CONSUMED BY DEATH,

pretty boy, consumed by death.

[nightven]

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤIN THE ORCHARD OF MEMORY, a bite out of every apple ... sometimes the past digs me up. i collect the dirt in jars, i drink the water, i label all the bones ... 𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐄𝐒𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐍𝐀 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐕𝐄𝐍 ━━ necromancer. independent of the radiance series by tavia lark.

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001   :         this is a private and mutuals-only blog for shaesarenna nightven of the necromancer's light by tavia lark. this depiction of shae will be independent of the radiance series and largely headcanon reliant, so his most of his development seen here will be of my own work. please be cool.

002   :         i also tend to write with heavy spacing between words, if this is something that doesn't work with you then absolutely let me know and i'll adjust! i tend to check rules first, so if you also have that listed then i'll have this in mind when we write together!

003   :         this will be a low-priority/semi-active blog that i'll be on only when the mood strikes, my main blog is @vereh :) but even still, i’d still like to carry on threads here when my muse is flowing, so i hope you can understand! i'm mostly available on discord, and moots can ask for it at any time :)

004   :         anw ... 21+ only, i'm a firm believer in protecting your own peace so please be aware that there may be TRIGGERING and/or DARKER CONTENT appearing occasionally on this blog. most will be tagged depending on its intensity. otherwise, we're all adults here. i shouldn't have to go into full detail of grown up behavior on the internet.

005   :         let's all have a fun time :)

[luthienne]

George Seferis, from Collected Poems; "Memory I" (tr. Edmund Keeley and Philip Sherrard)

[Text ID: I whispered: memory hurts wherever you touch it,]

[nightven]

' in some ways, i envy you . ' hey diva

it's barely noticable at first : the small twinge of shock that lifts at his brows, bends at his lips. shae raises a gaze from his stoking of the fire and looks at riel- skepticle- and there's a moment where he tries to process this confession. there's a raw honesty in riel's words that churns- heavy and unrelenting- in his stomach, but he isn't quite sure what it means ... in his deliberation, shae can do nothing but shift uncomfortably in his spot before lowering his eyes again. silent.

he's never had anyone say anything like this to him before, it caught him entirely off guard. almost unpleasantly so ... in all his life, shae's never met a single person that's bothered to know him well enough to want what he had. they look at him, they see the charms and they make their judgements—all they can see is the DEATH that looms over his shoulder, that bleeds from his veins. not once have they ever seen him.

these are the people that would sooner toss a coin to keep him away than to keep him in their company; how many times he's forced himself to swear off the lingering hope of ever forming friendships. comradery. love ... he's long lost count.

each day, shae grows colder beneath the frigidity of their gazes than by the consequence of his own magic.

“   i promise, there's ... nothing ... about me to envy.   ”

words are a soft breath above the crackling of campfire. shae doesn't lift his eyes then, letting riel's shadow rest in his periphory. the heat of the fire does nothing to quell the shivers wracking algid body as finally shae tosses the last stick into the open, dancing flame. envy ... the word leaves an almost acrid taste in his mouth. but still, he lets himself laugh. soft, humorless.

“   hah ... can't imagine the life of a necromancer would sound enticing at all, to anyone really.   ”

[nightven]

ㅤㅤㅤㅤthe last bit of spirit still tethered to my body ... a torment.

[nightven]

shaesarenna "i always get paid" nightven who makes empty threats to raise the village's dead again if they don't pay him for his exorcisms.

[nightven]

THE SIGNS OF NECROMANCY ARE ALWAYS THERE. they shine in the ears and on the hands of those who promise their soul to such harbingers of death, and flaunt around their very transgressions against humanity. the common man thinks them to be demons themselves, animals that sip on the blood of innocents and disturb the resting places of the freshly dead in order to harvest their souls for power.

these are all rumors though, largely unfounded. spread by those who won't dare to get close enough to an actual necromancer to verify these claims in fear of getting cursed. as the art of necromancy is perfectly legal, it's often found that certain governments and dominating faiths refuse to encourage the practice.

while those who partake in said practice are far and few inbetween due to varied cases of social discrimination and excommunication from community and their holy grounds, they are certainly some of the easiest to spot due to the charmed silver pieces adorning their bodies at all times.

RINGS. among the many pieces necromancers wear in order to take full advantage of their power ( and, in turn, to also protect themselves ), these plain silver bands serve a much greater purpose than just for decoration. imbued with great magics, these rings retain multiple functions in order to best serve the wearer with whatever abilities they have cast upon them.

for shae, he's very specifically set these rings up with the main functions being detecting and warding. whenever these charms are triggered, they alert shae with a VIOLENT, COLD STING that travels up the length of shae's arm and sits at the core of his chest for a short moment. while these alerts are never debilitating, they tend to be quite painful.

RINGS OF FORE & MIDDLE FINGERS are both charmed as detection rings for demons and ghosts, respectively. the limits of detection only span for a mile, and immediately they pinpoint any beings that appear within this radius. because ghosts are extremely less corporeal, they tend to be more difficult to sense than demons- thus, a different ritual may be performed to further track these entities. BANDS OF RING FINGER & OPPOSITE FOREGINGER are used for cloaking and warding / anti-scrying . these ensure that shae stays hidden from prying eyes or anyone trying to track him down. often activated when shae stays in one place for a period of time, the anti-scrying ring also ensures his demon patron cannot locate him with the simple utter of his name. OPPOSITE RING FINGER wears a focus-charmed band. used only as a conduit for certain spells that don't require a vocal or somatic component. this often drains less of shae's life energy than his typical spellcasting, but it is used sparingly.

only occassionally do these bands need to be renewed, requiring drawn blood ( often shae's own ) and an incantation recited in his mother tongue. wholly dependant on use, rings often don't need to be renewed more than once every few weeks. sometimes months.

EARRINGS. the charms in shae's earrings often serve the same or similar purpose, often weaker in power or used strictly as a quick and temporary solution. these are not used as alert conduits, rather they assist with short range spellcasting and for passive abilities.

aside from the silver materials one's jewelry is made from, there's no specific function in relation to the shape they take. these can vary depending on the wearer's personal taste without sacrificing power or ability.

PLAIN SILVER DANGLING RINGS are used most often as focus charms . again not often used as shae's main spellcasting focus, but good to have in a pinch. AMBER EMBEDDED IN SILVER is used to help collect warmth from surrounding groups of people. it serves as a guage that fills up with bodyheat if shae is in a crowded area, used only in the extreme case that he is unable to receive direct human contact to quell the cold that debilitate his own body whenever he practices his necromancy. this is also scarcely used as the heat, dependant on extremety of shae's coldspell, lasts only two days and is slow to fill. FEATHER CHARMED EARRING is a simple spellcasting earring for short range spells. not often used. shae wears a few more smaller hoop rings in upper lobes of the ear as control rings . they've also helped stave the night terrors, stopping him from bleeding magic in his sleep ... he wears them less often as his ability to control his own magic gets stronger, he's slowly learning to stop relying so much on enchantments through the years.

these charms ( save for the amber ) need to be occassionally renewed as well, though not at the same rate as shae's rings. these often hold for a few months without needing to reup.

[nightven]

it's been so long since shae had felt the heat of summer.. always so cold to the touch whenever he practices his necromancy- because it takes something from him every single time he casts a spell or uses a charm. a little bit more of his soul gets chipped away. a little bit closer towards death he's pushed.

human warmth and connection is the only temporary cure for this affliction.. but even that is hard to come by because no one would dare cozy up to someone like him out of their own fears and perceptions about what it would mean to get close to a necromancer. so it's often that shae would resort to hiring someone to stay in close quarters with him just so he can make it through the night..

[nightven]

the concent of modern fantasy shae being a ghost hunter with his own personal haunt that he can't solve is something that is so important to me.

[nightven]

every day someone grossly underestimates just how much shae would love "punk goes pop".

[ohisms]

↪     𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑫𝑬𝑽𝑰𝑳 𝑰𝑵 𝑴𝑬 .    (   a  series  of  sentence  starters  from  the  2022  supermassive  game  “ the devil in me ” .  adjust  phrasing  as  necessary .  spoilers  &  mature  themes  are  present .  ) 

i bet you can see a hundred miles from the top .

you mean you’re not weary of me after an entire day of marriage ?

are we the only ones here ?

that’s no way to run a business .

that’s my [ name ] ,  always finding that silver lining .

my attention was needed elsewhere .

i promise from here on out ,  it will be nothing but silver linings .

today is a very special day for us .

i’m starting to think i’ve gone  &  married a thrill seeker .

are we looking for excitement ?

see what happens when you chase a thrill ?

if you’ll excuse me ,  i have work to return to .

i’m sure we’ll see each other again soon .

this feels like some sort of treacherous plot .

close your eyes ,  &  face the mirror .

aren’t you clever  &  romantic ?

don’t fight it  …  it’ll only hurt more if you do .

you’re only prolonging the inevitable .

what have you done ?!

you’re wasting your last chance to tell him that you love him .

it’s so good to have company .  for a long time ,  i was on my own .

i can barely recall a time when i was not here .

what good are stories without someone to experience them ?

art can elicit all sorts of reactions .

you’re responsible for what happens .  you’re culpable .

i can’t interfere ,  that’s very much against the rules .

it’s tough being honest when it means everyone just thinks you’re a bitch .

i’m sick of being on my own .

it’s a fucking mess ,  to be honest with you .

i think we’ve heard quite enough .

i was born with the devil in me .

i could not help the fact that i was a murderer any more than a poet can help the inspiration to sing .

just being dead ain’t enough to stop me from killing again .

actually ,  it’s what i can do for you .

do you know where we’re going ,  exactly ?

it was 100% your fault .  you fly by the seat of your ass .

was this part of the plan ?  did you know about this ?

i figured we needed all the help we could get .

downtime ?  why would you want to do that ?

i’ve got a lot going on at the moment ,  [ name ] .

you got any family you can go bother ?

‘ married to the job ’ …  how’s that marriage working out ?

we agreed to let that drop for the weekend .

sorry for giving you a hard time .

christ ,  what the hell is that ?

it’s gonna be okay ,  it’s all gonna be okay .

i’ll explain everything later .

are you sure ?  ‘cos you don’t seem sure .

i’m charming ,  &  you can hotwire your way past security .

hey ,  can i ask you something  &  get a straight answer ?

shh ,  get down !

this is ridiculous ,  there’s nothing out here .

i heard you were looking for a new place .

if i wanted to go on nature hikes ,  i wouldn’t have moved to the city .

you can do it .  eyes forward ,  don’t look down .

you always knew how to get me through the shit ,  didn’t you ?

maybe this won’t be a waste of a weekend .

i told you this was a good plan ,  didn’t i ?

you’ve been out  &  about all day ,  &  i have to sit here worrying .  gone all day ,  &  not a word from you !

i don’t think we’re the only ones here .

this is my don’t be scared song ,  sing it  &  i won’t be scared long !

scream if you need me for anything .

something about this place makes me wanna use the buddy system .

you talk in your sleep   …   not sure if i ever told you that .

you’re cute when you’re worked up .

cute ?   …  you think i’m cute ?

i try to pretend like it isn’t a thing ,  you know .

if my cheeks are red ,  it’s from this wine .

sorry .  didn’t mean to make you feel weird .

i’m fucking with you ,  i’ve been wanting to kiss you for months .

sorry ,  did i interrupt something ?

i can’t find my room  &  i need a fucking cigarette .

i’m not stressed ,  okay ?  do i look fucking stressed ?

this place is massive ,  surely there’s a pack of cigarettes here .

stick with me ,  [ name ] ,  i’m going places .

[ name ] ,  there’s something important you have to understand .

no ,  come on ,  you piece of shit  …  don’t do this to me !

i’m supposed to buy  “ nothing ”  is eating up at you ?

i still think your priorities are fucked .

what about taking a huge risk  &  just DO something ?

are you trying to butter me up ?

we don’t need to rehash stuff ,  let’s just work .

you’re only asking me ‘cos your arms are too short for a good selfie angle .

maybe we should just add this topic to our  “ discussion no - fly zone ”  list .

shit ,  that scared the fuck out of me .

at some point ,  you have to give up the ghost .

you’ve been doing your research ,  haven’t you ?

are you taking a survey or trying to learn something ?

would it kill you to be direct ?

you want to know what inspired me ?  as if i wasn’t the original ?

you look amazing ,  as usual .

i heard enough ,  thank you ,  i know what betrayal sounds like .

i’m not blind ,  i know what i saw .

this could work to our advantage .

am i the only one that’s getting really freaked out by this place ?

can you stop trying to make this worse ?

don’t come crying to me if you end up dead .

choices ,   [ name ] ,  make better choices .

this is your own damn fault .

it’s all about the honey trap .

you bring me some smokes ?  like i asked ?

that’s what i remember most .  those screams .

you’ll never really know how it feels to watch the fire burn out of somebody .

thanks for that stuff you said at dinner .  it was nice to hear .

we’re all on the same side ,  sometimes we forget .

get me out of here !  i can’t see a thing !

count your breaths .  one,  two,  three,  in  …

how very rude ,  not to stay for dinner .

i can only observe ,  &  it can be  …  frustrating to watch .

in some ways ,  i envy you .

something is very not right here .

i’ve been waiting on you for ages to actually make a decision about something ,  anything ,   &  now this is when you suddenly choose to take a stand ?

your delusions make for such great plans .

would it kill you to think positively just once ?

it’s not even the worst idea i’ve had this evening .

don’t go patting yourself on the back ,  i still think your priorities are fucked .

i can care about more than one thing at a time .

working this job has made me really understand what a sociopath is .

you always assume the worst .

help me !   please  –  please ,  i’ll do anything !

maybe you’re right ,  but you don’t need to be an asshole about it .

i guess i was holding out for things to change with us .

i have never once shied away from telling you where my priorities were .

i have to live with it every day  &  now someone knows .

someone WANTED me to find this .

you have to get the fuck out ANY way you can .  just get the FUCK OUT !

are you losing your shit ?  ‘cos i don’t need that right now .

maybe we just focus on one thing at a time .

[ name ]  …  i found a way out ,  maybe .

i don’t know what i was expecting .

what the fuck is this ?

[ name ] ,  what are you doing ?  just stay back .

no way this is happening .

it’s gotta be fake  …  a prop ,  or from  …  an animal or something .

it can be difficult working with someone you’ve been involved with .

i think we can bust through this thing .

i’ve had enough of this shit ,  what the hell is going on ?

the walls are moving again .

i’m not a fuckin’ lab rat here for your amusement !

don’t look at me like that .  you know i’m right .  you get it .

you got to do something that matters .

think of the most profound thing you’ve ever done .

i see the gleam in your eye ,  [ name ] .  you can’t fool me .

there  …  there you are .  i see you now .

bare hands can feel good ,  huh ?  but the blade makes for such a prettier picture .

how far down does it go ?

there’s blood everywhere ,  &  …  &  a body .

one of us is going to have to be bait .

you could use that as a weapon if need be .

what an excruciating way to go .

people can surprise you sometimes .

as always ,  i’ll be watching very closely .

hurry the fuck up !

it’s a forest ,  it could be anything .

can you not freak me out even more than i already am ?

i wasn’t expecting you .

you’re a selfish monster  …  always have been .

predictable little shit ,  i know you .

[ name ] !  i thought i lost you .

all good things must come to an end .

can you find your own way out ?

i have no doubt we’ll meet again in the future .

[nightven]

what if death followed us both and we were both boys and we k

what if we were both boys and what if death smushed us together like traumatized little barbie dolls and we k

[nightven]

cannot stress how upsetting it is to me that the first one to show shae any type of kindness since he turned to necromancy at the age of twelve was a horse. a horse. before they died, his parents were the last ones to show him any type of warmth. unconditional love. affection. and in ten years, he's had to go without because of how his status had him shunned by the greater parts of society.

shae made a list of things he wanted to do once he was free from his pact. making a single friend was at the top.

[feral-ballad]

Claire C. Holland, from I Am Not Your Final Girl: Poems; “Jess”

[Text ID: “I can’t exist in a way that comforts you.”]

[screenshotsofdespair]

[facinaoris]

Girls That Never Die: Poems, Safia Elhillo

[nightven]

absolutely sick and twisted.

[existential-celestial]

Robin Ekiss, from “The Bones of August,” in The Mansion of Happiness