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Mid 20's girl I post whatever I feel like :p No I do not sell anything and no I don't want to swap pics so please, don't ask. Not looking to start anything serious here either

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Probably going to disappear from here again soon. My mental health has been absolute hell recently (all year long actually) and once again seeing things here that gives me things to compare myself to has not helped in the slightest. I'm tired of feeling like garbage all the time because I don't fit a certain mold or ideal image. I'm not well liked enough for it to matter anyway. I'll still respond to some messages here and there because I will not pull the same bullshit that's happened to me of breaking any and all contact because I'm having a hard time, I just won't be posting or really interacting with other posts

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"Am I ever gonna be enough?" Or will I always just be inadequate? Always less than, the second choice, the back up. A fall back option. Never to truly be chosen, never truly wanted. Does anyone even actually like me? Or am I just easy and convenient? There's always someone else, someone better, someone more likeable, someone more desirable than I ever will be. It's just not fair how it always is me thats lacking something. Will I ever have it all? Will I ever be the first choice? I'm tired of being an after thought, someone you come to when no one else is available. I just want to know what it's like to be the first choice, to be liked, truly liked. To be wanted, desired, longed for, to be the favorite. But I'm not sure I ever will know what all that feels like. I think I'm condemned to just being the other one. The other option, the other girl, the fall back. Never enough. Always inadequate.

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I’ll be sad to see you go (even though you won’t really be gone) but you have to do what’s best for you. Sending love your way

You'll be one of the only ones feeling that way I think. I just have to eliminate this big source of comparison for a while, it's been bad lately. And other outside circumstances haven't helped either so I think I need a break but like I said I'll still respond here and there just won't be posting or interacting much

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A Letter to a Few

You took my spark, my confidence, the light from my eyes, and worst of all, you took my self worth. My comfort, my security, my ability to trust. I was better before you. At least I knew who I was then. You robbed me blind of everything that made me who I was. Now, I don't even know how to begin rebuilding myself. It all disappeared along with you.

Left me confused, alone, wondering and questioning. What happened? Did I do something? Was it always me? What's wrong with me? Was any of it ever real? Am I just not worth it?

There's still no answers to be found, not a single one. You'll never know just how much damage you did (not that you'd care anyway). I hope you found whatever it was you wanted, clearly it wasn't me. And just once, I wish you could see what you did. Feel what I felt. And understand just what you took from me.

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People suck, they can be cruel and selfish and greedy. BUT, regardless of what they might say, you are beautiful. You are perfect. You are insanely attractive. I absolutely adore your aesthetic. Your personality is so fantastic there is a reason I love following your blog. I just want more of you. I want to hear more of your thoughts and see more of the things that make you you. I’m sorry I’m so shy and nervous I have to use anon to say all this. I do hope this brightens your day as much as you constantly brighten mine.

I'm in no way perfect by any means. But I don't mind the anon message so please don't worry about that, I just appreciate the kind words whether anon or not :)

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I can’t believe anyone would you leave you on read!

Unfortunately, happens to me a lot. Still I'll never get used to it

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Do you ever add people off of tumblr?

Very, VERY rarely. Last couple times I've been ghosted or suddenly left that have really hurt me have been by people from here. I'm extremely cautious about doing so now

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It just occurred to me, I never shared my last crochet piece.... and I finished another today so here they are a fence post cactus and hanging money plant

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sleeping cuddled up with someone would heal me rn

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How and why does this always happen to me? I get lied to, led on, have my emotions played with, and then just left. Always. Again and again and again. I don't fucking understand what's wrong with me for this to keep happening all the time? People I think I've gotten close to, opened up to, cared about, and I thought cared about me all just fucking leave. Like I don't mean a damn thing, like I'm not worth a damn thing. Am I just not worth it? What is it about me that allows this to happen? I'm so lost I don't know what's wrong with me

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Cried my eyes out for hours. I really hate having a soft, sensitive heart sometimes 💔 still doesn't make any sense to me to just up and leave the way some people do

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There’s absolutely nothing wrong with you! It’s the people that are doing it to you that have something wrong with them

I don't really believe that honestly. There has to be something about me to have it keep happening over and over again

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How and why does this always happen to me? I get lied to, led on, have my emotions played with, and then just left. Always. Again and again and again. I don't fucking understand what's wrong with me for this to keep happening all the time? People I think I've gotten close to, opened up to, cared about, and I thought cared about me all just fucking leave. Like I don't mean a damn thing, like I'm not worth a damn thing. Am I just not worth it? What is it about me that allows this to happen? I'm so lost I don't know what's wrong with me

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Are you enjoying the show?

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T- 2 hours.... countdown is on

Get excited

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The lack of interaction you get is preposterous to me! I love all of your posts (pictures or not), just because I appreciate you

Thank you! I do wish I got more interaction at times for sure, just when you post things you really like and it goes mostly unnoticed it gets disheartening. But most of what I get is really supportive and positive so obviously I keep coming back anyway

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Soooo we weren't big fans of the pictures yesterday? (Not completely surprised) but I still think you should keep an eye out for what's coming tomorrow.... they're more uhh enticing if you will

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Didn’t know I needed to see you in overalls until you posted those, now I feel cheated it took so long

I'd never worn them before then so I didn't know how they'd look. Happy you like them though :)