niall horan

i'll drink 'til it's empty stay out 'til it's DEAD i'll wake up at midday and marry my bed i'll k i s s all the women get punched in the head you could offer the world, baby, but i'll take THIS instead. . fingertips putting on a SHOW got me now and i can't say "no" wanna be with Y O U all alone, take me home.

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hqmaia‌:

Maia pressed her hand to her forehead and widened her eyes. “I hadn’t thought about that!” Once he started rambling it was hard to keep up on a good day. With some liquor in her she was a goner. “I need an american translator for later on then, huh?” She nudged him playfully. “I wanted some cheese and crackers and some of those little chicken things people have.” Maia pointed out at another group and the snacks they had on their plates. “And more wine. Always more wine, you should know better than that Ni!” She’s put her empty glass down at some point and now didn’t have a clue where it was. Had she had lunch before the wedding she wouldn’t be such a tipsy mess right now. But the timezone and jetlag had messed her right up. “Oh god, I’m having the best time. Scotland is beautiful! The wedding was beautiful! I cried like a baby when they said their vows! I’ve been a mess all day. Did you have fun today?”

Niall knew that Maia had fallen victim to his awkward rambling before when he’d been a little embarrassed and tongue-tied, but his drunken rambling was a whole new species of nonsense. “We’ll find someone who knows the Irish accent later - maybe Saoirse herself can help us out if she’s not too drunk on her own,” he pointed out, expecting the bride to be having way too much fun to act as nonsense-translator but it was fun to imagine anyways. “Alright so chicken on crackers with some little cheese things,” he nodded, suddenly hungry at the mention of food. He leaned across the bartop, grabbing the attention of one of the guys and explaining what Maia was after, the thick Scottish accent coming in return before Niall turned back to Maia. “The snack stuff has been laid out on the other side, over there,” he gestured uselessly to the other side of the venue’s room over the heads of loads of other people. “So we’re gonna get our wine, then we can do over? It’s like - a buffet thing, I think,” he said, having not 100% caught that part of what the bartender was saying but that was more because of the noise around them than it was because of any miscommunication. “Yeah, it was lovely, they did a good job planning this one out. Weddings always are so infectiously happy but this one more than any other I’ve been to, I think,” he said, acting as casually as he could whilst he waited for their drinks to some through. “It was really good, yeah. Nice to be around the other lads, don’t get to see each other all that much and definitely not at the same time,” he explained. “And lovely to see you of course, lookin’ even more beautiful in person than you did on FaceTime,” he complimented a little shyly, thanking the man as he placed two glasses of wine in front of them. After the beer he’d had, Niall probably shouldn’t be mixing his drinks but fuck it.

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irwinashes‌:

I had a helluva night with Luke and his gal, so you can definitely say I had fun. Would have been better with you tagging along, though, Niall. Where ya been?

Yeah? What’d the three of ye get up to? You know I’d of loved to be there mate, honestly kind of lost my way a bit mentally. Been all over the place and when I am on the right track, I’m writing about my feelings and shite like that. Actually need a night out with the lads if you’re around LA way?

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barbpclvin‌:

So your heart has always been three sizes too small? That’s what it is right? It’s been so long since I actually saw that movie. As you should.

Mostly that part where he is trying on outfits and decides he has nothing to wear so he’s not going. That is me whenever I’m looking for an excuse not to leave my house. When Christmas rolls round again you should catch up, something about watching The Grinch in July doesn’t feel right. It might not even be legal.

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loutommo-x‌:

I’ll absolutely make sure that happens, I’m not gonna forget. You and Haz will have one hell of a job planning the stag, and I can’t fucking wait.

PM: Well that’s bad, but it’s not that bad… You’ve just gotta get back in there, just get back to being the top lad you are. Forever alone, come on, Ni, you’re the sweetest guy I’ve ever met. Just get back on the saddle, fly out to wherever she is, take her out for lunch, send her flowers, be the lovely lad you know you are.

Mate you’re gonna need some help to get through the stag. I’m gonna use my Irish powers of handling alcohol to be the only one standing at the end of the night - or at least that’s my plan.

PM: I wish it were that easy. I’m not all that great at stuff like that - I’m shy and terrified of looking like a tit. Fear of rejection is a thing. Good relationships gravitate towards you. I don’t know how you hold women down as long as you do. It’s at that point where I’m just glad I got writing material out of it. I don’t want to make her life more difficult because of my own regret, ya know?

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iMssg ↣ milk carton

Ari: You'll always have them, Niall. Just let me know what you're up to and I'll send them there.

Ari: Sounds like we're not too far off from being in the same shoes.

Ari: If you're old, I'm old, but.. I'll pretend to not be hurt over you falling for someone without telling me you were talking to them first and let you tell me who it is so I can help.

Niall: We're too alike, you and me.

Niall: It all happened so quickly, you know I'd of told you anything if it had been on my mind to.

Niall: But shit

Niall: It happened quick and I fucked it up quick and I don't think having a shot is gonna come back to me.

Niall: Nialloser is back kiddos

Niall: Niallegend is dead

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hqmaia‌:

“I need your help. The Scots have all started talking way too fast…. or maybe it’s that I’ve been drinking but either way I can’t understand a thing any of the bartenders or servers are saying. I’m just trying to get a snack and a drink!” Maia pouted at Niall about an hour into the reception. The party was absolutely stunning and the view of the lake as the sun started to go down really was something out of a fairytale. But Maia had a one track mind when it came to food and everyone knew not to let her get too hungry or else gremlin Maia came out. “Please be my translator and help me Nialler!” @niallhvrcn

“See, I’m gonna be talking a little too fast soon and then you’ll be askin’ people what I’m blabbing on about,” he teased, eased up already from the beer in his system and the all-round good mood of a wedding. “I can help you in the meantime, though. What snack are you thinking, and what drink can I get you?” He grinned in amusement at how people were struggling with the accents, amused at how he’d somehow managed to keep up despite how he hadn’t spent a whole lot of time around Scots in his time. “And even more importantly, are you having a good time?”

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kitharingtcn‌:

I’m more surprised we got so many nominations with how much backlash we received after the last season. But thanks mate, it’s all exciting that’s for damn sure. But what’s new in your life?

Yeah but when you have so much to live up to, you’re always gonna disappoint people. Just remember that for every bit of backlash you had ten people loving it and that’s why you got the nominations that you did. No award nominations for me, although it’s nine years since One Direction started tomorrow so feeling a bit emotional, not gonna lie mate.

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iMssg ↣ milk carton

Ari: I knew you were going to! Gave out all my good vibes the entire time, Ni.

Ari: Wait..

Ari: What are you talking about? /You/ fucked up? Impossible.

Niall: Your good vibes worked. Came all the way over and knocked the winning spirit into me or some shit

Niall: Liiike

Niall: Hey I'm Niall, old, and I don't know how to fuckin fall for someone completely without being an arse on the way down.

Niall: That kind of fuck up.

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kitharingtcn‌:

I can honestly say that I’m completely astounded by the nominations that Game of Thrones has received for the Emmy’s this year. Never thought I’d be up for Leading Actor in a drama series or that we’d have so many of our cast in Outstanding supporting actor in a drama series? I am blown away and I’m incredibly proud of my cast-mates. Who else has good news that they need to share. @hollywoodland-hqs

You guys deserve it man, you blew up the internet with how everyone was talking about the show. You deserve recognition for that. Plus, you’re all brilliant at what you do. So many actors in big shows kind of just exist in that show but you’re all gonna have massive careers. Big congrats.

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Disappearances & Apologies.

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hqmaia‌:

Maia nodded, agreeing that men in her life hadn’t done right by her. “I do deserve better than that and I want better than that. I want to matter to someone and feel like I’m something special in their life.” It was the first time she’d said the words out loud, she’d thought them but never really said them. “Niall you are incredible and you have so much to offer a woman. You’re so sweet and kind and funny! So so funny— My stomach would ache after we hung over before London. You’re the real deal and it kills me to think that you don’t see that are so afraid to mess it up that you hold yourself back.” Niall was perfect, she just wished her could see what she saw in him. “I wish you had. You’re not the only one who worries or who gets anxious. Let me tell you, I know I’m my own worst enemy and stress about things I don’t need to— but I think them out loud and share that worry so other people can help me work through it. “I wish I could have helped you work through it sooner.”

“I don’t know what I want— I’m trying to figure that out. I’m trying to forgive you both for disappearing— Though yours is far less extreme and easier to work through. I just— I don’t want to let anyone down. I don’t want anyone to get hurt… Including myself. I don’t know Niall— I don’t know what to do.” She sighed helplessly, genuinely unsure where to go from here. “I really care about you and I don’t want to lose you too.” Maia moved to pull her knees up to her chest, hugging them tightly. “Your mug isn’t ugly, don’t even start with me,” she chuckled softly. “Are you coming back to LA anytime soon? I think all of this might be easier to work through in person than over the phone.”

Niall was trying really hard at this point to make sure that Maia knew he was listening - understanding, hearing and respecting the way his actions made her feel and the way she was being so lovely almost made him feel worse as the disappointment he had with himself settled once more in the pit of his stomach. And now she was making him feel better? This wasn’t a surprise to Niall who’d come to be so enamoured with Maia’s caring and kind personality traits already, but it really did strike up a fondness within him that he’d wrestled with whilst they hadn’t been talking. “Reckon you’re onto something there, yeah. Don’t think anything can ever work with anyone if you’re not being yourself around ‘em. That’s the main ingredient isn’t it? Honesty,” he said softly, a small smile quirking in the corner of his lips before he looked down and tried to battle it down. Now wasn’t the time to get lost in the romance of everything he wanted to someday have. “I wish I could’ve been honest about how I was feeling too. Wish I’d of just picked up the phone and simply said ‘I’m a little paranoid that I’m calling too soon but I really want to hear your voice’ because.. that’s what I was feeling. And you deserved to know that then and not.. only now.”

Although he’d gone into the FaceTime pessimistic but had his hopes elevated when she’d picked up the call, they’d kind of fallen flat again when he’d known Noah was back around. Things weren’t simple in the first place but now they were distinctively complicated. When people wrong you, you don’t gotta worry about letting them down. Any idiot like meself who lets you down should be prepared to wait and do things by your timeline - your terms. Whatever you want from me, if anything, doesn’t have to be decided now.” He wanted to put a hand out on her arm, something simple where he could feel her skin on his and hopefully then she’d be able to comprehend just how much he meant what he was saying. “I’m obviously off to Sersh’s wedding, and then back to LA after that. I’ll see you at the wedding though, right? And if you still want to, we can try work things out in person the days before the wedding, if y’know when you’re gonna be flying in? Or after? It’d just be really nice to see you in person, Maia, it sounds a bit weird but - I’ve just missed being around you.” He admitted, hand half-cupping his own face as he leaned forwards. Trying to hide his embarrassment for being soft was useless when he had been soft the whole conversation regardless.

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loutommo-x‌:

I’m definitely not doing that for you. The day you get wed, I’ll run around wearing a leprechaun suit and sprinkling lucky charms all over Ireland. But I’m never wearing a dress again. That’s nice, that’s quite nice.

PM: Oh… Oh really? How come? Beyond repair is pretty far, mate. I thought I was there with Tay and I fought it back. What happened?

I’m making sure that’s a thing that’ll happen mate, I’m not gonna forget that ye know. Can imagine it right now, fuck luck of the Irish when I’ll be gettin’ myself some luck of the Louis.

PM: She came out back in June to watch me play Soccer Aid, hung out with me mam and everything, I was a major dickhead and ghosted. Not that it is an excuse but I sorta freaked myself out about it. Apologized but I dunno, I suck with romance and am doomed to be alone forever, mate.

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perriehq‌:

“I was like proud mother! They’re my babies. I mean I was buzzing when they done Wings – admittedly I was a tad gutted it wasn’t New Directions who performed it but I was still so flattered. Oh whatever Horan, I bet you still look as cute as a button.”

“Making it into Glee is the achievement no matter who sings it. I need to hear that version of Wings, it’s sick we both made it in the show. Now we can look down on all the newbies in the industry. Like.. Billie Eilish and Post Malone and all that lot - they can have some amazing achievements but they’ll never get to be on Glee. I’m always cute as a button, Perrie, and that’s just fact. It’s a cute zombie look. Those exist.”

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Drink like an Irishman.

It was lucky that Noah had reminded him of the name of the bar via text because it meant that Niall could type it into maps and find its location without admitting that he’d forgotten that information, too. It had been a while since he’d been out for some bevs with one of his mates like this for a catch-up, even longer since he’d done it with Noah considering the younger man’s ability to disappear lately and Niall was more than ready to tackle the guy into a headlock and demand that he buys all of the alcohol for the evening in return for Niall’s love and forgiveness. Not that it was that deep, of course, but Niall could try to be a melodramatic guy if it meant he wouldn’t have to get out of his seat for a few hours. With sleeves rolled up ready for the (not so) hard work that came with out-drinking any of his American friends, Niall entered the bar and found himself sending a loving text to the contact ‘CentiNoah’: i can’t see you have u shrunk since i last saw you?. Followed by: i’ll order you a drink, something pink n fruity with an umbrella in it :)

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text message 💬 — niall

noah: lucky sod? lucky sod? you're so fucking irish lol

noah: you're thinking of dublin's idiot.

noah: i take you to 1 irish bar and fucking forget the name smh.

noah: i'll be there in...lets say 20. see you soon.

niall: no shit centineo !

niall: wouldn't of been a good bar run if i remembered anything, dipshit

niall: sounds good, see you there!

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Disappearances & Apologies.

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hqmaia‌:

Maia nodded slowly, glad they could agree on one thing at least. They couldn’t pretend it was okay. She could grin like the bashful girl she’d been in the stands the day she cheered for him and got butterflies at the mere thought of running to him after the game and rewarding him with a kiss for a game well played. In some ways she wasn’t that girl anymore. She’d been let down by him and someone like Maia, who’d been hurt a few too many times before, didn’t let those walls back down easily. “You didn’t need to be scared of me, you didn’t do anything wrong. The trip was perfect— I just missed you and wanted to talk to you,” she said softly, confused by his ramblings for the first time. “I’m glad you could write again, I guess.” For a boy who thought so much about her while they were apart he sure had a funny way of showing it. She wondered if this was a musician thing and would have to ask Dove if Luke did this sort of thing too. “That was never going to be the case Niall! I loved spending time with you. I had more fun with you in those few weeks than I’d had in a long time. It was exactly what I needed and I was looking forward to spending the rest of the summer with you.” She paused as she shook her head, trying to process it all. “But then you did what every other guy in my life does. You disappeared! You let me down and I don’t know what to do with that. How am I supposed to know that it’s going to be different from now on? I trusted you and you— you pushed me away because you were afraid of me and how I made you felt.” The frown on her face said more than her words ever could. Maia’s life was beyond complicated right now and she wished there was some clarity to it. It felt like she was just moving through clouds of pain and reconciliation every where she went these days.

“Noah’s back,” she said plainly, not wanting to keep any secrets from him. He’d opened up to her and she owed it to him to do the same. “I don’t really know what his end game is here. And I don’t really know where my heads at in any of this either. You both show up with in days of each other trying to make things right and I’m trying my best to forgive and let things go but I’m overwhelmed and guarded and I don’t know how to give you both what you want.—— Hell I don’t even know what I want.” She signed and ran her hand through her hair. “I’m sure this isn’t how you saw this call going though. I’m sorry it’s all such a mess.”

Niall nodded as she spoke, because it all made sense. Anyone with half a braincell could agree that Maia was right, and it made Niall even more frustrated that he’d gotten in his own head the way that he had and, on top of that, it made everything more inexcusable. Communication was the base level of everything, and he hadn’t even managed to reach that milestone over the past month. “Every guy in your life disappearing is- it’s bullshit, Maia, you deserve better than that and I hate that I am a part of that. Fuckin’ hate it,” he said softly. “I never even got that far. Always movin’ too quickly with someone so it fucks up, moving too slowly so they move on. I think I just panicked because I was so desperate not to mess it up. And that made me mess it up more, God, I’m such an idiot,” he shook his head. “But none of that is excuses, y’know? I know it’s not. I should’ve not used me brain and just messaged you because I wanted to, called because I wanted to, and so on. Bloody idiot,” he muttered the last bit to himself, hating how every step to them getting to this place was orchestrated by him, and hating even more what a huge contrast this was to how amazing everything had been when they’d been in England together.

Niall nodded at the information that Noah was back, not sure what else to say. The silence washed over him for near twenty seconds before he spoke again. “Obviously m’not speaking on behalf of Noah but I think - forget what us idiots want. ‘Cos we fucked up. And I mean - yeah, speaking for myself, I know I fucked up. I gave up any right to expect things or to convince things to go my way. It okay to not know what you want but, I dunno, you have the right to take time to think,” he offered a little awkwardly. “Nah, you don’t have to apologize for anythin’, Maia. I’m not going to let you. I dunno what I expected from the call but you picked up and that’s.. shit, it’s more than I deserve and I know that. Thank you for lookin’ at me ugly mug and hearing me out. I’m real grateful for it.” Niall felt sort of like he was facing defeat, the knowledge that he’d messed up his chances and that Noah and Maia were speaking kind of shitting on his own efforts but that didn’t mean he no longer cared, or that she no longer made his insides feel like jelly from nerves in the best way.