dazai osamu

— wake me from this oxidizing world of a dream. they/them, 21yo, alex. bsd side blog. main: @onceandfuturewqrlock

[ningensorrow]

i guess i am doing this?

hello, i am alex and this is my bungou stray dogs side blog.

you can call me alex, lex, sol or however you want to!

i am 21yo and i am an occasional writer.

feel free to hit me up and be friends <3

my main blog is @onceandfuturewarlqck, while my personal/art/archive one is @dragonstrings.

you can check here for my ao3 account, and here for my spotify! here there is also my twitter account, where i am usually screaming about my weekly main interests. for my fics/writing masterpost you can check here.

always feel free to request for headcanons, fics, playlists, to ask me to explain my playlists, or to just dm me, even just vent to me in private!

[onceandfuturewarlqck]

since it is now iwaoi divorce era is it the right time to share my iwaoi long distance relationship playlist?

it has songs like "satellite" by harry styles, "mind over matter" by young the giant, "eleven eleven" by conan gray and "anything" by adrianne lenkar. and much worse.

[hanacassiopeia]

D.Gray-man Chapter 254 Translation

Notes: Million thanks to @konakatomo who helped me start the translation ASAP and proofread/revised everything!

Some parts are directly quoted from previous chapters, translation credits go to @jeidafei

As always, it can be improved, feel free to leave notes !

Lavi: Eh... it's snowing

Bookman: Looks like it

Lavi: Really? I didn't think it would snow around here, there are so many weird things happening lately

Just the other day ! so many flowers bloomed before their season and-

the color of the lake changed overnight and-

the lady from the inn said she harvested sooooo much so she gave us some vegetables and-

Bookman: That was big help.

Lavi: A big help!!

Bookman: Was there a ripple somewhere? Something big enough to have such an impact on the surface...

[or could it be... was the helix...]

[Lavi: Dad]

Bookman: [I can't... Again, it's all I can think about....]

(Says "it" but the kanjis say Helix)

[To think that you have become a part of it...]

Lavi: Gramps, Do you think the snow will pile up ?

[Remembering his son in the silver snow]

THE 254TH NIGHT: IF IT IS INDEED FATE, WE'LL MEET AGAIN SOMEDAY . CONCLUSION

Apocryphos: it's been 2985 days… we've been at a standstill for about 8 years.

What now?

Apocryphos: Is that the host....!?

Apocryphos: What about Bookman Jr....

.... Hope. Struggle

Love. Hatred...

huh? so that's all?

It was a waste of time

after all this effort... let's just kill hi- [!!]

[What...!?]

//ugh

[LAVI: Hope

Struggle. Love. Hatred.

Lives touching lives

Bonds. Convictions passed from one to another

The traces left behind, of a life lived with that heart. That is what makes the helix stronger.

You, all alone, couldn't fathom the bonds between lives, could you ?

You underestimated humans, Apocryphos!

Apocryphos: [what was that, just now

I felt an immeasurable energy

It's the first time that I've felt such Helix energy]

Am "I"… trembling ?

[Does that mean this helix is connected to this little life? This is beyond human level]

[The Helix energy, already powerful in Nea alone, reached a whole different level when it absorbed the life of Bookman Jr.

So the karma of the Bookman clan runs so deep?]

Ah I see, that's right… they were closest to the Heart...

[If this amount of helix energy could be offered to the Heart…]

Since the person connected to this one helix is alive,

The more joy, pain, and sorrow he experiences, the stronger the helix will become.

Energy will be offered to the Heart, through the innocence that has taken possession of his left arm.

This will bring forth the revival quicker than expected

This child will surely become the perfect sacrifice for the Heart

I shall shape him so myself.

[Lavi(?): Allen

From now on, you will go through a great deal of suffering

but

somehow

Please keep on living]

[Please continue your journey]

Allen(crying) (me too): Lavi...

Apocryphos: You will be reborn as an unsightly orphan who has forgotten his own name among everything else after being abandoned by his parents.

Yes…. I'll sell him to a circus

This shall be the tale of one who started from the bottom and went on to become a beautiful sacrificial angel.

Go ahead, live on.

For The sake of the Heart.

[Allen's memory was all true...]

D.Gray-man ----- To be continued.

[onceandfuturewarlqck]

just sliding here my andrew minyard-centric fic dealing with grief and healing i wrote the other day because i recently read all for the game and he has stolen a huge piece of my heart.

there is no more now, no more light, gold and low by starrylance

Summary:

An almost-life was as useless as any what-if, but with its drops still lingering on his lips he pictured a boy with light hair swinging his legs sitting at a table, stomach full, a woman's soft smile directed at him.

not a merlin centric post (sorry folks) but feel free to check it out and reach out to tell me what you think (+ if you have any prompts im willing to write a fic for you)

[lotus-pear]

every time i think abt their canon height difference i want to eat drywall

[renviary]

[renviary]

(figured i should post some of the art i've been doing for bsd whoops)

[renviary]

chuuya "i won't elaborate" nakahara

[renviary]

basorexia (n.) a strong desire or urge to kiss

[ningensorrow]

anyway i made some more bsd playlists

listen to my skk 101 & 109 and sskk 88 & 108 playlists here if you wanna, it features mitski, lana del rey, and overall depression.

more playlists in my spotify profile as well.

[ningensorrow]

can't believe lana del rey wrote born to die for the hit manga bungou stray dogs

[ningensorrow]

dazai this chuuya that and all the vampires what but the real walking dead here is sigma.

[reneray]

(Excerpts taken directly from Dazai, Chuuya, age 15)

[videogamelover99]

"I'm not gonna let a creep like you look inside me."

"What? Oh, come on. Let me have a peek. It sounds fun. I promise I won't show anyone else!"

[petrichara]

Maybe you weren’t a terrible person maybe you were just fifteen

Edit: some of the reblogs are doing my head in. So to put it here again: “I was both” maybe!!! But don’t judge your teenage self against who you are now. You were a child, working with what you had and knew at the time. Of course you would’ve acted before thinking. Of course you yelled and regret it now. Of course you said a few mean things. Hindsight is 20/20. Give yourself some compassion. You were a kid.

[ningensorrow]

[babygirl-dazai]

I like to think this is their dynamic

[bsd-verse]

Just noticed, wasn't this Dazai's pov? Chuuya was literally sparking in his eyes lmao dumb boy with his dumb crush I can't-