365 Until our Wedding

1 year to lose weight, 1 year to build a house, 1 year to start our life together forever......  22.12.20

[newlife-newname]

Today was the first time I have ever went to the gym myself!

A small thing to most people but a huge achievement for me. I am quite hungry now though but I have already had my 3 meals for today so I won’t bother with anything more. My eating today went ok. I ate more today than I did yesterday, but I went to gym and burnt 250 cals so it all works out.

Today I have eaten;

Spicy potato cubes with sausage, egg and spicy tomato chutney

2x slices of gluten free toast with butter and raspberry jam

2x rice noodle nests with a yeast free stock cube

Drinks;

2x peppermint tea (with soy milk)

1 pint of Mi Wady and water

3x glasses of water

This morning I went and had a host of blood tests taken. I do not keep well and we are trying to get to the bottom of it. Possibly dehydrated, I really don’t drink enough so I am trying to make a consecutive effort to drink more. (I have a habit of forgetting about my tea and end up not drinking it.)

Stepped on the scales today and I am down to 15 stone so 3 pounds off. A long way to go but headed in the right direction. I have organised nothing else to do with the wedding or the house though I have a bridal appointment on the 29th, quite looking forward to that as I have viewed their dresses online and they are lovely! Tomorrow I plan to get the last of my Christmas presents - I have not been organised at all this year so last minute it is! Tired tonight so I am headed to bed as I want to get up in the morning and treat myself to a Christmas swim ! Bliss!  

Lots of Love xx

[newlife-newname]

This time next year I will be a married woman. That is insane.

The diet today has advanced… all right. I had Christmas dinner for lunch and a mouthful of pudding. I was delighted with myself that I was able to restrict it to a mouthful and, that I also didn’t eat any of his chocolate. Winning. I realise that it will take a long time to get down to my goal weight but I have decided that if I just think of each day as a small victory. 

If I get a pound off each week well that is 52 pounds and that is basically 4 stone. Not ideal but that will be better than nothing. Hopefully I can lose more. A man I spoke to in the gym said that I could lose 2.2 pounds a week, roughly about 10 pounds a month. Now that is something I could get behind.10 pounds a month, 120 pounds in a year, that’s 8 and a half stone off. I don’t have that much to lose so at least that is some encouragement. When I convert weight to pounds its nearly easier to think about. Currently I weigh 213 pounds, my goal weight is 140 pounds (73 pounds to lose) my ultimate goal weight is 120 pounds, 93 pounds to lose in a year… do-able? I’m not sure.

I find it incredibly difficult to get on the scales each day. I think that as my weight has climbed it has become worse. I feel worse about my self the more weight I put on and then I avoid looking at my weight all together. I just end up binging because I feel like I am fat anyway so what does it matter. I have binged for basically a year and a half and I have put on 7 stone. 

Reasons why I have put on weight:

I came off a lot of medication

I got 100% comfortable with my partner

I wanted to taste things again

Since around 2015 I started to drastically restrict my diet. I went off ALL sugar, ALL lactose and ALL gluten.  A food goal is to definitely get back to this again but its hard, hard, hard to kick the habit. I haven’t had milk since, though I have introduced a bit of cheese and yogurts occasionally.

This is my third day without chocolate. I have a love/hate relationship with the stuff. I am totally 100% addicted to it. I either eat ALLLLLLLL the chocolate or none of the chocolate. Previously I have quit chocolate twice before and it has been 3 years at a time. Hopefully I can stay off the stuff over Christmas it will help immensely, both to boost my moral and help my figure! 2020 could be the start of my next 3 years off it!

I’m thinking I might document some images of what it is that I am eating. More for my sake than for anyone else! I am no diet expert so I can’t exactly offer any advice, I really get lost in the whole macros thing but hopefully over the coming year I can find out more about it all. I have started logging food onto my fitness pal - Day 1. I find it hard to remember to log my food so hopefully I can try and get into the habit. A year of improvement, fingers crossed! 

No exercise today just took the dog for a wee walk. Step count today 8150, a bit low but considering I’ve had a banging headache and tired as anything, not too bad. Anyway more later, wish me luck for the scales in the morning!

Lots of Love xx

[newlife-newname]

365 DAYS UNTIL OUR WEDDING

21/12/19

I have just watched the most wonderful film on Netflix, it was called Julie and Julia. Originally a book written about french cooking by a woman Julia and then how another woman, Julie, followed this book for a year and learned to cook. I am not a cook but I have been inspired to write. How amazing would it be if I took this year to concentrate my efforts on something? To strive for something and through that learn how I am supposed to do things in order to achieve my goals.

My goals, (I have a few)

1. Lose weight 

2. Get fit

3. Do a pull up

4. Build a house 

…….and finally

5. Organise my wedding!

5 goals to achieve in a year.

By this time next year I will have completed my challenge and be writing to you the night before my wedding, ready to walk down the aisle as a Mrs!

So Starting with Number 1… 

Yesterday I started a little fitness journey in my local gym. I have paid for 6 months which allows me to use the gym, the swimming pool and also any classes that I may want to try. In order to get started I am going to attempt to go at least 3 or so times a week. I have a trainer who is setting me a few workouts and is also going to weigh and measure me every couple of weeks. I am determined to lose this weight. However I have started off badly having eaten a Christmas amount of chocolate. Shit. 

I weighed in at 15 stone 3 and I am hoping to get to 10 stone. Anything after that would be an absolute bonus. It works out at 7 pounds a month which is just under 1 pound a week so it is definitely do-able. I must remember to concentrate on 1 pound a week rather that freaking out about 5 stone to lose!

I realise that I am taking in issue 2 as well so I shall continue…

Number 2..

I am starting this Gym, walking and hopefully swimming. I went yesterday and worked out for an hour with this new trainer, who funnily enough turns out that she is my neighbour! The coincidences are high, but not when living in a small town. I have a dog which I got for my birthday in April. I absolutely love her, she is called Minnie Mouse. She is 10 months old and a staffy. She is white and dotty but she is completely deaf. Dear help her she is the best dog she just doesn’t hear. Anyway I tell you all this because I take her out for at least a half hour walk every day as I feel sorry for her cooped up in a caravan. She's a big girl in a small space a bit like my self!

Number 3 

So with all this working out hopefully I will slowly trudge towards my goal of a pull up. I like to get a head start on things so this is why I’m staring the week before Christmas instead of the 1st January lol.

(Can I use lol? Not sure but seen as this is my wee blog I will leave in it.)

Number 4 

Building a house. My current situation is, well unconventional to say the least. I live in a caravan beside half a house that a digger went through (long story more on that another time). We are applying for a replacement dwelling on the site and knocking the rest of that old one down. We have lived in the caravan since May and I did not think going into this that I would be spending a year in a caravan with my fiancé, 2 cats and a 3 stone deaf dog! It is absolute chaos!

Number 5 

Our Wedding. We booked the venue last week and it’s truly magical. Nothing else done so far but I have tried on at least 20 wedding dresses…. Still haven’t found the one! I think I need Randy FIenoli to pop out and ask me to say, ‘Yes to the dress!’ before I agree to anything! The Mr wants to wear a kilt, I’d prefer tweed. Who knows, still undecided on a lot. I want everything to be perfect so it's hard decisions with every small detail.

Hopefully you will be able to join me on this quest over the coming year as I document my journey into happily ever after. 

Lots of Love xx