save yourself.

' oh father tell me.... do we get what we deserve. 'nina mikkelsen . 24 . florist witness protection

[ninamikkelsen]

pvrisrutherford​:

@ninamikkelsen​

a girl’s day – that was one thing that paris had been craving since she up and left all of her friends. she could remember that it was a weekly ritual back when she was in vegas, they’d spend the weekend at a little spa full of facials, massages, manis, pedis, here and there she’d even get a little botox, because hey, there was nothing wrong with keeping yourself looking young. but since she moved to san amore, paris didn’t have close friends like that. she’d been making good money at the brewery, but even better money with the few deals that she’d pushed over the last week now. and dammit, she was ready to blow a little bit of it! so she’d text nina to make sure the girl wasn’t at work – thankful she wasn’t and her brother was on shift instead. and paris knew what she was doing now. she’d taken it upon herself to make it to nina’s place and knocked on the door like a crazy person. “nina! open up! it’s a serious emergency i think i’m bleeding out!” she yelled out. if there was one sure way to make sure someone was to answer the door, it was to make a scene, right? 

there wasn’t much on nina’s schedule that particular sunny day. the girl had been so stressed out recently at work since being promoted to store manager, and river had taken it upon him to annoy all the difficult customers into fits of rage and she had been going through all the dozens of complaints, but now, it seemed everything had been resolved. just a nice relaxing day ahead of her that began and ended on the couch with netflix in full swing, or so she thought. that is until, out of the blue, nina heard violent knocks and screams at her door. now, the first thing that popped into her paranoid little mind was: arm yourself. so as she scanned the room for potential weapons, her eyes meeting the frying pan. so pan in hand, she paced towards the door and that’s when she noticed the familiarity of the voice, it was paris, screaming for help. nina flung the door open, rapidly scanning paris for any wounds and it felt like her brain was malfunctioning when she didn’t see anything wrong. “ what’s going on?! are you okay? ” she yelped back, but soon figuring it must’ve been a prank since paris just stood there perfectly fine. a little huff escaped her lungs as composed herself. “ y’know you could’ve texted me. ”

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rvthcrford​:

“then what did you mean?” river asked, letting out a small sigh; he couldn’t be too frustrated however as he’d been doing the exact same. he was terrified about what this meant and about getting close to someone else because he’d spent all this time convincing himself he wasn’t ever going to be good enough. and then, out of the blue, nina’s lips were on his own and river’s hand lifted to gently cup her cheek as he kissed her back just as softly. “nina,” river murmured, barely above a whisper, keeping his forehead pressed to hers asthey eventually parted. “i want you too, darlin’,” he then said, gingerly tracing his thumb along her jawline as his other hand placed against her waist to keep her held close. “and i’m just as scared, i really am.” the man finally admitted, tilting his head back as he looked down to her. “alright, maybe wet wipe was a bit harsh,” river chuckled, “it’s okay, yeah? i just… i ain’t used to this kinda thing either, i mean, i don’t think i’ve caught feelin’s for someone in years and i guess i’m scared i could hurt you because…” the man trailed off, shaking his head. “there’s a lot you don’t know about me, about what i’ve done, and i’m fuckin’ scared that if you knew then, well, i wouldn’t blame you for runnin’ a mile.” river gently pulled away from her, choosing to sit atop the counter and reaching out a hand to bring her toward him. once she was near, river reached to tug up the hem of his jeans, rolling it over a hunk of plastic that was secured tight around his ankle. “this is why i had to run the other day, gotta be at home from seven at night ‘til seven in the mornin’ and if i don’t? well, i’m sure you know.”

easily best emotionally fueled decision nina had made. that kiss was a statement that meant a lot more than any words, she wasn’t ready to let go of this connection; it felt right, but incredibly reckless which made it kinda irresistible. “ i like the way you say my name, ” she told him in a low whisper, allowing the edges of her lips curl up into a smile and scoffing. “ we are such scaredy cats, ” a quip rolled out as she gave him a warm glance, eventually giving him a playful nudge into his chest. “ a bit harsh? i almost transformed into a full on karen when you said that. ” she told him yet soon noticing the atmosphere going from lighthearted to something a bit more serious. narrowing her brows, she didn’t exactly know how to react to what he was telling her.     “ what do you mean? ” a part of her almost didn’t want to know what kind of things he was involved in, just wanting to keep things naive and harmless. as he trailed a little away from her, hopping on top of the counter and offered her his hand, she hesitantly took it. a little confused about the situation, but then, it all made sense; why they had formed their pact of keeping their past out of conversations in the first place. nina felt her stomach drop as he rolled up his pants and she couldn’t help but stare with narrowed brows at the device that clung tightly to his ankle.  “ ooh fuck, ” the word kinda fell out of her mouth without her permission. her mind was racing, did she even know the person standing in front of her? the optimistic part in her that wanted nothing more then to disprove her concerns; he had been bettering himself, starting fresh in san amore or was that all a hoax. “ why do you have that on river? ” she questioned him with seriousness lingering in the air just praying that it was a minor offense.

[ninamikkelsen]

TEXT 📱Nina Bo Bina

zeke: damn all you got goin' for you is coupons?

zeke: nina, that's just sad

zeke: almost makes me wanna give you a free one just bc of that

zeke: only ALMOST tho

nina: >:(

nina: ALMOST?!?

nina: i thought for sure that would work

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rvthcrford​:

he had to try and disguise the smirk on his lips as she snapped back at him because hey, he’d be lying if he said he wasn’t attracted to her right now– it was something about how her brows furrowed and she had that cute little glare. fuck, he was really into some shit here. “i’m only acting like a shit because you’re bein’ a little shit to me!” river fought back, unfolding his arms to instead place them on his hips. but the moment he heard tha damned line, river threw his hands up into the air and forced out a feigned laugh, “you have got to be kiddin’ me, nina! you did not just use that fuckin’ line on me.” the man shook his head, “anyone that uses that fuckin’ line knows it’s because it’s the other person but they’re too much of a fuckin’ wet wipe to admit it to themselves, like don’t give me that crap, nina. i’m a big boy and believe it or not, i can handle rejection.” river shrugged, a frown seemingly permanent on his features now. “usin’ the disappointment card now, huh?’ but river wasn’t going to admit that it actually worked because he did feel a little guily for pulling these stunts now considering it reflected more on nina than it did on himself. “well, talk to me about it! look, clearly i care about you - and i ain’t normally the type to admit that - so don’t shut me out when i’m here, whether it’s as your mate or–” he stopped himself, giving a small shrug of the shoulders because he wasn’t really sure how to even finish the sentence. “i don’t know what else you want from me but i don’t think i can take much more of the ol’ silent treatment because clearly, i’m like a child who don’t deal with it well.”

it felt like it all came crashing down hard all at once and she couldn’t even really muster up a response to him calling out her behavior because frankly it was all true. why did she even believe for a moment that he wouldn’t call her out on being a turd. especially after everything she’d been putting him through. of course she felt extremely guilty, but this was the only way she knew how to cope with difficult issues, just shove it to the side and pray the hurt would eventually disappear. “ no...river, that’s not what i meant! ” a little frustrated groan escaped her lungs, inching closer to his presence because well she craved it, just subconciously wanting to be near him. “ i’m being honest with you.. ” a deep frown crept across her features as she continued. “  i don’t want to reject you! because i like everything about you; even when you’re being a fucking little shit to the karens out there or when you drive me up the wall with your nonsense, i still want it. don’t think for even a second that i don’t want you.... because i do, ” she belted out and with those words barely leaving her lungs, she went against everything inside her head; she paced forward and pressed her lips against his, planting a soft kiss and being thankful that they were alone in the shop. “ i’m scared of this, ” she uttered in between but eventually pulling slightly away. “ and i have two very important things to say. firstly, how dare you call me a wet wipe.  —  secondly, i do care and i’m sorry, ” she told him and offered a soft smile. “ i just don’t know how to deal with getting attached, river. ”

[lilysource]

BAFTA Awards 2019

[ninamikkelsen]

TEXT 📱NINA 🌿

preston: coffee is my thing

preston: specifically a blond roast oof

preston: wait

preston: am i gonna get the shits or something if it's not decaffeinated?

nina: saaame, everything really that's caffeinated is my friend

nina: i'm into the energy drinks more tho

nina: sugar and caffeine mixed into a sludge, YUMMY!

nina: that's a real possibility heheh

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TEXT 📱Nina 🌻

paris: you throw in some cacti and succulents and you got a deal!

paris: but also some of those cute lil lambs ears they're so cute and soft and smell SO GOOD

nina: hmmm...

nina: okay, BUUUT only if you throw in at least three jokes a day

nina: then we have a deal!

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TEXT 📱Nina Bo Bina

zeke: you know what else is mean?

zeke: u not getting my clerks 2 reference

zeke: my heart? 💔 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷

nina: I'M SORRY :'(

nina: gimme my coupons back!

nina: it's the only thing in life i have going for me atm!

[ninamikkelsen]

TEXT 📱Nina Bo Bina

zeke: i'm sorry but the damage that you've done to my heart is not repairable

nina: you're mean :(((

[ninamikkelsen]

TEXT 📱Nina 🌻

paris: just be sure to credit me xoxoxo

paris: that's what she said!

paris: ok

paris: they read lips 👄🤣

nina: of course, i'm not a dickhead x

nina: you sly

nina: LMAO noice!

nina: can you text me these type of jokes everyday from now on? i'll give you a aloe vera plant instead

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rvthcrford​:

“don’t ‘what the fuck’ me!” river snapped back, a frown on his features, but it wasn’t like he could blame her for being mad when he was purposely trying to be a little shit just to get a rise from her. “sorry that i’m givin’ ‘em honesty, i mean if they want an ugly wedding then that’s their choice but i tried to save it.” he shrugged, arms folding against his chest in a defensive manner as the girl questioned his behaviour. river was at least grateful that the shop was empty now, not wanting his personal business to be spread like wildfire in this tiny town. “i dunno, maybe it’s because this is the first you’ve actually spoke to me since we went on that walk.” river muttered, “i know i might not be your type and i might have fucked up somehow and i shouldn’t have done it, but i thought i deserved some kind of fuckin’ decency from you. like, it ain’t hard to just turn a guy down.” because of course, in his mind he figured she was avoiding him because he’d gotten the signals all wrong. “so come on, give me the disciplinary. tell me i’m on a warning. say anything to me because it’s gonna be better than nothing.”

“ yes ‘ what the fuck ’ you, ” she snapped back at his snap, her glare directed towards him still very much on her features. “ you’re acting like such a little shit, river. — and you need to stop insulting our customers! ”  composing herself a little, even when she felt so furious at his actions, she couldn’t even be mad at him because she felt so attracted to his presence. also nina recognized full well that her lack of coping skills in intimacy was most likely the root of this problem, but was she going to admit that, prooobably not, “ what? ” she uttered out in response to hearing his words in slight disbelief. “ no, fuck...river, it’s not that.  — it’s not you, it’s me, i swear. ” she told him in genuine honesty even though those words were the definition of a  cliché. her hesitation and anxiety was sprung up from prior events but there wasn’t any doubt in her mind that she wanted this, wanted him, he definitely was her type. “ you think i like giving you a verbal warning? no, i’m actually disappointed in you.  —  look i am sorry for ignoring you, river. ” nina paused, letting a frown creep across her facial features. “ i just have a lot of issues on my plate right now, and i can’t deal with that and everything else all at once, okay? ”

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TEXT 📱Nina 🌻

paris: isn't it so great?!

paris: this has been my entire day.

paris: so i've another for you!

paris: what do blind gyno's do for a living?

nina: yeah, mine too!

nina: beware tho i might steal it heheh

nina: I'M READY, GIVE IT TO ME

nina: okay, what do blind gyno's do for a living?

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TEXT 📱Nina Bo Bina

zeke: absolutely 100% no

zeke: you have never seen clerks 2?!

zeke: quite possibly one of the greatest films to happen in cinematic HISTORY

nina: NOOoOooOOoOOOOO!

nina: pleaassse!

nina: i'll watch it w/ you

nina: just don't take my coupons away from me!

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TEXT 📱NINA 🌿

preston: ... does that help with upset stomachs?

preston: i've never been a big tea guy there's too many for different things and it's a lot to remember 😅

nina: YEs it really helps!

nina: i'm a tea & caffeine addict

nina: i know my tea

nina: ALSO make sure it's decaffeinated

nina: otherwise you're not going to have a good time

[rvthcrford]

ever since that damn kiss, it was like it had changed everything between them– he couldn’t even remember the last time that they’d been on shift together before today, it seemed like nina was doing everything she could to avoid him and river just couldn’t wrap his head around it. had he done something wrong? he couldn’t be sure, but either way it had definitely changed his mood around the shop. even now, he was stood behind the counter with a hand on his hip, glaring at a woman with an ‘i-want-to-speak-to-the-manager’ haircut as he barked, “well, i’m sorry your daughter picked out ugly colours for her wedding, karen. that’s not my fault she chose orange and we don’t have anythin’ in right now. unless you want me to hand paint these roses?” he rolled his eyes as she called him rude, arrogant, and other names under the sun but he was past caring. see, he had a plan and that was if he caused enough trouble then eventually nina would be forced into talking to him to give him some kind of warning or telling off and even that was better than this silence. “that’s it, don’t let the door hit you on the way out.” river called out after her, before giving a loud sigh and a grumble, turning just in time to see nina appear. “look, she asked for it so don’t start.” @ninamikkelsen​

[ninamikkelsen]

that kiss meant something to nina which absolutely fucking terrified her. not wanting to catch feelings for river, she’d done the absolute least mature thing to do in any situation and straight up ghosted him. it was absolutely harder to ignore someone that actually works under her since she’d finally promoted to supervisor. so being in charge of river was proving to be far more difficult then she expected. after multiple complains about his general moodiness, she’d have to face the music and give him a formal warning after letting dozens slide. as nina made her way to roses are red, she heard what sounded like muffled screaming from two women inside and then river’s parting statement to them as they came storming out of the shop. the brunette huffed heavily, rubbing her eyes as she didn’t really anticipate seeing that type customer service from river and honestly felt a little disappointed in his actions. finally, her eyes met his and she gave him a furious glare. “ river, what the fuck? —  i can see why i’m getting so many complaints about you, ” she told him as she trailed closer to the counter. “ why are you being like this? ” probably a dumb question, since she had an idea why he’d been so testy yet still inquired on the off chance that it was because of something else. 

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TEXT 📱Nina 🌻

paris: because...

paris: they...

paris: were stuck up cunts

nina: HAHAHAHAHAHAH

nina: dude i literally burst out in laughter at the coffee shop and now i look like an idiot

nina: that is .... comedy gold!

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TEXT 📱OPEN

zeke: today has been eye 👀 opening

zeke: i go out for one of my deliveries right?

zeke: zoom zoomin' through the city 🚗 blasting some beastie boys and shit🤘🏻

zeke: i get to my spot, and the total was 15 dollars and some change

zeke: so i pull out the whole clerks song and go '15 bucks lil man, put that shit in my hand'

zeke: and he had no clue what the fuk i was talking about

zeke: disappointed and hurt really 😔

nina: ....

nina: uh

nina: i don't get it :(((

nina: i'm disappointed in myself, really

nina: could i still get a discount of pizzas tho?