NixiaVane

PLEASE I JUST NEED TO BE THIN I CANT STAND BEING A FUCKING PIG ANYMORE

[0rthorexic-daydream]

☆☆☆ O'rexia ☆☆☆

[spxcloud]

fasting distractions

officially an hour into (what will hopefully will be) 72+ hour fast. j writing out thoughts to help my future self ლ(╹◡╹ლ)

clean -- my room has gotten so messy so def first thing i'm doing as soon as i finish exams

homework -- a little behind in one of my classes so tmr or friday i'm gonna try to speedrun & get on top of it

apply to summer jobs -- need an internship SO BAD & i've been slacking w apps. aiming for at least 10, hopefully i'll get in a groove and spam apply

practice interview code -- learned my lessson after bombing my first code interview :( also the site i use makes learning the code fun! kinda want to do free trial & do as many lessons as i can

legos -- i've had a lego set sitting in my room for soooo long that i should build! also maybe i get a big one & lock in

READ -- kinda want to finish acotar since i read the first book over the summer (or maybe go back to my ao3 roots :P )

video games -- lowk want to get stuck in a minecraft hole for these four / five days + i have fun games on my ipad and switch i want to play

WALKKKKK -- rlly want to get at least 10k steps every day. the weather is sooo nice so want to take advantage b4 it gets tooo cold. there's some easy hikes i could do too...

tv -- worst case, i can lay in bed & watch shows & movies to pass time

sleep -- going to sleep at every chance i can!!

i hv tons of tea + gonna get some supplements tmr. i am so locking in & am fs making it to 72 hours. everyone says it gets so easy after that so rlly hoping for 100 - 120 hours. might switch to a liquid fast if water fast gets too hard (*^_^*)

[bl00dtintedk1ss3s]

just found this girl she’s so thinspo

[bajablast12345678]

Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels

(Not my photo!!!)

[xoxomaybeminaxoxo]

I want to look sick

[silkyswan]

[nevlowe]

hi guys i gained so much weight that im scared to go out ive been looking at myself and realising how fat i really look and im terrified

i dont want to starve myself again im tired of being sick but i need to

[alwaystiredsstuff]

Do you wanna look like your abus3r? F@t and d1sgust1ng? You have to be better, th1nner, you'll show them. You'll f0cking show them.

[walkitoff2000]

repeat after me:

BINGEING IS A CHOICE.

NOBODY IS FORCE FEEDING YOU.

DON’T DO IT.

JUST STOP.

[t1ny-b0ness]

I just wanna be skinny

[losingmymindfasterthankcals]

don’t you want to give your body some definition? some meaning? bones tell stories.

[losingmymindfasterthankcals]

summer is coming.. ☀️

[thinneristhewinner4]

“I think u have a ed” god forbid a girl has a hobby

[xcoldhngrytiredx]

Another draft post I have so many idk if some of these are reposts all I do is obsess over myself waiting for smth to look different and it never does

[angelgirlstarvation]

[vmpsin]

ever since I started this I've realized not eating is soo much easier then to stop eating

[torobutill]

i wish i had some more self control i fucking hate myself