Nina

From student nurse to registered nurse.

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I’m now working at the VA as a per diem RN primary care nurse manager. Clinic >>> bedside. I’m loving clinic life.

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i feel my anxiety building up inside of me again. when will this end? i can’t take it anymore.

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Taken on 12/27/2025.

The other day 01/006/2026 I called out again bc of how burnt out I was/am from work. This time I’m putting myself—especially my mental and physically health first before anything including my job. How can I take care of others if I can’t even take care of myself?

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I was offered a job position somewhere else closer to home; Monday through Friday, 8 hrs, outpatient. However, things took a turn the other day and they had to cancel my application due to “budget restrictions.” I feel all sorts of negative emotions. I’m praying that they could somehow make a change for my application. I’m praying that the other jobs I apply at will give me a chance to be interviewed and hopefully be hired. At my current job, I’m stressed and burnt out. I hate it. I wish I could leave, but I can’t since I don’t have another job lined up.

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They ended up offering me the per diem position instead. Of course I said yes. But I have not started nor heard back from them. This was my update around December/day after Christmas.

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I was offered a job position somewhere else closer to home; Monday through Friday, 8 hrs, outpatient. However, things took a turn the other day and they had to cancel my application due to “budget restrictions.” I feel all sorts of negative emotions. I’m praying that they could somehow make a change for my application. I’m praying that the other jobs I apply at will give me a chance to be interviewed and hopefully be hired. At my current job, I’m stressed and burnt out. I hate it. I wish I could leave, but I can’t since I don’t have another job lined up.

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I still have anxiety…

•the thought of having to go into work gives me stress and anxiety.

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My two years at work is coming up and I gotta say, I still don’t feel confident. However, I will say that I’m better than where I was at before. Looking back, I see some growth, but of course things could always be better. I’m not gonna lie, I’ve been so unhappy with working bedside. I mean, it does have its pros and cons. Pro—working 2 or 3 shifts (days) for 12 hours and then you’re done; the people I work with are amazing. Come—lots of physical demands, 1 hour commute, not knowing what you’re walking into, can be very stressful and chaotic. I thank God for always helping me with my entire shifts (before, during, and after). If not for Him, I don’t think I could survive or handle it on my own. Aside from this, I’ve been looking and applying for jobs closer to home. So far, I’ve had like less than 5 interviews and so many rejections. It’s been making me sad but I remind myself that rejection is just God redirecting me. Praying for a positive outcomes for the other jobs i have yet to hear back from. I guess this is my small little update on work.

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Unhappy.

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No real update..I've been at the same job for over a year now (this September will mark 2 years). I love the people I work with, but I'm over the job--I'm tired of bedside nursing & tired of the 2 hour commute (1 hr to and from).

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I’m not happy at work.

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It’s been awhile..

•I’m almost a year into working at my current job. Who would’ve thought I’d survive?! I’ve been looking into applying at other places because the commute is starting to be too much (actually it’s been a lot for awhile).

•I’m still working out, however, i haven’t worked out since the other day due to being at home with my family and getting sick.

•My faith has gotten stronger; still learning to “let go and let God”.

•I’ve been pretty content, but things could always be better —like getting a new job.

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Long time no post…

lil update

•I started working out last year around October & you could say that’s the start of my fitness journey. It’s been hard and I’m still struggling, but I’m better than when I wasn’t exercising.

•I’m about 5 months into working at my current job. Crazy to me that next month will be 6 months.

•Work has been crazy. I’m moving to a diff unit and I’m sure I’m gonna get floated a lot.

•I’ve been looking for another job bc I’m not happy..

•I’m still trying to figure out what kind of nursing job I want to do.

•Been on the mindset of “Let Go and Let God.” Leaving everything in God’s Hands bc He’s in control.

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been on my own for a few weeks already, & it’s been bearable, but still stressful here and there. my coworkers have been super supportive & helpful so work isn’t too bad in comparison to Vegas.

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i’m already gonna be alone next week. I’m scared af.

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pt: how old are you?

me: 31

pt: no you’re not, seriously? i thought you’re 19 or 20. I’m gonna call you my baby

me: okay, I’m gonna call you mama

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This pt seriously made my day. Whenever I have pts who are super kind and not rude, it makes my job easier. They make me want to be a better nurse.

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pt: how old are you?

me: 31

pt: no you’re not, seriously? i thought you’re 19 or 20. I’m gonna call you my baby

me: okay, I’m gonna call you mama

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Work is bearable but still it’s too much.

I don’t think I can do m/s bedside forever.