Dying on the inside, Thriving on the outside.

nerdfighter, book lover, tv show watcher, fandom crazy girl thats been through a lot of shit but will bend time and space to put a smile on your face. I vent a lot, so be warned. youll see things on here you didnt want to know about me, sides of me youd never know where there.

[nerdlikefighter]

Sometimes. The universe tells you just how shitty things are....

I don't think things are going to get better.

I've never been one to see a future. But with the way the world is going.... I dont see stability in my future....

My backup plan isn't the worst plan.... but even it won't be easy......

But I think it might be the only plan...... we can't afford a good plan without putting us at risk. And with nothing else secure in my life I'm not putting us at risk.

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Shit. The brain is bad the past few days for no reason. Can't figure it out...

Can't get out of this slump...

Can't get out....

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We love little random breakdowns about the future....

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And 2023s second day brings to me..... broken work shoes... they've been glued for now... but ugh... they need replaced.....

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My Christmas wishes

A lawyer to contact us back

A new pair of work boots (my docs have holes in them)

A step forward in our future.

Replacing items to be made easy

Honestly.. for 2023 to just be... easier on me...

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Fuck... I got some more life out of my doc martens... but I don't think they will last much longer and they are one of my favorite pairs of shoes.....

Why do shoes have to be so costly

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Did losing one shoe cause me to have a breakdown....

Yes....

Thus fucking bullshit situation lost me ONE SHOE from each set my parents got me.....

I hate this... I hate this...

I don't know how I can keep doing this....

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I am... straight up not having a good time mentally...

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*is in hell*

me: it’s hot satan: it’s the heat

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Pessimistic people are more likely to be happy when they are wrong

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While I am thankful for my life. My friends and my family on this day.

The past month or so has been actual hell.

We lost a lot of possessions (valuable and sentimental) due to down right disrespect of our landlord (and yes we triedbto move but we can't right now:/) we are also attempting to get a lawyer.

But as we are finding out what needs replaced I'll be adding to my wishlist and yes i know its big already but making another one gives me the ick(if you know me irl and have something as well feel free to offer).

I HATE asking for help..... so much...

But this is a ridiculous situation (that I'm not comfy talking about quite yet...) I'm stressed, depressed and just... worn down

And send good vibes that once we sign this new lease it'll be our last with these people and that we will be able to move on to bigger and better living <3

Because we had to install a motion sensor just for me to feel safe while having to stay here (the hosuing/rental market is fucked yall)

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My work boots are falling apart.... thus is not what I needed right now....

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This is infact... too much for me to handle...

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Nothing is going well. Now today my shoes are breaking:/

If things could start looking up... or at least stop spiraling down... that would be great.....

I'm not sure how many more blows I can take....

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Recommendations for indoor security cameras with alerts that won't break the bank please?

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How have you been?

Currently, fucking awful.....

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I am in fact. Butter over too much bread.

I cant do this shit. Everything keeps falling apart. Nothing is working out. We might be screwed.

I don't see a way up from this:/