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This is not my bathroom <3

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He’s died

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I was at the lab from 9:30 to 9:30 what the fuck . My experiment worked tho so I guess it’s okay. I also had this rlly good short rib don and this heavily discounted pearl milk tea. Pictured is the piece of plastic I found in said milk tea but I don’t think I’m gonna complain bc well the rest of it was fine 🤷🏻‍♀️ and it was pretty solid tea

Also pictured is the sunset. Very cool, Yue.

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Huhuhu had a long day today but my lab mates were fun to be around so I didn’t mind. Started watching death note and it’s...it’s fine. Light is probably the most insufferable character ever created but I like Ryuk.

New botw trailer dropped which means I will be preordering an 80 dollar game in the future with absolutely no regrets. It also means I’ll have to actually defeat ganon now.

Still talking to that guy, which is a surprise to me. Might go nowhere because I’m a horrible texter and trying to figure out if I’m attracted to him or could be attracted to him is a trip. I guess it doesn’t help that he’s two years younger than me 😔😔😔 it isn’t the most extreme but it’s definitely weird when my previous two relationships/situationships were with dudes that were 5 and 6 years older than me

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Not to be dramatic and a bitch but it is kind of a relief to be rid of someone who hurt you and can’t even own up to the fact that they hurt you or they refuse to sincerely make amends for it. The anger though is something I gotta work on being rid of because it’s just poisonous for the soul.

Anyway besides that I am so relieved that things might b finally slowing down but then I always say that like I always say I gotta get thru this week and then what shdbdbb

Started talking to this guy to see if I could feel anything and he says he thinks my birth chart is cool and that he loves my sun and rising combo which . I suppose I am not a les bean after all

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I had such a productive day today like I cleaned my room and I’m like . halfway? Through it all which is a miracle because I haven’t cleaned it since before my mom uh took her nap so it was a loooot to work through. However I totally did it for the wrong reasons bc I’m procrastinating on my proposal and poster plus I realized that if I’m going to even attempt a hot girl summer I can’t have my room looking like shit. I will however be framing and hanging my Loona poster so.... wonder how that’ll work out

The album Rowan sent me because she’s an angel but not the freaky six eyed ones and the bubble tea was actually my brothers but it was a lot prettier than my peach teaffogato T.T

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This is such a bad week for me because my period is coming. She is coming and she is making me feel like shit. Napped today and woke up at a reasonable time which is unusual but I haven’t been able to sleep for more than 4 hours at a time recently and it’s like 🥴🥴 please let me rest.

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Nothing 2 say today. It’s too hot to think plus I spent five fucking hours!! doing cell culture I’m so sick. Don’t know when I’ll be coming back for realsies but... been rlly enjoying working on [redacted] surprisingly

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Didn’t really do anything today so here’s some pics of fish. Also had beer again for the first time in a bit and . tasting a lil nasty. I used to be an IPA drinker too but I’m p sure if I had some rn I’d be like ... too bitter ✋🏻 being completely sober makes me less anxious though so ig until I can do it socially I will be refraining

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Hellooo my mom once told me that dragonflies are an omen for rain. Not sure if that’ll come true but I wouldn’t mind. Got ice cream with my best friend this evening and we had a real long talk abt pretty privilege and trash men we’d still sleep with just once. Saw a lot of caterpillars too.

Gonna eat chipotle now

7.5/10

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Feel like I’m missing sthn and I don’t know what,,

I got freezer burn on my left thumb and ring fingers from holding onto something from the -80 freezer for too long and it’s so annoying bc it both hurts and feels weirdly numb when I type on the phone now.

Ummmm Loona comeback teasers dropped and I still can’t believe miss Haseul is back 😭😭 not to mention Vivi’s photos looked so good. I wonder if they’re gonna drop the rest of 1/3’s photos next. To most people stan loona is a meme but to me it is a lifestyle ✋🏻

Today’s pictures are just clone #7 and this blog’s namesake (stream for functioning kidneys <3)

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Today’s experiments took so fucking long for no reasonnnn I literally spent over ten hours in the lab. Ugh this week is so tiring and I still have so much to do, I just want to sleep for a year.

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Went outside again and saw a bunch of animals for some reason. I looked really cute today and I felt...exceptionally single? Don’t know if it’s that time of the season where I download a dating app, speak to four people and then after 48 hours never return to said app. It’s like every time I realize I hate making small talk and every few months I go back anyway. Someone help.

Anyways I guess I was pretty productive today, finished an experiment plan, did my makeup, and actually ate like a meal and a half. Although I just . idk I feel like I don’t eat regularly at any time or when I do eat regularly I feel guilty for eating, which I guess is kind of a red flag but some days I just don’t move anyway so. Do I really need the cals? aha. jk that’s probably not how that works and i know I should get it together. Anyway I got a lot to do tomorrow but at least the lab will be empty and I’ll get to work in peace 😌

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I’m cheating because these photos r from yesterday but I was too busy today to like . take pictures of stuff. Spent two hours pipetting a qPCR plate and three plus hours passaging and counting like a billion flasks. I am so tired of science.

Updating Rookie is like a weekly shot of adrenaline because god, I never know whether my writing is good or not now and gauging the reactions is always fun <4

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Got like 12,000 steps in today which will probably do something sick like make me live 5 minutes longer or something idk

The lake was smelly for some reason but I saw a couple of turtles again (not pictured) and some geese and their goslings (also not pictured for fear of being mauled if I got too close to them).

I still don’t like iced coffee but I still keep buying it. I really should’ve just spent the money on boba. Or the BTS meal. Too bad I’m not the biggest fan of their chicken nuggets. I think my brother is keeping his BTS nugget box as a collectible.

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Bro not my brother getting the bts meal... I guess his blood is truly purple 😔💜

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Today was a lot better than yesterday but I am still so unexplainably sleepy. Of course, it could be that I slept for only 4 hours and was rudely awaken by my overweight cat tumbling over my sheets like Simone Biles at 3 am.

I also had a meeting in the morning that I was super anxious for for some reason but it went well and I survived (just barely). My transcript for undergrad was also finalized and my cGPA is reasonably sexy. I’m now on the train going home and I plan to nap and never be heard from against