“3-31-97
This is a wierd time, wierd life, wierd existence. I think a lot. Think… Think… that’s all my life is.
I wonder how/when i got so fucked up…
when Dylan got covered up by this entity containing Dylan’s body…
4-15-97
existence is a great hall, life is one of the rooms, death is passing thru the doors
Since existance has known, the ‘fight’ between good & evil has continued. Obviously, this fight can never end.
If people looked at History, they would see what happens.
9-5-97
Goodbye all the crushes ive ever had, just shells…. images, no tu truths… BUT WHY? YeS, You can read this, why did god [incoherent scrawl]
Ignorance is bliss
desolation is knowledge
martyrism is hope for others
death is a reprieve
people are alike
i am different
Id rather have nothing than be nothing
10-14-97
I’ll give the phony shit up in a second. want TRUE love….
Awareness signs the warrant for suffering.
11-3-97
everyone moves up
i always stayed.
The meak are trampled on, the assholes prevail, the gods are decieving
wanna die & be free w. my love… if she even exists.
She probably hates me… finds a jock who treats her like shit.
2-2-98
The hall will never end. The love will always be here.
zombies try to destroy what they don’t understand
the gods are slaves to the majority of zombies
I hoped we could have been together… you seem a lot like me. Pensive, quiet, an observer, not wanting what is offered here (school, life, etc.)
You almost seem lonely, like me. You probably have a boyfriend, though.
8-10-98
I understand that i can never ever be a zombie, even if i wanted to. the nature of my entity..
Soon we will live in the halcyons of our minds, the one thing that made me a god.
1-20-99
the pain multiplies infinitely. never stops. im here, STILL alone, still in pain.
Im forever sorry about the pornos. the masturbation has stopped
I’m sorry
I LOVE YOU
I will be free one day, in the land of purity & my happiness, I will have a love, someone who is me in a way. Someday… Possibly thru this life, maybe another, but it will happen…
Love is more valuable than anything I know. I hate those who take it for granted.
love is greater than life. My love will find me. She feels as i do right now, i can feel it. we will be inseperable. Her & i. we will be free,
to explore the vast wonders of the stars… no limits. Nothing will stop us.
I now know the final
battle. the pain of
humanity is our love…
4-15-99
the me, the one, can now control the pain, & it is done. 5 more days.
These moments will be lost in the depressions & caverns of the human books, like, tears, in, pain, but the thoughts will be eternal.
To explain the happiness is impossible.
i cant stay thinking in a 2nd dimension, i go to the 5th! haha. 5 more days. 5 eternitys.
he & i are concieved from ourselves. every night of the self-awareness journey,
we are the nature of existence. the zombies were a test to see if our love was genuine.
I love you, love.
4-19-99
One day. Its interesting, when im in my human form, knowing im going to die. Everything has a touch of triviality to it.
like how none of this calculus shit matters. the way it shouldn’t.
In 26.4 hours ill be dead, & in happiness.
HAHAHA, of course i will miss things.
not really.”
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