Egyptian Woman
I don't even remember the last time my heart beat that fast. It might've been the first time we met at, ironically, the same store several years ago. I've replayed this moment in my head so many times that I knew exactly how it would go, when it imminently would... I was going to share my HEART with you! I was going to tell you how sorry I was, for everything. I wanted to explain how the voices that influenced me to think, speak, and behave in such a way all of those years were not, in fact, ME. I didn't even know 'me'. I sought after my identity in all of the wrong places, totally oblivious to my identity as a SON. I wanted to share what I had found- how my entire life had changed in just one single moment of surrender. The lies that I have always believed about myself, about others, about God, about the world, were banished instantly in that single moment. My heart and mind were supernaturally transformed in an instant! I will die for what I've found, and I have been called to tell the world. And believe me; tell the world, I will. Please know my heart, here. My only motive in every situation on earth, is to make things as right as possible. This season is entirely devoted to my relationship with God and fulfilling His purpose for my life. However, it gives my heart great trouble to know that out there, somewhere, is hurt because of my OWN immature, selfish actions. It really breaks my heart that there's a possibility of someone carrying a burden that they weren't meant to carry. And since it's my fault, I just needed to say this. I am so sorry. I really love you from the very bottom of my heart. But all I could seem to muster up on the spot, was a 'hey'.
