He stood up and held out his hand. You accepted it and he helped you to your feet. โI have never been late ever since I started going to school.โ
โLooks like it.โ his gaze landed on the paper youโre holding โIโve been meaning to ask this.. but what is that?โ
โOh, this? My class schedule and room number.โ you gave it to him โSince you know all the ways here, can you help me find my room?โ
Heโs looking at the paper with a serious look on his face. โClass 2-3โฆ?โ
โYep, you know which floor is it?โ
โYouโre in the same class as themโฆโ he whispered, but you didnโt hear it so you asked him.
โHm? What is it?โ
He just shook his head and smiled at you. โNothing. Anyway, your classroom is on the second floor. Youโll probably find it right away because it is not on the farthest side from the staircase.โ
โAlright.โ you took the paper from him and started walking. But you stopped when you noticed that he didnโt move from his place. โTomo? The class will start in 5 minutes, what are you standing there for? Letโs go.โ
Tomo just stood there, looking at you with his usual smile. โUm, I think Iโll stay here for a while.โ
โHuh? Why? Youโre not going to cut class on the first subject, are you?โ
โNo, of course not! I just, uh, I need to do something so you can go ahead.โ
โReally..? If you say so..โ you said reluctantly โAnyways, I had fun talking to you.โ
He widened his eyes, like he looked really shocked at your statement. Why? Were you too forward??
โI had fun talking to you too.โ there goes the sadness in his eyes again while heโs smiling. Itโs making you feel uncomfortable but you ignored it. โAnd,โ
โHm?โ
Tomo started walking towards you. He gently holds your hand and itโs strangely cold. He put the fully solved rubix cube on your palm. You furrowed your eyebrows and looked up at him. โWhen did you finish it?โ
โFor a long time now.โ that doesnโt make sense. We were talking the whole time and I never saw you move your hands to solve this!
You were just about to say that to him but he cuts you off. โYouโre in the same class as Kazu. Can I ask you to give this to him?โ
โWhy donโt you give it yourself? And how am I suppose to know Kazu?โ
โYou will probably be seated beside him so youโll meet him right away.โ he said and finally let go of your hand โBut I canโt give this to him personally.โ
โDid you have a fight or something?โ
He was silent for a second before answering, โYep! I did something and because of that he was so mad at me!โ
Is this guy serious.
You sighed. โFine. Iโll give this to him.โ
โThank you, y/n.โ your heart skipped a beat when he said your name in the most gentle and soft voice it could be. You cleared your throat and smile at him.
โPromise me you will apologize to him.โ
โI canโt promise but Iโll try.โ
โDonโt try, do it.โ
โCan you tell him that for me?โ
โWhy me!?โ
โPlease?โ why does he look so desperate? โPlease tell him sorry, and it is not his fault so he needs to stop blaming himself for what happened.โ
โ..youโre not expecting me to say that to him directly, arenโt you?โ thatโs way TOO embarrassing!!
โI know you can do it.โ this guy..!
โFine, fine!! I will tell him.โ you sighed, โAnyways, I have to go now.โ
You waved at him and ran towards the door. You hold the doorknob and look at Tomo for one last time before you leave.
โSee you later?โ
He waved at you. โYep. See ya. Goodluck on your first day!โ
โWow your bento looks expensiveโฆ did you make this?โ Thoma asked while looking at your lunch. Itโs lunch time, and you already made some friends on your first day. Youโre currently at the cafeteria.
โI am not in good terms with the kitchen, so my mom made this.โ you answered playfully and they laughed
โMy brother is also not a good cook so I understand where youโre going.โ Ayaka chuckled
โAyato may not be a good cook but heโs attractive and handsome so thatโll make up for it.โ Yoimiya said as she open her lunch box
โYou only care about the looks, this is why youโve never got a boyfriend.โ Kazuha said that earn a chuckle from all of you expect from Yoimiya.
โThat was so uncalled for!โ
You took your bag to get your milk carton. But you stopped when you saw the rubix inside. Shoot! I almost forgot! Tomo asked me to give this to Kazuha!!
โHey, Kazuha.โ
โHm?โ you only called out to Kazuha but all your friends were also looking at you. You pulled out the rubix from your bag and handed it to him.
โYour friend asked me to give this to you.โ
Everyone went silent when you finished talking. Hm?
Thoma and Ayaka looked at each other before turning their gaze to Kazuha. Yoimiya was silent, too. And Kazuhaโฆ
โKazuhaโฆ?โ
โ...where did you get this?โ he silently asked. His hand was shaking as he took the rubix from you. Youโre starting to feel uneasy. Whatโs with their reaction? Why do they look like they saw something they shouldnโt see?ย
โYour friendโฆ I mean, Tomo. He asked me to give you that.โ you answered quietly โAnd, uh, he said heโs sorry, and please stop blaming yourself for what happened because itโs not your fault..โ though i donโt have any idea about what happenedโฆ
Kazuha didnโt said anything. Heโs just staring at the cube in his hands. Then all of a sudden, you heard a quiet sob from your left.
Huh?
โYoimiya?โ you called out but she didnโt answer you. You saw that Ayaka was crying as well.
Waitโฆ okay, what the hell is going on??? Why are they crying over a single rubix cube?
โy/n..โ Kazuha called out your name and heโs also crying. The students from the other tables are starting to look at you. โThank youโฆ Thank you so much..โ
โYouโre.. welcome. But, why are you guys crying?โ
โThat rubix cube is Tomoโs birthday present to him.โ Thoma said with a sad smile. โBut.. y/n, I donโt know why, or how you manage to talk to him and give the rubix back to Kazuha, but thank you.โ
โEh?โ wait.. hold on. โWhy are you thanking me? I just did Tomo a favor. And what do you mean how did I manage to talk to him? Iโm starting to get confused.โ and a bad feeling..
Thoma bit his lip before answering. And you swear, you feel like your world has turned upside down when you hear the next words from him.
โTomo.. he died because of a fire accident last year.โ
