I never posted on here in a long time. I never thought I would lol. If you stumble onto this blog congrats. If you're a longtime stalker or follower than hi!
Idk what to sayyy.. This isn't my art style anymore. I mean I do Chibis sometimes but not that often.
Over the past years has honestly been hell with struggling to improve. And improve but I had ups and downs along the way. I'm not using Tumblr to post my art as much, but I am using Tumblr @angryenbyblog (I think, if I tagged the wrong person then I'm sorry.. My other username does have Haacha in it tho!
I realized that half the cringey things I drew back then although some traced, though some weird proportion built my confidence, and I lost that confidence now due to handling so many situations at school and with people, but you guys helped me gain a bit of confidence to continue posting and helped me when I was a young artist with a weird dream. Still kind of have that dream as a 17 year old going on 18.
I'm not a trans ftm, I'm sorry for thinking I was for a few years. I realized that I was non binary when at the end of sophomore year when pronouns like she and her and he and him started to make me cringe. I thought it was another phase or a mistake to think it but it grew stronger, and I'm happy to say I'm happy as an enby instead of other things im not.
My relationships although some came to an end and it was expressed in Instagram I'm sure, I ask that there's no harrassment to have . I slowly grew from relationships ending, even in shitty ways and refuse to repeat the mistake I made when I started this Tumblr although I was close to make the mistake in junior year.
I learned I can't forgive everyone easily, they need to work for it hard to make me forgive and need to work hard for my friendship or to ask me out. I always let people slide into my life easily and when they hurt me I always act surprise. I never learned how to respect myself and stop it. I don't regret drawing people that I was in relationships with, since I know I can draw it better again realistically and I know I grew up from the "love bird/everything is perfect! ~ My prince charming! " Trope.
I'm open for reconciles for those who I have hurt, and those who hurt me. But realize if you hurt me recently that it's going to be hard for me to forgive and talk to you, but don't forget there's a chance I'll end up talking to you slowly and learning how to talk to you without trouble.
Again to friends please don't Harrass anyone, I don't want a complaint and I know I got hurt- it's sweet you guys care but honestly it makes things worse.
Thank you for supporting this Tumblr.
