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I need to do better ...

April 2, 2024:

Weight: 154.2

Waist: 33

Lower belly: 37 1/2

Hip:42

Butt: 21

Bust: 36 1/2

L arm: 11 1/2

R arm: 11 1/2

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Yes ma'am!

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Body goals

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Body goals

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this mentality

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Yup...

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Real

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Just some more motivation

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Starting

So I've been doing fairly good with eating less but this week really kick starts even less good...I had a bagel this morning but that's all I wanna eat...I also had a hot chocolate (w water instead of milk) and ik it comes out to a total of 130 cal...so that's about it for today. Obviously just water for the rest of the day and if I get hungry or need energy I have bought myself some ensures...so I'll have one later on if need. I will also workout today...so I should be able to burn off the hot Chocolate and bagel later today..😃

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Rant

I literally feel so depressed...I feel like I wanna cry but also feel nothing. I'm getting irritated easily rn and...i just wanna sleep all the time. I just hate my skin and the way I look. I just hate myself so much and wish I could love myself but I can't and I find it so hard to believe I will ever be able to...but rn is the hardest...I just wish I was skinny..

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Need a body like this...

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Def needed this video

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3/27/24

I need to change...im over feeling and being ugly. Truly. I feel like it has ruined me for so long. I have been ugly and fat ever since I can remember...at least to me I feel like I have. Sometimes I look back at pictures and think maybe I didn't look that bad but it doesn't matter because that time was wasted with me feeling insecure. I actually do want to look pretty but it won't help if I don't feel confident in the moment. I am now 20...going to be 21 in april...I can't believe I have wasted so much of my life not being determined to changing the way I look buy by the end of the year...maybe sooner, I plan on looking completely different. I need to shock everyone, including myself. I will go hard and extreme bc I have wasted to much time. So it starts today...