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22 y.o. irl yandere ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

[noctivienne]

22 years, irl yandere, taken by my beloved jirai onna, she/any, demisexual, mori + goth college student, hearth & manifest witch

witch blog: @vesperynne

rules for interacting ‧ platonic interactions only (i already am with someone). ‧ dndm if you're a minor (public interacts are ok). ‧ dni if you're non-yan or non-jirai. ‧ trigger warning for ff topics... vents, mental illness, sui talk.

if i had a dollar every time i created a vent account on tumblr and deleted it because i regretted it, i wouldn't know how much i had in total because i can't count.

i have decided to call myself novi. i made this account because the urges are urging again ૮ u.u ა i am above twenty years of age, currently in college, and deeply in love with my beloved who is quite literally my only reason to live atm.

‧꒰ა stuff about me... most consistent inconsistent #irlyandere blogger. i've been in this community for more than a decade. it's my entire personality at this point ૮ u.u ა love, love, love intense/obsessive love.

‧꒰ა about beloved... that's what i'll call him here. we're in a yan×yan relationship, but i occasionally feel like i'm more intense than him. we met each other during the lowest moments of our lives; now, we're just trying to get by.

‧꒰ა hobbies... i'm an artist. i got into art school, worked in graphic design, burnt out, and now i'm trying to fall in love with expressing myself again. my reason for creating this account is to have a way to express myself as well.

‧꒰ა spirituality... agnostic. i try to believe in god and have some form of spirituality, but it's really hard. might be because i'm in a rough patch right now </3 i love jungian psychology and humanistic psychology (e.g., maslow, rogers, frankl, may).

tags

#dump.txt (random stuff) #yandereology.txt (yandere studies) #anhedonia.txt (depressive vents) #cartomancy.txt (tarot readings) #questionnaire.txt (asks) #nocturne.txt (long, personal ramblings)

if these fit your vibe, please interact with me! ♥︎ i plan to make more pages about my hobbies (i realized i want to ramble about them, not simply list them).

[noctivienne]

the only time i don't consider someone is truly a yan is when they are obviously a fetishist or if they judge others for their yandere behaviors. if you consider yourself milder or more extreme than average, you're still yan if you identify with it.

[amygdala-decay]

menhera and jirai aren't exactly the same, but I think we should all support and be kind to each other, no matter our subcultures. after all, we all struggle, we're in this together 💜

[obsessivegaze]

Leaving small hints and reminders that I'm constantly stalking you. An "accidental" like on a post. A faint tap on your window. A tracking app that "happened" to appear on your phone after I asked for it. I'm doing it cuz I like you is all <3

[noctivienne]

they'd never understand how devoted i am to you.

[noctivienne]

yanblr is a safe space for yearning, attachment, and obsessions, regardless of its intensity. don't let anyone police you for what you post or label you against your will. in actuality, this is just a place where we relate to each others' pent up thoughts and feelings!

[godbelieves]

i'm violent & sick , eager to dig my teeth into anybody the moment i'm wronged . but , with him . . .

he lets me melt into him ; without him , i would not feel safe enough to relax . my safety , softness , & affection comes easiest while he holds me .

[noctivienne]

Nothing much, just vibing. Hope you're doing well

thank you, i'm trying my best </3

[noctivienne]

she arrived. i love her. looking at her brings me joy.

gardevoir has always been my comfort pokémon since gen 3. yes, i know about the "other things" she's known for </3

very proud of what i have so far :) imperfect, second-hand, damaged cards, but authentic. i don't open packs myself anymore (too expensive, especially when i only want 1 pokémon from them).

※ dni card-grading fanatics.

i got this gardevoir from an individual seller online for crazy cheap price – i think they sell rejected rares (collectors who grade cards do a preliminary scan to see if they'd get at least an 8 before they pay someone to actually grade them). i could sort of see why this one didn't pass the mark, but that's good enough for me~

total cost is php160 (usd2.60)

[noctivienne]

Poke poke

Hi homie

👀 hello homie. what'cha up to?

[noctivienne]

Then it's a good thing that I waited to see if you ate it

noooooooo T^T

[noctivienne]

"you're prolly not yandere because you're not diagnosed with anything." can we not.

[landminegirl-420]

I genuinely hate how people outside of menhera/jiraiblr love to go out of their way to minimize your experiences and feelings just to sound smarter than you.

[noctivienne]

you are a valid yandere even if you want to become less intense. it hurts to be attached to the wrong people, to wait for the replies of someone who'd never respond, to get obsessed with people who'd never reciprocate. you are valid even if you describe yourself to be "softer" or more subdued. you are valid even if you don't want to hurt anymore. you are not out of place.

[noctivienne]

people who can be honest with their own selfishness are so attractive. why hide what you really want? love me. spoil me. give me so much attention. spend money on me. tell me i'm your one and only. write love letters to me. show me your messages. yadda-yadda.

[vesperynne]

hey there, welcome to the other blog of @noctivienne 🖤 allow me to reintroduce myself.

rules for interacting

• dndm if you're a minor (public interacts are ok)

• dni if anti-occult, anti-pagan, religious extremist, and the like

i am an eclectic witch with christian roots, although i have let go of the faith and now leans into agnostic paganism. i've been practising for more or less five years, but i've only decided to call myself a witch only a year ago, when my partner encouraged me to stay true to myself and follow what i feel most connected to.

my practices are eclectic by nature with a primary focus on hearth/kitchen/cottage magick and divination. i feel mostly associated with hellenic deities—mainly asclepius, aphrodite, and hecate.

‧꒰ა some of my interests... tarot, herbalism, dream work, sigils, shadow work, archetypes

as someone in the scientific field (psychology), i also identify as a sass (skeptic, agnostic/atheist, science-seeking) witch. most times, i don't believe due to reasoning; other times, i choose to believe despite reasoning; sometimes, i believe because reasoning is insufficient. i think that basically explains how i gather beliefs.

tags

#shadows.txt (diary and dreams)

#grimoire.txt (spells and such)

#cartomancy.txt (tarot readings)

if you like my vibe, please interact with me 🖤 i'd love to get to know you, let's do long ramblings together!

[noctivienne]

my other account :)

[noctivienne]

I take the cookie and split it in half to share with you 😁😁😁

that's the poisoned one...