The Mush | Qhuinn
she-wolf-qhuinn:
This was not how she had wanted to spend the day. It really, really wasn’t.. All she had wanted was a nice day with her mate, that maybe would have ended with a proposal. Or the two of them worshiping each others bodies all night. Or both, why not dream big? But no..it had to be this instead. She tried to calm herself, but the selfish part of Qhuinn couldn’t help but be pissed.
And his tone was so not helping.. What had he expected, her to be all cool beans, let’s roll? No. Just..no. Qhuinn jumped at the sudden noise, a small cry leaving her as they turned to face each other at the same time. “You took advantage of our son. I think that’s a fair reason to make it a ‘thing’ Niko. He’s been..through so fucking much. I just..” Rubbing her face, she took a long breath and sat on the edge of the bed, letting her mate explain.
“Did you think for a moment that I would let them just take you like that? I know..that it wasn’t anything you would want, but I would do whatever I can to protect you” Qhuinn sighed, then fell silent when Niko got real. The fact that he was completely and brutally honest was what got her attention and held it. No excuses, no subterfuge. Just the blunt truth.
“I understand that Niko..I really do. You weren’t meant to be this way. I just..wasn’t there any other way? You didn’t even ask Arashi, did you? You just took what you wanted.” Sighing, Qhuinn got to her feet, approaching her mate and laying her hands on his chest. “I get your reasons. I just wish you would have went about it better. But I know you do too, I can feel it” She smiled tightly, gazing up at him. “Talk to him. Please. Explain and apologize, make this right”
He took her hands in his own and tried with all his might to pass on to her the thoughts and feelings that were burning within him. He wanted her to know just how desperate he was, and how afraid--and yet, he didn’t want her to feel fear for the unknown at all. It was very confusing.
“I don’t want to be that guy, Q. But how do you think that should make me feel? I already am entirely vulnerable. I can’t protect you, or even myself. I’m prey here. I’m prey for everything that lives here. But no, you’re right. Let me just do nothing and let my woman keep me safe. My woman who wasn’t even born--” A wolf. Even as a human, he still felt that hint of elitist entitlement he always muted within himself.
“I didn’t mean that. Fuck, yes I did, but not how it sounded. I’m sorry. I don’t mean to take this out on you. I really, really don’t.” A deep sigh calmed him, although it was probably her being so close. She always did have a relaxing effect over his psyche. “I didn’t ask. Why would he agree? I’ve done nothing but let him down. And he already hated me, so I figured, if he hates me, at least let it be for something worth while? I wasn’t thinking, Qhuinn. I just. Wanted.... I wanted my life back.”
Niko pressed a kiss to the back of Qhuinn’s hands, his eyes burning into hers for a moment longer. “I’ll do what I can. In the meantime...” And the fiery stare he held before now trailed down her figure, drinking her in.










