"I tried to be like my mother wanted,like my father wanted. They said that I should be careful. That i have to be a good girl. Its easier that way. I smile. I talk only when i had to. I laugh when i had to. I dissapear when i had to. I studied hard. I know everything the people like. I did. I tried. Even when i felt It wasn't enough. I can see in her face when its not enough"
"I am alone now. I feel alone. I feel empty. I have to be an adult. I have to work. But It doesnt feel right. I dont feel right. I see many different people everyday,happy,sad or angry. They seem different. I dont feel different. I dont feel like i am one of them. ¿Who i am? ¿What i am suppose to feel? ¿What should i do? They like me like this. I don't,maybe."
"¿What should i do? ¿What should i be?"
"Nothing feels real anymore"
-English translation of a fragment in spanish written by Abigaíl. The paper is covered in stains of blood.
Basic information of Abigaíl,my OC. Knowing how much i love changing my characters,i didnt make a full reference sheet. Maybe when i feel more comfortable with her (i am not used to have OCs) and work a little bit more on her story.
All Abigaíl related posts under #thewhitemantisabigail
Corrections and more facts because i was half sleep when i made It and i still think about ideas. (This is like my notebook dont mind the changes and ignore if you want,i have more information in my illustrations and doodles)
*numbness violence and guiltness
-She studied Psychology but doesn't work in that field
-She lived alone while she was in the university,isolating herself. When she finished,her parents thought she should be act like an adult and be indepent,which ended in her spending a lot of time alone. The constant isolation and the lack of a real identity when she was already an adult made her slowly reach insanity.
-Only hobbies at first was reading and listening to instrumental music,but she made an effort to know what was viral so she could please the people who talked to her.
-First kills in Spain (Galicia/. After that she move to the United States trying to runaway from guiltness.
-Works in a clothing store.
-Sometimes she stop eating meat,or eat in general, after some of her attacks. Need to bring vitaminas and protein shakes. Also,she usually need eyes drops.
-Usually avoid mirrors. Doesnt really like to see herself,It confused her,like she doesn't recognize herself.
-Because she tend to keep her emotions to herself, when attacking she became more animalistic and emotional. Its quite common that she dissociate after that.
-Quite low self esteem. Feels useless after years of being infantilized,making her doubt her own acts. While she got used to people do things for her even if she didnt like It,she still feels the same empty spot inside.
-Close to Helen first. They meet after a violent and difficult hunt. She sometimes spend time in his cabin,especially at nights. Helen want to keep her under control for his "masterpiece" and making sure she doesnt starve to death-
-Helen usually keeps her away from the Deep part of the forest so she doesnt meet the other Creepypastas and,specially, Slenderman and his proxies. Of course,this didnt work for long because Brian/Hoodie discovered (and basically record) her.
-Her way of "physical affection" is aggresion,especially bitting due to associate that feeling with the adrenaline of her "attacks"
