The Legend of Jerald

I'm a different person than I was before, I'd actually think I'm much better than I ever was before, though I feel an emptiness. I've lost 100lbs and made myself a promise to stay healthy. Mostly determined to stay healthy and on top of my studies than anything else. I like playing video games also but it's not something I wear on my sleeves anymore. My fitness/health and education are the most important things to me. Feeling a big emptiness in my life, but it is not so much that there is something missing, more like I want something more. I know that in time I'll find what I'm looking for.

[ninjaaaaaa716]

Your Game of Thrones

My game of Thrones

[ninjaaaaaa716]

Thoughts 2.25.19

It's been a while since I've written anything on here let alone sign on to here in a while. But I've decided to take this time to vent. Nothing's changed as I still aimlessly and foolishly chase after this idea of perfection. Believing that only by achieving perfection will I ever be good enough, even for myself. No one really understands and I don't think anyone will. I continue to make jokes knowing people laugh at things I say always help me forget everything I'm not. Trying to push myself to accept myself is difficult. Even with my weight loss progress, and academic progress I still find it hard to "love" myself. While I've never really believed in that concept, just the idea of not hating myself. It gets hard, and all I can do is just smile. I know I'm valued, and I hear people talk about how things are in my absence, but there are still things that keep me from seeing the value in myself. I'm just confused in everything and I just really need time to reflect. Hopefully my vacation to Las Vegas next week will bring me back to a better side of my thoughts and I can believe I'm good enough. But anyways that's all...

[noname12343567-deactivated20260]

LISTEN UP FUCKERS !!!!!

I don’t care who you are BUT this is important so READ!!!!

Tomorrow (saturday 23 February) Mark is gonna be doing a charity livestream to raise money for myfriendsplace, which is a HOMELESS YOUTH organization!!!! The plan is to raise 500.000$ and he won’t stop streaming until he reached his goal!!!

The stream starts at 10am PST and you better spread the news

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EVEN IF YOU CAN’T DONATE!!!!!!!!!!!!! SPREAD THE NEWS!!!!!!!!!!

HELP OUT

You don’t HAVE to donate

BUT you HAVE to spread the news

TELL YOUR SISTER

YOUR BROTHER

GODDAMNIT

TELL YOUR FUCKING GRANDPARENTS ABOUT IT!!!!!!

DON’T FORGET!!! TOMORROW 10AM PST!!!!

SEE YA THERE

[br0ken-and-lost-deactivated2018]

Reblog if you actually give a shit about anyone who’s suicidal or depressed.

No one should scroll past this

[jedifromtheshire]

*cries* I am physically inable to not reblog this

[ninjaaaaaa716]

Me: "Although I may not see it, my friends and family value me.

Also me:

[ninjaaaaaa716]

Early morning thoughts 6-17-17

First time opening up about my depression on here I've been feeling for a while. Reasons and how I'm trying to get better.

Anyhow, I've just been feeling different lately, along with feeling alone, and not worth it anymore. I try to tell myself to be better but I just can't anymore. I'm really trying to focus on things that make me a good person, but I don't feel like I'm a good person. I'm constantly feeling empty, and confused. I try to reach out, not to vent, but to hang out and distract myself. 75% of the time I just feel like I'm bothering people and or burdening them. Half the time I'm also hating myself, for everything I'm not and everything I am. My only source of happiness is getting lost in video games nd working out. I just barely got back into my healthy eating lifestyle and I'm hoping that my body will produce the "mood lifting hormones" so I can at least have my smile back. But it's been too hard lately. And I really am trying to just be happy again. I would try and vent but I don't know how many people would understand and also trying to avoid the cliche reassuring statements that aren't so reassuring anymore. /endrant that's all on my mind right now thanks for reading if you read it all

[almsthr-deactivated20150202]

[hey-i-have-those-pants]

the crossover we all wanted to see

[theanimalmemes]

‘oh’ actually means my heart just got ripped into a million pieces but i won’t tell you because you wouldn’t care how i feel anyway

@sexual-texts (via sexual-texts)

[animalsnaps]

relatable text posts?

[fuckyeaahfunniestposts-deactiva]

[the-absolute-funniest-posts]

Seeing someone’s attention seeking status.

That one ghetto girl that types lyk dis all da tym.

Your crush starts talking to you.

More attention seeking status’s.

Getting a friend request from a 10 year old girl that over edits their photos.

Then finally finding out your crush is in a relationship with somebody.

[memewhore]

[funwithpossums]

bad day to wear this shirt

[ncgh-deactivated20140802]

[the-absolute-funniest-posts]

Thx spanky

[ruthlessrodriguez-deactivated20]

[omg-no-want]

there’s good shit in the world, people.

[ninjaaaaaa716]

Insomniac thoughts... 10/25-10/26

[ninjaaaaaa716]

What it's like.

I start my day with a thought Many times it's the thought of you An endless wonder that it's a lot If you think of me too Just a one glance and I'm lost In the gaze of your eyes and smile Knowing these thoughts come with a cost But I surely hope you'll stay for a while. Days go by and I'm still shy Hoping I keep a straight face You shine brighter than all stars in the sky I always enjoy your presence any time and place. Every day this is what it's like Through out weeks regardless of weather. Starting my day looking at the Suns light Hoping we end up together.

[animalsnaps]

[disneylandcolorsforever]

A Kiss Goodnight - Ashely Brown: To the land of imagination There’s a wonderous magical door No one knows where the door is hidden Yet we’ve all been there before For within every heart lies a secret That reveals a mystery And the secret is this, just a gentle kiss is the key… {Chorus 1} A kiss goodnight Is the door with a dreamland… A kiss goodnight Where the memories begin… Just close your eyes And you’ll see where the fantasies dwell To your surprise, what a fabulous tale they tell {Chorus 2} A kiss goodnight Is a start of a journey To deepen your heart Where your memories shine! Oh the joy In the wonder you feel on a magical flight Begins… with a kiss goodnight! *Instrumental Break* {Chorus 3} A kiss goodnight Is the door with a dreamland… A kiss goodnight Where the memories begin… Just close your eyes And you’ll see where the fantasies dwell To your surprise, what a fabulous tale they tell {Chorus 4} A kiss goodnight Is a start of a journey To deepen your heart Where your memories shine! Oh the joy In the wonder you feel on a magical flight Begins… with a kiss goodnight! It begins… with a kiss goodnight!

Disneyland Forever (via disneylandcolorsforever)