07/03/2026
i need to get my voice back

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@ndasmupeang
07/03/2026
i need to get my voice back
People lie, bruh. That’s just the default — you assume it about everyone.
At this point, we’ve lived long enough to understand that. Nothing they say really gets to us anymore, whatever bullshit they come up with blablablaahh!
It’s just.. so irritating when they think we actually buy it.
one of the best escapes, fo sure
People don’t really cancel on you — they cancel the version of themselves they pretended to be.
Family, is just .. it's fucking bullshit. Blood, you know ? it just.. uh, idk.. it's just not thicker than watter. I think it's, uh.. snake oil that is. you know ? it's not real. it.. it's just kinda given to you, you know ? There's no choice. There's no consultation. Just, "This woman is your mom. This guy is your dad." They fuck. You're here. "Now just deal with it," you know ? And maybe there's another stranger in the house. That's a sibling. and that's... that's your family. People you're trapped in a box with, you know ? And you gotta fuckin' love that other kid 'cause he came out of the same set of legs you did, even though he'd backstab you any chance he gets or... maybe there's an uncle that you've met once and you're supposed to.. that.. you know.. he's supposed to be more important than the fucking guy who runs a coffee shop that remembers you orders every time? I don't know. Just.. Fuck that. Fuck blood. Uh.. Bond... I think, you know, bond is family. Yeah? Bond.. bond is who you pick. And they would.. they would be people that get you to love the world a lot better just 'cause they're in it, you know? And they.. they would love the world better 'cause you're in it and.. that you exist. And you show up for each other. If it matters, if it doesn't matter, its not outta duty. You're just.. there for each other 'cause you have a.. you'd have a thing, you know? You'd wanna keep doing that thing... together. You know, they would get the good days. They'd get the holidays, the Thanksgivings, and the Christmases, and the.. and the birthdays. And i think everybody deserves to find those people.
Defensive
Is it true being defensive means being on the wrong side (?)
Dating in 20**
Men provide gold Women provide availability
DIGITAL BANK
Remember my post about Xendit ? Well i am healed. Now I'm working on some digital bank stuff. Actually, took some time to be hired here (yea HR process was kinda weird) -- long story short.. I've been working here for around half year. So far so gawddd. My manager is treating everyone fairly. Almost all of my coworkers are clowning around, occasionally, like I do. Now's the time - everyone has been waiting for: PERFORMANCE REVIEW!!! yey (or not yey lol) I feel like i did nothing xd And the fact that I'm feeling that coz that's the truth. There was a field to fill "My Strength", you know what, i put: the ability to say "no" xd xd xd xd xd
Well in some cases it is actually a "strength". But in my case i just don't like to work hahahaa fk my life. Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy... I need to pay(or report?) my taxes. It's due is in 3 weeks. bhay
It's weird how people love feeding other's insecurities
Xendit
22th of january 2024 - it just happened. 25% of us got laid off. It was the second round (1st one was 2021)
This was actually the first time from a long time that i encountered unemployment hehehe. What did i feel? relieved. What did i plan? none. Did i still want to play around startups? none sure. maybe yes. they pay well. Do i need those kind of salary? yes and no. to be bluntly honest i wanted to get out from IT area (yeeeeee FnB i want i want!) These time around i met some random people, from soccer, pubs, apps. And yes i was working out alot (hit my -4kg in 2 months lol) I couldnt say if it was stress-ness or i was just succeeded :) But anyway, i feel "lighter" now hehe. Oh i met this random guy also. this guy talk shits alot. "lets drink" "lets sing" "lets meet" "lets share this that" fuck you dude (lol fcking intermezzo) By today (its been 2 months), finally i changed my linked status to open-to-work. Kinda feel empty not doing work-related-day-to-day stuff for quite some times. Wish me luck boisss girlsss <3
Life
Just wait. Once i realize that i can't control the things outside of my control. And i can only control how i respond to those things, i'll be back!
I am me
If i have to describe what kind of person i am, me. Unconfident and confident at the same time. Ugly but beautiful. Total evil and super kind. Like being controlled and love controlling things. Love being alone but don’t wanna left alone. Super lazy but ... no but.
Getting Bored
Of my most favorite game.
Of my favorite sports.
Of my job.
Of me.
2019
Have you ever feel like everyone you used to be so close with, slowly dissapear. And you got no power even to tell them that you ve missed them so bad, because you are very happy and sad at the same time, like .. Im happy ( i swear to God, i am ) they have someone or something important they looked for, more than my friendship-feel-ness, but, i miss them.
Selamat Natal.
Once again i declined 50% coz i think they are no better
Evan