necktareene

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[necktareene]

I miss you, I’m sorry

By necktareene

One-shot | Word Count: 2,631 | Tags: Break up, Angst

Harry wanted to ignore it, he really did, he wanted to pretend he hadn't even heard it. In fact, by November he was already assuming Louis clearly hated him, that he never wanted to see him again - they hadn’t talked since June - but then, no matter how convincing he tried to be, it always came down to the fact that it was Louis.

He was caramel soft hair in the morning and shy giggles hidden by tattooed fingers. He was vigorous crinkles by the eyes and hot cups of Yorkshire tea in the morning. He was domestic gestures and slow paced dates and long conversations and amazing sex and gentle hands and bright blue eyes and Harry missed him so, so, so much.

Or the one in which Harry and Louis broke up, but everything Harry knows leads him back to Louis.

Now available on ao3 :)

[necktareene]

hello, everyone 💌

I'm happy to announce that my fic "what you do can get you home" written for @secondtimesacharmfest is going to be posted on APRIL 15!

here's the second snippet, this time from chapter 3, and the corresponding moodboard!! :)

He tried to ignore the unsettling feeling that sank on his stomach as he noticed he didn't follow Harry’s account.

It didn't really prove anything – he didn't really care about social media that much – but seeing it just made him realise how much they had grown apart: Louis knew he couldn't find Harry on his Instagram's following list, but he also wouldn't find him on his contacts' list, on a recent email he had sent or on a groupchat with dozens of people. Their link in the present was gone, despite all the memories of their past still playing on Louis’ head as a loop.

Still haunting him.

Louis could close the app. He could; he could do that and then have a beer with his bandmates and keep drinking until he forgot about it, give another show in two days and keep and then move on with his life until the present dilemma had turned into nothing but a fleeting moment he would soon forget about.

But the thing was… He couldn't really do that, could he? Because even if Louis got drunk, even if he was having the most spectacular night of his life, he’d still be thinking of Harry.

So maybe… he should follow him. Maybe, he should check the dates of Harry’s shows… and see when the next one was… and maybe, just maybe, he should buy a ticket for that show… and then… show up.

And the “maybe” turned into “obviously” too fast and now he had a few less quids but he felt more settled.

Because it was obvious this was what he was meant to do.

If Louis Tomlinson was meant to experience different universes, then he was also meant to find Harry Styles in every single one of them.

prompt 41: All This Time themed AU, where Louis was visited by the Ghosts of X-mas Eve on his 28th birthday, made him experience 3 different lives of 3 different Louis Tomlinsons (1st where Louis was the one who left the band first, 2nd where Louis became the pop sensation and not Harry, 3rd is where Louis lived a normal life) they gave him 1 wish, and its up to him to decide whether or not he'll like to live in the lives of those Louis Tomlinsons or will he just stick to his own life

[thetriangletattoo]

[necktareene]

So is it ok if I ask for an update? Did you ever message your future wife?

hii! of course!!

well, i ran through the situation with two more of my friends and the conclusion was the same sooo I did message her!

but things ended poorly 🙃 pretty much she talked to me like I was a child and she was this big wise and older parental figure, which I both don't need and found odd since she's literally only three years older than me - and that kinda killed off my interest ngl because it reflected the way she saw me and made me kinda uncomfortable? sooo we wrapped up the conversation and that was it. she did text me about taylor's new album and we talked a bit but yeah, I don't think that's going anywhere.

sooo to sum it all up: wedding's off ahah

have a great day!!! 💌 thanks for asking :)

[uhoh-but-yeah-alright]

I guarantee you have forgotten exactly how incredible it is when Louis Tomlinson sings Beautiful War unless you are currently listening to Louis Tomlinson sing Beautiful War

[notharrydots]

harrystyles: To the most inspiring people I know. Goodbye for now. Love On Tour forever.

[louisupdates]

Louis Tomlinson, FITFWT24: Sydney [2.2.2024] 📸 cto

[coucouatoi]

happy birthday to my favourite person! i can't wait to see what you do next 🤍

[dailytomlinson]

Louis on stage in Melbourne - 28.01

[hampsteadharry]

If you ain’t a Fisherman, you ain’t SHIT! 🧢

[eversincezourry]

baby boy turns 30 🫀🥰

[necktareene]

Also forgot to mention , its basically February so you have just 4 months if you plan to get married this year.

But am kinda curious what the other situation is about?

True so I better hurry up with the texting ahaha

Uhhh well like a few weeks ago I was writing a fic that involved a wedding and I created an account at a wedding planning website? Honestly I just wanted to look at venues and get some inspo but then in order to create an account you had to give soo much info like, what's your partner's name, what kind of venue you were looking for, how many people were invited, what would be your budget which, to be fair, would be normal info to give out if you were planning a wedding, but since I wasn't really doing it, it just meant I had to make up a bunch of shit that I wasn't even sure about because... guess what... I've never planned a wedding.

But well, I mentioned that in the AN and at the time I was slightly worried that people would think that I was actually engaged because I don't think I explained it really clearly that I was NOT engaged and when I saw your question at first I was slightly confused because I thought it was referencing to that and then I remembered the other post and yeah

Maybe I just need to stop talking about planning weddings ahaha

[necktareene]

It seems like yall connected. I would reach out to her. Maybe start with the brother thing or like if an artist yall like has a new single or something. IDK I'm really bad at starting conversations honestly. Blue and white color scheme is great. But seriously message her you'll never know unless you try.

ohh thanks anon! I think I will!

And I understand you, I'm awful at starting conversations as well, I usually just wait for the other person to text me buuut I think I will text her. Worst case scenario we exchange like three messages and that's it, and then I'll move on and fantasise about getting married to other people shsjsj

[necktareene]

How's your wedding planning going so far? Pick a color scheme yet?

The fact that this can be refering to two different situations tells me that perhaps I shouldn't joke so lightly that I'm engaged ahahah BUUUUUT if you were referring to one of my latest posts: the wedding planning is currently on hold, likely to never see the light of the day.

I'm going to explain the whole situation because why not? And maybe you can advise me on it.

(I swear that I have friends IRL. I just think they are all biased)

But well, STORY TIME:

The other day I did a workshop and I started to talk with a few people there because I was tipsy (they were giving free wine btw) and I like to meet people and I ended up talking to a girl - let's call her R - who was a few years older than me, but she was really really nice. We kinda started bonding because we both like Harry and we found out that we had been to the same concerts and overall we just seemed to have the same music taste??? Which is something that always gets me excited when meeting someone because I love to talk about music! But then, BESIDES THAT, she was also funny and pretty and we seemed to get along well so I wanted to ask for her Instagram (because at least where I live that's usually the social media you ask for when you meet someone new, since phone numbers are usually seen as something more private and Instagram is the only social media EVERYONE seems to have) when everyone was getting ready to leave but then I thought it would be awkward because I didn't really have a good reason to ask for her Instagram (besides the fact that I wanted to get to know her) so I didn't.

And pretty much at that point I was like: oh well, it is what it is, I'll never see her again, that's fine.

BUT THEN as I was saying goodbye to another person I had met, and we were exchanging numbers (because since I wasn't romantically interested in this person, I could act normal and not overthink everything), I looked around the room and R was already looking at me. AND THEN she came up to me and asked for MY Instagram (and she gave such a lame excuse to why she wanted it like djdjdjd she said she wanted it so she could ask her brother if he knew me? (because apparently he went to the same uni I go to but like......... he had already graduated when I got in so how would he know me.......)) and gave me hers and that was that.

And then, I thought about texting her and saying something super casual like "Any verdict on the brother's situation?" but then I had to study for an exam so I couldn't worry about starting a conversation with someone new and then by the time I was finished with my exam I had managed to convince myself that maybe she didn't want me to text her at all and maybe she just really wanted to show my pictures to her brother so. Yeah.

What would you do in my situation tho? Would you text her? What is your verdict?

Have a great day! 💌

And sorry if you genuinely wanted to know about colour schemes! Tbh, I never thought much about that, but I love a blue/white combo!

[necktareene]

yeah, I'm a regular person (i met someone today and I'm already planning our june wedding)

[necktareene]

hello, everyone 💌

here's a small snippet from chapter 2 of my fic 'what you do can get you home' written for @secondtimesacharmfest and the corresponding moodboard! :) to be posted somewhere in the spring 🍃

“You’re being paid to write a song, right?” Harry asked rhetorically. “Let’s do it, then.” Louis could tell he was not amused. His tone was challenging, almost as a warning that from now on he'd be testing his skills, his posture, over analysing everything that came out of Louis' mouth. It was hell. And, unfortunately, a behaviour he had been well accustomed to. Harry used to be like this every time he got mad over something and Louis couldn’t figure out exactly what he had done wrong: he would intently study him sternly and only retort every Louis' question with short, raw answers. “So, how do you usually do this?” Harry snapped Louis from his thoughts, preventing him from dwelling too much into those memories and he noticed right away that Harry had chosen to sit on the chair closest to him. Which was totally, completely, utterly fine. No problem. Nope. Not even when he noticed this Harry smelled exactly like before, a mix of the perfume he had been using since he was eighteen and the coconut oil he always applied after washing his hair. That was alright. All good. “I-” Louis started but immediately stopped himself. The truth was, he didn’t know. He had no idea how Todd Williams – the name was still bugging him – did it, but he had written a couple of songs with other people before, so it couldn’t be that different. Louis thought back to those times, to how they would usually get started. “Is there anything in particular you want to write about, any feeling you're trying to convey?” Harry seemed to think hard for a moment, his left hand scratching his chin more compulsively as the seconds passed, a reddish mark quickly forming. “How about that feeling you get when you meet your ex who broke up with you for no apparent reason, out of nowhere, after four years of not seeing them nor hearing from them, just because they now decided to boycott your career?”

prompt 41: All This Time themed AU, where Louis was visited by the Ghosts of X-mas Eve on his 28th birthday, made him experience 3 different lives of 3 different Louis Tomlinsons (1st where Louis was the one who left the band first, 2nd where Louis became the pop sensation and not Harry, 3rd is where Louis lived a normal life) they gave him 1 wish, and its up to him to decide whether or not he'll like to live in the lives of those Louis Tomlinsons or will he just stick to his own life

[dailytomlinson]

Louis at barricade in Jakarta - 24.01