Nerdy Cute Hippo

A whale on its journay to become less of a whale. This blog is 90% personal post, I usually don't repost nice looking fitspo or food. I post ugly food, I post a lot of babble about my struggle to get rid of those annoying pounds. SW: 195lbs (around) GW:125lbs CW:to much

[nerdycutehippo]

Hello! Im a belgian student, 25 young woman. I deleted my two tumblr blogs recently but i still ove to check motiveweight haha. So i wanted to congratulate you on your progress in all aspects of life ( i read smthg about social anxiety). Well we also have similar stats and body type. I am also gaining non stop and i just have to wait before going to check my blood... Would you be interested if if we were weightloss buddies? I can give you my email if its easier? No idea how 'anon' works...

Hey!

Thank you and I would love to!

Just send me your email or any other communication thingy (skype?)

[nerdycutehippo]

1 month progress.

150lbs > 150lbs. Not kidding :)

[nolle1994]

What did you do? I think its amazing. But how did u accomplish this? Do you ate normal ans just exercised? And what kind of exercise world that be? I am really amazed a motivated by your picture!!!!

[nerdycutehippo]

I am lifting weights three times a week, 20min LISS everyday and 20min HIIT. on off days. I am eating at a deficit but not much. I am 5'7", ~150lbs and eating 1600cal on weight lifting days and 1500cal on off days. I don't do any fancy paelo, keto, low fat or I dunno what diet. I just eat my macros. I went from 1-2 meals a day (intermittent fasting) to 6 meals. And most importantly I took a personal trainer/nutrionist (online). Without her I would eat like 200-300cal less and had given up after 2 Weeks of no changes on the scale. Its really depressing to see no changes and I don't see my body change. I am still shocked looking at the progress pics. Its unbelievable motivating. People need to do progress pics.

[nerdycutehippo]

it's crazy how amazing someone can look with the right amount of exercise and eating right, even if the scales don't change. good luck on your journey and i know you'll get to where you want to be, i believe in you <3

Thank you so much :D

[nerdycutehippo]

You look great :) glad you're feeling good in your body

I don't but I will in a few month :)

[nerdycutehippo]

1 month progress.

150lbs > 150lbs. Not kidding :)

[nerdycutehippo]

Progress

I went from 64kg (141lbs) to 74kg (163lbs) within 3 months.

Yes +10kg (22lbs).

So great.

I gave myself a timeout for 1 month for writing my thesis, I wrote it within 1 month instead of 5 months and worked fulltime during it (with vacation). Counting calories, cooking and working out just didn't fit into my timeschedule, neither sleeping or anything else normal people do.

Payback are 5kg and a 3.7 for my thesis (1.0 is the best, 4.0 worst grade, in 0.3 steps, so yes, I screwed up). After the inital 5kg gain I got so depressed that I couldn't get myself to workout and.. comfort food obviously. So I added another 5kg. Then I started counting calories again and managed to stay on this fat weight. Sometime in the past few months my thyroid decided to mess up and my normal 100mg aren't enough anymore, so upping the dosis and hoping that I feel better soon. I did start feeling tired all the time and super moody, but I thought its because of my general negative mood, never suspected my thyroid.

I am so tired of this war with my weight, I just want to lose 10-20kg and stay like that, I am just so tired of it. Developing a eatingdisorder was a great move of my brain, makes losing weight so much easier... 

I am sure I would give up, if I didn't have my personal human diary. Poor guy is getting spammed with emotional bullshit, but he is the only motivation I have right now.

[nerdycutehippo]

Once upon a time I followed a lot of fitblr blogs.

Now I am back from a few months of break.. and my dashboard is full with sweets, cakes, fastfood and gifs of movies I don't get (whats up with all those disney stuff?)

Awesome... unfollowing everything might be a good idea..

[nerdycutehippo]

Unhealthy, nomnomnom, all mine!

Local pastry, kinda like cinnamon buns but not like it.

My only real addiction... I made them with stevia instead of sugar.. *cough* still white flour and butter.. buuuut... they are sooo good

[nerdycutehippo]

Pre-cooking ugly food :)

Last week was ball shaped this week its.. smashed balls.

Beef thingies and zucchini sweet potato fritters. I overestimated my food intake a bit and made a tiny bit to much.. like for a whole week instead of 3-4 days...

But finally done... omnomnom

[nerdycutehippo]

Social phobia beaten once again!

Been wanting two helix(es?) for years now and finally I did it!

Also my reward for hitting the 25kg lost mark :) 

Go me!

[nerdycutehippo]

Sometimes my brain annoys me quite well. I want to do something which includes paying someone for their services. So why am I nervous? I want to give someone money so I can assume they will be nice and helpful?

Writing it down doesn't make my brain understand. But I am tired if being limited by my fears. Seriously what the fuck. I prepared to much again, googled, read reviews and googled some more.

Stupid brain, stop being stupid. (And it does not help that we are aware that we have a monologe and that we adress us as we even though we should be one entity.)

[nerdycutehippo]

I am freeezzziiinnnnnnnnnggggggg. I wear already to much (fluffy socks ftw) and I am still freeeeezzzziiinnnggg. Its not stoppppiinnnngggg, I am freezzziinnnnggg for days now, why why why.

My heater hates me, On 0-4 its not doing anything, so I turned it on 5, went to the supermarket and came home to a room smelling like sth burning.. and the heater was cooking.. so I turned it down to 3.. and now its as cold as I am. Wahhhhhhh...

Someone fix my heater and my internal heater. Why am I freezing so much? Typing hurts because my hands are so freaking cold. Jesus I am tired of freezing.

[nerdycutehippo]

So how sad it is, to go to the cinema all by myself?

Going to watch Catching Fire in English in a few hours, alllooonneeeeeee.

I am torn between being super happy and feeling sad for myself.

But I really want to watch the movie in English :/ and I already missed a few movies I really wanted to see in the cinema. It is just so different to not-so-legally watching it online :( but I can't stand German dubbed movies anymore.

On top of it I am not feeling well, on sick leave and weird issue with my eyes and heavy headache (just hoping that pain killers kick in soon).

But its catching fire and I paid the ticket alreaddyyy... I so loved the book.

[nerdycutehippo]

Female gym problem:

Putting on makeup with shaking arms.

Lesson learned: Gym is full during lunch break :(

Lesson also learned: pendlay rows with 2 guys standing behind me is not a good idea.

[nerdycutehippo]

Precooking! Its balls week (that sounds weird). Beef and turkey mini burger? dunno what to call them in English. Omnomnom

[nerdycutehippo]

Calories are confusing and stupid.

So Myfitnesspal is seriously telling me to eat 1200cals a day. That is 250cal below my BMR and I think the system behind Myfitnesspal should know that.

I really don't understand why they suggest something like that.

Okay I have been eating my BMR, but the results weren't as expected so I am changing it. But 1200cal? Wah...

Upping to 1575cal which is 20% off my TDEE (kinda average of the 21938092380 different methods to calculate BMR/TDEE).

But myfitnesspal is telling me now, that I will lose 200g a week with that calories... that software... ;_;

1575 cal, 140g protein, 120g carbs, 60g fat. So much, sooo much.

Annnd I only had oats today.. 

[nerdycutehippo]

New macros

So after noticing that oats in the morning are the best thing in the world, I decided against low carb.

I assumed for 11 months that I HAVE to go low carb, but now I don't know why anymore (pre-diabetes). Just testing the higher carb load for a while, I really want to eat some stuff like whole grain pasta or piece of bread once a while. I am sick of non-chewable food.

And there are studies saying that low carbing is not needed for pre-diabetes. And I don't want to "diet", I want to find something that I can keep doing for the next 60 years.

I also up my calories, I have been eating my BMR for a while.. not sure why to be honest.. there are so many different sources out there to calculate the BMR. I get different values ranging from 900 to 1700 cals (900, seriously?) and decided to go with 1450 as BMR (average value). And with that trying to eat 1600cals. It just sounds to much.. but lets see, not that I lost a lot of weight with 1300-1400 cal diet.

Macros: 130g protein, 55g fat, 140g carbs. From 50g carbs up to 140g will be interesting. Already looking forward to my oats in the morning :D