So here's the skivey. I'm so glad I decided to chance my eating, lose weight, and take better care of myself, because let me tell yah. The shit that has developed with my 70 lbs weight gain I'm SO over. First, of all, let me say there is nothing wrong with being a plus sized woman. If that is the skin you are most comfortable with, then by all means, but so many things have developed as a result of being being this size. Shit I never thought about until it started to become a HUGE problem. I now have to put deodorant in places I never thought I would ever have to. Like, under my boobs and in my crotch area because swearing is real and the smells are so unpleasant. As a matter of fact, from all the sweating, my under boob area itches like crazy now. I'm so serious. I remember being at work trying to discreetly scratch the hell out of that area with a Kleenex. There was ZERO relief and it just kept coming back. I would even leave Kleenex under there to absorb some of the sweat, praying that it helps. I even resulted to one time consciously lifting the girls up to get some air there because it became unbearable!!! Understanding that my boobs defy all laws and the last time I checked, I was a double G, sweat happens, but never this bad. Then I got in the shower and noticed some other shit. I now sweat EVERYWHERE. Even your butt crack. It's so awful! Lol. I literally scrub a new skin every time I get into the shower now. Also because of the weight gain, my crotch sweats as well and I even started developing boils on a normal basis in that area. Like wtf? I used to get them like, once a couple of months, and it was only one. Now I look, and there's like one healing, and three others. Like why would I want anyone to touch me. That's an embarrassing thought. Never had I had backne, but I actually saw a damn zit on the back of my shoulder blade. I even have more breakouts now as well. But, unfortunately it's not just the outward appearance that changes, but also the inside. Your mental about yourself changes. You can't fit anything. Hate shopping. And even moving is a damn chore. Not to mention, with poor eating, my breath smelled different. My vagina smelled different. Let's just say, my flora is ALL off and yeast infections and bacteria vaginosis has become a normal. This is the result of being unhealthy for soooo long. Physically and mentally you just feel like a hot mess. Which brings me to this. I went vegan a couple years ago, and within the first two weeks, all of those issues I'm naming became a unpleasant memory. Eating vegan really does ground you, especially when learning to listen to your body and make better choices. Even this morning I felt lighter, and the sweats at night I've become accustomed to didn't happen. I didn't feel drained when I awoke this morning. I felt energized. Alive. I'm and so excited to see how my body changes and the revamp I am currently embarking on because I miss me. The me I used to be. Tanii
