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NAVY she/her | 20 | chicago | artist 24/7 of two truths and a lie

[navybluedell]

THIS IS : NAVYBLUEDELL ✱

NAVY IS: 20, chicagoland, she/her, queer, traveling/studying artist, amateur writer, hobby archivist & last but not least got a blogger heart

welcome to my blog! ❉

this here is a personal log of every fixation I’ve ever had in my digital life so be not afraid to take a plunge into the past — I post my art here too :^)

REPEATING THEMES ON THIS PAGE (THINGS I LIKE) : anything & everything 1970’s, bandom, CTA & Trains, art rock, The Velvet Underground, gangster movies/scorsese films, Al Pacino, Robert De Niro, Mean Streets, spreadsheets, David Bowie, renaissance/baroque/religious art, Andy Warhol, typography, sci-fi, film archives, album reviews, photography, TLSP, the colors teal, orange & brown & more I probably forgot

SOCIALS: airbuds • letterboxd • substack

❉ looking for me somewhere else? DM me and I’ll get back to you if we’re close! (if you’re weird about it it’s an auto-block on all platforms suuuucckkk it) thank you

DOORS CLOSING ✱

[babedylan]

[navybluedell]

last day of work before exam set up and then a whole week of nothing. see instead of being relieved that my first year of college is over I’m going to roll myself down into a pit of constant paranoia anxiety and general unhappiness until I am magically back in my fuckass American suburb so that I have something real to cry about

[navybluedell]

as much as I hate living with roommates it has been able to satiate & rationalize the small voice of paranoia because that noise I heard in the kitchen ??? Probably roommates 70% chance it’s roommates . but when I walk out of my room and realize I’m home alone all the damage that has been done is just having done a couple of hours of auto-repression from singing or dancing or playing music too loud. see that’s okay. when you’re alone and you hear a noise it’s The Killer & there’s nothing you can do to tell me it’s not

[bobdylanyaoi]

plans for the summer

JERK IT

WRITE RPF

DRINK ALCOHOL

BLOG LIKE IVE NEVER BLOGGED BEFORE

job ?

LISTEN TO RECORDS

[navybluedell]

the only thing that can save me are the powers that be already laid out in the universe and simon & garfunkel

[navybluedell]

not even lying how I feel today to a T

[5bi5]

ROBERT DE NIRO as JOHNNY BOY CIVELLO and AMY ROBINSON as TERESA RONCHALI

MEAN STREETS (1973) dir. MARTIN SCORSESE

[aphid]

cale cale cale cale cale cale cale (gumby gumby gumby gumby gumby)

[arrodete]

i'm not the one you want, babe / i'll only let you down

mean streets (1973) dir. martin scorsese bob dylan — it ain't me

[theflashbackculture]

[lesbiancabdriver]

[navybluedell]

I love curtis mayfield and yes I miss my city

[hphatecraft]

The problem with long term isolation is you become insane and weird and unpalatable and unrelatable and it's seemingly impossible to ever forge meaningful connections with people ever again

[navybluedell]

might be having an original experience right now as I lie on my bed with katy lied playing on my pink jbl speaker drowning out the voice of an ex-friend In The Other Room whom I had a very close relationship with 3 months ago that fizzled out suddenly and replaced me with the same people we would shit on first semester. people grow but I feel like Clifford’s in my kitchen

[navybluedell]

catching feelings for a man after accepting fluidity in my sexuality (I’ve identified as a lesbian all my life) genuinely feels like this

im going to bury this deep inside me it’s Disgusting

[navybluedell]

it went away

[navybluedell]

god hated me so much he made me in a lou reed silicone mold (I’m missing my toxic dynamic ex-long term creative partner and often very often homoerotic long distance best friend that I cut off a year ago) ((people only seem to take note of me when I’m sardonic and sarcastic even though it hurts me very often)) (((I’m autistic))) ((((I’m not medicated and one inconvenience away from making it everyone’s problem))))