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[needhelp2021]

Please help me become a woman again.

This is the hard for me but I can’t take this anymore.

My name was, and is again, Hailey.

I am a woman. And this is my story

This is me when I when I first met my girlfriend.

This is me a few years into our relationship. (she has me binding my breasts here)

I was raised in a strict religious environment and I’ve always been a tomboy and often had crushes on other girls. I had assumed this meant I was meant to be a man and when I told my parents this they reacted really badly and after some traumatic events I ended up running away.

I was living at a shelter for teens and the only people who weren’t homophobic were deeply into gender identity and transgenderism. There was a girl (she says she is nonbinary but she is definitely a girl) whom I fell for immediately (I believe this was due to her being the first person not to shun me) and i ended up moving in with her. Very early into the relationship however she told me I was a transman and basically i was straight. i believed her because I felt it made sense with everything I was taught about strict gender roles and my same-sex desires.

This was going fine for awhile until she started to tell me I needed to make some changes, she started to supply me with testosterone she had got from her other ‘queer’ friends. I didn’t really want to but she would get angry with me if I said anything so I thought fine, I mean i am a  straight guy but then the effects came. My body became hairy, my boobs become saggy and I have never felt so awful.

After we moved I met more gay people and I learned that I still could be a woman and love woman, and dress how I want and I didn’t have to be a man so I could be straight. I told her I wanted to stop and I don’t want to be graphic but afterward I felt so disgusted with my body. I stopped bringing it up because of how badly she reacts but I want out.

I was able to meet some women who would let me stay with them despite the mistakes I made but I need some help getting out, I am not taking anything with me (although very little of it is mine) because I plan on leaving when she is not there which is rare because she lives of her friends.

But because of all this I don’t know how I’ll be a woman again, I don’t have any clothes plus I don’t even look much like one anymore. I don’t know if I’ll need surgery or hormones to make me look normal again.

I don’t want to suffer for mistakes I made when I was a teen for the rest of my life.

Please help. I want my life back.

my venmo

tl;dr: I’m in a abusive relationship with a woman who has coerced me into being transgender. I don’t want to put up with it anymore and I want to be a normal lesbian but I don’t have anything to help me.

[needhelp2021]

thank you everyone for the reblogs, I thank you all so much for helping spread this. I added cash app in case that helps! https://cash.app/$helphaileylgb

[elonex]

Whenever a man makes horrifically misogynistic claims, I ALWAYS wait before responding, just to see if other good men will correct him.

Surprise! They never do.

But the moment I take it upon myself to correct the misogynistic piece of shit, all the good men appear to tell me "not all men are like that".

[the-haunted-uterus]

It’s almost as if all men benefit from some men being pieces of shit, and they don’t want to topple the hierarchy of power they have set up because the harassment and terrorization of women enables the lamest of men to have their own personal woman to abuse, just as long as they aren’t as bad as the most abusive, shitty men.

[blackboard-monitor]

uquiz options that should be mandatory

this is too much text i didn’t read any of these

i’m not american

i’ve never heard of any of these things

i don’t main anything in mario kart, i’ve played it maybe one time ever

i’m older than 16

i don’t recognise any of these people

[infintywhore]

[todaysbird]

ATTENTION there are hummingbird species called pufflegs and they are all wearing very silly pants and that’s their defining trait

[roseskiies]

isn’t it sad that the natural state of women is hairy, hairy legs, hairy pits, hairy arms, hairy vulvas, hairy brows, and at one point that was normal and accepted but now we live in a society where women in their natural states is so disgusting that we can’t even stand seeing it on ourselves

[twofacedbitchesneverlie]

[ohevoyev]

the messenger: the story of joan of arc (1999) / anne llewellyn barstow, ‘joan of arc and female mysticism’ / saint joan, george bernard shaw / the passion of joan of arc (1928) / anne sexton, consorting with angels / angela barrett, joan of arc, (1998) / excerpt from the trial of joan of arc / saint joan (2018 production), starring condola rashad

[whitepeopletwitter]

[deaddruid]

there is really nothing "artistic" about putting foundation on your face to even out your skin tone, concealer under your eyes to hide your natural colouring, black gunk on your eyelashes to make them look longer, etc. and you cannot convince me there is anything creative about trying to make yourself look the exact same as anyone else. if you want to put bright red glitter on your eyelids that's your business but we all know that very few people are doing extravagant makeup looks on a daily basis. the vast majority of makeup is about ridding yourself of all imperfections and looking the same as everyone else, often at the expense of your skin, eyes, money, and time.

makeup is fundamentally about preying on women's insecurities and convincing us that our natural faces are not good enough. why don't the vast majority of men want to participate in this fun artistic practice? why are their bare faces considered acceptable at formal events, job interviews, workplaces, auditions, etc.? there is something inherently demeaning about the fact that an entire sex is expected to paint their faces to be deemed societally acceptable. men have convinced us that our natural faces are too ugly and offensive to be seen without a coat of paint on. it is insulting, demeaning, and the furthest possible thing from empowering.

and the other thing is that wearing makeup does not exist in a vacuum. when you buy another $50 foundation, you are lining the pockets of men who have built careers of off women's insecurities. when you fret about "putting on your face" before leaving the house, your daughters, nieces, cousins, friends, etc. all see that and internalize those messages as well. they are learning that their faces are also too offensive to be seen in public, and they will in turn teach that message to the women in their lives.

the rise of social media is the biggest evidence of this: for the first time, girls as young as 10 and 11 are buying and wearing makeup to school. and not only are they wearing makeup, they are GOOD at makeup. they have barely hit puberty but they've internalized everything they see online that tells them their bare faces are not good enough.

i'm tired of pretending this isn't insulting. our looks are not the most important thing women have to offer.

[needhelp2021]

I’m so glad I didn’t go all the way with top surgery but man, I miss having bigger boobs...

No offense to B cups but they aren’t as fun...

[wumblr]

i hope they find a stupid tiny fish or something on mars and make mining illegal, just like the devil’s hole in california

these endangered bastards and their bathtub-sized habitat (just the surface shelf of a giant cave structure thanks) singlehandedly pissed off SO many businessmen lol

[speakandsmile-deactivated202311]

worst movie trope is when the weird girl gets a makeover. fuck you. fuck off. i hate you.

[unabashed-festival-bouquet]

I love how fruits are shaped like vaginas

[gynocrattweetsandreceipts]

[transphobichawks]

what’s with this mentality?

[tehmyaiida]

[cease2be]

it honestly seems like shes using this to cope with being objectified by men. like its obviously super uncomfortable to have men staring at her chest and we rarely feel safe doing something abt it so in her mind being able to call him gay is her way of internally embarrasing him (which…is homophobic lol) and denying that shes a woman and subject to oppression on a daily basis by men.

[needhelp2021]

very sad to see from a bright young girl...

[fidnru]

/x/ is based actually

[nocountryforlesbians]

this is like half of what catholicism is about