This has been said before and I’ll say it again. I’ve never felt accepted by anyone in my life until you showed up. You used to think I’m being a cliche when I told you that I didn’t feel for someone like I felt for you, or when I told you I’ve never had a friendship like ours until I found you. Have you ever thought why? You were the one person who didn’t make me feel like a backup plan. No one before or after you took the time to genuinely care about things I feel. Having a bad day? You were there. Telling you about something I’m going through? You were there. And when I was scared that you’ll pull away like everybody else when I show you my darker sides? You were still there. Stronger than ever.
I was the “no it’s ok” and suffer in silence guy until you showed up. I used to mess up my sleep schedule far before you came along because every time I lie down and close my eyes, I couldn’t help but fantasise about someone holding me close and telling me they love me. And you did just that. For once in my life, even if it was for a short while, I felt safe and wanted. I owe you for that.
The other day, I was speaking to a friend and we somehow started speaking of finding love in the weirdest of circumstances and how we never know. I remember telling them how it’s once happened with me and they asked me if I’m speaking about you. I found myself telling them how I’ve never had a friend like you and how it wasn’t even the attraction that made me feel this way. “It was the acceptance” I said. It’s always been your acceptance and how kind you were with me despite me being someone hard to accept. Now I know you probably don’t think of me anymore, and furthermore probably hate me, but I deep down reminisce our time together and what you’ve given me.
