Neddy

trying to not have an ED

[ned-f1anders]

currently trying to not think in a fucked up way for a while.

Hello. I used to be @ednosheeran and @/flashattackkilljoy but I had issues so I'm now back to ned. <3

15 fucking years old

pro's, f off spo = pro so if you reblog spo fuck off. cant beiieve this isnt a commonly agrred thing.

he/him pronouns

addicted to putting <3 at the end of every sentence <3

my ex wife (we're divorced now)

Stats under cut <3

(kg is rounded to nearest kg)

SW: 105kg / 16st 7

LW: 85kg / 13st 5

CW: 89.5kg / 14st 1 <yes I know I'm huge>

GW1: 86kg / 13st 7 (sims expansion pack)

GW2: 79kg / 12st 7

GW3: 73kg / 11st 7 (new binder)

GW4: 67kg / 10st 7 (£20 of graphic novels)

GW5: 60kg / 9st 7

GW6: 54kg / 8st 7 (if needed new binder)

GW7: 47kg / 7st 7

UGW: 41kg / 6st 7 (anything <3)

current rate: 0.25kg / 0.5lb a day

[ned-f1anders]

i think im gonna try and get better.

ngl im probably gonna be back in like a couple weeks, but i think its what i need to do. if i recover properly, i wont binge and gain like last time.

still hate my body but yeah. and my best mates still anorexic as fuck. gonna try tho ✌️

[ned-f1anders]

either my dysmorphia is REALLY bad or people are lying about their clothes size online.

[ned-f1anders]

tbh, life is a bit shit. i want a word with who ever fucking made this.

[ned-f1anders]

nah this anxiety is a bit shit ngl

[ned-f1anders]

my dads such a fake. he pretends hes openminded and kind but shouts at everyone when we're not perfect. other than my brother.

[ned-f1anders]

i think my therapist saw through me saying my ED is over.

[ned-f1anders]

im so sick of titkok edits that dont understand the songs. and most of the time theyre literally about someones trauma. nothings worse than shit about the moaning in destroya that doesnt understand destroya.

[jedetestemoi]

"tw for meanspo, this is just for me"

if it was "just for you" you'd write it in your notes app. you wouldn't fucking post it to tumblr where other people will read it. i'm calling out the bullshit.

[vomitdolled-deactivated20221020]

i don’t recognize my reflection as me and i think of it as just a body. just something i decorate. just something. not me.

[ned-f1anders]

I WANT NUGGEST SO BAD RN

[ned-f1anders]

spaghetti in space

[aletheyass]

i can't believe people used to straight up not tell their kids they were going to bleed from their vagina at some point like. one day you're 13 and you're pissing blood and you don't even know why and your mom is like yeas is normal

[ned-f1anders]

who fucking cares bro, my dad that never fucking listens? my mum that also doesnt listen? my brother who also doesnt listen? my other brother who obviously hates me? my fucking best friend thay doesnt listen to me? my therapist who thinks autism can be psycotherapied away? my mum that put my brothers need for sleep assistance before mine when i CLEARLY needed it first? my teachers? the local authority? no one fucking cares about you. if you starve yourself you could actually be worth caring about. people might FUCKING LISTEN to a pound away from death bitch dying in a hospital. might listen when he says he's a he. everyone cares when your dying.

[ned-f1anders]

my personality is just having ED the word innit.

[ned-f1anders]

my phobia: cis het females laughing.

[struggling-to-find-home]

"yOuR trAuMa mAde yOu sTroNger" no bitch it made me prone to disassociation and afraid of loud noises