Eye Knee

Ambivert | Silent Writer | Goal Oriented | Educator | Jack of All Trade Master of None | Frustrated Lawyer | Welcome to my World 🌍

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Politics, Power, and the People Left Behind

Aren’t you tired of seeing the same script play out in the news over and over again?

Sometimes it feels like we’re being deceived right in front of our eyes by those who hold power. With so many accusations, scandals, and political dramas unfolding every day, it’s becoming harder to know who to believe and where the truth really lies.

Flood control projects that raise questions. Alleged corruption and anomalies in different government agencies. A president accused of drug use who refuses to undergo a hair follicle or drug test. A vice president facing impeachment proceedings. Senators clashing with one another some claiming to defend the truth, others fighting to protect political allies. Lawmakers losing their voices and positions for speaking out about what they believe is really happening within the government.

The political battles continue, but while those in power argue, ordinary citizens bear the burden. We are the ones who experience the consequences of failed projects, broken promises, rising costs, and endless uncertainty.

Perhaps the lesson in all of this is that we should never allow ourselves to become blind followers of any politician, party, or ideology. Instead, we must remain informed, ask difficult questions, verify facts, and hold every public servant accountable regardless of their name, position, or political affiliation. In the end, government positions are temporary, but the impact of their decisions on the people’s lives can last for generations.

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Living for Other People's Validation

Nasanay na ang karamihan sa atin na mabuhay base sa mga opinyon at expectations ng mga taong nasa paligid natin. Every move, every plan, and every decision in our lives, lagi nating kino-consider.

Minsan, hindi tayo makapagdesisyon para sa sarili natin dahil mas inuuna natin ang validation ng iba. We keep asking for opinions, approvals, and reassurance before making a choice. Natatakot tayo na baka kapag nagdesisyon tayo on our own, may masabi silang negative, may ma-judge sila, o baka isipin nilang mali ang ginawa natin.

And honestly, nakakapagod.

Nakakapagod na laging i-filter ang mga gusto mong gawin dahil sa takot sa sasabihin ng iba. Nakakapagod na i-adjust ang sarili mo para lang ma-meet ang expectations ng lahat. Nakakapagod na mabuhay ayon sa standards ng ibang tao habang unti-unting nawawala ang sarili mong boses.

The sad part is, this kind of mindset can affect our mental and emotional well-being. Overthinking becomes a habit. Self-doubt becomes normal. Minsan, kahit alam mo na kung ano talaga ang gusto mo, pinipigilan mo ang sarili mo dahil iniisip mo kung paano ito tatanggapin ng ibang tao.

Pero here's the truth: no matter what you do, people will always have something to say.

If you succeed, some people will criticize you. If you fail, some people will judge you. If you stay quiet, they will talk. If you speak up, they will still talk. So why not choose the path that makes you genuinely happy?

At the end of the day, ikaw ang haharap sa consequences ng mga decisions mo, hindi sila. You can listen to advice, but don't let other people hold the steering wheel of your life.

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People change

Nakakalungkot isipin na minsan, yung mga taong akala mong mananatiling pareho sa buhay mo ay unti-unti ring nagiging estranghero.

Siguro ganoon talaga ang panahon.

It teaches people.

It breaks people.

It changes people.

At wala namang masama roon.

Because change is inevitable.

Kailangan mong matutong sumabay, matutong mag-adjust, matutong lumago.

Pero sana…

habang binabago mo ang sarili mo,

huwag mong hayaang mawala ang kabutihan mo.

Huwag kang maging taong kailangan manakit para lang mapatunayan na nagbago ka na.

Huwag mong apakan ang iba para lang marating mo ang gusto mong marating.

Growth should never cost someone else’s peace.

At sa bawat bagong bersyon ng sarili mo,

sana maalala mo pa rin kung saan ka nagsimula.

Stay humble.

Some roots are meant to be remembered.

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Enjoying and treasuring my every days with kiddos!

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Do not rush your life.

But do not wait doing nothing.

It is true that when the time is right, things will happen.

But we must not also forget this:

the right time is made by us.

It will never be handed to us.

Marriages fail when rushed.

Businesses collapse when forced.

Success feels empty when earned before maturity.

Nothing meaningful arrives early.

But nothing arrives for the unprepared.

Growth happens quietly—

in the habits no one sees,

the sacrifices no one applauds,

the patience no one posts online.

So take your time.

Prepare and build yourself.

When it finally happens,

it will not be luck.

It will be because of your preparation

crdt to Atty. Auza

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Tapang pero Paninindigan?

Alam mo, kung hindi ka na rin naman masaya sa isang tao, bakit mo pa siya kine-keep? Ano ba talaga ang kinatatakutan mo?

You have the power to choose. You have the right to walk away. Pero bakit hindi mo magawa?

Takot ka ba na ma-judge ng ibang tao? Takot ka ba sa future na hinihintay ka kapag wala na siya? O takot ka lang sa thought na baka hindi mo kayanin kapag wala na siya o sila sa buhay mo?

Yes, you have a lot of reasons. Pero deep inside, you know the truth: hindi ka na masaya.

Kung masaya ka pa, kaya mo bang magsalita ng masasakit na salita? Kung buo ka pa, bibitaw ka ba ng words na alam mong makakasira?

Being brave doesn’t mean saying everything. Sometimes, being brave means knowing when to let go quietly, clearly, and with respect.

Kung totoong matapang ka, kaya mong magdesisyon para sa sarili mo. You can stand on your own feet without seeking validation from others.

Kasi ang totoo, you’re making things more complicated than they need to be. Ang nasira, mas lalong hindi maaayos kung hindi mo alam kung paano umayos. And sometimes, leaving is the only way things can finally make sense

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I Feel Like I’m Losing Myself Again

May mga pagkakataon talagang napanghihinaan ako ng loob. Siguro normal lang ito dahil bawat isa sa atin ay may mga sandaling ganito. Yung alam mong okay ka naman sa panlabas, pero sa loob may kulang. May lungkot. May bigat na hindi mo maipaliwanag. Isang pakiramdam na deep inside, may isang bahagi ng sarili mong tahimik na umiiyak.

May mga oras na tinatanong ko ang sarili ko: Ano pa bang kulang? Bakit ang lungkot? Ginagawa ko naman ang best ko para maabot ang mga pangarap ko. Alam ko ang mga dahilan kung bakit ganito ang pakiramdam—alam kong hindi ako tamad, alam kong sinusubukan ko. Pero kahit ganoon, pakiramdam ko pa rin ay stuck ako. Parang stagnant ang buhay ko. Ang dami kong pangarap, pero parang napakalayo nilang lahat. Ang hirap, kahit ginagawa mo na ang lahat ng kaya mo.

Minsan tinatanong ko ang sarili ko kung ito ba ay parusa mula kay Allah. Nagkasala ba ako? Humingi naman ako ng tawad. Sinubukan kong intindihin ang buhay ko. Kinuwestyon ko ang self-worth ko, ang purpose ko, ang mismong halaga ng pag-iral ko. Paulit-ulit kong tinatanong ang sarili ko: Habang buhay na lang ba akong ganito?

Mas mahirap pala ang buhay kapag mag-isa ka. Yung wala kang karamay walang kasamang lumalaban sa buhay, walang kaagapay sa hirap at ginhawa. Walang taong makikinig sa’yo kapag pagod ka na, kapag gusto mo lang maglabas ng sama ng loob para gumaan ang pakiramdam mo. Yung may kasamang mangarap at magsikap, yung sabay kayong umaangat, sabay kayong nagtatagumpay.

I don’t know. I feel lost again. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong gawin sa buhay ko.

Ang dami kong pangarap. Gusto kong magkaroon ng sariling bahay at lupa bonus na lang kung may sasakyan. Gusto kong magkaroon ng stable na trabaho, ng sariling negosyo. Pangarap kong maging abogadaang childhood dream na hindi ko pa rin binibitawan. Gusto ko ng masayang buhay. Gusto ko ng partner na dadamayan ako sa lungkot, saya, rant, at pagsubok ng buhay. Isang partner na handang makinig, handang umunawa, at tatanggapin ako kung sino at ano ako. Yung partner na hindi ka huhusgahan bagkus iaangat pa ang iyong buhay. Yung partner na husband and father material—marunong dumiskarte, marunong lumaban para sa kinabukasan.

Alam kong hindi imposible ang lahat ng ito sa tulong ni Allah. Pero sa ngayon, parang ang labo ng lahat. Parang ang mga pangarap ko ay mananatili na lang na mga pangarap. Huli na ba ang lahat para sa akin? Kaya ko pa bang itama ang mga maling desisyon at pagkakamaling nagawa ko kung hanggang ngayon ay pinanghihinaan ako? Paano at saan ba ako dapat magsimula?

Gusto kong magsimula ulit—bumalik sa simula, itama ang mali, ayusin ang sarili. Pero huli na ba kung nasa kalagitnaan na ako ng kawalan? Ano ba talaga ang dapat kong gawin?

Hindi ko alam ang kinabukasan. Malabo ang daan sa ngayon. Wala akong kasamang tuklasin ang bukas. At kahit ligaw ako sa sandaling ito, may kaunting pag-asa pa ring namumuo sa loob ko—dahil habang may buhay, may pag-asa. Balang araw, mahahanap ko rin kung sino ako, kung saan ako patungo, at kung para saan ako.

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Write to: My Future Self (The One With the Dot)

If you’re reading this now, it means you made it. You finally reached the dream that once felt so far, so heavy, and so uncertain.

I hope you remember this version of you, the one who clapped for others while quietly holding back tears, the one who waited while timelines moved without you, the one who trusted Allah even when the path felt lonely and unsupported.

Do you remember January 7, 2026? The day the world celebrated lawyers and you celebrated hope. The day you chose faith over frustration, patience over pressure, and trust over comparison.

I hope you didn’t forget how many times you almost doubted yourself how many times you were told “hindi pa,” how many times doors stayed closed when you were ready to knock.

But Allah knew when to open them.

If you’re wearing the dot now, wear it with humility. Let it remind you that delay was part of the preparation. That the struggle shaped you more than the success ever could.

And if you ever feel proud—pause. Remember the nights you prayed with nothing but sincerity. Remember the days you moved forward even without support. Remember that you didn’t arrive here alone, Allah carried you.

To my future self: Never look down on those who are still waiting. Be the support you once needed. Be proof that dreams written by Allah always arrive, right on time.

This was never about being first. It was always about being ready.

With faith, Your past self —still becoming, still trusting, still believing In Shaa Allah. 🌙✨

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Congratulating Others While Waiting for My Turn

Today, January 7, 2026, my Facebook feed is flooded with congratulations—families, friends, and loved ones celebrating their new lawyers. I even found myself congratulating one of my undergraduate classmates from English 7.

What makes this moment deeply personal is this: He was my batchmate when we were admitted to MSU. I graduated ahead of him—finished my bachelor’s degree in just three years, with flying colors. And today, here I am, congratulating him for passing the Bar.

Life truly has its own way of unfolding stories.

Becoming a lawyer has always been my childhood dream. That dream was the reason I chose BSPA as my pre-law course. Ironically, the person who reached that milestone first was someone who never even dreamed of becoming a lawyer. Yet Allah chose him for that path—and today, he holds the dot.

And honestly? I am genuinely happy for him. Instead of envy, I felt motivation. Instead of bitterness, I felt hope.

This moment reminded me that dreams are not denied—only delayed. Everything happens in perfect timing. Not my timing. Not society’s timing. But Allah’s timing. So I will not force the dot. I will wait patiently, faithfully, and wholeheartedly.

To be honest, chasing dreams is not easy. We often hear “nothing is impossible if you really want it,” but the truth is—it becomes incredibly difficult when no one supports you. It’s okay if there’s no moral or financial support. What hurts more is when the very people who should believe in you are the ones holding you back.

Still, even then—nothing is impossible.

Even if the path feels like passing through the eye of a needle, as long as your intention is sincere and your imaan is pure, Allah will make a way. And when the dream finally arrives, the fulfillment is beyond words—because you know it was earned with patience, faith, and resilience.

Lesson learned: Do not compare your Chapter 1 to someone else’s Chapter 20. Do not rush what Allah is still preparing. And do not let delays make you doubt your destiny.

I will come back to this post someday—In Shaa Allah—when I finally get the dot too.

And when that day comes, this will no longer be just a reflection. It will be a testimony. 🤍

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“So kapatay na pankaw.” A phrase we often hear when death comes suddenly. You see someone moments ago—strong, joyful, full of life—and then, without warning, they return to Allah. Truly, death does not announce itself. It does not follow age, health, or our expectations. The young may be taken before the old. The healthy may be brought before the sick. We think we understand life, but in reality, only Allah knows the appointed time of every soul.

I believe deeply in this truth. And because we do not know when we will leave this dunya, the best preparation is not fear but righteousness. To do good deeds sincerely for the sake of Allah. To stay away from what He has forbidden. To follow the Sunnah of our beloved Prophet Muhammad ﷺ and to live according to the guidance of Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَتَعَالَىٰ). We are not angels, we fall, we sin, we forget, but Allah is Ar-Rahman, Ar-Raheem. What matters is that we return to Him with sincere tawbah and a heart that wants to be better.

Last year, thoughts of my own death often visited my heart. I tried to prepare my soul for it. But lately, my fear has shifted—not for myself, but for my mother. Since she started having seizures, my heart has been heavy with anxiety. I find myself asking Allah in tears, “What if You take her suddenly? Ya Allah, how will I survive? How will we go on?” The truth is, I cannot imagine this dunya without her. She is my comfort, my strength, my safe place.

I know that life and death are in Allah’s hands alone. I know that every soul will taste death, at the time already written in Al-Lawh Al-Mahfuz. Yet knowing this does not make the fear disappear. Especially when she refuses surgery, and I am reminded that at any moment, Allah may call her back. Just thinking of that hour shakes my heart in ways I cannot explain.

So I turn to Allah. I make du‘a not only for her healing, but for my own heart. I ask Him to grant me sabr, to fill me with tawakkul, and to remind me that no soul is taken except with His mercy and wisdom. If loss is written for me, then I pray that Allah strengthens my iman so I do not lose myself with it.

Ya Allah, do not test us beyond what we can bear. And if death must come, let it find us in a state of faith, repentance, and complete submission to You.

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Happy new year 2026 🎆🎇

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Not every flower blooms for attention; some bloom to survive the storms, memories, silence, heartbreak and still choose beauty 🍀☘️

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I hope not wish

"... I hope you learn to be kind to yourself, how to embrace the journey you are on. I hope you learn how to be proud of where you are-- even if it isn't exactly where you want to be. I hope you learn to fall in love with the process, with the messiness of life and the confusion of it all."

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When Stepping Back Becomes Self-Care

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about my relationship with social media specifically Facebook. After giving it another try, I’ve decided to deactivate my account again. Not because I’m running away from anything, but because I’m choosing to protect my mental health.

Every time I scroll through my feed, I notice how easily my confidence drops. It’s like a quiet heaviness that slowly builds up as I see the achievements, milestones, and celebrations of people I know. I don’t feel bitter toward them I’m genuinely happy that they’re doing well. But as a human being, I can’t deny the natural tendency to compare. Even if I tell myself “everyone has their own timing” or “we all have different directions,” the feeling of being left behind still creeps in.

There’s that moment when you pause and think: Why does it feel like everyone else is moving ahead while I’m stuck in place? You start to wonder if you’re doing enough, if you’re progressing, if your efforts are actually leading somewhere. It becomes a cycle of self-doubt that slowly eats away at your peace.

And that’s when I realized something important: awareness is not weakness. Recognizing what triggers you is a form of strength. Knowing when to step back is an act of self-care. For me, distancing myself from Facebook is not about avoiding reality it’s about creating a healthier space for my mind to breathe.

I want to focus on myself without the constant noise of comparison. I want to appreciate my own journey without measuring it against someone else’s timeline. I want to remind myself that growth isn’t always loud, visible, or picture-perfect. Sometimes it’s quiet. Sometimes it’s slow. But it’s still growth.

So this time, I’m choosing peace over pressure. I’m choosing clarity over noise. I’m choosing to be kinder to myself.

Maybe someday I’ll return. Or maybe I won’t. But for now, removing myself from things that trigger negative thoughts is the best way I can show up for my well-being. And I think that’s something worth prioritizing.

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Sometimes I want to step away from my life for a place where I can feel at peace, where no one knows who I am, so that I can understand every little part of my life and myself. And try to be myself without being bound by other people's expectations of me.

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December Reset: A Soft Ending to 2025

The last month of 2025 is here. And just like every year, I find myself sitting with my thoughts — asking questions, replaying moments, trying to understand what this year has shaped me into.

I’m looking back at what I’ve done, how life has unfolded, what I’ve achieved, the goals I didn’t reach, and the quiet lessons that have stayed with me.

If I’m being honest, my 2025 wasn’t perfect. I didn’t get everything I prayed for. Some plans didn’t push through. Some dreams had to wait.

But this year taught me lessons, perseverance, and sabar. And just like everyone else, my year wasn’t perfect — may mga panalo, may mga talo. But each moment, whether joyful or heavy, helped strengthen me in ways I didn’t expect.

One thing I didn’t see coming was enrolling again in my Master’s. My heart was set on law school — one step away na lang. Enrollment na lang talaga ang kulang. But life had different plans for me. And even though I didn’t get what I wanted right away, I’m not giving up. I believe that one day, I’ll see “Atty.” before my name, Inn Shaa Allah.

And honestly, I don’t regret choosing to finish my MA first. It’s what makes sense for my life right now. It’s the more achievable path at this moment. And it’s still part of the journey toward my bigger dreams.

This year also made me face something I didn’t expect: I ended up regretting the work position I accepted. I felt overwhelmed — sobra. It drained my energy, my time, even my motivation at some point. But along the way, I started embracing it. I realized that maybe it felt heavy because I wasn’t prepared, but it was actually a challenge I needed. And slowly, I am growing into it, learning from it, and becoming stronger because of it.

2025 was full of everything: happy moments, quiet breakdowns, small achievements, big disappointments, and decisions I still think about sometimes.

But none of these will stop me. If anything, they are reminders to keep going — gently, slowly, and with more wisdom than before.

Yes, it’s too late to fix everything in 2025… but it’s not too late to prepare for 2026. This month is my reset. My planning month. My time to reflect so the mistakes of this year won’t repeat themselves next year.

I don’t know what my 2026 will look like, but I’m preparing for it anyway. With hope, with faith, and with a stronger heart. Inn Shaa Allah.

Here’s to ending softly. Here’s to starting again. Here’s to becoming — always becoming.

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If you do not know where to say your problems, if you cannot say what’s make your heart heavy do not worry because Allah s.w.t is there he knows and listens to you. He will help you. Trust me if you rely on Allah your heart will be free.