Whatever you do, don’t think about what would have happened if Newt hadn’t regained his sanity when he was pushing the knife into Thomas’s chest.
Don’t think about how Newt could have very well stabbed his lover best friend in the heart and killed him.
Don’t think about how watching Thomas die would bring Newt back long enough for Minho to get there with the serum.
Don’t think about how Minho would have given Newt the serum no matter how much the sick boy refused it–because he’d killed Thomas and he needed to pay for that.
Don’t think about how Minho would have had to fight Newt to get him to take the serum.
Don’t think about how Minho would have had to watch Newt fall apart after the serum took hold and Newt realized that he killed Thomas and that he would have to live with it.
Don’t think about Newt in the safe haven, carving Thomas’s name onto that rock, and tossing his letter into the ocean.
Don’t think about Minho panicking when Newt would disappear, only to find Newt sobbing, broken, on the beach, wishing he could let the waves wash him away.
Don’t think about Newt killing Thomas and that being the reason he gets the serum and survives.
Don’t think about how, after the first few weeks, the serum stops working, because with Thomas dead, there is no cure. And don’t think about how Newt would notice the serum wearing off and the Flare getting worse and how he wouldn’t tell anyone.
And whatever you do, don’t think about how Minho would finally have to accept that Newt couldn’t be saved the day he disappeared into the forests of the safe haven, his veins pulsing with black blood and his eyes dark, as he wandered the island begging for Thomas to kill him–it’s what he deserved.
Don’t think about how the Flare would eat its way through Newt’s mind until Vince had no choice but to kill him, and how in his final moments, Newt would see Thomas’s name carved on that rock and he could only hope that Minho would add his just next to it.
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