Fuck off.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ____________________________ Blog may be triggering. ____________________________ 18. ll Germany. ll Emotionally unstable personality disorder. ll Bulimia. ll Maniac depression. ll Hospitalized 2009 and 2011. ll Freegan. ____________________________ Last binge: 24.06. Last purge: 26.06. Last cut: 10.02. ____________________________ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ function tb8_makeArray(n){this.length = n;return this.length;}tb8_messages = new tb8_makeArray(3);tb8_messages[0] = "FUCK OFF";tb8_messages[1] = "NOBODY WANTS YOU";tb8_messages[2] = "RELAPSING";tb8_rptType = 'infinite';tb8_rptNbr = 5;tb8_speed = 100;tb8_delay = 2000;var tb8_counter=1;var tb8_currMsg=0;var tb8_tekst ="";var tb8_i=0;var tb8_TID = null;function tb8_pisi(){tb8_tekst = tb8_tekst + tb8_messages[tb8_currMsg].substring(tb8_i, tb8_i+1);document.title = tb8_tekst;tb8_sp=tb8_speed;tb8_i++;if (tb8_i==tb8_messages[tb8_currMsg].length){tb8_currMsg++; tb8_i=0; tb8_tekst="";tb8_sp=tb8_delay;}if (tb8_currMsg == tb8_messages.length){if ((tb8_rptType == 'finite') && (tb8_counter==tb8_rptNbr)){clearTimeout(tb8_TID);return;}tb8_counter++;tb8_currMsg = 0;}tb8_TID = setTimeout("tb8_pisi()", tb8_sp);}tb8_pisi()

[nobodywantsyou]

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[spells-of-life]

[nobodywantsyou]

When I turned on my pc today and checked my mails, I saw a mail, that somebody with your name started following me. And damn, it was so hard not to cry.

How is it possible to miss someone so much? It's been such a long time and I'm still dying inside. I can't forget you. And I don't want to forget you - I want to keep our beautiful memories. All the things you told me, all the things you taught me. The wonderful moments we shared. I still think about you every day and it hurts so much. All I want is to hear your voice again. To share time with you. To listen to you, while you play piano for me. I'd do anything to talk to you again.

Will it ever get better?

[lamesderasoir-deactivated201701]

[her-sweet-anatomy]

[alliamgoodatiseating]

[jooolzz]

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[aloneincrimson-deactivated20130]

[nobodywantsyou]

And that's why I love you.

[discolor3d]

[dick-soo]

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[teabythesea]

We are the generation of nostalgia. We grew up in the age of transition. From hand-written letters to electronic mails. From film to digital. We were fascinated by new things, neglecting the way we spend our afternoons. Cupcakes and tea. Play-Doh and Polly Pockets. Young and naive. Technology completely changed the way we waited and we grew up too fast. The simple things in life seem more meaningful now. We grew up in the age of transition and have become the generation of nostalgia.

(via teabythesea)

[nobodywantsyou]

not everyone with an eating disorder: is skinny

not everyone with an eating disorder: goes to hospital

not everyone with an eating disorder: gets diagnosed

not everyone with an eating disorder: is anorexic

not everyone with an eating disorder: goes to therapy

not everyone with an eating disorder: exercises

not everyone with an eating disorder: makes themselves sick

not everyone with an eating disorder: doesn't eat

not everyone with an eating disorder: calorie counts

not everyone with an eating disorder: only eats healthy foods

not everyone with an eating disorder: has fear foods

not everyone with an eating disorder: want to lose weight

not everyone with an eating disorder: is obsessed with being skinny

not everyone with an eating disorder: cries infront of food

not everyone with an eating disorder: is a teenager

not everyone with an eating disorder: is female

[nobodywantsyou]

41 days until my birthday. 36.2 lbs to lose until then. 0.9 lbs per day. Gonna be hard to stay strong, but I will do it. I have to do it.

It's 3 pm right now and I didn't eat yet. Instead, I'll go to my horse now. Riding is the most wonderful way to burn calories.